deep hypnosis

Xie Jintian always feels extra tired these few days, as if he doesn't get enough sleep, but he can really catch up on the weekends, but he can't sleep well.Half asleep and half awake, he seemed to be watching one movie after another, those fragments truly reproduced the messy plot, overlapping words and familiar figures made him dizzy, and the tone was sad and gloomy.Sometimes Xie Jintian struggled to wake up, but in an instant he forgot the scene that was still vivid just now, but once he fell asleep again, the annoying "theatre" would come back and imprison him in the dark.

One night, Xie Jintian even found himself standing next to the wine cabinet when he was sober, and he didn't remember the process of walking all the way, only vaguely remembered the last moment, a strong idea kept lingering in his mind, and he was still chanting words... …He didn't come here for the drink, but he couldn't remember exactly what had driven him to sleepwalk here.

Xie Jintian raised his head in confusion, only to remember that there is still surveillance at home, but when he turned on the computer, he found that he could not log in to the surveillance video interface because he forgot the password.

This series of incredible situations made Xie Jintian worry about his mental state.He thought that maybe it was because the wedding was approaching and the pressure was too great, which led to the abnormality now.Maybe he should take a break and let himself relax.

Xie Jintian, who had made up his mind in this way, applied for a week-long annual leave the next day. He withdrew a few doctor's orders, and then handed over Corey's routine affairs to the two interns who were planning to stay, so he could take this opportunity to exercise their ability to stand alone.

However, before Xie Jintian started his adjustment, he received an invitation from Xia Xue's family.Xia Xue's father had recently been discharged from the hospital because of his recovery. After that, he only needed to come to the hospital twice a week for outpatient training, so the Xia family wanted to take this opportunity to celebrate.

Xie Jintian, as the son-in-law-to-be who has contributed a lot, naturally wants to attend.What he didn't expect was that when he went home, changed his clothes, freshened up, and came to the private room booked by Xia's family, the first thing he saw was his father Xie Yu, whom he hadn't seen for many years, talking and laughing happily with his father-in-law and mother-in-law.

Xie Jintian's smile froze on his face in an instant, with the disintegration, and the shock that he was always proud of remained unchanged.At this moment, even if he knew the consequences, it would be difficult for him to maintain his usual maturity and smoothness. His gaze coldly passed over the faces of Xie Yu, who was looking at him, and the faces of his father-in-law and mother-in-law who were smiling, and then fell on Xia Xue who seemed embarrassed. .

He didn't say a word, but the look in his eyes was like a tortured question.

Xia Xue had never been stared at by Xie Jintian before, her eyes turned red in an instant, and she quickly lowered her head to cover her, not knowing what to do.

At this time, Xia Xue's parents were more or less aware of Xie Jintian's unnaturalness at the door, so Xia Xue's mother smoothed things over and said: "My in-laws just came back, and we want to take advantage of today to welcome him and discuss the details of your marriage. "

Xie Jintian straightened his back and stood for a long time before he suddenly smiled and said: "Mom is still thoughtful, after all, it takes both parents to look good on the scene."

Xia Xue's mother couldn't help but startled when she heard this, while Xia Xue's father frowned: "Jin Tian, ​​it's indeed our fault that we invited our in-laws here without telling you, but it's not for any occasion. It’s not about the scene, but getting married is a great joy, wouldn’t it be better to add something to the cake?”

The icing on the cake?

Xie Jintian took another deep look at Xia Xue, who lowered her eyes. He didn't know what she told her parents to bring about such an embarrassing situation today, but he meddled with others without understanding anything. The family chores required him to be grateful to the grateful Xia's parents, which made Xie Jintian feel a deep disgust at this time, and it also affected his feelings for Xia Xue.

Yi Yang would not do this.

Xie Jintian's mind suddenly popped up such an abrupt idea, even he was startled.

Why did he think of Yi Yang at this time?There is no comparison between him and Xia Xue at all, except for the emotional involvement...

Emotionally?

Xie Jintian suddenly fell into a chaotic situation. He only remembered the last scene of Fan Yizhou kissing Yi Yang and the showdown between the two during the grave sweeping, but he couldn't remember any clues pointing to him and Yi Yang. Yang has something emotionally involved.At most, the two argued a few times because of differences in views on homosexuality, and other...there seemed to be nothing else...

But there was a small and vague voice in his heart that continued to argue until Xia Xue's mother pulled him to sit down at the table: "This child! Why are you in a daze? I'll let them serve hot dishes!"

Only then did Xie Jintian come back to his senses, and was shocked to realize that he had fallen into a trance just now, and the alarm bells in his heart rang out. How could he be unconsciously distracted in such a state?

For this reason, Xie Jintian, who was so irritated, no longer had the mind to deal with the predicament in front of him, and almost finished the meal with him without saying a word, without looking up at Xie Yu again.However, Xia's parents and Xia Xue completely misunderstood Xie Jintian's absent-mindedness, thinking that he was still blaming them for unnecessary actions and sulking.

Father Xia seemed to feel that it was a bit embarrassing, and when he said goodbye, he patted Xie Jintian on the back and said: "We are also getting old, and the chances to meddle in other things are getting less and less, but we always hope for your well-being."

Xie Jintian forced a smile and said: "I know, thank you uncle!"

After speaking, he took his coat and left without any hesitation.

The underground parking garage was filled with stuffiness, as if walking into the Huangmei season, which exaggerated Xie Jintian's irritability to the extreme, but the unhurried footsteps behind him followed like a shadow, as if he was sure that he would not be able to escape this inevitable Facing the "reunion".

Xie Jintian finally stopped in front of his car, and he saw the man following him from the reflection of the glass window.

Their eyebrows and eyes are very similar, and the outline seems to be carved out of the same mold. The years have not changed this man too much, but have carved out another mature and restrained temperament.When he was a child, Xie Jintian liked to hear others praise that he looked like Xie Yu, because Xie Yu was a perfect father in his heart - handsome, tall and tall, with a calm and sophisticated manner.Although he is always very strict with him, in Xie Jintian's heart, this is the so-called father's love.

But when he witnessed his father's "secret", everything fell apart overnight, including the enviable complete family, which also fell apart overnight.All of this made Xie Jintian hate Xie Yu to the bone. After learning that Xie Yu chose to go abroad to escape the responsibilities he should have assumed, he even vowed not to have any interaction with him for the rest of his life.

But things backfired, he couldn't really just hide and escape for the rest of his life, he might as well speak clearly and see what Xie Yu's plans were.

Xie Jintian who was thinking like this finally turned around and looked at Xie Yu coldly: "Just say what you have to say!"

Xie Yu carefully looked at his son who was already as tall as him, and said with complicated emotions: "I came back this time to make up for you."

"Should I say thank you?" Xie Jintian smiled instead of anger, "How do you make it up? The son who has been ignored for so many years has finally grown up, can you give me alms to support you in retirement?"

"Jintian, I know you are angry, but what happened back then was not what you thought." Xie Yu still had a calm expression on his face, as if Xie Jintian's "unreasonable making trouble" was completely in his expectation, "At that time I Threatened, if I don't leave, the situation of your mother and son will be very dangerous."

"Threat? Threatened by whom?" Xie Jintian crossed his arms and examined Xie Yu, as if looking at a hypocrite who was full of lies, "You think I'm still a kid who is easy to fool? Tell me, who has the ability to let You abandoned your wife and traveled across the ocean?"

When Xie Jintian was a child, it was not that he had hoped that Xie Yu would come back. The guilt of exposing his father's scandal and causing the family breakdown made him almost breathless, but his mother was just unable to face the collapse of her marriage failure. Blame him hysterically.Xie Jintian was pointed at at school, and he had to face his mother's sarcastic remarks when he returned home. For a long time, he suffered from severe insomnia.Because as soon as he fell asleep, he would dream that Xie Yu was back, sitting by his bed with a sullen face, and said seriously that he forgave him, don't blame him, and this family will return to the way it was before.Every time when he woke up, Xie Jintian was always full of tears in spite of himself, and over time, he suppressed it into an indestructible indifference, isolating all injuries from his perception.He told himself that he didn't need it, and he didn't care, even if he had to imprint a flaw that could not be made up for a lifetime, he could still grow into what he expected.

Now, he has done it, but this man who once made him feel so painful has appeared in front of him brazenly, frankly tearing open his childhood wounds, and researching the origin and depth of this knife.

"It's meaningless to say these things now. I really haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a father." Xie Yu gave up talking about the past, "I didn't come back to ask for forgiveness, but I just don't want to miss your future life, even if I can't be a father. identity of."

The calmer and more sincere Xie Yu's attitude was, the more the fire in Xie Jintian's heart ignited: "Will you not miss my future life? Then I still have to thank you gratefully?"

Xie Yu knew that Xie Jintian was in a fit of anger at this moment, and there was no point in arguing any further, so he said, "I don't want you to do anything, but you have to believe that I sacrificed almost everything to be able to stand here."

all?Abandoned his family, what is left of him?

Xie Jintian didn't want to listen to Xie Yu's sophistry anymore, their thinking was not in the same dimension at all, he opened the car door and got in, leaving Xie Yu behind.

Yi Yang had a meeting at noon, so he greeted his colleagues and went to the cafeteria to eat first.Before he took a few bites, he saw Xie Jintian sitting opposite him with a dinner plate.

"one person?"

Yi Yang raised his head and glanced at Xie Jintian. During this time, Xie Jintian had been deliberately avoiding him, not only eating at different times, even if he saw him from a distance on weekdays, he would turn his head and pretend not to see him.But today, Xie Jintian took the initiative to get close to him uncharacteristically.

"The party members' meeting will be held later." Yi Yang replied indifferently, and continued to eat with his head bowed.

Yi Yang chewed his food slowly, which made people feel very comfortable.But when he was a child in school, Xie Jintian always thought he was slow to eat, but he had to wait for him to return the plate, which was really awkward when he thought about it.Now that I have grown up, I understand that everyone has his own inherent rhythm, and we need to accommodate each other to achieve long-term success.But in fact, for so many years, Yi Yang has always been accommodating him. From whether to put onions and ginger in the dishes, to career planning, he always has the final say. He has never asked Yi Yang what he thinks , anyway, no matter what he says, Yi Yang will agree, this is simply an enjoyable attachment relationship.

It was precisely because of this that when he discovered Yi Yang's orientation and was questioned tit for tat, he felt such a strong sense of frustration.Why did Yi Yang, who was always obedient and docile to him, suddenly break away from his control and turn into such a hideous appearance?

Xie Jintian didn't want to blame himself, and he didn't want to be a stranger to Yi Yang because of it. After thinking about it, he could only blame Fan Yizhou. He must have used some method to confuse Yi Yang, so that he took this "wrong road". If he didn't pull Yi Yang at this time, he would have let down Yi Yang's friendship with him over the years, and the appearance of Xie Yu reminded him once again that their Xie family owed Yi Yang a debt, this is an indisputable fact .

"Xia Xue was frightened that day." Xie Jintian lowered his voice, "She doesn't know about you."

Yi Yang didn't expect Xie Jintian to bring up this matter in this crowded place, his eyes instantly turned cold.

Seeing Yi Yang like this, Xie Jintian couldn't help feeling a little guilty, and said: "I told her that you are not that kind of person. She also saw that you were forced, and Fan Yizhou is always pestering you..."

"He didn't pester me." Yi Yang put down his chopsticks and interrupted Xie Jintian.

Xie Jintian was taken aback, staring at Yi Yang blankly, but Yi Yang stood up with the dinner plate in his hand: "You can't cure my 'disease', and you don't need to worry about me and Fan Yizhou. If you come to me, It's because I scared my senior sister that day and affected your relationship, so I can clarify."

After saying these words, Yi Yang left, leaving Xie Jintian sitting at the dining table, staring at the plate of food that made him tasteless.