deep hypnosis

After this catastrophic hypnosis, what followed was not the joy of victory, but sober despair.Yi Yang's soul seemed to be floating in mid-air, looking down at the body tossing and turning on the bed, calmly analyzing every symbol in the subconscious.

Nine-colored deer is a sacred and pure creature. He represents this little-known feeling hidden outside the world, and the woodcutter who took revenge for his own selfish desire and brought the king to round up Nine-colored deer knows it. who is it.It is said that falling in love with someone brings weakness and armor.However, the cold and heavy armor that Yi Yang puts on is used to resist the killing from the person he loves.He trampled his feelings into the soil, and even tried to flog the grave and kill the corpse.

In the metaphor about Shimen, Yi Yang finally understands that the only one who can save him is himself. In the past, he worried too much and never really lived for himself. Fortunately, it is not too late.The night is long, and when the dawn comes, he has the right to be reborn once again.

Get up and wash, Fan Yizhou, who is farther away than him, has already gone a step ahead because of the morning meeting. As usual, there is a piece of toast with eggs in the microwave oven in the kitchen. The black cat sheriff, who smells the smell but can't eat it, squats there with his neck up Looking hard, Yi Yang gently stroked the little guy's head and fed it some cat food.

It was an ordinary-looking morning, but in Yi Yang's eyes, everything was already changed—the sky was gray, the lights were dark, and his heart was cold, but at least his eyes were clear, and he was no longer confused. Blinded by wishful thinking.

Yi Yang was sitting on the rickety bus, and when he thought of seeing Xie Jintian again, he had a solid urge to escape.But so what if he really escaped to the ends of the earth?He also said this to Cheng Yan, if you really can't let go, it's just a cage close by.

Arriving at the unit, the moment Yi Yangqia pushed open the door of the department, he almost bumped into Xie Jintian who was about to wash the cups.

The two looked at each other, both startled.Xie Jintian felt guilty because Yi Yang knew that he had taken those two books, so he preemptively asked him: "Have you had breakfast?

Such seemingly ordinary greetings were rare in the past. When did Xie Jintian really care about him?Every time I asked about his condition, it was just to change the topic or just have nothing to say.

"Eat." Yi Yang and Xie Jintian passed by, not looking at him any more.

Xie Jintian was standing at the door with a cup in his hand, suddenly feeling a little uneasy.He couldn't tell what was wrong, but he always felt that Yi Yang today was completely different from usual.

In the next few days, Xie Jintian was always waiting for Yi Yang to ask him about the two "Outlines of National History" that came to his door privately and took away the two "Outlines of National History". His mood was like the two weeks before the college entrance examination. Hope to be relieved sooner.

However, Yi Yang never mentioned this matter.

This made Xie Jintian unable to let go of his hanging heart. He couldn't help guessing whether it was Fan Yizhou who said or did something behind his back. Knowing that he couldn't confront Yi Yang face to face, he became more blatant.Out of such worries, Xie Jintian thought about using his lunch break to hypnotize Yi Yang privately and come up with some words at once, but he was also afraid that Fan Yizhou would do something to Yi Yang before him, so that if he stunned the snake, it would be full of trouble. All lose.

What Xie Jintian didn't know was that Yi Yang had already mentioned to Fan Yizhou that he wanted to move out during the few days when he was restless, but he didn't give a reason.No matter how softly and forcefully Fan Yizhou questioned, Yi Yang only said that he wanted to calm down for a while.Fan Yizhou is not a suspicious person, but he has to think about Xie Jintian. After all, in Yi Yang's heart, that is the real master who has occupied his relationship for 20 years. After all, he is just a half-way monk's counterfeit.This kind of cognition made Fan Yizhou, who thought Yi Yang had begun to accept him gradually, very irritated, but he was helpless.He can't seriously restrict Yi Yang's personal freedom, can he?

Fortunately, the house Yi Yangxin rented was only five kilometers away from his home. That night, the temperature dropped again with the rain.Fan Yizhou drove Yi Yang to the rented house with one bedroom and one living room on the two floors. After getting settled properly, he looked around the dwelling with dissatisfaction, picked on the grounds of distress, and wished Yi Yang a whimsical Able to repent with conscience, or say something that allows him to take advantage of the emptiness and confess his sincerity.

However, Yi Yang remained silent until he had to say goodbye before saying thanks.

"If it's my fault, you should at least give me a chance to make up for it?" Fan Yizhou reluctantly made the last struggle.

Yi Yang touched the black cat sheriff who was rubbing against his feet, and took a deep look at Fan Yizhou: "It's my problem."

This is also a sentence that Yi Yang has been talking about these days.Fan Yizhou knew Yi Yang well and knew that he never lied, but this kind of perfunctory excuse, which seemed to be an excuse, was really hard for him to accept.It's like being pushed hard when you smile and open your arms.

"It's raining, let's go back early!" Yi Yang looked at the dark red sky outside the window, as if he had cried.

Fan Yizhou stood in a stalemate for a while, trying to convince himself to give Yi Yang some time, but when he turned around, he finally couldn't help saying: "You don't need me anymore, do you?"

The humbleness and desolation hidden in these words is what Yi Yang can most empathize with.He thought of the madness he had deliberately anesthetized himself, and regretted the unscrupulous use of Fan Yizhou even more.Although they each get what they need, their relationship has been unequal from the very beginning. He sits on one end of the high-raised balance and looks at Fan Yizhou, who humbly and extravagantly begs for his pity on the other side, feeling distressed and regretful all the time. .A love affair that has been intertwined from the beginning cannot blossom and bear fruit. They all know each other, but there are always some people who stubbornly think that they can change the ending.

"I just... don't want to see another person's shadow through you, it's not fair." Yi Yang stared at Fan Yizhou's stiff back and said slowly.

"But what I want is not fairness."

Fan Yizhou's last sentence was cut off between him and Yi Yang by the sound of closing the door.

Yi Yang stood looking at the door for a long time, then took off the ring.

He couldn't forgive Fan Yizhou, let alone himself.

In the dance classroom of the gymnasium, Yi Yang was wearing a Taoist uniform and a black belt, standing in front of the mirror and dismantling routine movements. Behind him was a room full of students, all listening to his explanation attentively.Xiao Mu folded his arms and smiled. It had been a long time since he saw Yi Yang's devotion to being a teacher. He admitted that he was late on purpose so that he could find an excuse for Yi Yang to teach him half a class. The effect is obviously in line with his psychological expectations.

After teaching a whole set of routines, Yi Yang handed the students back to Xiao Mu.In the final actual combat session, Yi Yang had no distractions in his mind. Although he hadn't trained for a long time, his body remembered all the movements that he had tried so hard, and he quickly regained the fullness of sweating like rain.

After training, the two went to eat supper together.Xiao Mu mentioned that he hoped that Yi Yang would cooperate with him as a substitute teacher for a long time, and then give him a certain share.

"The boss is willing to approve this project, which is also very important to me, but it is too tiring for me to lead so many students alone."

Sensitive Yi Yang actually knew that Xiao Mu didn't really invite him to join for such a reason. He was grateful for Xiao Mu's thoughtfulness hidden under his carefree personality, but he couldn't agree.

"I probably... won't stay here for long."

Xiao Mu was stunned for a moment, and for a moment he didn't understand what Yi Yang meant: "Are you going? Where are you going?"

"I haven't figured it out yet." Yi Yang put a chopstick of vegetables into the bowl, but just fiddled with them, "When everything is settled, I may find a second-tier city to settle down and live a leisurely life."

"Are you going to retire early?" Xiao Mu was very surprised that Yi Yang would say such a thing, "Even if someone is sorry for you, you can't give up on yourself like this!"

"It's not self-defeating." Yi Yang smiled, "I just feel that I have lived too uncomfortable these years."

More than uncomfortable?It's just frustrating.I thought everything would be over if I endured it, but in this world, there are still feelings that cannot be diluted by time and injuries that cannot be healed by time.

Seeing Xiao Mu staring at him suspiciously, Yi Yang had no choice but to tell the story with Xie Jintian from the beginning to the end. The flat tone was what worried Xiao Mu the most, and he couldn't help but burst out several times. foul language.Before, when he first learned that Yi Yang was also gay and had a crush on Xie Jintian for many years, he was really shocked, but because of his emotional experience with Cheng Yan, he was very considerate of Yi Yang's feelings.Therefore, when he learned that Xie Jintian, who seemed to be a good-looking talent, would be so cruel to his childhood sweetheart Yi Yang, he was naturally indignant.He really didn't expect that Xie Jintian would be so bottomless and disregarding nostalgia. No wonder he proposed to use hypnosis to kill Cheng Yan's feelings. It turned out that he was already a "recidivist".

"I heard that his father used to..." Xiao Mu heard gossip from the girls in the club when he was a student. After all, Xie Jintian was also a hot figure in the club at that time.

"There are some other reasons, but it's about me and him after all." Yi Yang held the drink can, and the cold temperature seeped into his heart through his palm.

Of course he understands Xie Jintian's mentality of hating homosexuality because of his father's scandal and growing up ridiculed, but is suffering such misfortune a legitimate reason for him to copy and pass on this misfortune to others?

Yi Yang is used to forbearance, but this does not mean that he is really weak.

"Brother, I want to ask you to do me a favor."

"Just say it!"

Yi Yang's eyes fell on the window, which reflected his appearance, overlapping with a pair of dark deer eyes.