small thoughts

A week later, all the bandages on Di Bai's body were removed, and the wound on his head still had to be bandaged. He could not get out of bed and walk for the time being.

"Are you feeling better today?"

Yang Keyan took the medicine and fed Di Bai one bite at a time. During Di Bai's hospitalization, Yang Keyan almost covered all his three meals a day.

"much better."

"Would you like to tell me a story today?"

After feeding the last mouthful, Yang Keyan put down the bowl and spoon, he wanted to hear Di Bai talk about the past.

"If you want to listen, there's no harm in telling it..."

Di Bai is not yet fully prepared to bring out the "leftovers" hidden deep in his heart to Yang Keyan, but he knows that it is time for the leftovers to be excreted from his body. If it is Yang Keyan, he will not be disgusted.

"Then let me ask you, and you answer, would this be better? Sorry, I heard part of your conversation in the underground parking lot..."

Yang Keyan was concerned about Di Bai's feelings and didn't want to force him.

Originally, Yang Keyan didn't want to hear such a conversation, but just happened to bump into it like this.His friend Jing Yi was recently involved in a case involving the underworld. Not long ago, he discovered some evidence related to this case. Jing Yi asked Yang Keyan to help him analyze the case, even though there was a 50.00% chance that he was listening to this guy's nonsense. .Who would have thought that on that day, the fat guys showed their tails, how could Jing Yi let go of such a huge opportunity, wishing to bring all the people in the police department to trample this gang.Yang Keyan thought it was a good show, and came with Jing Yi, but saw Di Bai spilling his own blood on the play.

"...It's okay, you can ask."

Di Bai is very calm at the moment, he feels that his heart has never been so calm as it is now.

"Okay. Do you... like that person named Zhao Yile?"

Yang Keyan was really unceremonious about asking questions, and it seemed meaningless to go round and round.

"Well, I used to like it very much."

"now what?"

"Now I have nothing to do with him..."

"Then can you tell me what unforgivable thing he has done to you?"

Yang Keyan carefully tested Di Bai's sensitivity to this topic, and if he found something wrong, he would immediately shut up.

"Actually, if you think about it from his point of view, there is nothing wrong with him. He is also under the pressure of his parents. How can the relationship between two boys be accepted so frankly by his parents. Later, his parents put him under house arrest... Although we grew up playing together, his family was already a few steps above mine, and face issues were extremely important. I wanted to have a good talk with him, One day I went to look for him secretly, but saw him in the room with a strange girl...he said he couldn't bear the pressure of being breathless."

Di Bai couldn't help lowering his head as he spoke, this kind of past was darker than black history, it was a darkness that could suffocate him, he was even afraid that such a past would make Yang Keyan disgusted.

"In that case... in your heart, he can still be forgiven, right?"

"It's not his fault. If I hadn't relied on him so much, I might not have agreed to be with him and these things wouldn't have happened."

"and after?"

"I took a year off from school, then left my parents and transferred to another school. Since then, I don't know what Zhao Yile is doing."

"In the situation that day, you could have escaped by yourself, why did you go to beat him in the end?"

"Ah……"

Di Bai suddenly laughed weakly, this kind of laughter contained countless helplessness and intolerance, and the cuts continued to be chaotic.

"Because...he is the insider of my unbearable love. Those lost feelings will not change, they will always be there, but they are kept in the frozen time of the past. He gave me joy and gave me love. Sadness also made me taste the bitterness, and he also suffered from it. Even if so many things happened in the middle, how could I let the things that threatened his life happen under my nose. From now on, I only I want him to live a good life and just forget about me..."

"how about you?"

"I'm going to move on with my own life."

Yang Keyan noticed that Di Bai's hands were clenched into small fists. He must have made up his mind. His usually cautious appearance has become extremely strong at this moment. Sure enough, no matter what stage a person is in, he is growing and transforming silently. ah.

"Okay, that's the end of today's story, it's time to rest, come drink some water to moisten your throat, and lie down and take care of yourself."

Yang Keyan covered Di Bai with the quilt, watched him slowly close his eyelids, and then quietly opened the door of the ward. Zhao Yile and Jing Yi stood at the door. Zhao Yile heard every word of Di Bai's feelings about the past. After entering, all he could do was stand here for the last time and say goodbye with his eyes.

"I will let go of this heart from now on. After the half-year sentence is over, I will live a good life and try my best to play the role of your past insider. I will never appear in front of your eyes again, Di Bai..."

"Hey, let's go."

Jing Yi couldn't say anything, sighed, and left the hospital with Zhao Yile.

Yang Keyan stopped in front of the window sill of the ward and fell into a long silence. There are too many scene fragments left in his mind, and he needs to piece them together bit by bit.

"If I'm not mistaken..."

Yang Keyan rested his chin with one hand, and his mind drifted back to his student days.

In the second semester of the second year of senior high school, Jinxing No. [-] High School where Yang Keyan is located and Wenchang No. [-] Middle School held a joint spring sports meeting. Since the two schools are in two adjacent districts and are brother schools, such joint activities are often held.

Both Yang Keyan and Jing Yi signed up for the men's 5000-meter long-distance race. The competition time was the afternoon of the first day at Wenchang No. [-] Middle School, because Wenchang No. [-] Middle School newly built a plastic playground.

"I said Lao Yang, if I can't climb back during the competition, remember to carry me away."

Before Jing Yi started the game, he began to explain the "funeral affairs".

"Don't worry, I will drag you back. I heard that the newly repaired plastic is very tight~"

Yang Keyan didn't forget to take care of Jing Yi's body while speaking, and he was so frightened that he quickly subdued.

"Oh, I'm just talking, even if I can't run, I can slowly crawl back, so I won't bother you."

"You say you're a sucker for running, so why sign up?"

"Who said that! Who said I'm a sucker for running!"

"The sprint is excellent, but the long-distance runner can't bear to look directly at it. I said, are you not convinced?"

"...you can practice slowly..."

"Well, let's warm up quickly, it's not good if you get cramps halfway."

Yang Keyan is doing warm-up exercises with Jing Yi, and will start running in a while.On the side near the runway where he is, there is the cheering team of Di Bai and Zhao Yile's class. Di Bai is the logistics of the team, supplying towels and supplies for everyone, and submitting newsletters to the student union, but some are busy. He It's too late to watch all the games, so I can only choose some games with a large number of participants in my class to watch, and then write a newsletter frantically.

After the man started the 5000-meter run, there were endless shouts around him. Di Bai just looked up roughly, and then went back to his own business—unsealed a new box of water, took out the bottles one by one, and surrounded each bottle with a dry Towels, then wait for the athletes at the finish line.

After 5 minutes, the athletes finished their runs one after another. Di Bai distributed bottles one by one, and all the runners complained incessantly, lamenting that they were not careful in their endurance running, and Di Bai would smile and let them continue to work hard.

The last two people to reach the finish line were Jing Yi and Yang Keyan. Yang Keyan really almost used the "drag" technique. After Jing Yi ran for [-] laps, his shoelaces became loose, and he tripped over his own shoelaces without paying attention. , Once such a long-distance running stops halfway, it will be very difficult to exert force again.Yang Keyan found that after Jing Yi's knee came into close contact with the ground, a layer of skin disappeared, and the blood streaked from time to time. He stopped decisively and supported Jing Yi to abstain. Although Jing Yi's knee hurts and his body is very tired , but it is not his style to give up halfway. The two of them put their shoulders on each other and completed the rest of the schedule with some difficulty.

Di Bai looked at this pair of "difficult brothers and sisters" and found that there was no support team from their class around. Without thinking too much, he handed over the water, towels, and band-aids from his class to Yang Keyan.Jing Yi was lying on his back on the ground panting, like a fish short of water. Yang Keyan stood beside him, looking at the pile of "urgently needed items" in his hand, wondering whether he should accept it, because each item was labeled With the logo of Di Bai's class.

"This one……"

"Take it and use it, we still have some."

Di Bai didn't pay much attention to Yang Keyan, and after giving him something, he got back into the crowd of people in his class. Yang Keyan looked in the direction Di Bai returned, and vaguely saw him explaining to someone. Supplies can't be easily used by students from other schools, but this person is really nice.

After many years, Yang Keyan can still remember this insignificant incident, and he is deeply impressed by Di Bai's hasty but serious expression.It's a pity that Yang Keyan never saw Di Bai again after that, and he didn't even find out Di Bai's name until now.I don't know if this is a trick of good fortune, or a gift from God, which gave him a chance to get along with Di Bai. Even though this person is scarred now, his heart is still as good as before.