mountain sleep

Lin Ruiding was awakened by the voices in the living room, he turned over in a daze, picked up his phone and looked at it, it was only [-]:[-].He loosened his hands, put away his PHS, and tried to close his eyes and continue to sleep.But no matter how hard he tried, the sound of his parents' discussions still entered his ears, buzzing, and he could vaguely hear the words "Siyi" and "Zihang".He sat up and rubbed his eyes, then tiptoed to the door of the room to eavesdrop.

"We're coming right now."

Standing in the shadow of the door, Lin Ruiding met her mother who came out of the room with a coat.

"Did it wake you up?" His mother comforted him while putting on her coat anxiously, "Go ahead and sleep, Mom and Dad are going out, Zihang's grandfather has passed away."

Lin Ruiding was stunned, her throat tightened.

"I'll go as well."

"What are you going to do? In the middle of the night, you should sleep well."

The two adults didn't have time to talk to him, so they hastily explained a few words to let Lin Ruiding stay at home.The door slammed shut, and the night became silent again.

Lin Ruiding was wearing thin pajamas and stepped on the ground without shoes, only then did he feel the coolness belatedly.He climbed back into the warm blanket, but couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning.Thinking of the day my grandma passed away, it was so sudden.

Xu Zihang's cell phone vibrated, and Yao Ge in his arms moved first, making a long "Huh?"Without even opening his eyes, Xu Zihang patted Yao Ge's back: "Alarm clock, sleep for another 5 minutes." While talking, he touched the phone and pressed it.

The beeping rhythm on the other end of the phone became shorter, Lin Ruiding took down the phone, and did not hang up again.The flap was opened and closed by him, and he still sent him a text message after hesitation.

There was a "clack" sound for the text message notification, which was especially noticeable at night.Yao Ge stood up first, took a look at his mobile phone, and was in a particularly bad mood after being woken up, his facial features were all wrinkled together: "Who is it?"

Xu Zihang let out a long yawn, then managed to open one eye, and touched the phone.

*How are you?

He stared at the endless sentence on the screen, confused.I took a closer look at the sender, and it was Ading.Yao Ge had already turned on the bedside lamp, leaned over to take a look, and asked puzzledly, "What do you mean?"

"I don't know." Xu Zihang was completely awake at this time, Lin Ruiding would not play pranks on him in the middle of the night, so he sat up cross-legged and dialed back the number.

"...Hello?" Lin Ruiding answered the phone in less than a second, digging nervously on the bed, "Ahang."

"What's wrong?" Xu Zihang dimmed the bedside lamp, patted Yao Ge to signal him to continue sleeping.

As soon as Lin Ruiding heard it, he knew that he was still kept in the dark. For a moment, he was not sure whether he should say it. His tongue was tied up with "I, I..." Come out: "Your grandpa passed away."

If he knew about this but kept it from Xu Zihang, he would be very disturbed.After Lin Ruiding finished speaking, he waited and waited here. He didn't hear Xu Zihang's voice for a long time. He was a little nervous, and comforted him dryly: "Ahang? You, don't be too sad."

Xu Zihang held the phone a little further away from his ears, and the words just rushed into his ears, which made him tremble all over.Yao Ge, who was lying down, sat up, groping for Xu Zihang with his hands from behind to hug him.After a while, Xu Zihang said in a low voice, "...I see."

The phone screen has been black for 5 minutes, Xu Zihang's posture is still motionless, Yao Ge knelt and moved to him, Xu Zihang's head was pressed into his arms by him, and immediately the area became hot and humid.

"...my grandfather passed away."

His hoarse voice scratched Yao Ge's heart.

"I heard."

Xu Zihang, who was very quiet just now, broke free from his embrace, and wiped his eyes with his sleeve: "I want to go home."

Yao Ge pulled him who was about to get out of bed: "Wait a minute. How do you go back? The train back to Chuandao is only at 10 o'clock, and there are no planes in the middle of the night!"

Xu Zihang sniffed and didn't stop pulling on the sweater: "Take a taxi."

Yao Ge pursed his lips tightly, it would take at least six hours to drive from Naicheng to Chuandao, who would want to run.He thought for a while, lifted the quilt, and stepped out of bed first: "I'll go back with you. See if there is a long-distance bus at the train station." While talking, he quickly put on the sweater, stood in front of Xu Zihang, and held his hand face, kissed his red eyes, and comforted him, "Don't panic."

Yao Ge told Xu Zihang to wait for him obediently, he ran to the second floor and knocked on Yang Yiwen's door.

"...What's the matter?" It was Zhao Fengnian who opened the door, and Yang Yiwen asked as she propped herself up sleepily on the bed.

"I want to accompany Xu Zihang back to Chuandao, his grandfather passed away."

"What?" Yang Yiwen lost her sleepiness, put on her nightgown and got out of bed, "How do you go back in the middle of the night?"

"Take a taxi and see..."

"How does this work!"

"Bullshit!"

Yao Ge was interrupted by Yang Yiwen and Zhao Fengnian at the same time before he finished speaking, the two adults frowned and disagreed, Zhao Fengnian made a final decision: "I'll take you there."

Yang Yiwen nodded at the side, wrapped her nightgown: "That's it, you go down to accompany Xiaohang, it will be fine in a few minutes."

Yao Ge nodded, hesitated before going downstairs, turned around and said to the room, "Thank you, Uncle Zhao."

Xu Zihang looked for his mobile phone everywhere, and finally found that it was in his hand.His head was in a mess, and he took his schoolbag and didn't know what to pack.After Yao Ge went downstairs, he pushed him to the side and helped him take out all the heavy textbooks, leaving only a few recitation materials. Although Xu Zihang would definitely not be interested in reading these when he went back, he still took them with him: "You go Put on your socks, and Uncle Zhao will drive us there."

Before making them wait too long, Yang Yiwen and Zhao Fengnian went downstairs.Yang Yiwen stuffed the prepared red envelope into Xu Zihang's hand, and patted his head to express comfort: "This is for mom, auntie."

Xu Zihang lowered his head and couldn't hold back the tears welling up. He didn't want to trouble Yao Ge's family like this in the middle of the night, but he couldn't refuse Zhao Fengnian's kindness to send him back.Xu Zihang squeezed the red envelope in his hand, and slightly bowed to Yang Yiwen and Zhao Fengnian: "Thank you uncle and aunt."

"You're welcome, hurry up, everything is packed? Then let's go." Zhao Fengnian had already warmed up the car upstairs, and now it's just right to set off. "There will be no traffic jams at night, and it will take more than five hours. arrive."

The wind was very strong at night, and I could still hear the whining sound outside the window while sitting in the car.Zhao Fengnian turned on the music and looked at the two children cuddling together from the rearview mirror.

This was the first time Xu Zihang faced the death of someone close to him, and he was not unprepared.Grandpa has been hospitalized for a long time. When he was still in good spirits, he followed his children to choose the cemetery himself.

Xu Zihang leaned against Yao Ge, staring at the mineral water bottle behind the seat in a daze.He knew that his grandpa didn't have many days, but he didn't take good care of him.Even though he went to see it every day during the summer vacation, he subconsciously felt that the days were still very long, and he never really thought that grandpa would really leave.

"My grandpa likes chocolate."

Xu Zihang suddenly spoke up, and there was no more text with just this sentence.Yao Ge lowered his head and glanced at him, as if the words he just said were hallucinations.He let out an "um", not knowing what to say, so he could only clasp his fingers tightly.

If we can predict death, will we cherish the time together?

Many pictures flooded into his mind, those scenes were like faded black and white silent films, he saw himself sitting on his grandfather's shoulders when he was a child, they walked through the muddy alley together, and saw the vegetable field east of Xiaoyun Creek, grandpa was young and vigorous strong back.Frame after frame, stopping on the day they met for the last time, he still remembered the sunshine that afternoon, his grandpa liked to bask in the sun the most, and there was no sun in the ward.When he walked over, as soon as grandpa saw him, the first sentence he asked was "where's the sugar?".

Xu Zihang thought of his grandfather's greedy expression at that time, and the corners of his mouth slightly raised an arc.

If I had known earlier, I would bring him two more.

But the most indispensable thing in life is "if" and "know".

Zhao Fengnian likes old songs, Leslie Cheung sang in his ear in Cantonese: "Countdown with you/Life is good, drunk, dream and death/I can't find a country of eternal life/It's better to hug."

Yao Ge kept holding Xu Zihang's hand vigorously, afraid that hugging at this time would be futile.

Xu Xingqiang and Chen Siyi didn't sleep all night. They were not only busy picking up the old man's body from the hospital, but also contacting the funeral parlor and notifying relatives and friends. It really didn't occur to them to tell Xu Zihang, after all, he was in Naicheng.

When he received Xu Zihang's call, Chen Siyi was working with his aunts to sort out the funeral items for the funeral in three days. When he heard that Xu Zihang was about to arrive at the hospital, he was shocked and asked him to come back to his grandma's house: "I'm already at home, you How do you know? Who sent you here in the middle of the night?"

"...If you don't tell me, I don't care how I know." Xu Zihang was very angry. If A-Ding hadn't told him about this, maybe he wouldn't even be able to see his grandfather for the last time. It's fine if his mother doesn't ask , asking this question revealed that they didn't intend to let themselves know.

Yao Ge saw that Xu Zihang was facing out the window, and the ups and downs of his chest showed that he was very angry, so he leaned over to comfort him in a low voice: "Your parents don't want you to worry, besides, you can't help much."

How could Xu Zihang not know this truth, but he still hated the feeling of being informed by others.He turned his head, with the corners of his mouth hanging down, he squeezed Yao Ge's hand tightly: "I know, but I really, really hate this feeling, like..."

He endured it, glanced at Zhao Fengnian, who was concentrating on driving, and did not continue. He actually thought of Yao Ge's transfer to another school and Tian Fei's incident in elementary school. He had not experienced much regret and grief in his barren life. , but he was kept out of these two things, and experienced how fucked it felt to be delayed, and they all reminded him that "it can't be of much help."

Yao Ge's cell phone vibrated, he took it out and opened it, and the sender of the text message displayed "Xu Zihang".

*If you have anything to do in the future, can you let me know as soon as possible?

When the car drove into Nanbei Road, Yao Ge asked Zhao Fengnian to stop by the side of the road for a while, but Xu Zihang didn't understand, so Yao Ge left a sentence to wait for me, then opened the car door and ran to the supermarket. When he came back, he brought a big box of Ferrero Handed it to Xu Zihang: "Your grandfather must like to eat Ferrero."

Xu Zihang once gave him a box of Ferrero when he was most vulnerable, and he was reluctant to finish it.Yao Ge held Xu Zihang's hand, thinking, I hope that Ferrero, who has comforted me, can make up for your regret a little at this time.

Finally seeing his grandfather lying there quietly, Xu Zihang unexpectedly did not cry.He even smiled and said to Yao Ge: "My grandpa seems to be asleep. He snores loudly when he sleeps, but now he is very quiet."

There were a lot of people coming and going in and out of the house that day. Yao Ge accompanied Xu Zihang and sat in his grandfather's room. Outside, many villagers came to care and greet him. Inside they sat silently, as if divided into two worlds.

The cupboard belonging to grandpa has been removed, most of the things have been sorted out and buried together, and the whole room is empty.It was something prepared, but when it actually happened, the kind of sadness would not be less.

Sunshine came in from the window, Xu Zihang watched the dust flying in the light, and there was an impulse rampaging in his chest, which was as unstoppable as the foam gushing out of a beer bottle.Xu Zihang took Yao Ge's hand, put it on the corner of his mouth, kissed it lightly, and then said to his grandfather, "Grandpa, this is Yao Ge. He is very nice, and even bought you chocolates."

Grandpa still lay motionless and would not respond.

At night Xu Zihang had to watch the night, Yao Ge wanted to accompany him, but he didn't agree, he didn't sleep all night, in such a cold day, if he didn't sleep, he would get sick.Yao Ge originally wanted to say that you are different, but in the end he didn't say it, because if it was his grandparents, he would be the same.

At night, Yao Ge and Zhao Fengnian, who didn't want to disturb any more, went back to their grandparents' house together. They had already called, and the two old people sat in the living room and waited.

"I'm home?"

"We're back."

The first sentence was asked by my grandparents, and the second sentence was said by Zhao Fengnian.Yao Ge bent down and straightened his shoes, his head was patted lightly by the kitten's paw. "We are back", it turns out that he and Zhao Fengnian have also become the "us" that grandparents wait for without knowing it.

It doesn't feel bad.

This is destined to be a sleepless night, Xu Zihang can't sleep, Yao Ge is thinking about his inability to sleep, and another person who tosses and turns insomnia is Yang Yiwen.

Yang Yiwen was lying on the bed, with a dull pain in her temples.She sat up and turned on the bedside lamp, and sat there with her arms folded, not knowing where to start to organize her thoughts.

There was a box of condoms by the bed.Yao Ge's.

Before going upstairs tonight, she passed the door of Yao Ge's room and found that his quilt was unfolded and piled up in a mess. Yang Yiwen hesitated for a moment, and went in to help him fold it. Fold it and put it at the end of the bed.When she was about to go out, she accidentally kicked over the trash can next to the bed, and the condom box fell out.

Yang Yiwen suddenly realized that Yao Ge was already a sophomore in high school and had reached the age where he could use condoms.She has never discussed this matter with Yao Ge, he has always been smart, but Yang Yiwen has never worried about his puppy love, in her heart, even if it is true love is not a big deal, who hasn't experienced the green years.

Recently, Yang Xiaoxiao's puppy love was discovered. My sister-in-law called Yang Yiwen and complained for a long time. She said that Xiaoxiao's grades had fallen sharply recently. Her father was very angry, but he was afraid of stimulating the child's rebellious psychology, so he could only pretend not to know and worried. very.

Yang Yiwen helped her sister-in-law go to the mobile company to print out the call records to see who Yang Xiaoxiao was calling at night.Before I helped, I persuaded my sister-in-law not to check, it is best to make insinuations, otherwise if the child feels distrusted, it will be counterproductive.At that time, my sister-in-law said that she gave birth to a son, so she was naturally not worried. Coupled with Xiaoxiao's previous experience, the parents wanted to be careful in everything.

Yang Yiwen rubbed her swollen eyes, and found that she really didn't have backache while standing and talking.The moment she saw the condom box, she even thought about opening Yao Ge's drawer, but she couldn't open it after several times, only to find that the drawer was locked.At that time, Yang Yiwen was kneeling on the floor and realized for the first time that she was not as enlightened as she imagined.

Who is the other party, does Yao Ge know what he is doing, how he intends to be responsible for other girls, these questions are entangled in Yang Yiwen's heart, and she can't get rid of them no matter what.The box was placed by the bed, and the more she thought about it, the more anxious she became, blaming herself for not observing carefully, blaming herself for not teaching well, blaming Yao Zhencheng for not fulfilling her father's responsibilities.