mountain sleep

"Do you like me?"

Dongmeng took a few steps forward, Li Chengjin resisted not to back down, he shrugged his shoulders indifferently, raised his hand lightly, and the empty plastic cup was thrown into the trash can.

"Stop being sentimental, you got it wrong."

Li Chengjin's expression was tense, he was afraid that he would show his flaws, so he avoided Dongmeng's staring gaze, picked up the schoolbag on the bench and prepared to leave.

Dongmeng pinched Li Chengjin's arm precisely the moment he passed by.

"If you like girls, treat me like a girl."

Li Chengjin wanted to tell you to stop being funny, but he couldn't say anything to Shang Dongmeng's eyes.The force holding his arm was not heavy, but it made him unable to move.

The entanglement and boredom caused by the search for "self" were all caused by this person, rampaging in his chest.The man who turned his world upside down could easily say things like "You think I'm a girl."

Li Chengjin was expressionless, only his Adam's apple moved up and down to reveal his emotions. He lowered his eyelids and looked at his hands, his voice seemed to be forced out of his throat: "What exactly do you want?"

——And what on earth was I thinking, I actually throbbed because of this ridiculous proposal.

"I'm sorry." Dongmeng's tears fell without warning, but his eyes didn't dodge or avoid, just chasing after Li Chengjin, "I was wrong, I won't lie to you in the future."

He knows very well that the relationship between them cannot be opened without "deception", and he also knows that the chaos he has brought to the other party is extremely abominable, but standing behind this person, listening to his entanglement and hesitation, he can't help it Selfishly trying to get closer again.

Li Chengjin looked into Dongmeng's eyes, and there was unknowing so-called certainty and evasive anxiety in it.They met occasionally in the past two years, and Dong Meng kept his head down and walked quickly. He almost thought that the beginning of Xia was just an empty dream of his.

What the hell is time?Those unbearable emotions two years ago seem to have been diluted a lot.

Li Chengjin retreated, compromised, and surrendered.If this is a battle, he chooses to surrender at this moment.

"...Apologize to me for why you are crying."

He raised his hand and wiped Dongmeng's face indiscriminately, his eyes stopped on his unpainted cheeks, there would be a small depression where his fingers touched, it was the softness he had often imagined at night in the past two years.

Will his life be messed up again?

maybe.

It doesn't hurt to try again.

"Tsk," Li Chengjin avoided Dongmeng's gaze uncomfortably, moved his elbow, and motioned for Dongmeng to let go, "Why are you holding me?"

"...Oh oh." Dongmeng let go of her hand reflexively, not yet recovering from the emotion just now.

Li Chengjin took a few steps forward, and seeing Dongmeng still standing there, he frowned, pretending to be annoyed and said angrily, "Will you go? Don't you want to go to school?"

Dongmeng looked at the impatient look on the other side's side but was waiting for him, and suddenly thought of the snapdragon that had just bloomed at home, curvy and gentle, with a kind of awkward cuteness.

In the evening of summer, the clouds in the sky are oppressive and thick, as if there will be a heavy rain at any time.Yang Yiwen was standing on the balcony with a cup of coffee, and saw the petals of the magnolia tree at the door falling to the ground.

The house has become quite deserted. Sister Zhen said that she has been eating rice very slowly recently.When Xu Zihang was at their house, he could eat two bowls of rice per meal, but the speed was as fast as Yao Ge eating one bowl of rice.

Seeing Chen Siyi today reminded her of many details that she didn't care about before.For example, Yao Ge, who never wants to share with others, can ask Xu Zihang to take the braised pork from his bowl. For example, Xu Zihang will help Yao Ge take away the bowl every time.

Maybe she should have handled this matter in a more gentle way, roundabout, tactful, so that the relationship between her and Yao Ge still had room for maneuver.But when she thought about it carefully, if she did it again, there was a high probability that she would still lose control like this.

She is too flustered.So panicked that he could only use force to control him.

"What should I do, Beibei, it's okay when I practice speaking with you, but when I face the screen, I'm embarrassed, I'm afraid I won't be able to perform on the spot."

"You just treat the screen as me." Yao Ge knew that Xu Zihang started to act like a baby again, and the TOEFL test day was getting closer, and both of them were a little nervous, "I think you have become more fluent these days. The use of transition words is better than before. But we still need to prepare some universal answers that can be applied.”

"I have to write again!" Xu Zihang wailed. The content of the phone call he had with Yao Ge recently was not only to practice oral English, but also to practice oral English. Yao Ge often asked him a question suddenly while chatting, which caused his nerves to be tense even now when chatting. .

Although Xu Zihang didn't want to admit it, but he was really tired of studying, he sighed, a little wronged: "Can we talk about something else, Baby."

"Okay, what do you want to talk about?"

"Um...I don't know."

Xu Zihang really couldn't answer the questions. Recently, his mind was full of anxiety and sense of urgency. The learning tasks in school were getting heavier. Sometimes he could only choose to finish his homework before thinking about TOEFL.His life seems to be a cycle of learning.

Unknowingly, he and Yao Ge haven't talked about each other's lives for a long time, and they rarely spend time on the phone every day, so they can only secretly satisfy their cravings when day and night alternate.

"What have you been doing lately?"

Yao Ge rubbed his sore back molars, and downplayed his life: "I, I don't do anything. I go to school, club rehearsals, and hang out with Lin Jisen on weekends."

Xu Zihang didn't know about his part-time job, and sometimes he used the excuse of going out with Lin Jisen to make vague remarks when he was busy.It's not intentional to hide it, but I just think it's unnecessary to say it, it will only add trouble to Xu Zihang.

Yao Ge occasionally thought of the time when Grandpa Xu Zihang passed away, at that time he asked himself why they didn't let him know anything.Now Yao Ge can more or less understand that mentality, because he is far away, he is afraid that he will be sad, afraid that he will be worried, so he just wants to tell him that everything is fine here.

"... Oh." Hearing the answer, Xu Zihang felt a little lost in his heart. It was probably during this time that he really started to have the concept of "we are far away".His life is so poor that there is nothing to talk about, and Yao Ge's life cannot be participated in. The only words that can be repeated are love and miss you.

"By the way, have you got your monthly exam results yet?"

"Ah, no, it's coming out tomorrow." Every time the topic of chatting turned into study, Xu Zihang lost all interest and his voice lowered, "Oh, Beibei, I'll hang up first, I'm sleepy."

"OK, good night."

After saying goodnight but still keeping his eyes open, the evening wind kept blowing, and the humid air invaded Xu Zihang's heart.He let himself go for a while.

Night always automatically adds background music to bad moods, letting them tap dance freely, click, click, and step on the heart to make people upset.

What if I fail the exam?Do I have to get used to this state forever?During this period of time, when I called Chen Siyi on the phone, I could hear their intention to concentrate on the college entrance examination.In the eyes of others, it is an understatement of "no more than a few years".How many years is that?

Yao Ge closed the lid of the bento after eating, and hurried back to the classroom after washing. He still had a speech for AP geography class that was not ready.Compared with Xu Zihang, Yao Ge is not easy.

He never raised his hand in class before, but now he actively raises his hand to ask questions for the sake of grades.He is used to interacting with people as light as clear water, so he is naturally reluctant to participate in those private dinners outside of class, but in the environment of the United States, which prefers group cooperative education, it is difficult for him to get too much in the group mutual evaluation. High score, so in order to integrate into this environment, he has to work harder than before.

"Yao, we agreed to go to my dad's company for an interview after school tomorrow, and then we'll go play laser shooting together after school."

Yao Ge sighed from the bottom of his heart, but didn't show it on his face, and replied with a smile: "Okay."

At this time, he will feel that it is hard work, which is much harder than the domestic environment where only good academic performance is enough.

There is a photo sticker in the small bag inside the schoolbag, and Yao Ge often looks at it.Soon, as long as you persist, the smirking person in the photo will come to him.

In the office of the second year of high school, Xu Zihang stood in front of the English teacher's desk, asking her to help correct the three essays he wrote this week.

"It's well written, much more coherent than before, and the logic is smooth."

Teacher Wang has always liked Xu Zihang. It should be said that she likes students who ask questions. Xu Zihang has always asked her for extracurricular reading since the first year of high school. He failed in the final exam last semester, and he was also disappointed in his heart. I am getting more motivated, and my English is improving rapidly. I have done well in these monthly exams.

"The place with the red pen is a grammar problem, and there is also a lack of conjunctions. I have marked them all for you." Teacher Wang pondered for a while, "Your character is really good, and you have to practice it. Do you know that you will suffer in the exam?"

Xu Zihang rubbed the back of his head and smiled foolishly, and replied, "Got it." He was secretly happy, but luckily the TOEFL is a computer-based test.

The head teacher sitting opposite the English teacher clasped the stainless steel teacup with his fingers, twirled his tongue over his teeth, and scratched his forehead with few hairs: "Xu Zihang, come out with me."

"Oh." Xu Zihang and Teacher Wang thanked him, took back his exercise book, and followed the head teacher with his hands behind his back.

"Recently the grades are good." The homeroom teacher squinted his eyes and looked at Xu Zihang from top to bottom with his hands behind his back. "I heard that you are going abroad?"

"Yeah." Xu Zihang nodded his head lightly, rolled his eyes in his heart, it's none of your business.

The homeroom teacher pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose. Xu Zihang often ran to the office during this time. Originally, he wanted to use the evidence of his English writing in class to make use of it. Unexpectedly, this kid didn't let him catch a chance.

"We will be in the third year of high school soon. Now that your grades have improved, the teacher is very pleased." The homeroom teacher was quite earnest. In fact, he valued Xu Zihang, "However, many people want to go abroad, or start preparing early, at least in junior high school A good plan, or drop out of school directly and not take the college entrance examination. If you want to take care of both sides, I'm afraid it won't work."

Xu Zihang memorized the words in his mind, and raised his eyes when he heard this sentence: "Why not?"

The homeroom teacher laughed twice when he heard the words, and raised his hand to pat Xu Zihang's arm: "The quality of our school's students is very high, and it's just the school's ranking right now, and it will be the district's ranking when they are in the third year of high school. Every student must do their best. Going forward, since you are studying here, you have to fight for the college entrance examination and win honor for the school! Right? The pressure of the third year of high school is not a joke. The college entrance examination is a lifelong event. If you are not careful, you may have to repeat it. If you think Going abroad, there are plenty of opportunities for university. Or, you should prepare to go abroad wholeheartedly. Right? You can’t have both.”

Xu Zihang understood this.It means to let him concentrate on the college entrance examination and increase the rate of admission, otherwise, persuade him to drop out of school.He raised his hand and rubbed his nose, his expression calmed down.

"I know my own affairs, and I don't need the teacher to bother."

After saying this, Xu Zihang didn't bother to look at him any more, and walked past the class teacher without saying hello.

The homeroom teacher was stunned for a while, and after he realized it, he stretched out his index finger and waved it in the air, pointing at his back and yelling, "You, you, you... I haven't told you to go yet?"

Xu Zihang didn't stop walking, letting the people behind him be furious.He returned to class, threw the composition text on the table, and lay on the table without moving.Seeing his sullen expression, Wang Jun touched his arm: "What's the matter?"

Xu Zihang buried his head in his arms and rubbed his chest. He was filled with anger, but he felt aggrieved when Wang Jun asked him. He cursed in a low voice, "Damn". After finishing sorting out the chemistry test papers with wrong questions, he replied in a low voice: "It's okay."

Bear with it a little longer, and you'll be fine.

Wang Jun turned his head and saw the wetness on his eyelashes, so he could only shut his mouth wisely.

There was a sudden storm outside the window under the clear sky just now, and the students sitting at the window exclaimed one after another, and hurriedly moved the books away and closed the windows.

In the dimly lit classroom, white woven lamps were lit, Xu Zihang took out his mobile phone and clicked on the dialog with Yao Ge, there was a photo sent by Yao Ge on it.

Hey.

He went to play laser shooting with his classmates today.Xu Zihang tapped Yao Ge's face with his fingertips, why do you look so happy, I am too embarrassed to tell you about my unhappiness.