blue face disaster

It is really a dream that is both real and illusory. When I wake up from the dream, how painful it is.

In my life, after all, I still went to the past.

Only this time is different, because there is Xia.

I dreamed about my previous life.

Although my boyfriend agrees with me, the two are not together. If he doesn't tell me, I won't admit it.

He actually fell in love with another person, but I stubbornly pursued him, always hoping that there was still some room for redemption.At the same time, the male best friend who chased after me and hoped to find some leeway with me was deeply in love.

I was also quite a bastard at the time, and I was reluctant to part with my boyfriend, and neither were my male girlfriends.In the end, neither the fish nor the bear's paw gets it.

My male best friend treats me extremely well, in a word, every detail.Emotionally, this is true in life.

But it just so happened that he came one step too late.

I was dizzy at the time, and I couldn't love it, and it became an obsession after a long time.I probably have too much obsession with my boyfriend.

I also tried to alienate him and forsake him, but my heart got closer to him.Like falling into a bottomless abyss.But he, after all, only looks at the appearance, probably loves another person more.

I only thought of myself as the protagonist in someone else's life drama, but I never thought that singing a supporting role would never steal the tears that the protagonist should shed.If I shed the protagonist's tears for no reason, no one will be distressed.

The person I like, he failed to have a positive result with me after all.He is with another woman.

I was deeply touched, but when I was discouraged, I accidentally saw a line of poetry: "The world is safe with the Dharma, and you will not fail the Tathagata or your Qing."

A person who sees through the world of mortals, achieves immortality, and forgets the past of the world, how can there be so-called sadness and joy of feelings.

A person who can't see through the world of mortals and can't let go, and has a restless state of mind, how can he obtain the boundless Dharma?

I just thought it was a sad poem, but now I read it and feel very open.

I let go of my obsession with that person.

I went to pray to Buddha.

It is said that the Buddha is more effective just now when the Buddha is on the mountain.

I traveled thousands of miles and went to a spiritual mountain, thinking about praying and praying, which can be regarded as the Buddha's thanks for enlightening my mind.

Climbing up the mountain naturally shows more sincerity, one step at a time.

But for some reason, he answered a phone call from his boyfriend, and he said without a trace of emotion on the phone: "xx, I have a girlfriend."

The strange thing about the phone call was that I was climbing up the steep slope, and I silently said "oh", absent-minded, my mind went blank, as if the whole world had collapsed.That spiritual pillar has collapsed.

At that moment, I seemed to understand who I loved.

The sole of his foot stepped on the air, and he stumbled and fell.

Mountain climbing can kill people.

I really don't know if I didn't die once in my previous life.Fortunately, God has treated me kindly, and even brought back a wealthy life in the general's mansion for me.Although there is some deviation in gender, it is not a big problem.

Thinking about it now, I still have the nerve to think that when I was studying Buddhism and Taoism, I went to climb the mountain and failed to fulfill my wish, but put my life in vain.

Also worth it.

After all, I met the prince, Shen Mo.

I used to think I must be the happiest...uh...shemale in the world.

I thought I had used up all my luck to meet them.But they are deceitful deceptions, calculating calculations, acting in acting.If you want to know nothing, just turn a deaf ear.

It turned out that if I reincarnated again, I would still end up in the same miserable situation, with no lover, no friends, and no relatives.

The whole world is gloomy and dark.I said to myself: I have seen through the world of mortals, but I have seen through the world of mortals.After all, it was no match for that person saying that I have a girlfriend.

Just like Shen Mo's extremely cold words: "The person I like is the prince."

The morals of the world are really too fair to me, too partial, even a little paranoid.

Could it be that I am the lone star of Tiansha, destined to be lonely?I will never get the love I want, and I will be betrayed, deceived, tortured to pieces, and physically and mentally exhausted.

Lived an extra life, still the same fate.I lived a really useless life, and I really feel sad for my own story.

Inexplicably recalling things from the previous life, my thoughts are filled with thoughts.

But in this life, I fell in love with Mr. Shen almost madly, but I never took care of other people's feelings.Obviously alienated the crown prince, but the crown prince often said that I may have forgotten him, and only remembered the son of the Shen family.

Now that I think about it, it is true.Everything is self-inflicted.

I don't dare to look for the prince, I know, all I think of is just a part, the prince's scheme, his secret, his thoughts, I can't guess.I don't know what kind of thrilling and tactful ending it will be.

Brother Xia said, Rongguo must win a big victory.

I cut off the constant thoughts, the clues that I can't figure out, where exactly, where is it?I am confused.

How should the crown prince stop Bai Muyan, who is in a hurry, and what should father and mother do.This battle is not a battle between countries, but a trick to kill people with a sword, and to make things worse.

Also, cheating.

Shen Mo has already left, except for the portrait of him that I copied with my own hands, I didn't take anything with me.Including his violin.

He said save it for me.

I ridiculed myself secretly, this kind of good piano, if there is no bosom friend to play it, and a good teacher to teach it, it is worth noting.

A few little guys in the room were still hovering in the room, falling slowly, and standing upright.

They even have spirituality after living here for a few days, and they know to stay with me.

Shen Mo walked really decisively.

When I thought of this, my chest felt tight, my eyes were dizzy, and a wound in my heart was also opened.

The sword I took for Shen Mo last time, I haven’t recovered yet. I have a weak constitution. Since I was young, I have relied on the good things sent from the palace by various princes and the good things that Brother Xia wandered around to replenish my body. I don't like to take medicine, and I don't always take care of my body. I always feel that the wound doesn't hurt.

Now I am heartbroken, and even my physical illnesses are coming back. My body is already exhausted and I can't hold on.

Blessings are unparalleled, and misfortunes do not come singly.

So I was going to die of illness?

"A Si?" It seemed to be Brother Xia's voice, and I listened in a daze.

I even cry in my dreams.Faintly heard someone say, "He doesn't want to live, I'm just afraid..."

There is a clear scent of sandalwood in the air.

In a short time, my body was forcibly injected with a force that stimulated my consciousness, he withdrew his hand, and I fell into the arms of that person, he smiled lightly and said: "It would be unfair to die, and I won't allow you to die. As you said, Lord Yan dare not accept my people."

It was Brother Xia who watched me day and night under the dim light. He always hated me for seeking death. He often said, "There are too many trivial things to do after the funeral. It's too much trouble. I'm really too lazy to do it. It's better to save the dying and heal the wounded sooner." "

Brother Xia is so kind, he is my life-saving medicine all the time.

Whenever that sandalwood sticks close to me, I will be saved.It's been like this since childhood