love you like a song

At night, Mu Zi'an tossed and turned, gradually dreaming about his childhood.

That childhood without Gu Nan.

She forgot how old she was at the time, and only knew that she had not reached the height of her father's thigh when she stood up.

When he was young, Mu Zi'an was in poor health and was very prone to illness. Sometimes he woke up suddenly in the middle of the night and coughed violently. He couldn't stop coughing until he spit it out. As long as he coughed, he would definitely have a fever the next day, and the temperature would not drop for a long time.

At the beginning, her parents were still very loving. Every time she got sick, she had to ask for leave and take her to the hospital for infusion, but it didn't get better.As time passed, Mu Zi'an's face became paler and paler, and he gradually lost weight.

Parents asked countless folk remedies for her, no matter how reluctant it was to drink the traditional Chinese medicine, Mu Zi'an could swallow it without saying a word, unlike other children crying.

Until one day, an old man casually joked to his father.

"Nephew Mu, something is wrong with your baby. If you keep having a fever, it may bring disaster to your life. You have to be careful."

Although the old man later said that he was joking, this sentence was undoubtedly a disaster for Mu Zi'an. She hated drinking those black and unknown talisman water, and would rather eat traditional Chinese medicine than taste that taste.

Father didn't know when he took the "disaster theory" seriously, and felt that the reason why his career was not going well was because of Mu Zi'an.

So, after he got out of the hospital, he took Mu Zi'an to various charlatans and asked Mu Zi'an to choose the talisman paper.

The young girl shook her head and said no.

Father's face was gloomy, he randomly picked two bottles of the most expensive yellow paper, and dragged Mu Zi'an home.

On the way, Mu Zi'an was dragged forward and almost fell down.

On the way, my father opened those bottles and cans, poured them into Mu Zian's water glass, and let her drink.Mu Zi'an held the water glass in his hand, warmed the water, but didn't take a sip.

The father was angry, and when he got home, he took her to the dining table without saying a word, put the water glass in front of her, burned the talisman paper, mixed it in the water, stared at her, and said in a commanding tone.

"drink."

"..."

"Doudou, I'm angry."

"I don't..." Before Mu Zi'an finished speaking, his father grabbed her by the back of the neck, forcing her to open her mouth and raise her head, and she was almost grabbed by the air.

"Drink." His father's tone was colder than ever, and there was unconcealable anger in his eyes.

Mu Zi'an struggled hard.

At that time, she couldn't resist her father who was much stronger than herself, so she could only twist and say stubbornly: "I won't drink..."

"No, no, why can't you say it?!" The father was very angry, grabbed Mu Zi'an's neck, grabbed the water glass violently, and poured it into her mouth.

Mu Zi'an raised his head, and the warm liquid flowed down his throat without any hindrance, but the next second, the girl suddenly vomited, bent down with a 'wow' sound, and knelt on the ground trembling.

Mom hurried over and blamed her. "Mu Cheng, what are you doing?"

At the same time, she held Mu Zi'an in her arms.

Mu Zi'an, who was splashed all over with water, couldn't stop retching, and at the same time scratched his tongue desperately with his fingers, like a bird that had eaten its stomach badly, its back arched sharply.

"Uh——" Mu Zi'an vomited out a lot of things, even undigested pills, and when she finally stopped vomiting, the red eye circles slowly returned to their original appearance.

She didn't even shed a tear.

But she was stubborn by nature and had a strong personality. After she became conscious, she never shed tears because of falling or other reasons, which was completely different from other children who became sensible later.

Mu Zi'an slowly got up from the ground, her breathing was short of breath, her hands were trembling uncontrollably, her nails were tightly digging into her palms.

My mother looked at her worriedly, seeing that she was struggling to get up, and wanted to help her, but she avoided her.

Seeing Mu Zi'an's fists clenched so tightly that his complexion turned purple, mother was startled and wanted to open her fingers, but found that the child clenched his teeth while clenching his fists hard, and now his fingers were so stiff that he couldn't open them at all.

In my memory, that was the cause of the broken marriage of my parents. At that time, my mother seemed to be very broken and yelled at my father, but Mu Zi'an hardly remembered anything. He could only barely recall that after they tore their faces...

The father drank alcohol every day, was violent at home, and even brought back an illegitimate son who had been hiding outside for many years on a certain day—Mu Xiangyang, who was many years older than her. In Shanghai, I became a prostitute.

Then, how did it become like this?

A good home was ruined because of someone else's joke.

Mu Zi'an woke up, sighed, looking at the huge villa, feeling very empty in his heart.She looked around, stood up barefoot, and went to the window to look at the moon.

Today's one is really big, round and bright.

I also miss her very much.

She is not a crybaby.

She only made an exception in front of that person.

In the early morning, Mu Zi'an casually threw his schoolbag on the ground, then folded his hands and propped his chin with his arms, laying down on the table, and closed his eyes.

Since the morning, her stomach has been a little uncomfortable, and now it's more like a needle prick.

Mu Zi'an thought it was because the air conditioner was turned on for too long last night, so he didn't pay much attention to it, so he kept doing this, trying to get through that painful time.

Shi Qing is also a college entrance examination freshman who skipped a grade and attends classes next door.

On the way, he even looked for Mu Zi'an.He didn't know that Mu Zi'an was not feeling well. When he saw her lying on the table, he thought she hated noisy classrooms, so he went back.

On Saturday morning, the whole school is cleaned up. You can go home after cleaning. There are no classes in the afternoon.

At 08:30, people arrived one after another. A girl with long straight hair was standing on the podium, she looked like a health committee member, gesturing to the students in the audience and assigning tasks to them.

The current school is not like the Fuxing High School that Mu Zi'an attended in Shanghai before.

Not only the tuition fees here are extremely expensive, but also the families are full of spoiled aristocratic children, so the school does not often arrange cleaning work.

Under the yelling of the health committee member, the students stood up slowly with extreme reluctance. After a while, the classroom was full of voices of 'hand me a rag' and 'get out of the way, I want to sweep the floor'.

And Mu Zi'an was still lying quietly on the table, motionless.

Due to their similar age, Mu Zi'an and Shi Qing were in charge of cleaning the glass at the same time.

Seeing that Mu Zi'an seemed to be asleep lying on his stomach, Shi Qing had no choice but to make a helpless gesture towards Mu Jinxiu, picked up the rag without any complaints, and wiped it up and down.

The collective work efficiency was not high, and it was basically completed after three hours. Looking at the time, it was already 11:30. Shi Qing glanced at Mu Zi'an who was still lying on the table, and signaled Mu Jinxiu to go over and ask.

Mu Jinxiu approached cautiously and said in a low voice.

"—Sister, shall we go to the cafeteria to eat?"

Mu Zi'an closed his eyes and frowned slightly in his sleep, his pretty face was a little distorted.This morning, she didn't even change her movements.

You must know that Mu Zi'an's personality is completely different in front of and behind Gu Nan.

If she was next to Gu Nan and she was not feeling well, she might immediately pester Gu Nan to obediently expose the pain on her body so that she could receive timely treatment.

And if Gu Nan is not there, it will be bad, probably because the impression of going to the doctor at a young age is too tragic, she will choose to hide the wound deeply, and bear it by herself, unless it is absolutely necessary, she will never show weakness easily.

It is the same now.

I thought it would be better to lie down for a while, the stomach pain became more and more acute, while Mu Jinxiu was speaking, Mu Zi'an slowly raised his body, his face was pale, and said to her.

"Don't go."

"Stir fry in the fourth canteen... huh?" Mu Jinxiu was a little happy when she saw Mu Zi'an get up, but unexpectedly, she heard this answer.

"I can't say it." Mu Zi'an's voice raised a little bit, and his words were sharp, "Don't get me involved with your show of affection!"

"No, I..." Faced with Mu Zi'an's questioning, Mu Jinxiu asked Shi Qing for help at a loss, and she explained, "Sister, I'm afraid you're hungry."

Mu Zi'an followed Mu Jinxiu's gaze and looked at Shi Qing a few times, those few seconds were a torment for Shi Qing.Shi Qing didn't know why he cared so much about Mu Zi'an's gaze, he just felt that whenever that girl frowned, he would feel extremely uncomfortable.

Which is weird because he's clearly 'unfamiliar' with her.

Mu Zi'an glanced over, then lowered his head and said.

"I'm not hungry, I'm going home."

There were still a few male students who were sluggishly packing their schoolbags in the class. When they heard Mu Zi'an's speech, they all turned their heads to look at this new beautiful female classmate.

I saw one of them talking to Mu Jinxiu pretending to be nonchalant while pulling the chain of his schoolbag.

"Second brother, is this your relative?"

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