deep hypnosis

Fan Yizhou hadn't contacted Yi Yang for a long time since the last time he had an unhappiness with Fan Yizhou because he wanted to stay and take care of Xie Jintian.I still remember Fan Yizhou's "self-deception" before leaving that day. Yi Yang wanted to argue that it was just because he promised Xia Xue to take care of him, and he didn't have any extra thoughts, but what if he said it? "Xie Jintian" is after all a deep abyss between the two of them, insisting on a theory seems like a guilty conscience, besides, he has no position to explain to Fan Yizhou, he no longer intends to continue this relationship.

However, what Yi Yang didn't expect was that Fan Yizhou, whom he thought he would not pester, actually appeared downstairs in his rented house half a month later.

In fact, Fan Yizhou never thought that he would be such a person who can't let go of his feelings, but every time he came home and saw the empty room and the clean and tidy kitchen without any smoke, he felt that he couldn't bear it for a moment. such loneliness.He opened all the doors and checked each room, but except for the celadon cup in the wine cabinet and the ring on his hand, he couldn't find any traces belonging to Yi Yang.He lost the one he loved, and no matter who caused it, he couldn't forgive himself, and suffering from such increasing annoyance and despair, what is self-esteem?

But when Fan Yizhou finally waited for Yi Yang in the winter evening with anxiety, what he got was a more chilling answer than this cold winter night.

"I've already made up my mind, let's end here..." Yi Yang's downcast eyes cast a haze that cannot be dispelled, "I have seriously thought about our relationship, and I used you first. This kind of relationship has been from the very beginning. There is more guilt than sincerity, and I believe you feel it too, no matter how hard we try, there is still a gap between us."

"You mean Xie Jintian?" Fan Yizhou was naturally unwilling to accept such an argument, "This is a condition I accepted a long time ago. As I said, what I want is not fairness."

"But I care." Yi Yang exhaled lightly, turning pale in the winter night, "Some things are more important than feelings themselves, at least for me, and I hope you respect my decision."

"Of course I respect, but in this relationship, you and I are not equal." Fan Yizhou couldn't listen to Yi Yang's words at this time, and just blindly confessed, "I admit that I concealed something from you before. But unscrupulous honesty can sometimes be a kind of harm."

When Yi Yang heard this, he suddenly raised his eyes to look at Fan Yizhou.Fan Yizhou was taken aback by that clear gaze that seemed to see through everything.He didn't dare to guess the reason why Yi Yang insisted on breaking up, until now, when he caught the fleeting coolness in his eyes under the dim light, he felt a familiar and deep-rooted fear.

"In the name of feelings, all unscrupulous means are worthy of forgiveness, right?" Yi Yang paused, but his tone was affirmative with conclusive evidence.

At this moment, Fan Yizhou no longer doubted that intuitive guess, the fear in his heart boiled his blood, and his heart screamed, but he was no longer able to refute a single word for himself.

Yi Yang's movement of turning around was like a silent sentence, repeating over and over again that this is the ending called "a crushing defeat".

There seemed to be continuous bells ringing in Fan Yizhou's ears, deafeningly reminding him that the time had come and it was time to wake up from the dream.He was stunned by the continuous loud noise, his eyes were tearing apart, and his heart was twisted like a knife.When he came back to his senses, he pressed Yi Yang and kissed him roughly, blocking his lips.

It was this mouth that split his soul with the most ruthless words.He loves him and hates him, but if he loses him, he will have nothing.This is the most vulgar drama, a futile demand that he has always dismissed, but at this time, when all words seem pale and powerless, when all expectations are in vain, after being drained of self-esteem, only His unwillingness and despair have occupied the high ground of his consciousness, manipulating him gloatingly, rampaging along his desires.

However, Yi Yang didn't burn everything because of his evil fire. Once he made up his mind, his seemingly watery temperament formed a thick layer of ice, fully armed and wrapped his reason, and it was hard to melt away.So his lips were cold, his heart was cold, and there was a coldness in his eyes.

When Fan Yizhou was pushed away by Yi Yang's knee, he faced the severe winter that made his heart feel haggard.Everything that he worked hard to build in the past withered instantly in this winter night, and the shivering, lingering spark was only enough to light his way back, but he could no longer turn back.

The sudden appearance of Xie Jintian and Xia Xue seems to be a kind of providence.

Fan Yizhou suddenly realized that this might be a turning point.He preemptively protected Yi Yang under his barrier, and with his usual calmness, Xia Xue had no choice but to back away from the sharp edge.To his surprise, Xie Jintian didn't say a word from the beginning to the end.But his tense expression and stiff posture have betrayed his emotions.Sure enough, since Yi Yang took care of him in the hospital, his attitude towards Yi Yang has subtly changed.

Xie Jintian once said that even if he didn't want it, he wouldn't give it up, but now, his abnormal silence is evidence of his wavering?

Fan Yizhou scoffed in his heart, even if the same goal by different routes, he would not give Xie Jintian another chance to hurt Yi Yang.So after the two of them left, he chose the showdown that would lead to a desperate situation: "You know, right? My cooperation with Xie Jintian."

These words were like throwing a stone into the lake, and the splash of water was the flash of surprise in Yi Yang's eyes.

Fan Yizhou smiled wryly, knowing that he guessed right.He was always afraid of this day, but when he ushered in the final judgment seat, he was like a criminal who had left his hometown and been on the run for many years. He couldn't help but thank him for bringing him to justice because the days of hiding in Tibet and darkness were finally over. man of law.He no longer has to perform affectionate expressions with guilt, nor does he need to carefully hide his selfishness.At this time, what presented to Yi Yang was the ugliest and most real desire.

Fan Yizhou took off the ring on his left index finger and put it in Yi Yang's palm: "I don't deserve it, I used despicable means to treat you, because I am not as determined and selfless as I have shown, I hope that my efforts will be rewarded, but I don't want to go through a long wait... It is because I chose this shortcut that I ruined the possibility between us, and I am willing to bear the consequences."

Yi Yang withdrew his hand and said nothing.That ring was still wearing Fan Yizhou's temperature, but something had cooled down the moment he learned the truth.

"I don't want to make any more excuses. I deserve all of this." Fan Yizhou carefully observed Yi Yang's expression, and said carefully, "I know that no matter what I do, I can't change the ending, but can you make up for it?" chance? I just hope that in your memory after many years, I'm not such a heinous bastard."

The spreading silence stretched the restlessness as if it spanned day and night.

Fan Yizhou held his breath and waited for a long time, until he finally got a sentence—"I only have one request."

He couldn't help but be overjoyed.

A few days later, Xie Jintian received the growth video to be played at the wedding, and took it to pick Xia Xue off work.

When Xia Xue walked out of the business building and saw Xie Jintian's car parked on the side of the road, she couldn't help feeling the urge to take a detour.In the past few days, she has had trouble sleeping and eating, and finally she has some reflections on the relationship between the two of them. She was intoxicated in the feeling of self-sacrifice before, and she didn't feel that there was any problem with Xie Jintian's interaction with her, but she can think about it carefully Under the circumstances, almost every time the two had conflicts, Xie Jintian would choose to escape with the most emotionally cold treatment, instead of discussing her true feelings with her, and unwilling to take the risk of quarreling.Xie Jintian, who rejects people thousands of miles away like that, makes Xia Xue feel very strange, but within a week, Xie Jintian will become the man Xia Xue is familiar with who loves him deeply, and uses his sweet offensive to make Xia Xue heal her scars and forget It hurts.

A bouquet of roses was handed to her, and Xia Xue had to stop under the envious eyes of passers-by.

"I'm sorry, although I don't know how many times I've apologized to you." Xie Jintian's tone seemed very sincere, as if the past few days of their cold war were all for brewing the joy of Xiao Biesheng's newly married.

Xia Xue suddenly felt a little ridiculous, laughing at her own blindness in the past and her wavering as always at this moment.She knew that she shouldn't let such a man gain the upper hand in her relationship, but she still couldn't speak coldly and turn a blind eye to him.After all, she didn't want him to feel that she was a hard-to-please woman, even though her grievances had accumulated over time into a haze that was difficult to ignore, and would always block out the sun and swallow the brilliance of her face.

Their reconciliation was a matter of course, Xie Jintian didn't notice Xia Xue's strangeness at all, and the two of them tacitly didn't mention the matter of Yi Yang and Fan Yizhou that they ran into before.After eating, as usual, he went to sit in a cafe near Xia Xue's house. Xie Jintian took this opportunity to show Xia Xue the freshly released growth video.

First is Xia Xue’s. From the nostalgic old alley to the magnificent commercial building, the change of the background is accompanied by the growth from immature to mature, which makes Xia Xue, who is immersed in the memory, very sad.

"You were like a doll when you were young." Xie Jintian never hesitated to praise.

Xia Xue smiled: "I always feel that the past twenty years have been summarized into these few photos, which is a bit sour."

Xie Jintian took her hand, squeezed her palm lightly and smiled, "Only a literary youth like you would think so."

The next paragraph is Xie Jintian's, from black and white photos of his birth to work photos in white coats, everything is available.Xia Xue felt a little surprised. She clearly remembered that Xie Jintian said that because he didn't like taking pictures, he didn't have any pictures of himself around him, so he had to go home to look for them.

"These are all given by mother?"

Xia Xue accompanied Xue Jintian to his aunt's house that day, obviously the trouble was not pleasant, and he forgot to retake the photo, could it be made up later?

"No, this is..." When Xie Jintian said this, his smile froze on his lips.

The words that had just come to his lips slipped away suddenly, like a sneaky thief.He forgot what he was going to say before, until a sentence surfaced, which abruptly filled his vacant memory.

"It was given to me by my mother."

Seeing Xie Jintian's incoherent appearance, Xia Xue couldn't help but feel a little strange, but in view of Xie Jintian's complicated relationship with his mother, she didn't want to ask too many questions. Anyway, the source of this photo is not that important.It's just that Xia Xue could feel the photographer's strong affection for Xie Jintian from that shot.If this was really taken by Xie Jintian's mother, then the relationship between their mother and son must not be that bad.

Xia Xue was feeling relieved by this, but when Xie Jintian's cell phone rang.

"Sorry, my aunt." Xie Jintian answered the phone, but before he said a few words, his expression became very ugly.

In the end, a chilling sneer appeared on his lips: "What is he doing back home? He has an incurable disease, or is he here to inherit the inheritance of which richest man?"

After saying a few more words, Xie Jintian hung up the phone with a livid face, and Xia Xue couldn't ask him who it was, after all, the two had just reconciled, and she didn't want to get burned.

Xie Jintian seemed very disappointed because of the phone call, and he was not in the mood to have a romantic relationship with Xia Xue, so he discussed the progress of the wedding preparations, and then sent her home.

Xia Xue watched Xie Jintian's car driving into the night from the balcony, and suddenly felt that she had never really understood this man.It is understandable for Xie Jintian to strive for perfection in front of others, but facing her as his fiancée, he is still fully armed, rarely revealing his heart or showing his vulnerable side, so she can't find any opportunity to get close to his heart.This is not the intimate relationship she wants. Although she also lacks love experience and does not know what kind of experience the resonance of the soul is, the woman's intuition tells her that such a marriage cannot bring her the happiness she expected .What she wants is not the envious eyes of others, but a partner who can depend on her on a spiritual level.

A few days later, Xia Xue got such an opportunity.

When her father was undergoing rehabilitation, her mother pulled her into the corridor and said, "Do you know what happened between Jin Tian and his father?"

"What's wrong?" Xia Xue was taken aback, not knowing why her mother asked.

"Jin Tian's father called this morning, saying that he has returned to China, but because of some misunderstandings in the past, Jin Tian didn't want to see him, and he wouldn't let him attend the wedding..."

Xia Xue recalled the phone call that Xie Jintian answered a few days ago, and only now did she realize that his gloom at that time was because his father had returned.Before, Xia Xue only heard Xie Jintian mention that his parents divorced when he was young, she didn't know what kind of person his father was, and she didn't know what kind of gap there was between them.But judging from Xie Jintian's attitude that day, their father and son seemed to be sworn enemies.

Xia Xue told her mother the pitiful information she knew, and then persuaded: "Mom, let's leave this matter alone..."

"Silly boy, he's your future father-in-law!" Xia Xue's mother didn't care, and patted the back of Xia Xue's hand with a smile. It is also a merit to be a good friend and come forward to lead a thread so that the father and son can settle their suspicions."

Xia Xue really felt that this was a little inappropriate, but she also hoped that there would be a natural ending as her mother had said, so maybe Xie Jintian's attitude towards her would be different, as long as he was willing to accept this precious kindness.