mountain sleep

After Xu Zihang went back, he didn't go back to the dormitory, but ran to the roof of the library building to blow some air.He clicked on the QQ dialog box, typed a few words and deleted them.What Yang Yiwen said today was not serious, but it managed to make him unable to hold his head up.He felt a little embarrassment at the thought of the two of them having fun in the room that night being overheard outside the door. The breathing channel was slowly blocked, making him gradually out of breath.

Did I embarrass my parents?I just like someone, why should I be ashamed of it?How can they say that this is what they like.

"Knock knock."

Zhao Fengnian stood at the door of Yao Ge's room and knocked on the door a few times: "Xiao Ge, are you asleep?"

He stood and waited for a while, but there was no movement inside, so he added: "If you haven't slept, do you mind if Uncle talks to you?"

After a while, the door opened.Yao Ge looked at him expressionlessly with red and swollen eyes, and finally let him into the room.

Zhao Fengnian closed the door casually and sat on the sofa with his elbows on his knees.Yao Ge sat on the chair and painted and drew. After a while, he couldn't hold back his hoarse voice and said, "What do you want to say?"

Zhao Fengnian breathed a sigh of relief and said: "I remember when I first met your mother, she should be in her early thirties. Beautiful girls are not welcome in the workplace. There are many gossips behind your back. You are very capable. If you get promoted quickly, others will say that you got to the top by special means." He narrowed his eyes and recalled, "Your mother was completely unsmiling when she was working, for fear that others would underestimate her because of her looks."

Yao Ge's head was swollen, and he interrupted him irritably: "Uncle Zhao, what exactly do you want to say?"

Zhao Fengnian was not annoyed when he was interrupted, he lowered his head and laughed, and continued: "The first time I saw her smile was when she told her colleagues that her son gave her a carnation on Mother's Day at a party, and she Very happy."

Yao Ge lowered his eyes. He had the impression that it was a school assignment in the fifth grade. Xu Zihang went to buy that carnation with him. Xu Zihang picked the pink one, and he picked the white one.

"You also know that your mother's stomach is not very good. After being discharged from the hospital for a while, her emotions began to be seriously affected again, and she coughed up blood just now." Zhao Fengnian rubbed his face, "So, uncle begging You, can you bear it for a few years? Follow your mother?"

Yao Ge's pen stopped, he resisted not looking at Zhao Fengnian, and insisted on pretending that he was not affected by this passage.

"Little Ge, I don't want to educate you, but Uncle is someone who has experienced it. You are now in adolescence, especially boys, and your hormones are easily secreted, and you can't distinguish between friendship and love. Uncle's former classmates are also related. They wear a pair of pants, and eventually they each start a family. There was no contact."

"Sometimes, separation is not necessarily a bad thing. At your age, it's easy to go astray." After Zhao Fengnian finished speaking, he changed the topic, "Of course, if you really think that you two love each other to death, A few years of separation must not be an obstacle, you should take it as a test, if you really persisted at that time, I believe your mother is not such a stubborn person."

"Think about it carefully, if you keep doing this, it will only make her hate Zihang even more."

Yao Ge didn't respond until Zhao Fengnian went out.

Why should he be told to separate as a test?He doesn't want such a test, okay?

Adults always look down on young people's liking, and it is easy to define what kind of relationship it is.They forget that young people are the most sincere and fragile, and that a separation may be a permanent separation. These inconspicuous emotions in the eyes of adults are pressing on them, and they are clamoring for hardship every minute.

"Xu Zihang," Wang Jun didn't dare to talk to Xu Zihang during this time, he didn't know what happened to Xu Zihang, the whole body was filled with low air pressure, and the face of the person who usually looked joking was particularly scary, she glanced at him cautiously , "Lao Huang told you to go over."

Xu Zihang glanced out the window, and the head teacher stood there with a stinky face waiting for him.

"You won't change after repeated admonitions, Xu Zihang?" As soon as Lao Huang saw him, he tapped Xu Zihang's head hard with the book in his hand, "Where did you go to fool around last night? Ah? Have you read this book or not? Look at your weekly test, I don't even have the nerve to talk about you, it's so horrible! The simple physics questions are left blank for me, and the Chinese is also messed up!"

Xu Zihang didn't speak, and he didn't hide, the book scratched his ear, and it hurt hotly.He stared at his toes. During the physics test, he thought of the way Yao Ge drew the key points in his textbook. When he took the Chinese test, he thought of the way Yao Ge made him recite. His mind was full of Yao Ge, and he read everything when he picked up the pen. do not go in.

"I get angry when I see you like this!" Lao Huang's saliva splashed onto Xu Zihang's clothes, "If you don't want to study, get the hell out of here! Don't make a toast here, don't eat fine wine, and I will find out again If you run away from bed once, don't come!"

The students who seemed to be fighting in the corridors were all paying attention to the movement here with their ears pricked up, and the students who watched the excitement lay on their stomachs at the windows of the class.Xu Zihang numbly endured the baptism of eyes from all sides, with a look of reluctance.

The class bell rescued Xu Zihang, and the head teacher let him go back to the classroom.Wang Jun screamed softly: "Xu Zihang, your ears are bleeding!"

Xu Zihang stretched out his hand to touch his ear, fine numb pain burrowed into his temple along the ear.

Chen Siyi received a call from the teacher in charge and anxiously asked Xu Xingqiang for help: "You said that your son has regressed a lot recently and ran away from bed yesterday. Let us discipline him properly. What do you think is wrong with him? Why don't we go over there?"

When Xu Xingqiang heard it, he comforted her first: "Don't worry, I'll call and ask."

When Xu Zihang was playing ball in the evening, he received a call from Xu Xingqiang, and after listening to his insincere words, he knew that the head teacher had sued his parents.He could keep silent when he was questioned by Yang Yiwen and scolded by the head teacher, but he couldn't bear the suspicion from his parents. Xu Zihang's grievances during this period were all ignited by this phone call. Diu lost his temper at his father very irritably: "Can you stop asking me what's wrong all the time, can you let me be quiet for a while? What's wrong with me failing the exam once? I really..." He said Seeing that Xu Zihang couldn't continue, he wiped his face, paused for a few seconds, then lowered his voice, "I'm really annoying, I'm annoying, do you understand?"

"Okay, okay, don't talk, don't talk." The mobile phone was outside, Chen Siyi and Xu Xingqiang looked at each other, listening to the uncontrollable crying in their son's voice, their hearts were clenched.

Xu Xingqiang coaxed him in a no big deal tone: "It's okay to fail the exam once. If you don't want to study, you can take a rest. It's okay. If you are too tired and want to go home, Dad will come and pick you up, okay?"

Xu Zihang buried his face in his palms, hummed, and calmed down his emotions: "No, it's just that I'm under a lot of pressure recently."

"Hang," Chen Siyi still couldn't hold back and urged, "Second year of high school is really stressful now. Your school must be full of hardworking students. If you are really tired, don't force yourself. Eat what you should eat and sleep what you should sleep, you know?"

"Yes, I see." Xu Zihang tugged at his hair, with an apology in his throat, but still swallowed it down, "It's nothing, I'll adjust it myself."

Comforting his parents, Xiao Wu, who helped him retrieve the ball, stood aside, didn't ask anything, just stretched out his hand to him: "Continue?"

Xu Zihang looked at the hand stretched out in front of his eyes, pressed his fingers on his sore eyes, held Xiao Wu's hand and stood up.

Yao Ge has been grounded for the past few days, once he walked to the door, Aunt Zhen nervously called him to ask where he was going.The anger in his heart was on the verge of eruption, but he could only forcefully extinguish it.Yao Ge has never been unable to study like this, holding a book but not reading it. An English reading has to be read three times to understand the meaning.All day long, he lay prone at the desk, playing rock and roll on the record player that Xu Zihang gave him. The volume was turned up to the maximum, and the deafening noise made the whole family restless.

But this time, even the music couldn't calm him down, and the turbulent waves were about to tear him apart.He admitted that Zhao Fengnian's words worked.

At night, Xu Zihang opened QQ again, and Yao Ge's profile picture was offline all the time, and the spatial dynamics also stayed at a long time ago.

He rubbed his eyes irritably, flipping through the calendar on the desk, the day he crossed on it was just a week away.Xu Zihang crumpled the paper and cursed in his heart, fuck it.Why should I listen to these people's bullshit?They know shit.

In Xu Zihang's friend list, only Orange is Yao Ge's friend, but she doesn't even know where Yao Ge's house is.Orange helped him add Su Songlin. Although he knew that there was little hope, Xu Zihang still asked: "Can you contact Yao Ge? Other than phone and QQ."

"That won't work."

Probably because he was used to being disappointed, Xu Zihang squeezed the space between his brows and slumped on the back of the chair, not surprised at all.In the past few days, he tried his best to find all possible connections with Yao Ge, and even left messages on Yang Xiaoxiao's QQ, but the other party never went online to reply.

I don't know what I'm fighting for, it seems that I want to prove that this time is different from before.

"Do you know any of his classmates and friends in Naicheng?" Su Songlin gave him advice, he knew what it was like to find someone who couldn't be found, "Go and see his school?"

"Okay, let me try."

Lei Zi was the only one who couldn't be contacted, because he had never met him and didn't know his full name, so finding it was like looking for a needle in a haystack.Xu Zihang pulled his mobile phone, clicked into Yao Ge's space to see if there were any clues of other people's comments.Suddenly, a thought flashed through him, and he sat up straight.

Yao Ge told him about the QQ password before.Xu Zihang stood up and walked around in the dormitory, pulling his hair and racking his brains trying to figure out what Yao Ge's password was.Not a number, not a birthday, but the first letter of a line.What were they talking about?

Xu Zihang accidentally kicked the corner of the table and gasped in pain, but under the stimulation of the pain, he suddenly remembered that they were lying together listening to a song that day. When they heard that song, Xu Zihang said it sounded familiar, Yao Ge Kicked him, indicating that he had done the background music of the space, but he was not even familiar with the song.

"Don't Look Backin Anger"

—he remembered.