deep hypnosis

The two seemed to stand like two statues in this winter when drops of water turned into ice.The bone-piercing whiteness piled up thicker and thicker, becoming armor and a fortress.

Xia Xue's intuition has always been accurate, but at this moment she hates this intuition.Just now she saw through Xie Jintian's unknowing care for Yi Yang, and Yi Yang's inseparable attachment to Xie Jintian at a glance.

No wonder Yi Yang wandered here alone that night, as if rehearsing today's drama.He had set himself a role of misery, but what about her?

Today, it was only because of a blow to the head that she had to pull out of her body to assess the situation.But she will go back after all, back to the shackles of her soul, and continue to walk along the rope of fate, stepping on the edge.

But this brief sobriety also made her deeply regret the fascination of the authorities in this relationship. For the so-called love, she lowered her posture step by step to the humbleness of getting whatever she wanted, but this forbearance and accommodating that suppressed her self-esteem, but in exchange for Come to thank Jintian for his unscrupulous decision to kill.

And Yi Yang may be another her.

They are no different.

The moment their eyes meet, this subtle confrontation makes the two feel each other's mood as if their souls are exchanged.Even if I don't know the cause and effect, I still feel the same because I love the same cold man.

Yi Yang bent down first, and picked up the iron box that Xie Jintian had thrown on the ground before.But he didn't pay attention to the backpack that was kicked crookedly against Tingzhu.What is contained in that backpack is Xie Jintian's unique arrogant sympathy, which does not belong to him at all.

Walking down the stairs step by step, under Xia Xue's scorching gaze, the whitewashed camouflage faded away layer by layer, leaving only the ugly appearance exposed.

He knew, she guessed.

He is not innocent, Xia Xue can naturally stand taller than him, examine and criticize him from a worldly perspective.

However, Xia Xue only called him softly.

"It's all over."

Yi Yang turned his head to look at Xia Xue.He didn't know whether the end she was referring to was used to describe her relationship with Xie Jintian, or his trial.

Xia Xue didn't explain any more, but just took Yi Yang's cold hand and walked in the opposite direction.It seems that we want to escape together from this sad place that is destined to be guarded in memory.

The ice holes on the pond, like countless empty eyes, peered coldly at their futile struggle.

In the early morning of the first day of the new year, there were no shops open.Xia Xue was too embarrassed to disturb her cousin who lived nearby, so she had to take Yi Yang back to the car.

It was only at this moment that Xia Xue let go of her hand. This move was a bit over the top, but in this situation, words are so powerless, only the temperature conveyed from the palm of her hand is real.They are in desperate need of a semblance of a conclusion that has not yet been rejected by the world.

After turning on the heater, I felt the warmth returning to my limbs, and then I was relieved from the dull pain of the same origin.

"It would be nice to have a hot drink."

Xia Xue's opening sounds just to ease the embarrassment, but Yi Yang can sense Xia Xue's thoughtfulness from these words - she doesn't want to embarrass him, even after knowing his ugliness.

"If you don't mind, come to my place?"

Back at Yi Yang's rented house, he turned on the air conditioner, took off his coat, and each held a cup of hot cocoa in their hands.

Yi Yang is not used to sweet and greasy drinks, but he knows that Xia Xue likes them, and at this moment, he also needs something high in calories to dissolve the emotions that boiled to the top but froze into ice into strands for analysis.

"I'm sorry, I lied to you before." Yi Yang remembered asking Xia Xue for a video before, and remembered the chance meeting when he was wandering a few days ago.

"No, it's time for me to wake up, it has nothing to do with you." Xia Xue tried to separate the current self from the past self—right when the former self was dead, but not completely dead, knocking on Opening the door, he replied from the few words, "This feels like being possessed by a demon, I am actually like those jealous women."

Jealousy, suspicion, and spare no effort to track down the clues.

In fact, from the moment she turned into this unbearable appearance and didn't know it, she was doomed to the same end by different routes.

Xie Jintian is so arrogant, how can he tolerate her suspicion?The fragile feelings contained in the container could not withstand scrutiny, she was the one who insisted on her own way, weighed and knocked, but missed and shattered the illusion.

"Love doesn't know where it started, but it goes deeper..." Xia Xue recalled Yi Yang's words describing her sweetheart, and now she understands the deep meaning, "You have been persistent longer than me, right?"

Yi Yang listened to Xia Xue's question, although he had planned to confide in his heart since he invited her to the house, but when he really wanted to lift this fig leaf, he was still panicked.He has never confessed himself to anyone other than Fan Yizhou and Yu Qian, that is the most absurd, saddest and most deformed love.And Xia Xue and him are neither close nor old, and in a sense, there is even an embarrassing relationship with Xie Jintian, so they shouldn't exchange shallow words.But at this moment, both of them urgently need to make a break with the past, and talking to each other is the most appropriate curtain call.

"When I was young, he always protected me and treated me like a younger brother."

Yi Yang finally decides to tell the truth about everything, but only conceals Yu Qian's existence and skips the childhood trauma.

Xia Xue was so dazed that she didn't even notice that the drink in her hand was cold, she still held it so tightly that her joints turned white.

She has never been so disappointed before, this is completely different from the frustration she felt when she broke Xie Jintian's lie just now.Just imagine, if Xie Jintian can be so ruthless to a childhood sweetheart like Yi Yang, how can he be so good to her who is destined to be shelved?

What she almost stepped into was not the tomb of love, but the abyss of despair.

"He is like this...I'm sorry, my queen mother is late." The sweetness of hot cocoa contrasts with the helpless bitterness. Xia Xue, who has been surrounded by warmth since she was a child, is not good at dealing with these negative emotions. It is hard for her to imagine, Yi Yang How did you survive this malicious slander?

Yi Yang, who finally confessed all this, was also relieved. He refilled Xia Xue's drink and brought over some biscuits he made himself.

The always timid police chief liked Xia Xue very much, and would rub her ankles to beg for food from time to time, wondering if he still remembered that it had acted as a messenger of love for her.

"He never told me about his parents. He said his father left their mother and son to go abroad... I also know that he doesn't like homosexuality, but I don't know the connection between the two."

Hearing what Xia Xue said, Yi Yang actually regretted telling her about Xie Jintian's childhood, as if he had completely betrayed the little boy who always protected him. In Yi Yang's heart, the boy who gave him the red line and the boy now Xie Jintian just shared the same body.

"He never gave people a chance to sympathize with him."

"That's right." Xia Xue smiled sadly, knowing that Yi Yang might be comforting her.Xie Jintian didn't tell her because she didn't have the qualifications to make him let go of his guard.

"Then why did you hypnotize him? He has a clear conscience, but you just let it go?" Xia Xue couldn't help substituting in. If it were her, I'm afraid she would have to burn everything to relieve her hatred.

"The greater the price you pay for your choice, the harder it is to extricate yourself from it." Yi Yang pushed the biscuit in Xia Xue's direction, "I don't want to spend my whole life arguing with myself."

Be more rational and stop losses at the right time.To be more emotional is to cut off the thread of love.If a relationship needs to spend a lifetime to prove that the original choice is not absurd, then it has already taken root in the soul, piercing the heart.

"It's still you who can see clearly." Xia Xue remembered that after the year she had made an appointment to discuss the details of the wedding celebration, she had wishful thinking that as long as she compromised, Xie Jintian would still be as tender and affectionate to her as before.But Xie Jintian was never what she thought, it was just a projection of self-comfort.She had to convince herself that what she had was the best before she could make up her mind to ignore the opening cracks.

"If you can do it if you understand it, then there is no need for the psychological counseling industry." Yi Yang looked at the bookcase, where there were two books that he didn't have the courage to read, "It's because he knew what to do, but If you can’t do it anyway, it will add to your troubles.”

"This sounds like preaching." Xia Xue tried to make a joke to dispel the sadness of being chased and blocked, "To be honest, I don't know how long it will take to get out... My parents are very loving and have always loved me. Before I met Xie Jintian, my life was almost smooth sailing. Today, I am afraid that it is the most ruthless stumble I have suffered since I was a child..."

Yi Yang can understand Xia Xue, a flower in a greenhouse, who is carefully cared for. She is just about to transplant the warmth she learned from her family into her first intimate relationship. She thinks she can reap the same warmth, but But it was broken again and again.

"So, I have an offer - can I see you once a week for the next month?"

Yi Yang was a little surprised by Xia Xue's request, but after thinking about it carefully, he understood her original intention.

She was afraid that she would waver, regret, despair, and wither.

She needs him not only because of his professional status, but also because he is the one who understands her best.

"Okay." Yi Yang agreed without hesitation for long. Although he had already overdrawn his feelings and felt powerless to care for others, Xia Xue was different. She was a part of his story and a part of him, with similar feelings .

"I should go." Xia Xue had to get up after receiving a call from her parents.

Yi Yang sent her to the gate of the community, watching her disappear at the end of her vision as if covered in snowflakes, and secretly hoped that she could bid farewell to this past and find the destination of her soul. After all, she is a rose that has not yet bloomed, and there is still happiness. possible.And he is just a stubborn rock, clinging to the withered grass on the grave.

"So, that's why you told her?" Fan Yizhou, who was finally freed from the task of visiting relatives on the seventh day of the Lunar New Year, was shocked when he learned that Yi Yang had told the whole story, "You just handed over the handle to Xie Jintian. At the hands of his fiancée, he was slaughtered by the neck?"

"She's not that kind of person." Yi Yang was unmoved by Fan Yizhou's questioning, "She is no longer his fiancée."

"Yi Yang, you and I are both in this line of business, people are unpredictable, you should be clear about it."

Yi Yang knew that what Fan Yizhou said was reasonable, but at the moment he couldn't listen to it at all: "That's the end of this topic."

Yi Yang is unwilling to speculate on Xia Xue with malice, because she rescued him from such a state of mind in such a seemingly endless winter.

Meeting once a week, for him, is it not a kind of healing?To say that I have a secret love for beauty is because I have never been really lonely, the kind of loneliness that seems to be put in a coffin, dumb, deaf, and dead.

"Every time I meet you, we break up because of his disagreement." Fan Yizhou sighed softly when he left, "My rival in love is not the one outside, but the one in your heart. If one day you don't use 'his ’ to refer to him, then I have a chance.”

Yi Yang seemed to have been stabbed, and then realized that he really rarely mentioned Xie Jintian's name.It turned out that his fear of his love was so sick that even his name rolled around on the tip of his tongue, so hot that he wanted to swallow it whole.

Fortunately, there is Xia Xue.

In March, when the warblers are flying and the grass is growing, the weather is cloudy and cloudy. On this day, Yi Yang went to the appointment, but encountered a sudden rain.

Yi Yang had no choice but to hide under the eaves of a nearby convenience store in a hurry. When he looked up, he suddenly realized that the station in front of him was the station where Xie Jintian had seen off countless times in his junior year.

The suburban vehicle happened to stop in front of him, and the water splashed on his trouser legs, but he didn't notice it.

He actually came here...

The bustling here is not what it used to be, so he didn't recognize it right away, but the station, and the alley that used to hide in the other side, seemed to be haunted by daytime ghosts, smiling at him sinisterly, as if they were guiding him. He came to this weird date.

Yi Yang hurriedly lowered his head to look at the vibrating cell phone. It was a text message sent to him by Xia Xue, asking where he was.

Yi Yang replied with his coordinates, told Xia Xue that he didn't bring an umbrella, and asked her to wait for a while, and he would go there when the rain calmed down. It was only a few steps away.

However, the rain seemed to be playing tricks on him, and surrounded him for a long time.

Yi Yang stared in a daze at the puddle of stagnant water in front of him, the dark sky and thick clouds were reflected in the water, as well as the longing for that year, when he pretended to be deaf but forced people to have nowhere to escape.

It wasn't until passers-by stepped on the stagnant water that Yi Yang suddenly raised his head as if awakened.The rain had stopped, and so had the replay of the memory.

But why did Xie Jintian walk into reality from the past, holding Xia Xue's mobile phone, standing in front of the station, overlapping the face in memory.