I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

How long has it been since I found you, I remember the last time I scolded you bloody, and said to you: I am tired of the previous state, and now I know you have a girlfriend (although that was after you found me again and again No stone sinks into the sea (2013～month) It has been four years since today.Now I am extremely regretful that I was naughty and stole your □□ number, so I don’t have to be so embarrassed, because I actually asked if you want to marry her.I swear that I have always been a runaway partner in my life, and then I feel unreasonable to ask this kind of question.

Push the time forward a little bit, why am I scolding you?I have sworn to you countless times: I will never scold you again, but I used to be depressed and autistic. If I don’t scold you and I can’t scold others, how can I be better?What is the content: ?let me see.You are a stupid pig!I finally know how good I am!It's all because of you!Don't you even want to work!Don't let me catch you!I will break your legs!You ugly melon!