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【Sweet honey, you smile sweetly, like the flowers are blooming in the spring breeze~】

[You know, I like this song very much. This song was very popular when I was a child, so I sang it every day, and then I can only sing this song. 】

[Do you know, this song sounds very sweet, but it’s also very helpless in the end. When I was a child, I cried when I first heard it. Others laughed at me, but you know what I really understand. 】

[Where, where have I seen you, your smile is so familiar, I can't remember it for a moment, I saw you in my dream, my dream, my dream, my sweet smile is so sweet]

[Do you understand, the song of unrequited love at this time, it turned out to be just a dream. 】

"There is honey water, you two should drink some." Wang Ziqing brought over two cups.

"Thank you, Mr. Wang."

"Don't bother, you guys rest first, it's all on my account."

"How embarrassing, it's obvious that Guo Ming drank so much wine while I wasn't paying attention."

"Don't blame him, maybe he has premarital phobias, the life in S City is quite stressful."

"..."

"Don't bother me, good night, sister-in-law."

[Patient No. 4, your homosexual treatment has ended, please undergo an examination next, and then you can be discharged from the hospital.Don't be afraid, the examination is scientifically safe and will not cause any discomfort. 】

Wang Ziqing stood outside the door, stomping his feet every now and then.The door of the house is ajar, and you can enter with a push.

The sound of snoring in the house reached Wang Ziqing's ears, and the house was as quiet as outside.

[Patient No. 4 is confirmed to be mentally ill and must be hospitalized for treatment. Please pay the fee later. 】

[Isn't it already ready, the new policy issued by the country this year? 】

Wang Ziqing pushed the door open and entered, but the door was still ajar, as if nothing had happened.

Looking at the two people on the bed, the feeling of happiness rushes to the face. How to judge whether a couple's life is happy or not, you only need to look at the sleeping positions of the couple.

Happiness, harmony, no third person is allowed to intervene.This is their impression of Wang Ziqing.

"Guo Ming, do you know that neither of us needs to be responsible for our own loyalty."

[The patient is indeed suffering from a mental illness. I am afraid that he was too stimulated during the homosexual treatment. The hospital will give some compensation for this, but he cannot be discharged from the hospital; the hospital is not responsible for a series of social security problems caused by forced discharge . 】

[This troublemaker, you should have thrown him to his own father in the first place! 】

[Cure it, let’s talk if it’s really impossible. 】

Wang Ziqing was very excited, he showed a rare smile, he kissed Guo Ming's lips, in order to repay him that there was no mark on each other's lips during the night of the confession.

Everything is like a dream, with everything and nothing.

It is both real and unreal.

Some are drunk and some are sober, but they are all equally insane.

The smile gradually faded from his face, and his face slowly distorted, neither crying nor smiling, or both crying and laughing, very contradictory.

[Your mother and I don't want to care about you anymore, we have your brother is enough, we have done our best to pick you up. 】

[Your hospitalization expenses these years are like a bottomless pit, and the original pension has long been spent. 】

[You are no longer able to go to school, go to a big city to work, this is your living expenses. 】

【I changed your name when you were in the hospital. You are called Wang Ziqing now. Just because of your name, you should know what you should do. You can figure it out yourself. 】

Ziqing is clean; self-cleaning is unclean, you have to learn to be clean.He always thought so.

He suddenly felt that he was not in charge of everything, everything was up to others what he said, right or wrong, he had no chance to choose.

He felt that living was not like this, that there was no difference between living like this and being dead.His thinking seems to be still stuck in his youth in high school, always thinking about living out of himself, if a person loses his self, then he really doesn't exist.

If possible, I really want to continue to "live".

Boss Yang saw the distraught Wang Ziqing coming out, hurriedly went up to him and pulled him away, and listened to the movement in the room with palpitations.It was reassuring to hear that there was really no movement.

"You are...well, I won't talk about you anymore, just figure it out yourself."

He smiled, sweating profusely.

"Go back to my room later, tie me up and make a note."

"what?"

Wang Ziqing turned his head, looked at him, and said softly: "Do it."

[Wang Ziqing?Sorry, you have a history of mental illness, we will not record you. 】

Boss Yang tied Wang Ziqing to the bed and said, "This rope will come apart as soon as you pull it. I can't help you."

【Boss Yang, why are you letting me go! 】

Wang Ziqing's eyes changed, and Boss Yang went out in a hurry after being stared at a little.

Wang Ziqing closed his eyes, as if waiting for something, he moved, opened his mouth and bit the towel beside the bed until he could completely block his mouth.

The incandescent lights in the room were always on, and the sheets and quilts were all white, much like being in a hospital ward.

Wang Ziqing opened his eyes, and he didn't know when he fell asleep. He didn't dream about anything tonight.He didn't see, hear or feel anything until he fell asleep.

He took it quietly, quietly, feeling that there was no such person as him in this world.

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[] is Wang Ziqing's hallucination.