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Chen Chen squatted down to wash the towel and wiped his father's face. It seemed that he hadn't looked at his father's face so carefully for a long time. He went home once a semester in college, and only went back once a year after work. His memory seemed to be still stuck in the memory of his father The appearance in high school, now it seems that my father is aging faster than I know, the wrinkles on his face and the white hair on his head are full of traces of time.Father Chen slept very deeply. Fortunately, his body temperature was normal, and his complexion gradually became normal. He put one hand on his shoulder and patted it lightly. Chen Chen turned his head, and Chu Zhenzhou's slightly worried face fell into the In his eyes, he hurriedly said: "Are you tired, you should take a rest first." Looking at the sickbed with dirty sheets next to it, and then at the folding bed next to it, Chen Chen was a little at a loss He went on to say: "Actually, this place is really not suitable for rest, or you can go back, my father should be fine."

Seeing the bewildered look of the young man and listening to his polite and alienated words, Chu Zhenzhou felt a little frustrated and disappointed for a moment. This person is his legal spouse and the other half of his territory. Hearing that his father had an accident, he He almost forgot to change his shoes when he was in a hurry to go out, and rushed all the way here, fearing that he would not be by his side when he was helpless, it would be a pity, but at this time, he politely said to him: Please go back.Chen Chen seems to have become that kind of self-enclosed snail again, carefully retracting himself into the shell, and shutting his heart out again, but what can he do, besides knocking on the door again, he seems to have no choice but to There is no way out. Feelings are like this, something that makes people powerless.

He didn't speak for a long time, Chen Chen felt uneasy, and looked up at him, then Chu Zhenzhou asked softly: "You, don't you want me to accompany you?"

Chen Chen was taken aback, and hurriedly said, "No, I just feel that I'm afraid you won't feel comfortable here. I don't think this bed is very clean, so...."

"Xiao Chen, I'm not as delicate as you think. I've been in the army and lived in a difficult environment. Why do you always worry so much? As long as you want me to be here, I will be here."

Chen Chen hurriedly lowered his head, he wanted to cry again.

Chu Zhenzhou turned over the mattress of the hospital bed. Fortunately, it looked clean from the other side. There was a simple thin quilt on the bed, but it also looked a little dirty. He pulled Chen Chen and motioned him to go up to rest. Chen Chen The instinctive reaction was to let him sleep on the hospital bed and fold the bed by himself, but he remembered what Chu Zhenzhou said just now, so he held back and said nothing, and fell silently on the bed to rest. Chu Zhenzhou gently covered his eyes with his hands, softly Said in a low voice, "Don't be afraid, just sleep for a while."

Chen Chen was very tired physically, but when he closed his eyes, he always saw his father's painful face, and he couldn't sleep. Chu Zhenzhou sat beside him, looked at him, and patted him gently, but Chen Chen felt that the weather in July My hands and feet are getting colder and colder, my father's slightly disappointed and depressed face, my mother's strong and helpless words, the arguments of the villagers I will face in the future, my sensitive and thoughtful personality, and Chu Zhenzhou who walked into his life forcefully, everything Everything flashed in front of his eyes like a slide, and after a while it changed to his father's painful face. His mother cried out anxiously, and he suddenly opened his eyes, not daring to sleep again.Chu Zhenzhou sighed helplessly, thought for a while and said, "I'll go out for a while", just as he turned around, he found that he was being grabbed by the corner of his clothes. With red eyes, he asked, "Where are you going?"

Chen Zhenzhou looked at him distressed, and gently shook his hand, which was cold, and he replied: "I remember there are some towels in the car, where can I go to wipe your feet, only when your hands and feet are warm sleep"

Seeing Chu Zhenzhou push the door and go out, Chen Chen simply got out of bed and went to see his father, then the infusion bottle, and there was still a small half bottle.

Chu Zhenzhou came back soon, and sure enough, he brought some towels, which were probably placed in the car before.Fortunately, there was hot water in the hospital at night, so he fetched water and came back, washed a towel for Chen Chen to wipe his hands, and wrapped another one around his feet.Even in City H, the temperature at night in midsummer is not low. After a while, Chen Chen's hands and feet gradually warmed up, but he still didn't dare to close his eyes. Chu Zhenzhou leaned over and kissed those hands, which were full of fear With sad eyes, said softly: "I am here, don't think about anything, just sleep for a while"

Chen Chen finally fell asleep, he was too tired.

Chu Zhenzhou waited until Chen's father's infusion was over before pulling out the needle and preparing to rest. It was early in the summer in City H. He glanced at his phone. It was almost four o'clock in the morning, and the sky outside had begun to turn pale. Put it next to Chen Chen's bed, set the alarm clock for 2 hours, closed your eyes to rest, opened your eyes after thinking about it, gently held Chen Chen's hand, and fell asleep with eyes closed this time.

In the small town in the early morning, people have already started a busy day. The dawn here is very early, and people get up very early. Many shops open early, and rural people are used to getting up at dawn. Mother Chen is standing quietly in the ward Outside, looking at the people in the room through the crack of the door just opened, her husband was still in a coma, but the snoring sound as usual made her dangling heart drop. His own son's hand was held in another large hand.Chen Chen was very obedient and good at studying since he was a child. He was No.1 in almost every exam in elementary and middle school. Her son was her pride. Until high school, he started to suffer from insomnia and headaches. At first she thought it was because the child was under too much pressure. I bought a lot of calming medicine for him, but his symptoms became more and more serious. Every time he came back, he was not energetic. He lay on her lap in the evening and kept repeating: "Mom, I don't want to grow up. If I don't Just grow up." She always said to her son over and over again: "If you don't grow up, what will mom do? You have to grow up and have your own life, so mom can rest assured." Finally, one evening, she accepted When Chen Chen fainted on the phone, the couple hurried to the school and took him to the hospital for examination, but they failed every time. The doctor only said that it was neurasthenia, so he should rest well.Chen Chen became more and more taciturn and thinner, and they even gave him nutritional injections for half a month during a certain winter vacation.His academic performance also began to decline, and he didn't like to communicate with his parents less and less. At that time, the Chen family's parents, who usually quarreled with each other, were in unprecedented harmony. They kept seeking medical advice and seeking remedies everywhere. , Thinking about letting my son sleep well, don't delay studying.As for the cause of the disease, there was no way to find out.After the college entrance examination, although her grades were not as good as she had expected, Chen Chen had already played a long role in the poor health of high school for three years, and then he resolutely stayed away from his hometown, and every time he called, he would tell her about his sleep changes. Well, the body has improved, until that time when he cried on the phone and said: "Mom, I like men." She realized that it was not the illness that tortured her son in the first place, but the inner demon.She quickly accepted this reality, because when she saw her son like that, she had never believed in ghosts and gods. She had silently prayed in her heart that as long as her son was alive in safety and health, she would be willing to pay whatever price she had to accept her son being with a man. At the same time, it is nothing compared to the fear that her son would leave at any time at the beginning, but now looking at such a scene, she still has a trace of regret. It would be great if her son liked girls, but what a pity in this world No if.

"Mom, what are you looking at? Why don't you go in?" Chen Min looked from behind her mother as if she was in a ward, her eyes widened in fright, and she stuck out her tongue.As soon as she spoke, Chu Zhenzhou woke up suddenly. He has always been very alert. He immediately got off the bed and walked over. Mother Chen looked at him and said softly: "It's okay if you didn't sleep. This bed is not very comfortable. Tell Xiaochen to go back and bring some quilts over today."

Chu Zhenzhou hurriedly said: "It doesn't matter, it's you, please pay attention to your health." He turned his head and looked into the ward and said, "You and my younger sister go in to see Uncle Chen, and I'll go out to see and buy some breakfast when I come back."

Chen's mother didn't refuse, she nodded and said, "It's okay, this town is not big, there is only one main street, you just go out and turn left." Chen Zhenzhou responded and walked out.

Chen Min looked at his back as he was striding away, turned to look at his mother and complained, "It's nice to be tall, why am I so short?" Chen's mother shook her head speechlessly.

It is inevitable that there will be movement when the mother and daughter go in. Chen Chen sleeps very tired this time, shuttling through various dreams, fleeing, chasing and killing, knowing that there are people in the room, the consciousness seems to be awake, but the person cannot wake up. Sweating, Chen's mother looked at him being trapped by the nightmare, and couldn't help but gently pushed him, Chen Chen suddenly woke up, he didn't know where he was for a while, and looked at Chen's mother in a daze With his sister, Chen Min couldn't help but said: "Brother, what's wrong with you, did you have a nightmare?"

It was only then that Chen Chen realized that he was in the hospital. He hurriedly looked to the side. Father Chen was still in a deep sleep and showed no sign of waking up. He went over and touched his father's forehead. His body temperature was normal, and his face looked normal too. , Mother Chen sighed and said, "Son, don't worry."

At this time, there was a sound of footsteps in the corridor, and Chen's mother said: "I guess your old uncle and the others are here. They called me very early in the morning and said that they were going to put water on the ground. They also went to our house to show the water. Look at it." come over"

Sure enough, the sound of footsteps came straight here, Chen Chen suddenly remembered that Chu Zhenzhou was gone, and was about to ask his mother, the old uncle and second uncle opened the door and came in, and they all went to Chen's father's bedside to see after greeting Chen's mother look.Chen Chen secretly winked at Chen Min, and pointed to the folding bed. Chen Min rolled his eyes at him and leaned over and whispered, "I went to buy breakfast, and I'm probably coming back soon. Remember, friend, you understand."

When the old uncle and the others talked about the rice fields, the Chen Chen brothers and sisters didn't know much about it, so they were confused.Not long after, the door of the ward was pushed open, and Chen Zhenzhou came in with two hands full of breakfast. Both the old uncle and the second uncle were taken aback. Before Chen Chen could speak, he heard the old uncle say: "Did you go to the wrong door?"

Chen Chen hurried up to pick up the breakfast in Chu Zhenzhou's hand and said, "Old uncle, second uncle, this is my friend. He heard that something happened at home, so he came to see me. His name is Chu Zhenzhou, Zhenzhou, this is my friend." Dear Second Uncle and Old Uncle”

Chen Zhenzhou hurriedly nodded and said hello: "Second Uncle, Old Uncle"

The author has something to say:

Sorry for the late update, I have just started a new job for a week, and I have not worked independently yet, so I am very nervous, I hope everything goes well, come on, come on