love you like a song

Mu Zi'an slept very restlessly, and fragments of memory kept flashing by.

In the year in the dream, she was in her third year of high school, and when the college entrance examination was approaching, she had been in a cold war with Gu Nan for nearly two months.During this period, Gu Nan still gave money, but stopped talking to her.

The reason for the quarrel is small and ridiculous.

Ever since she was in high school, Gu Nan has kept her distance and allowed her to live on campus...Even Mu Zi'an didn't understand why Gu Nan quarreled with her hysterically as if he had eaten ammunition, mocking her and flying up the branches It can't become a phoenix either.

Thinking about it now, Gu Nan had already fallen in love with her at that time, the weird sexual orientation and ethical struggle made Gu Nan choose an extreme way to stay away from her.

Mu Zi'an usually doesn't talk much, and if Gu Nan doesn't take the initiative to talk to her, she is even less willing to talk.Not long after, Mu Zi'an obeyed the arrangement of the head teacher, and didn't even go home on Sunday and Saturday.

The failure of the high school entrance examination has always been a thorn in Mu Zi'an's mind. She can't usually see how nervous she is, but in fact she is very afraid of the high school entrance examination, especially after being demerited.

Mu Zi'an started to study very hard, and her friend studied until early in the morning, okay, then she will go to bed at two or three in the morning. During that time, the students in the class seemed to be crazy, and the pressure was like a mountain. Let them have no freedom to breathe.

Under such pressure, she moved forward step by step.

In April, she had to apply for the exam. Mu Zi'an originally wanted to apply for that university, and her grades were almost enough to get there. The most important thing was that the university was in the local area, not too far from Gu Nan's home.

It's just that Mu Zi'an has always been very scared, afraid that he will be just a few points short of the high school entrance examination.

The teachers of the school have always emphasized that the first choice to apply for the exam should be more stable, more stable, repeating is not as easy as you think.

During the week of applying for the exam, Mu Zi'an couldn't sleep every night, and whenever she closed her eyes, she dreamed of failing the exam. At that time, she often woke up in the middle of the night, her whole body was sore, and cold sweat was dripping down.

She is not afraid of re-study, she is not afraid of hard work, but the re-study has to pay another [-], [-] thousand, where does Gu Nan have it now?She had drained her savings for herself.

Mu Zi'an smiled.

On the last day of applying for the exam, she finally changed her first choice and changed it to another controversial school. This prestigious third-rate school had good grades and was still far away from Gu Nan.

However, it is about [-]% lower than the school that Mu Zian originally chose. This difference in scores will give her an incomparable sense of security.

In the dream, Mu Zi'an was back in the third year of high school where he was working on questions all day long. The students in front kept handing out the test papers, and before he had time to read the questions, the next one, the next one...

She wrote numbly, her movements were as stiff as a robot.In Mu Zi'an's eyes, the test paper was as long as the roll paper in the toilet, it rolled down from her body, and the unfolded questions were all distorted and deformed.

Surrounded by discussions between classmates and parents, they discussed about applying for the exam, and occasionally complained a few words during class breaks:

"My mother insists on making me apply for a teacher education major. I hate..."

"...What's so good about that university, the old woman beat me for it..."

"Dad is so annoying..."

At that time, Mu Zi'an never thought that her final choice would make Gu Nan so sad. At that time, she was completely numb, and she could no longer feel external emotions when she was doing the paper.

There are more self-study classes in the third year of senior high school. Sometimes no teacher comes in for a day, and no one talks in the classroom. The students just sit for a whole day.

Mu Zi'an was working on a two-hour English test paper when the classroom door suddenly opened with a loud noise.The students all looked up to see who it was, but she didn't have time to look up because she was still working on the problem.

Then Mu Zi'an heard footsteps, the footsteps were messy and hurried, and it walked towards him.She heard Gu Nan's voice, calling her name louder than ever before.

"Mu Zi'an—!"

Gu Nan usually called her Doudou, but this was the first time she was called by her first and last name.

Mu Zi'an raised her head, her eyes were still blurry due to staring at the test paper for a long time, but when she saw Gu Nan, her expression was very strange, she said she was angry, but she didn't look like it, now that she thinks about it, she should It is very similar to the despair described in the film and television.

Gu Nan walked quickly to Mu Zi'an's desk, and quickly swept the entire desk, which was covered with test papers.She grabbed Mu Zi'an's elbow, trying to pull Mu Zi'an up, even using her most shameless violence.

It's just that Mu Zi'an was already taller than Gu Nan at that time, she didn't even pull herself up.

Mu Zi'an stood up, looked down at Gu Nan's eyes, and asked in a cold voice. "What's the matter, Nan Nan?"

At that time she still did not call her mother.

The next moment, Mu Zi'an could clearly see the tears rolling in Gu Nan's eyes, but she tilted her neck up, trying not to let a single drop of the scalding liquid flow out.

She never cried in front of anyone, she said that the strong never shed tears, but she changed her.

Gu Nan was wearing the street stall she hated the most before, with her back stubbornly straightened, still like the elegant swan she used to be.It was the funniest joke in the world. As a young doctor, she couldn't find a job.

Mu Zi'an didn't know where Gu Nan went to work in order to save her tuition, because even if she asked, Gu Nan would never tell her about it.

The classmates were all around the two of them, and some of them obviously knew the youngest Ph. D. at Peking University, this proud son of heaven, and there was a lot of discussion.

Gu Nan's face turned red and pale at times, her lips were chapped and trembling, she said.

"Mu Zi'an, just because I have no money, do you... want to leave me that much?"

Only then did Mu Zi'an know that she was the last person to know that she had changed her wish.The homeroom teacher called Gu Nan to confirm that she was dumbfounded after hearing her first choice, and rushed to my school regardless of the work in hand.

She was no longer called Mu Zi'an by her nickname.

She thought that Mu Zi'an chose to leave her because she was poor.

She never believed in Mu Zi'an, and put her own theory on Mu Zi'an.

She didn't know that Mu Zi'an decided to spend the next four years or the next four years by her side.

She didn't know that Mu Zi'an wanted to raise her.

In the dream, Mu Zi'an frowned, she could still feel the intense pain in her heart, because Gu Nan's expression was so sad, it was only a little worse than when she died alone.

At that time, Mu Zi'an was already dazed by the English letters, so she said something to Gu Nan.

she says. "Yes, you have no money, and I don't want you anymore."

Then Gu Nan pushed Mu Zi'an hard, she was pushed back by Gu Nan, and then hit the wall hard.

It's hard to get rid of water, and it's hard to round a broken mirror.

Mu Zi'an didn't dare to look up at Gu Nan's expression, but she heard Gu Nan's barely suppressed breathing, and she knew that Gu Nan was about to cry. At that time, Mu Zi'an didn't understand why the always strong Gu Nan was about to cry. .

Seeing Gu Nan's expression, she also wanted to cry.

Gu Nan left.

I heard from other students that Gu Nan was squatting by the school lake that day, looking at the lake water, slapped himself over and over again, crying while slapping himself.

Then Mu Zi'an really cried.

Tears soaked the pillowcase, and she woke up crying.Mu Zi'an stared at the pair of red panda eyes in the mirror, dazed for a second, then slowly shook his head.

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