deep hypnosis

It turned out that the gray-haired professor I ran into at the entrance of the Jingwei Center was Yu Qian.

Yu Qian's identity is not difficult to find out. He and Xie Yu used to be classmates.He was the one who helped Xie Yu hypnotize Xie Jintian who ran into his father's scandal, and later became a visiting professor at Yiyang University by coincidence, approaching him and becoming his spiritual support.

In this way, everything can be explained.

Xie Jintian sneered and hung up the phone. He really underestimated Xie Yu who was far away overseas but still "silently caring" about him and Yi Yang.

It was clearly a crisp autumn morning, but anger swept Xie Jintian's mind like a violent storm.Unable to think calmly, he took the key and went out.

It's just that Xie Jintian, who had taken annual leave, forgot that this was the morning rush hour on weekdays, and he was stuck at a crossroad as soon as he left the community.It is obviously whimsical to use the stimulation of speed to vent emotions.Xie Jin slammed his fist on the steering wheel in annoyance, and the rapid horn sounded like mourning.Xie Jintian looked at his distorted face from the rearview mirror. In Yi Yang's eyes, what did he look like?Is Yi Yang afraid of him, or Xie Yu?Or maybe there was no difference between them, they were all ghosts who drove Yi Yang into a corner and lost all hope.

The stagnant emotions are like slowly creeping traffic, blocking people's hearts.After moving to the elevated road, it became smoother, but Xie Jintian didn't know where to go.Once upon a time, he looked down on people who were controlled by emotions the most, but now he realized that when faced with the possibility of loss, how many people can take it calmly?What he lost was the moral high ground he thought he occupied, the indestructible armor called "no regrets".

The body seems to have its own consciousness, controlling the steering wheel and walking on a gradually familiar road. When Xie Jintian was blocked by a red light, he realized that he had arrived near the former elementary school. When he turned around, he saw Xia Xue said that it was about to be demolished. that pavilion.

Xie Jintian never came before, because this place was also a trauma for him.It was here that Xia Xue exposed his lies, and it was here that Yi Yang returned the iron box and said that he would settle the matter with him.If feelings are a battle that will eventually be won or lost, then here is his Waterloo.It's just that he didn't expect to go around and come here anyway, it was like a trick from somewhere, forcing him to perform a shameless introspection.

Xie Jintian didn't want to argue with his heart anymore, he walked towards the pavilion obediently.

The dry pond exposed a pair of broken landscape lights, like Yi Yang's eyes on that day.

If it weren't for the despair brewed by the long-suppressed grief and anger, how could he collapse the moment he saw Xie Yu? Yu Qian is his last spiritual support, but even he lied to him and lured him to cooperate in a deception Forgiveness and redemption.I'm afraid Yi Yang didn't really want to stab Xie Yu when he grabbed the table knife, but more because he wanted to destroy himself and die with all this dirty thing, right?

Xie Jintian sat in the pavilion, staring blankly at the children carrying schoolbags entering the school one after another not far away. They were as cheerful as chicks, and they couldn't wait to get away from those nagging children before they learned to fly. nagging asylum.Parents who send their children off always watch their children disappear in the teaching building before turning around and leaving. Those lonely backs are also aspirational.

Maybe what he and Yi Yang have longed for all this time are these ordinary and trivial happiness?But time cannot be reversed, the lack of the original family makes them always have a sense of deprivation that cannot be dispelled, but Xie Jintian chooses to desperately fill the empty bottle with the desire for worldly recognition, while Yi Yang chooses to reject all attempts to pour into it. Attention and intimacy into the bottle.But the hopes in his heart could not be suppressed, Yi Yang pinned them all on Xie Jintian, but Xie Jintian turned a blind eye and smashed them to pieces again and again.

Suddenly, the phone rang, Xie Jintian hung up after saying a few words, and then received a photo on WeChat, enlarged, it was a copy of the doctor's record in the Jingwei Center's computer.

It was not the first time for Yi Yang to go there, and Xie Jintian was finally convinced of this from the evidence he got through his relationship.It turned out that Yi Yang had been there as early as the summer vacation when he was 19 years old. The diagnosis at that time was listed as catatonic schizophrenia.Thinking back carefully, in Yi Yang's freshman year and his sophomore year, Xie Jintian, who was so busy with club activities and student union affairs, did ignore Yi Yang's strangeness.When they met, Xie Jintian always talked endlessly, intoxicated by his slick social skills, while Yi Yang, who was always surrounded by black and blue, just listened with a dull expression.At that time, he heard others say that Yi Yang was indifferent, alienated, and did not participate in any social activities. He also felt that Yi Yang was not used to college life because of his personality.Thinking about it now, that was a sign of his illness, right?

He didn't know how Yi Yang noticed it, but he was sure that Yi Yang went there silently.Xie Jintian could completely imagine the silent movie-like scene—Yi Yang sat stiffly in the consulting room, listening to the doctor's brief questioning after reading the evaluation report, answering a sentence from time to time, and then went back with the bottles of medicine.He kept this secret until he gradually got better and returned to the life of a "normal person". However, Xie Jintian knew nothing about it, and neither did his mother.

Yi Yang has been taking medicine.

Until now, Xie Jin finally understood what Fan Yizhou said before, presumably Yi Yang used this shield to tell him not to pester him?

He didn't want to confirm the details with Fan Yizhou, he would rather that Fan Yizhou never knew about Yi Yang's current situation.But what is certain is that Yi Yang's illness must be inseparable from their hypnosis, otherwise Fan Yizhou would not say that the mistakes they committed were so terrible that they would never see each other again.

He suddenly remembered the objects that were connected in series that were left to Fan Yizhou like relics but then transferred to his hands. Except for the USB flash drive, he put them all in the trunk, out of sight and out of sight.But at this moment, he felt an urge to masochistically, maybe there is some clue to untie Yi Yang's knot hidden in it?A fan of the authorities, even though he has worked in this industry for many years, he has encountered difficulties in his own life, but he really doesn't know how to go on. Yi Yang's distorted and desperate face is always in his mind, countless mouths are born, and he collapses. screaming.

But when Xie Jintian got up and was about to leave, he suddenly caught a glimpse of a line of writing on the pillars of the pavilion.

The pavilion was close to the school before, and the students who had just started to love each other painted childish love words on it with correction fluid. Now, after years of washing, many words have peeled off with the red paint, making it difficult to read.But this line of words written with a marker pen is still clear, obviously painted in recent years.However, the reason why it attracted Xie Jintian's attention was because he should have been written by Yi Yang.

Xie Jintian won't admit his writing is like a person's, with vivid strokes.

That line was not difficult to understand, but Xie Jintian squatted down to get closer, and read each word over and over several times before connecting them into a monologue.

He stroked it in a trance, chewed it upside down, and for a while, rested his forehead on the cold line.

That line of words sank into the bottom of my heart from between the brows like this - "The bright moon is separated from the clouds, and the soul of the firefly flies away. The fallen leaves gather and disperse, when will this hatred end?"

He used to always laugh at Yi Yang for having a sour ancient literati temperament, because he was born in the wrong age.Now I feel that if he expresses the sadness of spring and autumn, it can't be overstated.

For him, he endured for 20 years, with a depressed face and a mad heart.

He compared him to the ancient bright moon and himself to the short-lived firefly.

One is in the sky and the other is in the world.

One does not understand lovesickness, the other does not know regret.

Xie Jintian couldn't figure out exactly when Yi Yang wrote this line, but there is no doubt that he was suffering from waiting.I vaguely remember that one year, he broke his promise and didn't keep the appointment.Or in his subconscious, he has already perceived this feeling, so he chooses to forget and alienate.

After all, he only wanted to fulfill himself.

"Don't see him again."

When Cheng Yan parted from him, he begged like this.

Xie Jintian also knew that his appearance would only stimulate Yi Yang and make his condition worse.But the thought of never seeing each other again was unbearable.If so, he would rather listen to Yi Yang himself.But Yi Yang said it seriously, but he didn't want to hear it anymore.He had never felt such ambivalence for many years.But for many years, Yi Yang felt it all the time, and this pushed himself into a desperate situation.

No, not just for his sake.

There are also some people who deserved it and must pay for Yi Yang's pain.

"I didn't expect you to ask me out." The man sitting across from him, drinking his clear coffee slowly, didn't seem to have been sculpted by the years, and he still had the gentle appearance, "I thought you hated me to the bone .”

"But I hate Xie Yu even more." Xie Jintian smiled lightly, as if there was no grievance between them, but just a reminiscence between friends.

"So?" The eyes behind the lenses narrowed slightly with interest.

"I want to cooperate with you and let Xie Yu completely belong to you."

"Totally belong to me?" Fang Shuo chewed the words slyly.

"I'm also an expert in the field of hypnosis. I want to return all the tricks he used to me back then." Xie Jintian painted a beautiful vision for Fang Shuo, "He can do whatever you want, I figured it out." So, instead of putting him in prison, it is better to let him live in another kind of shackles without knowing it."

Fang Shuo pondered Xie Jintian's words carefully, and suddenly smiled.

"For the rest of my life?"

"For the rest of my life."