Love is like the hole in a donut

So... hey, of course I only found out about these things later. ]

Cang Lin involuntarily turned his gaze to his feet.

[later? ]

[If I had known that he was married, I probably wouldn't have dated him in the first place.When we met again, he seemed to be a married man. ]

Talking about this somewhat gloomy topic, Cang Lin looked like it was no big deal, and laughed a few short "haha".

[Hey, we are both men anyway, so we can't get married.I have never seriously thought about the future of the two of us...]

[Did you really not know then? ]

Cang Lin raised his head in surprise at Lin Sheng's words.

[After you start dating, you should still find out, right?I didn't notice it at all... Maybe you just tricked yourself into thinking so? ]

[Student Uehara...]

[Anyway, as long as you pretend to be deceived, you will naturally feel easier.This way, you don't have to carry the guilt, and you can still treat yourself as a victim. ]

Every word and every sentence pierced Cang Lin's heart.Linsheng's expression was completely different from before, it became quite serious.

The boy, who had no reaction to homosexuality at all, was clearly showing disgust at this moment.

[Student Uehara, that is...]

Cang Lin's voice was a little high-pitched and hurried, and Lin Sheng's expression immediately returned to normal.

[Ah... I'm going home. ]

[Huh?that……]

Before Cang Lin had time to persuade him to stay, Lin Sheng quickly turned around.The boy had come in completely silently a moment ago, but now he left with a rather violent clatter of footsteps.

Canglin walked outside the store and found many stars in the sky.

Although it is not so full of stars, but compared to the miserable and narrow night sky in the city, the number of stars in front of me is astonishing.

Walking from the back door of the store to the national highway, Lin Sheng was nowhere to be seen.He probably galloped home on his bicycle.

Obviously, he himself was curious and wanted to know, but when the topic of the third party was mentioned, his expression immediately changed.Cang Lin locked the back door with a feeling of being unable to let go, and set foot on the way home.

It was a starry night, but bad memories slowly emerged in Cang Lin's mind.

That day, it was raining outside.

I also forgot what season it is, and I will get wet when walking on the road, but it will not be so cold that I will freeze.

It all started with a phone call.A classmate who has not been in touch with for a long time calls. Cang Lin and the other party gossip. Hearing that the other party saw Sonoda taking the child back to his hometown, Cang Lin couldn't help but immediately wanted to find out the answer.

The next day, Kurabayashi went to Sonoda's residence while taking advantage of his business break.The sight in front of him became hazy due to the rain. Canglin saw a woman get into Sonoda's car parked in the parking lot of the building, so Canglin drove the company car and followed closely behind.

The car stopped in front of a kindergarten.

The woman didn't come out for a long time after she walked in, so Cang Lin got out of the car.

The rain drenched Cang Lin's body, and he walked slowly towards the window.Through the fence, he saw the figure of the woman and a little girl.The little girl was tied with two braids, her eyes were round, and she looked a bit like the person she was dating.

Cang Lin didn't even hold half a simple plastic umbrella.The rain soaked his suit, and when he got back into the car after leaving the fence, his shoulders felt so heavy that he almost mistakenly thought that something was pressing on his shoulders.

That night, he finally learned the truth.He pressed all kinds of questions, and finally Sonoda confessed.In fact, Sonoda and Kurabayashi already had children when they met again. ※He quibbled that he chose to get married because of his work; he also jokingly said that the one he loves is not his wife, but Cang Lin. (Annotation: In Japanese corporate workplaces, married men tend to give people a better impression than single men. If they are married and have a happy family, it is more in line with general Japanese social expectations.)

Kurabashi talked about these things with Sonoda in the car.It was night, but the rain was getting heavier. No matter how desperately the wipers brushed the windshield, the rain still flowed down like a waterfall.Gazing at this scene, Cang Lin felt a feeling in his heart: "This relationship is really over."

It's hard to imagine that this was more than three years ago.That day, the memory of being entangled with the rain all day, is clearly still so vivid——

Cang Lin's home is less than 5 minutes away from the store, and above his head, the stars are still twinkling nonchalantly.

There are not many vehicles on the national highway in the middle of the night. Occasionally, a car speeds up and passes by. The sound of the car whizzing by is just like the sound of the torrential rain that day. Even if you don't want to hear it, you will still hear it.

"Did you really not know then? 』

The reason why Cang Lin felt overwhelmed after hearing Lin Sheng's words was probably because he told the truth that he didn't want to admit.

Was it really shocking to hear rumors from former classmates?Have you been dating Sonoda for more than two years, have you never noticed anything unusual?

Cangbayashi never entered Sonoda's house once.He always said "The house in this building is the staff dormitory I rented from the company, so the access should not be too complicated to avoid gossip from the neighbors", but has he really never doubted the authenticity of this sentence?Sonoda is very busy at work, and sometimes, the two of them may not even meet each other during the holidays.When there is something to call, Sonoda always talks with respectful language like he treats his business counterparts.Occasionally, an indistinct child's voice could be heard on the other end of the phone. Before Cangbayashi could ask, Sonoda would immediately explain with a smile, "I'm hanging around the park now."

It's almost like an excuse that will appear in the cheesy eight o'clock file.

To what extent did I believe what he said?

Could it be that I just didn't want to be separated from him, so I kept pretending to be ignorant?In the end, even if he knew the truth, he didn't really break up until his father fell down and there was a physical distance between Sonoda and the two of them.

Cang Lin himself did not understand.

It all ended three years ago.

However, the mood suddenly became very heavy.Normally, I just want to take a break during work and look at my phone with a nostalgic mood, but it's different now.A feeling of discomfort and uneasiness arose in my heart.

It's just that the high school students working in the store were dumbfounded when they heard about it, but they were still hit by it.

——Why did I just slip up?

Let alone bicycles, there were not even half of pedestrians in front of him. Cang Lin stared at the sidewalk and said to himself:

[...Oh, forget it. ]

It takes less than 10 minutes to ride a bicycle from the donut shop to Lin Sheng's house.

This is a new residential area that was developed relatively late, and the streets are planned in a chessboard pattern. Lin Sheng's house is a single-family house located in this area.The houses neatly arranged in the starlight look like toys made of stacked blocks and other items.

Lin Sheng didn't even look at the starry sky, he just pedaled his bicycle hastily.When I got home, I jumped out of the car with sweat on my back.

——Why did I say that just now?

This was the first time Linsheng had such doubts, and this feeling of doubts filled his thoughts.Lin Sheng, who is always reluctant to say anything more, usually seldom regrets what he said.

He obviously didn't intend to speak harshly to Lin Sheng just now.

[Rinsheng! ]

After approaching the entrance of his house, Lin Sheng did not need to take out the key from his pocket, the door opened.

[What's the matter?Why are you coming back later than usual today? ]

Mother couldn't wait to rush out of the house, Linsheng just said in a skilled and indifferent voice:

[I'm back.Today's part-time work is handled relatively late. ]

[I'm so worried!Why don't you send me a text message? ]

[It's so late, I want to say you're already asleep.Also, Mom, go back to sleep quickly. ]

[Linsheng...]

The mother in pajamas could only stand there.

A son who is indifferent to people.Linsheng is 17 years old this year, and he is in the most difficult period of adolescence, so maybe there will be such a situation to some extent.However, Linsheng's attitude does not seem to be entirely caused by puberty.

While taking off the cloth shoes, the objects around the entrance came into view.The only thing placed outside the shoe cabinet is the pair of high-heeled sandals that my mother usually wears.There is a pair of slippers on the right and an umbrella stand on the left.There are purple orchids in vases on the shoe rack.

Seeing an ordinary and unremarkable scene, in Lin Sheng's eyes, it doesn't look ordinary at all.

He subconsciously compared it with the picture he saw this morning.This flower was only placed here three days ago. Although Lin Sheng didn't know its name was "Chidai Orchid", he clearly remembered how many flowers there were, as well as the color and shape of the flowers.It has not rained for a while, so the umbrellas on the umbrella stand have not changed in color or order, blue umbrellas, black umbrellas, light pink umbrellas with polka dots.The simple plastic umbrella that my father bought for a temporary need a while ago was already full of dust, so it was thrown away last month.

Linsheng carefully memorizes the status of the various places in the home, and when he returns home, he will naturally confirm whether there is any change in the home.

He has an excellent memory for strange places, and about seven years ago, he started using this skill to remember changes in the furnishings in his home.

At that time, Linsheng was still in elementary school. That day, he felt weak in limbs and heavy in body since the morning.After reluctantly going to school, I found out that I had a fever, so I left early and went home before noon.

His mother was not at home, and Lin Sheng didn't see his mother return until after noon.Rin Health