deep hypnosis

When Yi Yang was insane, it wasn't Xie Yu that he picked up the knife to pierce, but all the malice that deceived him, fooled him, and hurt him.He wanted to use this extreme method, but in the end this absurdity made him despise everything, even his own life.His docile appearance is just because he has compressed the ruthlessness accumulated over the years into a corner of his subconscious that is invisible to the eye. Once triggered, the force of the rebound is overwhelming, burning his reason and piercing his soul, making him unable to turn back. .

He had to face up to the catastrophe in his heart. If he could be more calm with himself, maybe this was an opportunity to be reborn from the ashes.Just now, what he wanted to do to Yu Qian was to fight back in self-defense after being hurt, but all of this suddenly ended with Yu Qian's words.

Yi Yang began to wonder if someone was directing his life, or if there were some gods in the dark, otherwise, how would he explain the continuous "compensation", all of which seemed to be practicing the existence of good and evil? The reincarnation of heaven.

His anger was frozen for a moment, and he could even see the sharp edge.

"Xie Yu and I have known each other since we jumped in the queue and settled down, and we have kept in touch since we came back from abroad. Back then, I was the one who hypnotized Jin Tian for him, making Jin Tian forget what his father did to you." Yu Qian wrapped the scarf tightly and said, "It's not that I haven't struggled before, but in the end I still wanted to cover up for him, and I warned him not to do it again, and the matter passed, until I met you again in college...you Sensitive, conservative, suspicious, and depressed every day, I found out that you have been to the hospital and prescribed medicine, and I always feel that I should take some responsibility for you becoming like this. When I approach you, it is more of a hug The idea of ​​redemption. When Xie Yu knew that I was a visiting professor at your school, he asked me to care about you and explain you. He said that he also regretted what he did back then, but he didn't know how to make it up. I can know how you are doing."

As expected of a professor in the field of psychology, when the established ugliness came into his mouth, it was so calm that it was difficult to delve into it.

"So, this is why you have betrayed me for so many years?" Yi Yang, who had calmed down a little, became angry again because of these words. He took a deep breath but his voice was still trembling: "If you really do it for me If you think about it, you won’t tell me about your illness at this time. After all, you’ve got it right. I won’t argue with a dying person. What do you want me to say? Forgive you? Let you leave peacefully? You and Xie Yu is really a bird of a feather. But I'm sorry, the weak Yi Yang in the past died when he wanted to die with you. Now that I'm alive, I can't live in vain."

Yi Yang said these words holding his breath. In fact, he is not as handsome as he portrayed. It’s okay if he doesn’t pay attention, but every time he wants to break free, he will clearly feel the constraints that bind his hands and feet. Shackles, they controlled his words and deeds, which made him regret from time to time, and always felt that everything now was not what he wanted.

But Yu Qian smiled suddenly: "It's a little gratifying to see you angry. Those words just now were actually said on purpose. I'm going back to Xi'an tomorrow, and I'm a little worried about you. Suppress yourself. It is very difficult to be consistent with the body and mind, and insincere words may be the root of all diseases."

Yi Yang was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect this was Yu Qian's original intention.

"I have nothing to defend myself. I have been contradictory for many years. I really regret seeing you collapse that day." Yu Qian looked at Yi Yang's face through the lens, "Fortunately, I also It deserves the crime.”

After saying this, Yu Qian wrapped up his somewhat pilled woolen coat, and left without looking back.

His legs and feet are already a little unsteady, but his back is still straight.In this way, he staggered out of the street, out of Yi Yang's sight, out of Yi Yang's life.

Yi Yang's tears came down suddenly.For a long time, he really treated Yu Qian as half of his father, respected him, and relied on him, that's why he hated his deception so much.He couldn't bear to see him leave in such a lonely posture, but he couldn't forgive what he had done either.

Yu Qian once talked to him about existentialism, saying that there are many unavoidable injuries and pains in life, but as long as they exist, they have the meaning of existence. Every time you persist, every time you endure, every time you heal yourself, you will grow up.But, why didn't anyone tell him that sometimes he can let go of his feelings and indulge in them without persisting, forbearance, or self-healing?

At this moment, what he needs is the silence that is always by his side, not standing on the cliff and shouting from the air.

He looked up at the sky, gray and lifeless.He took out the key and opened the door, not paying attention to the sight behind him.

After a period of time, the weather became colder and colder, and Yi Yang lived a two-point and one-line life every day, which was very simple but satisfying.No one mentioned the past people and things in front of him anymore, this cleanliness made everything in the past seem very far away, only occasionally, those faces would flash back, which left him with lingering fear.

The turnover of the restaurant has been increasing steadily. Yi Yang Siwen, Xiao Mu are hearty, and Cheng Yan is gentle. The temperament and image of the three are also bonus points. In addition, there is a cute Xiao Ran who wears a small apron from time to time to help. Soon, this good-looking restaurant was posted by many girls on Moments and the Internet, and many customers who came here attracted by the name became repeat customers after tasting the dishes.The colder the weather, the more prosperous the business. After discussing, the three hired two more chefs, both of whom Cheng Yan knew. They were good cooks and down-to-earth.In this way, Yi Yang can spare time to develop some new dishes with Cheng Yan, and also registers a public account, regularly pushes new menus on WeChat, and then popularizes the cultural history related to dishes.

This writing made them even more popular, and the number of fans on WeChat was soaring every day, and some people even began to invite them to appear on popular self-media programs on the Internet.Yi Yang was afraid of such an occasion, but Cheng Yan and Xiao Mu insisted on dragging him along.

"What's the matter? You can't see the audience, so you can just tell yourself."

After Yi Yang went there, he found out that he was able to chat with the other party. The boy who worked on the self-media was a post-[-]s generation with a lot of family background, named Hu Xinwei.He is outspoken and enthusiastic. They have a small team, and they usually make small videos about social hotspots once a week, which is quite popular.

After chatting about ideas, it was decided to record a video in which Xiao Mu was responsible for introducing the healthy concept of diet and exercise, Cheng Yan introduced what dishes similar to those in the restaurant could be cooked when he was alone, and Yi Yang introduced the culture and history behind each dish.For the things he really loves, Yi Yang is not so restrained once he gets into the mood. When he saw the edited program, Yi Yang couldn't believe that the person who talked so eloquently was himself.

"It feels completely different from usual!" Xiao Mu looked at the video and then at Yi Yang.

To be honest, half of the work they blocked was to draw out Yi Yang, who was always two points and one line, to socialize, but he didn't expect the effect to be so good.

"Then give 'Teacher Yi' more drama?" Cheng Yan joked, using the fans' name for Yi Yang.

"Okay, okay! No problem!" Hu Xinwei immediately made a decision.

In this way, the three of them ignored Yi Yang's objections, and happily added a live broadcast of his personal question and answer at the end of the next video as an easter egg.The questions asked are actually very simple, and they are all chosen from the bullet screens sent by the audience in real time. For example, what color do you like, what type of music do you like, and what kind of food do you like, Yi Yang answered them truthfully.

When asked about hobbies, Yi Yang said that he likes to make architectural models, especially gardens, but when the host asked if he could show them in the next program, he said with a dark expression: "I gave them away."

The host was obviously a little embarrassed, so he had to ask where the tour had been. Yi Yang responded with a few words, but was asked who he went with.

Yi Yang just faced the camera and paused for a few seconds. During those few seconds, his eyes seemed to be emptied, but they were immediately filled with emotions beyond words. Then he lowered his head, concealed everything, and only said lightly :"Can not remember."

Hu Xinwei immediately took advantage of Yi Yang's inattention and gave the host a gesture, and the host justified himself and ended in a hurry.

The car that Xiao Mu bought with a loan had just received a license plate today, and they happily drove back together in the new car, but unexpectedly, Yi Yang didn't say much all the way when it came out like this.he is not

Depressed because he touched a topic he didn't want to mention, but he felt guilty for screwing up the live broadcast. If he could be more mature, accidental, and tactful, maybe he would just slap the camera A harmless lie can easily take everything away.He originally wanted to apologize to Xiao Mu and Cheng Yan, but he apologized too many times, and he seemed to return to the previous state. He always blamed himself, and his friends tried their best to comfort him. Everyone will feel very frustrated, Yi Yang is very aware of this, so he didn't apologize, but wanted to gradually fade this matter through deliberate ignorance.

To Yi Yang's surprise, the answer he regarded as a "bad cover-up" before gave him the label of "a person with a story" and was sought after and gossiped by netizens.Some said that he was naturally sentimental, some said that he must have a bumpy road in love, and the few who questioned his hype were immediately silenced. Even because of this "fight", his fan club was officially established. Calling himself "Yi Mi", he also started a topic on Weibo to get popular.

"Okay, here! Those who don't know really think we have invested money!" Hu Xinwei is really happy that netizens are so pursuing Yi Yang, and he doesn't care about Cheng Yan who is pouting at him, and said cheerfully, "Just use this Put more energy into the show!"

Yi Yang, however, felt a little confused when he suddenly became an "Internet celebrity". After thinking about it for a while, he said euphemistically, "But they don't know me..."

"It's because I don't understand that I'm obsessed with it!" Hu Xinwei said bluntly, "Otherwise, why do we need to package it? Everyone shows the true self, kindness is kindness, but there is no sense of mystery. Sometimes what netizens want is admiration And the object of pursuit is not you, it will be someone else, why should you be polite?"

However, if you say you like it or say you are attached to someone who doesn't know you well, is this feeling too illusory?

Or maybe he himself is old-fashioned, and he regards feelings as too precious and heavy, and once he utters them, he becomes a dry wood and a bird's habitat, and it becomes eternal.