love you like a song

Gu Nan let out a long breath, walked two circles along the neighborhood, and finally calmed down a little.She felt that when she opened her eyes, Doudou seemed to disappear again, leaving her waiting alone for two years.

She originally wanted to protect Mu Zi'an and raise her to grow up by herself, but now she suddenly realized how much she could teach her as a university teacher?

How long can Mu Zi'an stay peacefully by his side?

Gu Nan even hated Mu Zi'an a little bit, that person who only thinks about his own future and doesn't care about his own feelings.

Then suddenly realized, how could I say such a thing about a child?

What can she know?

On the contrary, it was me who said that kind of thing to a person who was regarded as my relative.

What do you mean she only thinks about herself?Doudou had hesitated enough, and he actually let her choose by herself, put on an angry face, and put her in a dilemma.

Gu Nan sighed and continued walking.

The more I walked, the clearer and clearer I felt.

She might not be able to keep Doudou anymore.

Mu Zi'an is smart and can meet good opportunities. Such opportunities are something that others can't dream of. As her adoptive mother, I should be very happy.

But I just feel clueless.

Occasionally, I also feel that the same person who studies chemistry, why is this child so lucky?She, Gu Nan, is not a saint, and Mu Zi'an doesn't have any definite relationship with him now.

Gu Nan knew that this dark emotion in his heart was called jealousy.

Jealous of her youth and her future, but in the final analysis, she was still afraid that Mu Zi'an would go further and further away, and that he would never be able to catch up with her.

Then why wouldn't she be jealous of Shi Qing?

Gu Nan was slightly taken aback.

Is she really jealous?

Gu Nan didn't want to go home, although that home belonged to her in name.

She walked to Mu Zi'an's high school, and looked at the scenery of that high school from outside the school gate. The trees were overgrown and uneven. It was already late autumn, and the leaves could not fall off. It was more like a dying struggle.

Her feelings for Mu Zi'an are very complicated, she is not like a relative now, and there is no etiquette of mutual respect between teachers and students, nor is it a friend, there is no friendship to confide in each other... What is that?

Gu Nan was in a rare mood of irritability, stomped his feet, and felt a little cold, just like when he learned that Mu Zi'an was lying on the bed dead or alive, his throat felt cold when he breathed, as if the world was bustling with people, only she was left behind A Gu Nan.

After leaving Lu Yaoping for so long, she also thought about having another relationship.I have a car and a house, and now I don’t have any trouble raising someone. However, there are few places where I work that are similar to my age.

The chemistry major makes it difficult for others to have a common topic with me. Several bold students once wrote a few small love letters to Gu Nan, but she politely rejected them.

This is not the relationship she wants.

What she wants, she doesn't know.

Until, on that day two years ago, after Doudou confessed to her at the airport, Gu Nan suddenly realized that the child actually saw him that way.

In the following month, Gu Nan gradually realized that Doudou's mark on her life had already been imprinted, and she could not tolerate her departure, not for a month or even a day.

But can you keep it?

This is the question Gu Nan wants to ask the most.

After the girl came back, she showed a strange expression. At that time, she understood that Doudou has the right to decide whether she will stay or not, and also has the right to choose her own life, but she has no right to keep her.

After regaining consciousness again, Gu Nan realized that his whole body was frozen stiff. Looking at his watch, it was past ten o'clock.Slowly walking back to the villa, seeing that the light in the house was still on, I panicked, hesitated for a while, and then walked in.

As soon as he opened the door, he didn't see Mu Zi'an, thinking that the child must have fallen asleep, so he took a few steps lightly.Mu Zi'an's door opened, and the girl said to her.

"You're back."

"En." Gu Nan didn't want to say more, walked past her and said. "You go to sleep early."

Both of them had obvious chills, and they didn't know what Mu Zi'an did in his room just now.Thinking of this, Gu Nan felt an inexplicable irritability again, and quickened his pace, wanting to leave Mu Zi'an's side quickly.

Who would have thought that Mu Zian suddenly grabbed her wrist before she took a few steps.

"Nan Nan, you came back so late, shouldn't you tell me where you went just now?" The voice was quite loud, with a tendency to yell, and she took advantage of the situation to pull Gu Nan towards her.

"what are you doing?!"

Mu Zi'an's pull was so powerful that it almost made Gu Nan stagger.

Surprised, Gu Nan had to face a reality, that is, this girl who was originally two heads shorter than her actually grew to her shoulders. Although she was thin, she still showed a faint maturity.

"I ask you, where did you go just now?"

Gu Nan hated her questioning tone, but she still didn't want to make a fuss with her, so she had to calm down first. "Doudou, I'm an adult, and I always have my own life. I can't understand you like this."

"..."

Mu Zi'an still didn't let go of his hand, but clenched it even tighter, narrowing his eyes slightly, as if he was sizing up Gu Nan.

"Can't you let me ask you as an adult? What kind of logic is this? Could it be that you went out and did something that only adults can do?"

"Heh... can't I satisfy you?"

"Don't talk nonsense, Doudou." Gu Nan was afraid of quarreling the old man, looked behind Mu Zi'an, then turned his head and frowned, looked directly at the girl, and said. "Even if it is, what right do you have to interfere with me?"

"..."

Gu Nan reached out and knocked Mu Zi'an's hand off, turned around and wanted to go back to the room, when the person behind him suddenly said something. "Gu Nan, even if I like you, I still can't bear your attitude. It makes me feel very embarrassed."

"In the past few months since I came back, I feel very strange. Are you really Nan Nan? You threw me out regardless of my wishes, guarding me like an outsider, and completely isolated the two of us. , and draw such a clear line.”

Gu Nan's body suddenly paused as he was walking forward, he stopped to listen to Mu Zi'an's words, and even heard the strange word 'come back', but he didn't say anything.

"If it's because you care that I like you, you don't have to. I won't do anything to you after drinking like last time. What I want to say is that I want to be with you, but I didn't force you You must love me."

"You are a free person, so you don't need to consider my feelings, but at least let me know what you are thinking and what you are doing." Mu Zi'an closed his eyes very tiredly, and said.

"I don't want our relationship to be so bad, it's not my intention."

Why doesn't Gu Nan want to sit down and have a good talk with her, but every time he thinks about it, he can't help but think of the group of students he taught for the first time in the past.

...But in the end, there was no one who could talk. Students are like this, so why not Mu Zi'an.

Even if it is temporarily discredited, so what if it blocks the light?

One day, you won't be able to hold back this person.

Thinking of this, Gu Nan turned around, looked at Mu Zi'an, and said.

"Doudou, when I adopted you, I didn't ask you to do something you didn't want to do. If you feel that my attitude embarrasses you, you can choose to go to another place, a place that makes you feel comfortable."

Obviously it was Gu Nan who said the expulsion-worthy words, but she herself felt that something hit her heart hard, and the blood all over her body froze.

"..." Mu Zi'an pursed his lips, as if he had expected this result, and didn't say anything.

Gu Nan turned to leave, but suddenly heard the girl sigh in a low voice.

"How could it be possible to find someone else? I like you..."

The author has something to say:

Doudou (sex-cold-light): I am not interested in the same sex or the opposite sex, I only like you...

Gu Nan: Uh......(////▽////)