I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

It is less than a thousand years of cultivating the Tao to become a demon overnight; when I meet you, I become a Buddha immediately!How many years ago, thousands of arrows pierced the pain of the heart!All overnight betrayals!In those years, those times, I was still actively preparing for the CPA exam!So much so that I only remember what other people said to me. : Your mother is mentally ill!You are a bitch!You can only afford to sell goods on the floor!I finally became a psychopath as she wished!Suffering from severe depression, maybe that's me so far!Sudden catastrophe!I have lost my memory for 4 years, and I have been sick for 4 years! Lost countless things in 4 years, mobile phones lost one after another, 4000 yuan spa machine was soaked in the pool for a year.The newly bought clothes and shoes, the umbrella lost countless times... Those pasts that are not remembered for a second will eventually pass!

Missing you, missing you is not just emptiness, but in the final analysis, I have real feelings. I am an enemy of the whole world, and I am willing to suffer all these hardships!I didn't give up, I just didn't see you!I thought I couldn’t hurt myself like this... You know all the past better than me