deep hypnosis

"He said he wanted to make amends, isn't it ridiculous? What's even more ridiculous is that my father-in-law and mother-in-law even arranged a special dinner to let him and I settle down." Xie Jintian was immersed in his own depression, talking to himself, he was eager He needed someone to confide in, and the first thing he thought of was Yi Yang who had been the most harmless and considerate to him and could consider everything from his point of view.

"Yi Yang? Yi Yang?" Xie Jintian talked for a long time before realizing that Yi Yang was completely in a dissociated state, and he couldn't help being a little annoyed.

Yi Yang just woke up like a dream, stared at Xie Jintian for a while, and suddenly said coldly: "The explanations you made before were just foreshadowing for me to listen to what you said?"

Xie Jintian was stunned for a moment, and before he could react, he heard his "best friend" who always obeyed his words slowly spit out a sentence: "Get out."

Those heartfelt words were blocked in his throat, and Xie Jintian couldn't believe that when he was trying to resolve the misunderstanding in a low voice and was about to pour out his distress from the bottom of his heart, Yi Yang would mercilessly issue an order to drive him away.

Xie Jintian raised one eyebrow and raised his chin slightly, that slightly provocative arrogant Yi Yang was no stranger to him.In the past, he was always afraid of Xie Jintian showing such an expression, so he surrendered unconditionally, but today, he no longer has to be cautious, and he no longer has to go against his heart.

This confrontation is destined to be Xie Jintian's defeat again. He is not familiar with such a cold and decisive Yi Yang, and this fear of drifting away has overshadowed his anger, making him dare not investigate. The reason is that he only bluffed and said at the time of parting: "Is this interesting?"

Seeing that Yi Yang was about to close the door unmoved, he stopped at the corner and said, "You know how much I hate homosexuals...I'm standing here only because of you."

Yi Yang didn't look at the back of Xie Jintian who left those words and walked away in a cool way, closed the door, leaned against the door panel and looked at the crumbling light of the ceiling, feeling the fear that gradually spread into the blood like poisonous poison and paralyzed all nerves .He was already unable to think about Xie Jintian's thoughts, because the trauma he had suppressed with all his strength was coming back from the dead, laughing at his powerlessness.

Xie Jintian could come to him to confide heartlessly, but who could he turn to for comfort?No one in this world can really protect him, because even his closest relatives will ignore and abandon him for their own selfishness, and let him be played with at will when he is the most helpless and vulnerable, and finally fabricated such a Undisputed look.

His life should have been another attitude, perhaps not better, but not worse than it is now.This kind of assumption has caused him to suffer for many years. Because he has no way to vent, he has already resigned to his fate, but who would have thought that this was just a joke?

Trembling, he touched the phone on the table and sent a text message to Yu Qian.

Years ago, it was the busiest time but also the least in the mood to go to work. Only Yi Yang was an exception. He devoted himself to the finishing work. Behind the heads.

Yu Qian is right, admitting those pains and accepting the current self is far more difficult than burying those painful experiences in the subconscious and not feeling them. Maybe that is the goal that can only be achieved in a lifetime, or it may last until the end of life. Still nothing at the end.Perhaps because of this, people need faith, and they need to be able to convince themselves of the cause and effect of life in such a posture.

In the past, Xie Jintian was Yi Yang's belief. He looked up to him, followed him, and unconditionally believed in love as the truth, but now, Xie Jintian has fallen from the altar and shattered into an unbearable past.Yi Yang also knows that he shouldn't deny himself because of Xie Jintian, but every time he thinks of Xie Jintian's actions, and compares his obsession with being blinded by emotion, he can't find other adjectives except stupid and ridiculous, which teaches him how to like Present self as an extension of the past?Can you really change your body in one sentence?

When he couldn't see Xie Jintian, he really thought so, but once Xie Jintian stood in front of him, he showed his true colors again.

Fortunately, since he hurt Xie Jintian's self-esteem last time, Xie Jintian didn't come to him again, but Xia Xue came to Yi Yang once when his father came to the hospital for reexamination.

"I just didn't expect...you and Dr. Fan..." Xia Xue, who has always been eloquent, would turn her face aside to hide her embarrassment. The red coat that looked like a flame in winter could afford her a piece of melon seeds. His face was bloodless.

"I didn't make it clear to you, I'm sorry." Yi Yang said this, but he didn't feel much guilt for concealing his orientation.He and this senior sister were clearly walking side by side, but they seemed to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers.They are two parallel lines, but Xia Xue's life trajectory is enviable and happy, but the extension of his trajectory is only despair and annihilation.

"I didn't come to Xingshi to inquire about crimes." Xia Xue's high-heeled shoes stepped on the stone road covered with mud after the rain, and it was a bit difficult to walk, "Jin Tian hasn't contacted me during this time..."

Yi Yang was not surprised when he heard this sentence. Recently, his gossiping colleagues also said that Xie Jintian, the son-in-law of the Xia family, was clearly in the hospital, but he never visited his father-in-law who came to the outpatient clinic.In connection with what Xie Jintian said last time, it is not difficult to imagine how deep the gap between them will be.Both of them felt wronged and resentful, and hoped that the other party would take responsibility for the breakdown of their relationship. However, this already bruised relationship withered and withered in the day-to-day stalemate.

Yi Yang didn't answer, but just motioned for Xia Xue to sit on the bench beside the flower bed, took out a pack of tissues from his white coat and handed her to wipe the mud covered with withered grass on the high heels.

Xia Xue said thank you, lowered her head to clean up, wiped, but suddenly shed tears.

"I shouldn't have listened to my parents and made things difficult for him...it's just that I didn't expect him to be so angry." Xia Xue told Yi Yang intermittently about the unhappiness of that day, "He doesn't care about marriage at all. It's over... the master of ceremonies called him, and he said he was busy... as if it was mine alone..."

She didn't dare to say the following words, for fear that her words would become a prophecy.

Yi Yang has always been afraid of tears, especially women's tears. He has seen too much of his mother crying for another man, and behind every tear is the bleakness of his deceased father, so that he saw Tears uncontrollably give birth to a cynical gloom that runs counter to the docile character.Rather than being afraid of women's tears, it was better to say that he was afraid of such a strange self, which caught him off guard.

At the same moment, the tissue had been handed over, and he touched his body, but there was nothing to comfort him, and the language seemed so pale, not to mention that he couldn't speak a word at all.

Just one of them was crying, and the other stood silently until the sky began to rain sporadically again.

This was a perfect excuse, but when Yi Yang was about to persuade Xia Xue to go in to hide from the rain, he turned his head and saw Xie Jintian standing in the corridor looking at him sullenly.