deep hypnosis

Yi Yang opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, feeling that he was very bad. When Fan Yizhou was waiting for him to respond, he just said "I'm tired" and chose to escape as a matter of course.But he really didn't know how to face all this. He couldn't blame Fan Yizhou for what he did, but it was also hard to forgive him, even though the injury that seemed to be blamed was just a coincidence.

It's really interesting to say that the more impossible it is, the more it will mock the luck of the mind in a way that is so coincidental and jaw-dropping.According to fatalism, maybe this is all calamity—God’s will wanted him to remember what he tried to forget, but refused to give him corresponding compensation.

There are many injustices and sarcasms in this world. Living as a victim is the easiest thing to do.How innocent, how unfortunate, no matter what blame can fall on him, he is sympathized and sheltered everywhere.But Yi Yang is already tired of such a role. It's not that he has no room for resistance. Just like many years ago, if he had told his father what Xie Yu had done earlier, maybe nothing would happen afterwards.But he was afraid, afraid that once the matter was revealed, it would bring unexpected shocks, he was afraid of Yi Chenggang's impulsiveness, Wu Zhaodi's peace of mind, Xie Yu's retaliation, and Xie Jintian's opposition to him.

Xie Yu may have taken into account that he was underage and was afraid of any legal consequences, so he didn't do the most outrageous step, but other than that, he practiced almost all the tricks he could think of on Yi Yang.At that time, Yi Yang was still very weak, but his sensitive and precocious temperament had made him realize that once Xie Yu's harm to him was exposed, the chain reaction that followed would bring more unpredictable harm.It was not a wise move for him, or for either family.

He endured alone for two years, and when he found out that Xie Jintian had forgotten because of being hypnotized, he breathed a sigh of relief.At least in front of Xie Jintian, he was as clean as a blank sheet of paper.Until Xie Jintian's mother discovered the poems written by his mother behind the photo and went to his house to make a fuss, which indirectly led to the death of his father Yi Chenggang.Since then, no one can protect him, and he can't confide the slightest bit of rumors. He just wants to survive the years, and he will come to the end when he doesn't know when he will say it.

Unexpectedly, all this ended in Fang Shuo's self-directed and self-acted play. Xie Yu was caught off guard by his own son and pushed him hard, thus deviating from his original life track.Everything seems to end here, but who would have thought that this unbearable past would be brought back to the eyes in such a dramatic way many years later, revealing the wounds that have been washed white by the years, and asking Yi Yang Ke to return Will it hurt?

The most secret and unbearable part of Yi Yang's soul that he tried his best to separate, is now left dead in front of others, allowing it to be dissected.Any form of sympathy and comfort seems to force him to recognize the dirty past.

While thinking about it, the phone rang suddenly.When Yi Yang reached for the mobile phone on the bedside table, Fan Yizhou happened to push the door open and enter.

In fact, Yi Yang knew that Fan Yizhou touched his cell phone after he fell asleep, which should have brought Xie Jintian into the blacklist.But at this time, the call came from an unfamiliar landline.Eyes met for a moment, Yi Yang pressed the call button, and Fan Yizhou, who wanted to persuade him not to answer, could only stand aside holding his breath, ready to grab the phone at any time.

"Hello? Yi Yang? It's me."

Yi Yang didn't expect that it was Xia Xue who called.He looked up at Fan Yizhou, indicating that he could handle it himself.It's just that he doesn't know whether Xia Xue at this time is the Xia Xue he knew before, or Xie Jintian's obedient wife.

Xia Xue obviously also knew Yi Yang's concerns, and immediately clarified: "I've already remembered it, he reminded me of it."

This "he" naturally refers to Xie Jintian.But why did Xie Jintian remind Xia Xue of everything at this time?It doesn't do him any good.

"He wants to know about you." Xia Xue seemed to understand Yi Yang's doubts, "I'm also worried about you, so let's put the rest aside."

The so-called "other" refers to her own affairs, right?While Yi Yang was moved, he also felt some subtle resentment.

Why didn't Xia Xue care about herself first?Why not blame him for not saving her in time?Why not accuse Xie Jintian of being despicable first?

Such a seemingly plain concern was as heavy as Mount Tai, and Yi Yang couldn't hold his head up.

"I'm sorry, senior, I couldn't help you."

"You and Dr. Fan have done everything we can..."

"No, I didn't." Yi Yang interrupted, "Actually, I hope Xie Jintian will do whatever he can. The more unscrupulous he is, the more determined I will be to leave him."

Xia Xue was stunned, she never thought that Yi Yang would say such a thing.

The landscape lights at the other end flicker because of the cover of passing vehicles, like dodging eyes.Xia Xue thought of the cold hand she was holding in that winter day, he wanted to pull away from it all the time, but he couldn't bear the warmth, so he finally followed along.

Perhaps at this moment, he also needs her "unreasonable" tugging, but he doesn't want her to embarrass him.

"If you have to analyze yourself like this, then I'm calling you now just to satisfy my addiction to pretending to be a good person, or to spy on the **'s **." Xia Xue pressed her face to the cold receiver, as if this could warm her body temperature. On the other side, "No one is completely selfless, but this does not negate his words and deeds. No matter what the purpose is, you have not ignored me. And, to blame others for your own misfortunes, Mostly because they don’t want to take responsibility for their own lives.”

These words made Yi Yang think of his mother.Wu Zhaodi was born in poverty and was branded with inferiority complex. She didn't have the courage to change the status quo and control the future. She could only blame her husband for all her misfortunes. Unconditional attention and devotion, even expecting to be favored by a married man to prove her worth.As her son, Yi Yang had already "inherited" many of the same traits before he understood all of this. The sensitivity born of inferiority complex made him cautious and suspicious. Kindness, he prefers to keep a polite and safe distance.So even though she knew that Xia Xue was sincere, she still wanted to push her away habitually, so she said something insincere, but Xia Xue easily saw through him.

"Sister, sometimes, I'm really afraid of you."

"why?"

"It's like an extra lamp in the dark night, which makes the surrounding darkness thicker and more dangerous." Yi Yang looked at the orange desk lamp and said softly, "But I'm used to walking in the dark. Don’t dare to expect anything.”

Sometimes, a star that is not enough to illuminate all corners is the most irresponsible and hasty intruder.Xia Xue was able to devote all her energy to caring for Yi Yang at such a moment, precisely because she grew up in a warm soil, and no shadow could take root in her heart.She never looked down, but when she gave, it was like a kind of charity.

"Okay! You can blame me for being troubled, but I still have to say - what their father and son have done is worse than a beast, but it's not the time to lose all hope." Xia Xue glanced at her and leaned on the car door Xie Jintian, who smokes, "The part that cannot be remonstrated in the past, the involuntary part is not a reason to be harsh on yourself. This is not your fault. If you are really tired, you will give up halfway, and if you are really tired, you will fly away. Giving up is sometimes far more important than persistence. It is difficult, because the previous efforts will be in vain, and it is inevitable that you will be frustrated, frustrated, and self-denial. But if you can return with an ideal posture, then this is just a short break in the long journey, not an escape."

Yi Yang listened in a daze. In this world, only Xia Xue could speak such words to him with confidence.In the past, he would not listen to these arguments like chicken soup for the soul, but now, after a series of changes, he really needs to break the original inertia and re-examine the trajectory of life.

How do you want to live in the world?This seems to be a too esoteric proposition, but it is also an unbreakable trace of the source.

"I was planning to leave, after today." Yi Yang didn't intend to hide it from Xia Xue who seemed to have a sympathy with him.

"Then don't tell you where you're going or when you're leaving." Xia Xue finally let go of her hanging heart, and glanced at Xie Jintian who got up impatiently and looked at him, "I don't want to be hypnotized by someone again, and accidentally leak Your whereabouts."

"Thank you, senior." Yi Yang seemed to be able to see Xia Xue's penetrating smile through the orange lighted wall, "Then what are your plans for the future?"

"No. So, I'm just talking on paper." Xia Xue switched the receiver to the other side, and looked at her face in the reflection, "I always feel that you are the other half of me in this world. It's the opposite, but you're arrogant Congenial. I won't be complete until you come back and tell me that everything is fine."

Yi Yang didn't expect that Xia Xue would have the same feelings as him. Although they didn't know each other deeply, they could have some indescribable resonance from the depths of their souls. This is another reason why Yi Yang cares about Xia Xue so much. .

"Leave more thoroughly, and then return more thoroughly." Xia Xue finally urged.

"Okay." Yi Yang seemed to be saying goodbye to himself, "Sister, take care too."