I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

He finally let me out, and I babbled nervously, begging him not to blacklist me.How can someone be blacklisted and get back.He said that I kept nagging and the phone kept ringing.It affected him.But my head hurts when I don't talk.There used to be a lot of pain, but now it is the last pain, and it started to disappear yesterday.If I dare not talk to him today, he will say that I am nagging.But uncontrollable irritability, those days are so sad