deep hypnosis

After the phone rang twice, it was picked up, and it was obvious that he had been standing by the phone all the time.

Yi Yang's anger also broke down with the sudden end of the busy tone.He could hear the breathing on the other end, as if it was right next to his ear, that night, pressing him, clamping him, trying to penetrate into his blood and never come out again.The fear of being eroded surrounded Yi Yang, he hid behind the copper and iron walls he worked hard to build, and looked at the thousands of troops preparing to attack the city in the dark night.

The two remained silent for a long time through the phone until Xie Jintian spoke first.His tone was a bit different from the usual style in Yi Yang's memory. I don't know if it was because of the change of tone through the phone, or because the words were really full of frightening softness.

"You must think I'm mean. But I just want to hear your voice."

Yi Yang didn't speak, he overestimated his concentration and didn't want Xie Jintian to get what he wanted.

"It's too late for this call." Xie Jintian didn't seem to mind acting a one-man show, so he just said to himself, "At that time, I just moved home and started tutoring. I was too busy, so I didn't write to you, and I was lazy to make a phone call. Stop it, but I want to know that you are in that situation..."

As a child of a single-parent family, Xie Jintian was determined to fight for the watershed of the college entrance examination and shut up those who make irresponsible remarks.He couldn't get in touch with Yi Yang, so he didn't care too much, he just focused on studying.In his subconscious, Yi Yang is always there waiting for him, not in a hurry.Unexpectedly, when we meet again, Yi Yang has already experienced a catastrophe.

"Why didn't you tell me then?"

Xie Jintian's heart ached when he thought of Yi Yang's calm and breezy appearance when he had lost a lot of weight during the summer vacation.At that time, he was completely immersed in the joy of being admitted to the ideal school, and he had no doubts about Yi Yang's casual saying of "being sick".As if the two had never broken contact, they tacitly mentioned only their vision for the future.At that time, he only had himself in his heart.It would have been better if he had always been the only one.

"I miss you." Hearing that Biduan was still silent, Xie Jintian suddenly felt strongly uneasy.He even imagined that Yi Yang had put the phone down and let him be sentimental.

He suddenly discovered that the gap between them could not be bridged by a phone call.Although he followed Yi Yang every day, watching his every move, it was tantamount to drinking poison to quench his thirst.The madness of that day was inevitable after the embankment broke, and being drunk was just an excuse. He should give Yi Yang an explanation, but he himself didn't know how to explain it.Until this moment, the strong fear of losing made him suddenly realize how to describe this feeling.

"I have been unwilling to admit it, and attribute everything to guilt, but I am becoming more and more unable to keep my promise not to see you. You must have guessed part of what I have done in the past six months, but you will not guess everything, even I I can't think of it myself... I think I'm crazy."

When Xie Jintian said these words, he felt a little more relaxed.He has completely handed over the "handle" to Yi Yang, and he can humiliate him and laugh at him as much as possible, retaliation.

"so what?"

Yi Yang's sudden sentence stunned Xie Jintian who was about to explain a few more words in one go.

"So I should ignore the past and be responsible for your feelings after you suddenly realized?" There was a voice in Yi Yang's body that couldn't be stopped, "Listen, Xie Jintian, I don't regret everything I did before. That's my own choice, I just foolishly hope that I will always be clean and pure in front of you. I never thought of disturbing your life, but you came to ruin my feelings. You think you revenged them for me Is it to compensate me? You should know better than me that some things are over and they will never be undone. Now, I just hope that you keep your promise and don't appear in front of me again... Thank you for replacing me last time I made a rescue, but I would rather never have any contact with you again."

After finishing speaking in one breath, Yi Yang hung up the phone.His cheeks were hot and his heart was beating deafeningly.During the ten or so seconds when the blood was surging, the heart sank in the opposite direction, and a long and suffocating blank was opened, and I didn't know what to fill.Anger was an emotion that was too foreign to him.He always suppressed himself, fearing that they would rampage and ruin everything he had worked so hard for.But now he doesn't want to bear it anymore, he hates Xie Jintian's endless erosion of his life, but what he hates even more is himself who still has no affection for him.As soon as this man is involved, he will be beaten back to his original form, and memories will emerge like a spring, drowning those determinations to change that have finally sprouted in a pool of stagnant water.

The palm of his hand suddenly felt cold, and when he lowered his head, it was the sheriff's little pink tongue licking the back of his hand.Even it could see his gaffe.

Occasionally, there are three or three couples passing by talking and laughing loudly, drinking too much, and sticking out their tongues.The sound of the TV next door suddenly became louder, an unforgettable song tonight, seeped in together with the chill.The phone vibrated non-stop, it was midnight, and it was all text messages for New Year greetings.In the circle of friends, self-deceiving words such as "a new year and a new beginning" began to spread again.

Year after year, day after day.However, Cai Cai's anger seemed to have torn a hole, and Yi Yang saw another possibility.He suddenly remembered Yu Qian's words before he left. Maybe it was because he was not honest enough with himself that he desperately pursued external changes but always felt that he was scratching the surface.Filling all the gaps in life, I only feel crowded, but not satisfied.But what if he tried to get the beast out?Like tonight, what if he allowed himself to be who he really was, even if he couldn't accept it, and was willing to bear all the consequences?

Yi Yang touched the head of the "sheriff" and got up to wipe off the moisture on the window. The winter night was still heavy, but there was a light spot in his heart, which flew out happily, flickering in mid-air , blinking narrowly at him.

"How's the new year going?" Xiao Mu asked Yi Yang who was carrying a pile of ingredients when he raised the shutter door with a red face.

"Single dog, how can you live?" He said and glanced at Cheng Yan who was swiping red envelopes with his mobile phone.

Cheng Yan was wearing a red scarf, his chin was buried in it, his cheeks were flushed from the cold, and he followed the tall Xiao Mu like a young daughter-in-law who had just passed through the door.Hearing Yi Yang's words, he was taken aback for a while, and slowly raised his head to look at it.

"What?" Yi Yang put away the bag and sorted the ingredients into the refrigerator, and when he turned around, he saw Cheng Yan staring at him.

"It's nothing." Cheng Yan turned on the air conditioner and hurried over to help, "You used to be... no kidding."

They seldom tease Yi Yang, afraid that he would think too much and take it seriously, but now Yi Yang has learned to laugh at himself, which is really puzzling.And when he came back this time, his whole feeling was different, he no longer had that kind of careful politeness with them, and finally he had some unscrupulousness that should be among "fellow friends".

"I figured out some things." Yi Yang leaned over and took out a transportation card to hang up some accumulated frost, and didn't want to explain too much, "By the way, give me the phone number. I was allowed to go to the vegetable market just now."

"Ah? No wonder the phone is turned off when I call you." Cheng Yangang forgot to ask about it, "Have you bought a new one?"

"Well, it will be the next year." Yi Yang is not obsessed with these electronic products, so he just bought a domestic machine online, but the logistics for the New Year's Eve will not be up soon.

Xiao Mu was cleaning the windows, mopping the floor, and setting the tables with the new shop assistant who came in a hurry. He didn't pay attention to what the two of them said. He was so busy that he stretched his neck to Cheng Yan, and Cheng Yan immediately gave him a tissue. Shit, by the way, tell him to remember to find out the idle mobile phone at home, and borrow Yi Yang to use it for two days first.

On the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, the God of Wealth is welcomed, and business is booming.It's just that among the guests who came, it was not uncommon to see Yi Yang looking a little Yi Yang, and even whispering.Yi Yang didn't care about it at all, and sometimes even went over to tease himself with regular customers.Seeing that he was so generous, everyone let go, and even some who admired him came to comfort him. Yi Yang accepted all these good intentions. These people are just passers-by in his life, what if he holds it today and steps on it tomorrow?There are not many worthy of his attention.Therefore, since that statement, he has not paid attention to the comments on the Internet.

After a busy day, Yi Yang asked Cheng Yan and Xiao Mu to go to relatives' house to pick up the children first, and stayed by himself until the end.

Yuelang Xingshuo sent the cook away, packed some light meals and planned to go back to feed the sheriff.

As I locked the shutters, I caught a glimpse of a cigarette butt falling from the shadow of the truck, like a fleeting spark.

When you don't see it, go on your own.The bag he was carrying rubbed against the down jacket from time to time, making rustling noises, like a rattlesnake coiled around his body, accompanied by the sound of footsteps that were not far or near, but he couldn't get rid of it.

Red light, stop, footsteps are gone.I can't feel his existence, but it seems to be completely melted into the night, rushing from all directions.

He couldn't listen to his words, just like he couldn't listen to his own advice back then.Now, the position is reversed, while being angry and sighing, it is false to say that there is no pleasure in revenge, but how much does this kind of feeling overlap with the feeling he had for him back then?It's just guilt, it's just unwillingness, it's just to move him.

Suddenly the green light jumped, Yi Yang walked forward without thinking, faster and faster, and plunged into the small road leading to the community.This small road and the back doors of the shops are piled up with a lot of sundries, and there are always some greasy marks on the ground, there are not many street lights, and few people pass by.

Yi Yang just walked with his head down, it was too late when he noticed a shadow rushing towards him from behind.

A cold light flashed in the dimness, and I couldn't see what it was, so I passed by with the wrong sleeve.

"Tong!" With a sound, the man wearing the mask was kicked to the ground, but his penis was held in Xie Jintian's hands, blood was dripping between his fingers.