deep hypnosis

Thousands of entries were swiped in the group, and they flew past his eyes quickly, like scattered butterflies. All Yi Yang could catch were phrases such as "Jingfen", "Liar", and "Jingwei Center".The group was divided into two factions, one faction already believed the evidence and angrily accused Yi Yang of being sanctimonious, while the other faction firmly believed that all this was a well-planned conspiracy to suppress, but in the end, they all attacked Yi Yang and asked him to Come out and explain.

It took Yi Yang a few times to click on the picture that kept swiping the screen as evidence, and it was zoomed in. It was a picture of him being cut backwards and pressed to the ground through the crowd wrapped in layers.That distorted face seemed not to be him, but at the same time seemed to be the real him.Yi Yang stared at it for a long time, until Xia Xue, who called him several times but got no response, walked around him.

Xia Xuezai also saw the photo, but she couldn't connect the person in the photo with Yi Yang.Yi Yang is always quiet and introverted on weekdays, and he has never seen any exaggerated expressions on his face, but the primitive, beastly, and terrifying appearance in this photo is creepy.

It wasn't until the phone automatically locked the screen, and the palm-sized piece turned into icy black, that the face reflected in the darkness whispered: "When you get sick."

It was only then that Xia Xue remembered that Yi Yang had said that there was a family inheritance when she asked her about the surveillance video before, and she felt distressed before she digested this fact.

What happened to Yi Yang in the corner she couldn't see?Why is she ignorant?Even if she is not considered a relative or friend, at least she really cares about Yi Yang.

"what happened?"

Yi Yang put the dead cold cell phone back on the table, like a ritual of burial.The coffee was already very cold, but when it entered his throat, it was more contrasting with the scorching hotness in his body, as if he was being placed on the stove and slowly frying.

"I had an attack, this time it's a relapse, and I have to take medicine for life."

"When did it happen?" These few words were mentioned in one stroke, lightly and cleverly, but they couldn't hide the despair in their eyes.

Only then did Yi Yang tell Xia Xue exactly what happened after going to Hangzhou.It's ironic to say that what he wanted to tell her just now is in a completely different state of mind.

Xia Xue listened to those plain and straightforward narrations, and the more she listened, the more frightened she became. She didn't know that so many things happened after the last time we parted.Perhaps as early as when Yi Yang met Xie Jintian, she was doomed to be a catastrophe. She felt the same, but couldn't find words of comfort for a while.

"I'm sorry... I don't even know..." If she had come to Yi Yang earlier, perhaps he would have been able to get some comfort when he was in the most pain.

"I don't want you to know." Yi Yang always feels that Xia Xue's thoughtfulness makes him more sad than the matter itself. Some things can be handled by gritting his teeth alone, but once someone treats him gently, it will not stop. Hold back the tears.He didn't want Xia Xue to see the side of him that he couldn't control himself, he wanted to do what they agreed - to leave more thoroughly, and then return more thoroughly.

But he neither left completely nor came back completely.

Some stayed in the cell-like ward, some stayed in the snooping camera, and the rest floated in mid-air and watched his plight with cold eyes.

"Then what happened afterwards? Did Xie Jintian look for you?"

"He made an agreement with Fan Yizhou that he would never appear in front of me again." Yi Yang didn't want to talk about Xie Jintian very much, but it was ironic that he and Xia Xue had the biggest intersection with this man, "And..."

"And what?" To be honest, Xia Xue was very surprised by Xie Jintian's decision to make such a decision. How could a person like him who lives his own life ever consider issues from the perspective of others?She was always suspicious.

Yi Yang hesitated for a moment before telling all about Xie Jintian possibly taking revenge on those people for him.

Xia Xue was stunned for a long time before digesting the information.If Yi Yang hadn't told the reason for his inference, she would never have believed that Xie Jintian would have planned a revenge scene for someone.She always felt that Xie Jintian like this was very strange, as strange as the man who taunted her to get out of the way in the pavilion that day.What exactly was Xie Jintian thinking?Or, even he himself didn't understand what he was thinking?

It is always the most difficult for people to understand themselves, because the motivation hidden under the iceberg can subvert the calm of the entire sea.

The two were silent for a while, before Xia Xue said: "I really didn't expect..."

Yi Yangshi didn't want to continue talking about Xie Jintian, but if he changed the topic abruptly like this, it would seem that he cared a lot.Fortunately, Xia Xue took him one step ahead of him and brought the focus of the discussion to the present.

"Then what to do next? Do you want to clarify?"

"What they said is the truth." Yi Yang looked at the mobile phone on the table and said, "Besides, this is just a false name."

Xia Xue originally wanted to say that it was enough for the people who really cared about him to understand him, but then he thought about it, how many of the people Yi Yang cared about stood by him and put themselves in his shoes, and his mother didn't even care about him. He is such a character who is used to suppressing himself to be considerate of others, so he won't complain easily.

"Sister Xia Xue, don't comfort me." Yi Yang seemed to see through Xia Xue's thoughts, and suddenly said, "After going through all this, I still have some changes, at least my skin is thicker."

Xia Xue froze for a moment before realizing that Yi Yang was teasing himself.Yi Yang never joked. He was always too serious in doing things, so that sometimes he needed to be more careful when talking to him, lest he take it seriously, but now it seems to be completely different.

"I won't run away any more."

Xie Jintian hated this group of people.It is these faces, who blindly pursue Yi Yang without knowing him at all, and come all the way just to say a word to him and take a picture with him, but in an instant, with just a photo, he is taken without hesitation. Throwing from the top, denouncing and swearing, I can't wait to add a few more kicks to draw a clear line.

He couldn't imagine what Yi Yang would think when he saw these remarks, how could those lunatics who broke Yi Yang's peaceful life care?He Xie Jintian worked so hard to keep his promise, just so that Yi Yang could live the life he wanted, but everything fell short overnight.Xie Jintian also tried to use a few trumpets to upload long pictures made of refuting texts, but these were quickly drowned in overwhelming voices of doubt.

Xie Jintian also knows that in this era of cyber violence where public opinion is easily swayed, it is impossible to reverse the direction of the matter with his meager strength, but he can't just let it go.I was upset all night, and when it was midnight, I suddenly saw a fire in the fan group.Clicking on the link that kept swiping the screen, it turned out to be a video recorded by Yi Yang himself.

Yi Yang apparently recorded it at home with the camera that came with his computer. Because of the low resolution, his handsome face was somewhat blurred, as if disintegrating into the network of so many people, it seemed unreal.Yet his words were so clear and penetrating.

"The person in the picture is indeed me. I was hospitalized last year for a relapse of schizophrenia, and this is the scene at that time."

Yi Yang's eyes are looking directly at the camera, but it seems that he is looking through the screen at every pair of eyes trying to spy on *.

"I was also depressed because it was like a ghost, hiding in the dark and waiting for an opportunity. As long as I relax a little, he will occupy my consciousness. I have been trying to separate it, or deny its existence, which makes me Exhausted. Until I was pushed to the public by my friends and discovered more possibilities through the Internet. It turns out that I can also talk freely and generously. This is very strange to me, and I am very happy. Gradually, I have The courage to talk to another self, I try to face him, to accept him, to admit that he is a part of me. I tell myself that this is a piece of my life that I can't make up for, but it's not my fault. Maybe because I no longer run away, but I am much more relaxed. I no longer worry about gains and losses, and I am no longer timid. I am mentally prepared for everything today, and I have not deliberately concealed anything. After all, this is my desire. I think that many people will end up I didn't know what I wanted all my life. It's easy to be honest with others, but it's hard to be honest with myself. I'm glad that those experiences that I wanted to forget once gave me the armor that can be my own. Your support is important, but I I don’t need to define my life by what other people say. From now on, I will be the same person, and no one should apologize for it.”

Xie Jintian paused several times before watching this short two-minute video. Every word and every sentence seemed to hit his heart, full of echoes, and it was hard to tell whether it was a heartbeat or a rampant emotion.After reading it, he couldn't calm down for a long time, he was a little relieved and a little regretful.What's relieved is that Yi Yang seems to have quietly grown into an invincible appearance in a corner he can't see. Unfortunately, he seems to have no excuse to protect him and protect him.

Xie Jintian stretched out his finger and touched Yi Yang Dingge's face on the screen.The magnified face turned into tiny particles, and he wished he could collect them all and put them in his heart, instead of floating in the void for others to comment on.He desperately wanted to see Yi Yang, wanted to confirm a certain connection, wanted to tell him what kind of state of mind he had been watching him step by step for the past six months, but he couldn't.

Xie Jintian felt that his body was heavy, something kept falling, pierced through his body and fell down, croaked to the ground.

When Xie Jintian came back to his senses, he had already recorded a video with the camera, and he posted it on his Weibo without watching it, then closed the computer, took the car keys and went out.

Shanghai is still lively at night, the city that never sleeps, the people who never sleep, every pair of eyes has a story, but few people listen to it.

Xie Jintian opened the window of the car to let the cold wind blow in. Originally, he wanted to wake himself up, but for some reason, the wind passing through the feasting and feasting made him intoxicated instead.

Xie Jintian parked the car downstairs of Yi Yang's rented house, and looked at the window that was still lit from the corner.

He brought wine, he rarely drank in the past, fearing that he would be sober and miss something, but at this moment he hoped that he would get drunk and get an excuse to indulge himself.

With drunken eyes, he seemed to see a familiar silhouette reflected on the window, and the person kissing Yi Yang was himself.