love you like a song

The next morning, Mu Zi'an reluctantly went to school.

If you leave here today, there will be no reason to come back.

Mu Zi'an looked back at Gu Nan by the door three times a step at a time.

Gu Nan's gaze also seemed to have crystals flickering, the subtle and complicated meaning that flashed across her eyes, Mu Zi'an couldn't understand it, and only felt uncomfortable.

When it really came to this time, my heart turned out to be so uncomfortable.In fact, it is not very painful, and it is not distressed that can be summed up, but it just feels very empty.

I feel like a big hole has been broken in my heart, and the howling wind in the field passes through it over and over again, allowing the mighty power of time to slowly erode the edge of the big hole, and then slowly let it fall.

The entrance of the hole expanded again, endlessly, without stopping.

She was carrying her schoolbag and walking aimlessly.

It is August now, even in Beijing, the weather has not become very cold, the lake in the school is still rippling, and there are scattered dewdrops hanging on the branches.

What am I coming back for?

As Mu Zi'an walked, he felt a little powerless.

The bitter taste of the insect repellent remained in her mouth, and her whole mouth was bitter, even rinsing her mouth could not get rid of that strange smell, as if her intestines were full of that stuff, it was really uncomfortable.

Walking in the unfamiliar campus, students around her kept talking about her.

Mu Zi'an was very beautiful, with a cold demeanor, and a strong bookish air about him.He was unmoved by the discussions around him at all, and looked the same as usual.

Only one or two people could see the gloomy and desolate look in her eyes.

Walking quickly to the toilet and locking the door, Mu Zi'an finally couldn't help but burst into tears.Several years of unrequited love, how could it be possible to just forget it? In the past three years, she put in her heart, feelings, and even risked her life, but in the end she got such an ending.

When she knew the memories of her previous life, what she was most afraid of was being pushed out by Gu Nan... Although she had already made such preparations, but at this time, she still felt that her heartache was uncontrollable.

'Nannan, Nannan, Nannan...'

Mu Zi'an kept calling this person's name loudly in his heart, tears fell drop by drop, his heart ached like a knife, and he felt a little difficult to breathe, like a flash flood, or a thunderbolt from the blue.

She cried silently, but was extremely sad.

Others say first love is the most painful.

Walking into the classroom written on the school sign, Mu Zi'an put down his schoolbag with red eyes.When a group of unfamiliar classmates saw her walking in, they rushed up and surrounded her, chattering and asking.

"Mu Zi'an, are you really cheating?"

"Did you return the quota to Zhou Ke because of guilt?"

"People like you who solve international competition questions in 30 seconds, what high school knowledge do you still need to learn? Are you here to mock our IQ?! Or is it simply fake?"

"I'll go, Mu Zi'an, why are you pretending to be innocent here? It's all covered on TV, you bitch's daughter!"

"Hmph, maybe she thinks that if she embraces her adoptive mother's golden thighs, she will be safe in the world. She really pretends! She's ashamed and sent abroad!"

Mu Zi'an opened his mouth, closed it again, and didn't speak.

She felt very strange. When she was in Chess City of Life and Death, she thought, why can't she seem to speak?It recovered a little during the game, but now it's getting worse.

Seeing that Mu Zi'an didn't speak, the classmates dispersed one after another.

Only then did Mu Zi'an see Shi Qing standing behind him.

Shi Qing took a few steps forward, stood obliquely in front of her, and spoke. "How are you these days?"

Mu Zi'an nodded silently.

"Why didn't you refute just now?"

Mu Zi'an coughed violently, and then spoke intermittently. "It's okay, I've been a little strange recently, it seems... I can't talk to others very much."

Shi Qing frowned. "Is it autism?" He thought of the appropriate wording and said euphemistically. "I saw on TV that you were mentally disturbed."

In other words, it means mental illness.

"It's not that serious. I can still talk to my acquaintances."

"That's good." Shi Qing thought for a while and continued. "I heard from my cousin that you are not in good condition, so I am a little worried."

Mu Zi'an wanted to laugh, but found that he couldn't, so he waved his hand. "…nothing."

"Then what, do I know you?" Shi Qing sat in front of her, probably wanting to have a long talk. "Do you remember your last words on the field?"

"do not remember."

"That's the sentence: Don't worry, little dumb, I don't like the monitor."

"Is there... any problem?" She said emotionally.

"Do you know me and Mu Jinxiu?" Shi Qing said after seeing Mu Zi'an put on an order to chase away guests. "Uh... I just heard a very important person call me a little mute in my dream."

"That was just a dream." Mu Zi'an saw Mu Jinxiu walking behind Shi Qing, she casually lowered her head and buried it in her arms. "Mu Jinxiu was my former monitor, you are my classmate, that's all."

"Yes, sister!" Mu Jinxiu grabbed Shi Qing's shoulder from behind, smiled, and suddenly realized that he was showing off his sovereignty, and coughed lightly in embarrassment.

"Cough... I heard from the gossip that the first time you participated in a math competition was for money?"

"Almost." Mu Zi'an thought for a while, then shook his head again. "Nor...all of it."

The top three got more bonuses, but Lily didn't participate.

Mu Jinxiu laughed out loud. "You are really strange. Aren't the British thinking different from the Chinese? It is always a disadvantage to participate in them. It seems that you are the only Asian student in the top five."

"As long as it's a math problem, it's the same."

"That would be more tricky."

"So it's not me who competed." Mu Zi settled down. "It's Lily."

"That's your other personality." Mu Jinxiu nodded. "Sister, what about me, sister? Same as Shi Qing, I don't believe you cheated. You are indeed different from others, you are crazy."

"A lunatic who is proficient in chemistry and mathematics."

Mu Zi'an smiled, noncommittal.

She was as mad as Lily, so what.

The next question was asked by Shi Qing.

"Let me ask you, how much bonus attracted you?"

"Yeah, I want to know too." Mu Jinxiu also said.

It was difficult for Mu Zi'an to speak, and he was so quarreled that he couldn't help it, so he raised his head and thought for a while, then shook his head. "Of course kids from rich families like you don't look down on them."

Then, he laughed at himself. "That person severed ties with my family because of me, but I can only make up for this little money, and it's not what I made up... Hmph." Her eyes were a little red again.

Shi Qing didn't know who Mu Zi'an was talking about, so he stood up and patted the wrinkles on his body. "Don't be sad, I haven't seen anyone making money from competitions. Do you want to go on the path of mathematics? There are indeed many jobs related to mathematics."

"I do chemistry."

"Chemistry?!" Excited, Mu Jinxiu pressed Shi Qing, who was a head shorter than her, and said. "...Really? Sister! Just look at your adoptive mother. There is no good way out for those who study chemistry. Even if there is, the number of people is too small."

Realizing that she had said something wrong again, she looked stiffly at her boyfriend under her arm. "Uh, I'm sorry... I didn't mean your cousin on purpose, I was just worried about Mu Zi'an and wanted her to choose again."

"No, I'll take the path of chemistry."

Mu Zi'an buried his head again, and after a long time, he suddenly said this sentence sullenly. "I like Gu Nan, only this road is closer to her."

Mu Jinxiu opened her mouth wide in surprise, Shi Qing also widened her eyes, and then became calm again, but sat down again. "Mu Zi'an, do you want me to teach you how to confess?"

Mu Jinxiu also came to his senses, "Shi Qing, you idiot, just use your confession method, don't throw your girl in the ditch!" She wanted to cover Shi Qing's mouth, but Shi Qing curled his lips indifferently.

Both Shi Qing and Mu Jinxiu, who were so affectionate, ignored Mu Zi'an who wanted to stay quiet for a while... She let out a breath, got up, looked at the two who were still chattering, and walked out silently.

Not realizing that the person had already left, Shi Qing smiled at Mu Jinxiu and argued hard. "This is a very perfect confession method, even if I refuse, it won't be embarrassing!"

Mu Jinxiu gave him a blank look. "Come on, just your method of 'pointing in the mirror and saying you want that person', if I wasn't smart enough to see me in the mirror, hmph, you'd be a bachelor for the rest of your life!"

He (she) turned his head and said in unison. "Hey, where's Mu Zi'an?"

"You must have made a noise."

"You made a noise."

"It's you!"

"It's you!"

"It's you, it's you, it's you!"

"It's...well, it's me." Shi Qing silently took the blame. "Jinxiu, I think Mu Zi'an is really in a bad mood... Yesterday, my cousin entrusted her to my grandfather."

"I'll go, why didn't you say it earlier, after the fact!"

"I'm an afterthought." Shi Qing silently took the blame again, looking at Mu Jinxiu gently, with a sunny and warm smile, full of doting.

"........."

Mu Jinxiu blushed, and lightly thumped Shi Qing. "Hate it, little rascal."

"Well, I'm bad."

"...Don't be so serious!"

"Well, I'm not serious."

"........."

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