deep hypnosis

In fact, when Xie Jintian left Yi Yang's house that day, it seemed as if he had stepped into the rainy season.His repulsion and contempt that was temporarily imprisoned for Yi Yang, while he was not paying attention, quietly took root and sprouted, densely covering the corners of his eyes and brows, growing luxuriantly.And the friendship for many years has also been sucked dry by this sudden change, nestled in a corner and gradually withered and decayed.

Xie Jintian couldn't convince himself anymore, he was reluctant to classify Yi Yang as the same as his father, trying to keep everything peaceful on the surface, and give Yi Yang a time limit for forgiveness, but now, he had to Make a choice.

The marriage of two men is absurd. It cannot be guaranteed by the law or recognized by the society. Jinse and Ming are fine. If there is a gap, sooner or later they will suffer the consequences.And how could Yi Yang and Fan Yizhou grow old together?Fan Yizhou must have tricked Yi Yang who is easy to mistrust others with his clever tongue!He Xie Jintian and Yi Yang's childhood sweethearts, how could he stand idly by Yi Yang's momentary obsession?

Even if he was misunderstood by Yi Yang and dismissed indifferently, he still decided to find an opportunity to wake up Yi Yang, who seemed to be in a nightmare, from the mirage of emotion, so that he could see clearly the painted skin of the demon in his heart, and repent.

With such a plan, Xie Jintian immediately started with a few alternative hotels listed in the planning book he memorized, and began his righteous redemption.Not long after, he learned that Fan Yizhou had reserved one of them, but to his surprise, the newcomers' names were not Fan Yizhou and Yi Yang.

It's okay for Fan Yizhou to play tricks on the trend, but why did Yi Yang acquiesce in Fan Yizhou's collusion?Could it be that he was sensitive and realized that he didn't agree with their relationship, so he wanted to take the opportunity to test it out?

This speculation made Xie Jintian very unhappy. Just because of a disagreement at work, Yi Yang planned to overthrow the trust and dependence established in the past 20 years?

But despite the anger in his heart, Xie Jintian must not show his flaws at this juncture and push Yi Yang into the arms of outsiders.Why don't you take this opportunity to express your attitude again, let Yi Yang put down his guard, and then listen to his earnest persuasion.

Xie Jintian, who planned this way, had the cheek to be an uninvited guest on the day Xiao Mu and Cheng Yan got married.But when he saw Yi Yang, who was wearing a ceremony costume, standing on the stage and presiding over the ceremony with a serious face, Xie Jintian felt a sense of familiarity as if he had passed away.

He seemed to have had such a dream, and in the dream Yi Yang was also dressed like this, sitting on the high hall in the courtyard playing the piano.He alarmed him, but he didn't remember him.And another man with the same face as him was rubbing against Yi Yang's ears. After a while, his true colors were revealed again. He was a ghost with a blue face and fangs...

Xie Jintian didn't know why he suddenly remembered such an absurd and weird dream at this time, which made him feel flustered for no reason, as if he had lost something...

In a daze, someone breathed in his ear and asked him why he couldn't remember...

"Li—cheng—"

Yi Yang made a long sound, and Xie Jin came back to his senses.

He stood in a daze for a long time again, until the three of them walked up to him.

Suddenly, he felt that Yi Yang was different, not because of the different attire, but a deeper level of strangeness that could not be described in words.That strangeness flowed out from Yi Yang's eyes, it became indifference, and spread from every gesture, it became alienation.

So that when the distance gradually narrowed, Xie Jintian actually had the illusion that a magnet of the same level was pressed in his body and was pushed in the opposite direction.

He took a deep breath, tried his best to put on his usual smile and greeted him, displaying his slightly exaggerated acting skills.Finally, he found the opportunity to be alone with Yi Yang as he wished.

It's fine if Yi Yang doesn't explain the acquiescing to Fan Yizhou to fool him, but what is the allusion of "the country with the chest"?Is it to mock him as an invincible unintentional person?If that's the case, why would he stand here, trying to persuade Yi Yang to turn around in the name of traveling?

"You don't want to go, just say it." Xie Jintian felt that his kindness was completely trampled into the mud, "You will not miss any good opportunities, and I have no ability to make you fall flat."

Seeing that Yi Yang just looked at the air gap without saying a word, Xie Jintian suddenly felt a little annoyed, and closed the window with a "slap" and said, "You want to imitate them and hold such a wedding?"

Xie Jintian remembered the glimpse he had seen outside the auditorium. At that glance, he seemed to see Yi Yang who was presiding over the wedding for others on the stage, feeling vaguely lonely.

That loneliness made Xie Jintian feel a little relieved and a little worried.What is gratifying is that the relationship between Yi Yang and Fan Yizhou may not have reached the point where they are worthy of each other. What is worrying is what Yi Yang plans to use to fill this loneliness.

"I'm not that lucky." Yi Yang didn't avoid Xie Jintian's question this time.

He had already admitted that he was jealous of Xiao Mu and Cheng Yan. He put all his heart into their wedding, but in fact he passed on his unfulfilled wishes to them, but when he watched them finish the ceremony, he felt I can't help but bring him into himself, but the one who sits across from him, eats and sleeps with him is an indescribable blurred face.The most unpredictable side of the human heart is the inability to sincerely bless those who have suffered similarly to themselves but are luckier.

"Lucky?" Xie Jintian couldn't help raising his eyebrows and said, "In my opinion, that's just self-deception."

"Doctor Xie—" Fan Yizhou, who was standing aside at some point, leaned against the wall and said calmly, "You can't wait to tear down the stage before the wedding banquet is over?"

Xie Jintian glanced at Fan Yizhou coldly, ignoring him and said to Yi Yang, "See you wherever you go."

After finishing speaking, he went in to say hello to Xiao Mu and the others, and left alone.

"What? Ask you to elope?" Fan Yizhou joked calmly seeing Yi Yang's thoughtful look.

Yi Yang raised his head to look at him, and Fan Yizhou couldn't laugh anymore, and obediently followed Yi Yang into the private room step by step.

Afterwards, they carefully avoided certain topics, and the meal was lively but not enjoyable, Xiao Mu was the only one who got drunk.When Cheng Yan supported Xiao Mu to say goodbye to the two, he shook Yi Yang's hand vigorously. Without further words, Yi Yang understood what he wanted to say.For them, this day is a day of rebirth.

"You go back! You don't need to send it away." Yi Yang rejected Fan Yizhou.

"It's so late, you are alone..."

"I'm catching the last bus." Yi Yang didn't give Fan Yizhou a chance to persuade him. He glanced at his phone, turned around and walked towards the bus stop.

Fan Yizhou still thought that Yi Yang was making trouble, and wanted to chase him but didn't dare, fearing that he would really offend Yi Yang, who seemed docile but stubborn, so he had to follow him to the station and watch him get on the bus with his own eyes. leave at ease,

Yi Yang stood by the armrest, watching Fan Yizhou's back flashing past, feeling sad.He was sorry for him, not because he was destined to disappoint his feelings, but because he didn't feel much guilt for this betrayal.Just like his mother, who abandoned his father's sincerity like a shoestring, but reveled in unrealistic illusions about Xie Jintian's father.

The more he despises her, the more he resembles her. How does this teach him not to hate himself?

Seeing that the number of passengers is gradually decreasing, there is nothing in the crowded heart.

He sat by the window, and after turning a corner, he saw the former school and the remaining dilapidated landscape beside the school.It is like an old friend, sitting there quietly, waiting for a chance meeting again, or a permanent parting.

That year, Xie Jintian had Xia Xue, and Yi Yang didn't dare to ask him if he forgot the travel plan he said at the end of the year, and if he forgot to see each other at this time of year.He just sat here alone with his luggage on his back, counting over and over again, the surface of the frozen pond was severely smashed out.

He hated being like an abandoned woman, and he hated sitting here alone.He repeatedly wanted to leave, but every time he stood up, he couldn't help thinking that maybe Xie Jintian would come in the next second.So he sat back and waited, loathing himself.

The patrolling security came around a few times, and the flashlight made his eyes sore.When he closed his eyes, he saw Xie Jintian's former appearance, holding a red thread, a popsicle, and a camera... They were all given to him, not in exchange for anything, but he gave his whole heart.

"Chinese New Year is to be spent with family."

The words that made his heart flustered at that time became a blunt weapon at this time, and he chiseled patiently until his heart was full of holes.

cold……

Holding the backpack in his arms, he turned his head, and saw dense love words drawn on the pillars with correction fluid.

So straightforward like, so casual forever.Vulgar and naive, but it made him envious.

Maybe it was because the night was too difficult, so he couldn't help but rummaged out to find a marker pen, pulled off the cap in one go, held it persistently, but was shaking violently.

What to write?What can he write?

This is not a thought that can be put into words, and this is not a luxury worth looking forward to.

Xie Jintian won't come until this place is razed to the ground, until nothing grows in his heart.

He once affirmed it so sadly, but after many years, everything turned upside down, and Xie Jintian told him that he would never leave...

Yi Yang took out his mobile phone, illuminated the mottled pavilion pillars with the light of the screen, and then tremblingly groped for the line written with a marker pen back then.

"Yi Yang?"

The sudden sound from behind made Yi Yang's whole heart suspend.