small thoughts

After staying in the hospital for a month, Di Bai left the room with mint.

When he got home, the room was filled with dry air of dust. Di Bai opened the window, and the sounds from the outside world poured in instantly. Di Bai leaned on the sofa and was bored. He was not used to the room without mint.

After he was discharged from the hospital, Di Bai's leader specially gave him a short vacation.Every time Di Bai works overtime, the leader knows it well, and wants him to relax this time.Ever since he inexplicably agreed to Yang Keyan's invitation to travel last time, Di Bai has been planning what to bring and what to buy. Since it is a trip, he must prepare a change of clothes. Appropriate, don’t bring too thick clothes, bring all the toiletries, bring more money, snacks on the road, and read books when you are bored, books should also be brought, and, oh yes, The medicine must be brought, if Yang Keyan finds out that he did not take the medicine on time, the consequences will be very serious... After thinking about it like this, I made a full list of 3 pages.

On the day of departure, Di Bai rushed to the agreed place with big bags and small bags on his back. If it was said that if he refused the invitation at that time, could the word "reject" be uttered?He questioned himself in his heart, of course the answer was yes, but he was unwilling to refuse, walking along with such untouchable feelings, Yang Keyan's figure gradually enlarged in the distance.

Yang Keyan brought a smaller push box, wearing a simple V-neck T-shirt, a casual suit, and black tailored trousers to further set off his elegant and stable temperament.He sat on the bench reading a book and waited for Di Bai.This is the first time that Di Bai saw such a casual Yang Keyan. He used to see him in either a white coat or a formal shirt. Today, Yang Keyan like this has a strong affinity.

"Sorry, I am late……"

Di Bai took his big and small bags and ran to Yang Keyan panting.

"Are you moving house?"

Yang Keyan raised his eyes and saw such a situation, he couldn't help laughing.

"Because there are too many things to bring, and one bag can't fit at all."

"What are you carrying?"

Di Bai chattered and started to tell Yang Keyan about the things he had brought. Yang Keyan kept looking into his eyes while talking, until he realized that he might have lost his composure, and then slowly finished.

"Sorry, I've talked too much..."

"No, you are so cute~"

Yang Keyan rubbed Di Bai's hair habitually, and then carried the big bag he brought.

"Xiaoyan, I'll just recite it, after all, I brought a lot of things..."

"Xiao Yan?"

It was the first time for Yang Keyan to hear someone calling him that. After all, even his parents had never called him that, so he seemed a little surprised.

"Uh... You didn't want me to call you Doctor Yang, so I thought it would be easier to call you that way. If you don't like it, I'll call you Doctor Yang."

Di Bai touched his cheek in embarrassment. If he had known earlier, he wouldn't have called it that way. Maybe Yang Keyan didn't like being called this way at all, and he was agitated again.

"Then I'll call you 'Little White' from now on. I like to call people I care about."

"Eh?"

"is it not OK?"

"...Okay, Xiaoyan."

"Well, let's go quickly, I've already bought the ticket, Xiaobai."

"Shall we go by train? Xiaoyan."

"Yes, the scenery where the train passes is particularly beautiful, it will definitely open your eyes, Xiaobai."

Just like this, you talked to each other, and the two of them happily had a house-like conversation on the way to the station, just like a child without any burden. Yang Keyan was committed to getting along with Di Bai in this way.

"I haven't taken a train for a long time, that is, I was taken by my parents a few times when I was a child."

Di Bai got into the car and looked around excitedly. For him who doesn't like to go out very much, the traffic like the train is still a little strange.

"Well, I will take the train to visit other places from time to time, just to relax my mind."

"can not tell."

"what?"

"Xiaoyan seems to be... well... she goes to work honestly at work, stays at home after work, and doesn't go out often on rest days. How should I put it, she is a very quiet person."

"To put it bluntly, you just think I'm an otaku."

Di Bai stuck out his tongue quietly, because he is an otaku, so for the person he likes, he can't help but imagine him as the same kind as himself, so that he can have a foothold for his anticipation.

Hearing Di Bai describe himself like this for the first time, Yang Keyan didn't show dissatisfaction on his face, or he didn't want to produce any details that would make Di Bai feel uncomfortable under such a situation.

With the rapid movement of the train, they gradually moved away from the noisy city. Looking through the window, there were no tall buildings, the houses were getting lower and lower, and there were fewer and fewer people. In the countryside, the green eyes immediately moistened Di Bai's dry eye sockets.

"Xiaobai, look, there is a sea of ​​flowers over there."

Yang Keyan pointed to a colorful patch in the distance for Di Bai to see.

"Really, there are so many beautiful flowers, Xiaoyan, look at the wind blowing, it's like waves coming one after another, and the mood is much better in an instant!"

Di Bai looked at those beautiful flowers and said excitedly, Yang Keyan looked sideways at Di Bai who was like a child, at this time he really felt the happy energy from Di Bai, it was like a trickling clear stream, taking Inexhaustible, inexhaustible.

After [-] hours of pleasant viewing along the way, the time passed quickly, and the two finally arrived at their destination.

"You are finally here."

I saw Jing Yi greeted them at the exit.

"Hello."

When Di Bai saw Jing Yi, he was a little cautious, but he still bowed politely to say hello.

"Don't be so polite, boy Bai Nen, just come here as if you were at home~"

"Bai, Bai Nen boy?!"

"Yes, the skin is very white!"

Jing Yi said that he wanted to pinch Di Bai's face, and he was so frightened that he hurriedly hid behind Yang Keyan.

"Stop teasing him."

Yang Keyan threw the big bag to Jingyi and told him to carry it on his back, while he pulled Di Bai to walk in front.

"Hey~ Do you know the place? Shouldn't I be leading you?"

Jing Yi hurriedly chased after him with a bag on his back and a box.He took Yang Keyan and Di Bai to his farm. Although he is a policeman, he has always liked running the farm. When he rarely has free time, he grows flowers, grass and vegetables by himself, and raises calves and lambs.Although the farm is not very big, it is backed by the forest, and the house is independent in the middle. The front is surrounded by a wooden fence to form a yard with flowers planted in it.When the weather is fine, sitting on a small stone table and drinking good tea brewed from the spring water in the forest is a special experience.

"Wow! What a cute bleating sheep!"

When Di Bai came to the farm, when he saw the chubby and soft lamb, his childlike innocence burst out instantly. He couldn't help but want to reach out and touch it. He stayed there for a long time and refused to leave.

"Hey, do you want to hug and sleep?" Jing Yi continued jokingly.

"No, no, I don't sleep well, I will crush it."

"It's okay~ My sheep are very resistant to stress~"

Jing Yi smiled and put the luggage back to the house with Yang Keyan, leaving Di Bai alone to continue playing with the sheep outside.

"You two just play here for a few days. I'm going to be on duty tomorrow, and I'm going back to the police station tonight."

Jing Yi took out two cans of Coke from the refrigerator and threw one to Yang Keyan.

"So anxious?"

"Secret mission."

"Why did you agree to come to the farm so readily this time? It was so rare before that you didn't even let me go around."

"Thank you for helping me a lot before. Last time, I took advantage of the opportunity to take over the old nest of the forces behind the fat man. This time, I will thank you for everything. Besides, it is rare for you to make a request to me~ It seems..."

"what?"

Jing Yi stood by the window and lit a cigarette, looked through the glass at Di Bai who was still teasing the lamb outside, and gave Yang Keyan another wink.

"You really like that white boy?"

"Can you see it? I like it."

Yang Keyan also walked to the window, looking at the innocent Di Bai, his thoughts were wandering, he was not sure whether he could be accepted by Di Bai, and he didn't want to expand the topic.

"It's just my feeling, don't take it to heart."

That night, Jing Yi left the farm.Before leaving, he did not forget to tell Yang Keyan, "Take care of the farm for me".

In the next few days, Di Bai would get up early in the morning, and then run to the fence to look after the lambs and calves, and occasionally took them out for a walk. Yang Keyan had to shout for a long time before calling him away.They went to the forest behind to play together. In the river in the forest, Yang Keyan caught fish for Di Bai, and Di Bai grilled the fish for Yang Keyan. He burned the fish several times, and he was still giggling when he saw Yang Keyan's face with black lines. .At night, the two watched the stars together in the yard, far away from the pollution of the city. The night sky here is exceptionally clear, and the stars all over the sky can be seen at a glance. It is as magical as being in the galaxy, and time seems to be frozen at this moment.

The days on the farm were very pleasant, and it was the last day inadvertently.

The night before they left, Yang Keyan and Di Bai climbed to the roof to watch the stars. They sat side by side, neither of them spoke. Xing Xing didn't speak, but Yang Keyan was thinking and didn't know how to speak.Looking at Di Bai's childlike expression, he felt an urge to take care of him.He silently took Di Bai's hand, perhaps frightened by a warm feeling, Di Bai became vigilant, quickly pulled his hand away, and looked at Yang Keyan in surprise, but his balance collapsed, and he was about to fall down. Seeing the situation, Yang Keyan immediately caught him, and hugged Di Bai in his arms like this.It was the first time that the two looked at each other at such a close distance. Di Bai didn't know what to do. He wanted to break free but didn't dare to move. Yang Keyan slowly approached Di Bai. Di Bai felt that Yang Keyan's breath was getting closer and closer. Kissing him, at this time, the brain is highly tense, the past images keep flashing, the father's stern scolding at that time, the weird eyes of the people around, the mother crying alone and secretly, and Zhao Yile's back...

"Is this going to repeat the same mistakes again? It can't be like this again, Di Bai, you can't be caught in such a whirlpool."

Thousands of voices in Di Bai's heart were reminding him to stop such absurd behavior, and this voice echoed to his nerves, and just when Yang Keyan was about to kiss him, Di Bai gently turned his head to the side.Seeing that Di Bai rejected him, Yang Keyan was stunned for a moment, and realized that he might have gone too far, and he didn't prepare Di Bai mentally.

"Sorry……"

"Sorry……"

The two said this sentence almost at the same time, but neither dared to look directly into each other's eyes.

"Xiaoyan...well, don't do this, it's not good..."

Di Bai's voice became smaller and smaller, until finally only the mouth shape remained.

"I……"

A lot of words are stuck in my throat, but I can't say them out.

"I see, you look at me now."

Yang Keyan spoke to Di Bai in a somewhat forceful tone, telling him to face himself squarely.

"I like you, Di Bai. Can you stay with me?"

Under the witness of all kinds of stars, Yang Keyan's short confession to Di Bai made the water in his heart rippling again and again. He lowered his head slightly, feeling that his face was burning and panicking, but he really didn't dare to respond.

"..."

"You don't need to reply to me in a hurry, think about it carefully, I will give you time. Go back and rest today, and be careful not to step on the air when you go down the roof."

Yang Keyan didn't want to embarrass Di Bai too much, so he wanted to end tonight's conversation first. He was originally pulled out to let him relax. If it had the opposite effect, it was not Yang Keyan's original intention.

This night made Di Bai toss and turn and couldn't fall asleep, and Yang Keyan was the same. He didn't want to burden Di Bai too much, but he couldn't guess what was going on in Di Bai's mind for the time being. Maybe his confession was a mistake?He had some extreme ideas, but immediately denied himself.

On the morning of the departure, Di Bai woke up and looked for Yang Keyan all over the house, but the whole farm was empty.Di Bai could only hear the sound of himself stomping on the ground as he ran back and forth, and there was a note left by Yang Keyan on the table.

"Xiaobai, what I said to you last night was not a joke, not to tease you, you should think about it, and meet at the old restaurant we went to at [-]:[-] in the evening four days later, and tell me your answer. I Let's go first, I don't want to embarrass you under such circumstances, so we don't want to go back together, I have already bought the return ticket and put it in the envelope for you, be careful not to forget anything when you go back."

Di Bai silently packed his things. Yang Keyan sorted out the big and small bags in the past and made them less bloated. In fact, he brought a lot of things, and now he can take away in one bag.Before leaving, he fed the lamb and calf the last handful of grass and watered the flowers and plants in the yard.

Thinking back on the beauty of the past few days, Di Bai still smiled comfortably, but he didn't like this kind of smile at all, and he didn't want Yang Keyan to see it.

Beautiful things are always fleeting, the more you want to grasp them, the more you can't help yourself.

Di Bai locked the gate of the farm, and with the sound of closing the door with a "bang", he seemed to hear the sound of fragments falling to the ground in his heart.