【Taizhong】Forbidden Love

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The day Yuko Dazai was born was approaching Christmas, and it snowed heavily in this coastal city.

She was hugged by Alpha's father, and she opened her eyes to see the world in a daze.Hideki next to her looked up at her newly born younger sister. Her small face was still a little wrinkled, with faint red marks, like every newcomer, still a piece of pure white paper.He was six years old, and he had shared the same warm water bed with Yuko before he was born. They were strange siblings connected by blood.But in a few months, she will completely change her appearance, even changing her appearance every day.

In the spring of this year, Hideki entered a new school from kindergarten. When he came back from school, he would walk into his sister's room, but Osamu Dazai would always stretch out his arm before him so that Yuko's little hand could hold his fingers.Her hands are small, white and small, and even the bones are very soft, like a small white ball attached to her father's hand.Yuko, who was born at full term, is much more lively and mellow than Hideki.She always likes to wave her fleshy white lotus root-like arms that are exposed outside her short sleeves. She always babbles some intermittent syllables. Her tangerine-colored hair is always curled up naturally. Smile at the person who hugged her.Xiu Shu watched her smile, her father's big eyes were bent into two crescents, her cheeks were bulging, and there were two sunken dimples around her mouth.She had her first baby tooth, followed by a second and a third.

At that time, Hideki felt that her sister was the cutest angel in the world.

The night Yuko was born, Nakahara Nakaya stayed in the hospital to recuperate, leaving only Osamu Dazai and Hideki at home.The father and son were playing games on the sofa, but Hideki got bored after a few games and threw away the game console in his hand.

"What? You're not here, can't you survive the night?" Osamu Dazai also threw the things in his hand on the coffee table.

"It's just that I'm not used to it." Xiushu held his chin with his small hand, and he lowered his eyelids, "Don't you want to accompany Dad in the hospital today?"

"Ah, it's not because your father is worried that you will drive me back home alone." Osamu Dazai stretched his waist and said while yawning.

He was wearing a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up, exposing the bandages on his arms, and the black suit pants he wore to work.He is still very young like this, Hideki can often see a lot of Omega or Beta or even Alpha women casting admiring glances at his father.

"Have you chosen your sister's name?" the boy asked.

"Well, it was taken before you were born, called Yuko." Osamu Dazai casually turned on the TV.

"Yuko? Yuko..." Hideki blinked, "She looks like she likes to move around, she should be very lively. According to Auntie Hongye, she is a lot bigger than when I was born... "

Osamu Dazai carefully recalled six years ago: "It seems to be true..."

"However, why are you so nervous in the hospital today?" Hideki turned to look at Osamu Dazai, "Didn't you have Dr. Yosano?"

"Huh? Which eye of yours saw me getting nervous?" Dazai raised his chin slightly, his eyes surprised.

"Two-only-"

Osamu Dazai saw Hideki pointing back and forth to his own blue eyes, held down the little boy's fingers and raised his eyebrows again: "Wow - what a bad idea, cough, I don't call it nervous. "

"Brother Dun called you three times and you didn't answer him."

"I didn't hear..."

"So, you're still nervous."

"?? What kind of logical relationship is this???"

Osamu Dazai sighed helplessly, "I know it will be fine, it's just..."

Xiu Shu came to a conclusion for him: "You are worried about him."

"..."

"It's too bad...why should I worry about him."

Osamu Dazai turned his head away, and after a while he said in a deep voice, "He almost died that year."

Xiu Shu looked at his father's silent expression, "Is it because of me?"

"Ah."

"What would have happened to you if something had happened to... Dad?" the boy asked.

"It's not good." Dazai remembered to change the channel with the remote control in his hand, "How to live, maybe I have already succeeded in committing suicide." He thought about it again, "Ah, no, I probably won't Then die quickly."

"I will probably send you to Sister Hongye or Oda Saku to be raised by them, and then come to visit you in a few years."

"It's heartless." Dazai Hideki complained, "But you still think of visiting me, ah, it really surprises me."

"Pfft——" Osamu Dazai chuckled, "Maybe not, after all, I will definitely think of Chuya when I see your eyes."

"Will you be sad?"

"No." Dazai shook his head, "I won't be sad."

"Lie." Xiu Shu squinted at him.

"I didn't lie." Alpha's father denied with a smile, and didn't say the rest of the sentence.

Because a person whose heart is dead will not be sad.

"Both you and Dad like to say what you mean," Xiu Shu hugged her knees and leaned her head on her arms.

"I have the impression that when you were about four years old, you and your father had a particularly fierce quarrel that night. Although you often bickered, your father seemed really angry that time. I still remember that he crushed it The cup in your hand bleeds a lot, and you immediately stopped talking."

Osamu Dazai recalled that the quarrel also left a deep impression on him, it seemed that he almost died because he used himself as a bait again.But he clearly calculated every step, he won't die, even so, Zhong still got angry at him.

"Then my father found me hiding behind the wall, and carried me back to the room with his uninjured hand. I looked up at you, and found that you looked at my father. I often think of that look in your eyes."

"I didn't understand it at the time, but now that I think about it, it should be distressing."

The little boy's beautiful blue eyes flickered, and Dazai stroked his soft chestnut hair. Since taking him to the art museum, the two of them seemed to have grown closer.

"You love him very much, father." Xiushu continued, his childish voice overshadowed everything: "Because I love my father so much, you will feel sorry for him when he gets hurt. If he dies, you will be very sad. Even though Dr. Xie Ye is here this time, you know that nothing will happen to him, but you are still nervous about him, right?"

Osamu Dazai looked at Hideki, but didn't answer.He smiled again, then nodded: "You already have the answer in your heart, don't you?"

Xiushu buried her beautiful face in her arms, and said sullenly, "Then you think, will I meet such a person in the future? Just like you met your father."

"I don't think so." The man stroked the hair on the back of the child's head.

"But they all say I look like you, and I feel the same way myself."

"No, don't listen to it, and don't believe it." Dazai Osamu approached his ear, "You and I are two completely different people, and you will have a different life from mine."

"Besides, there are very few people who meet someone like I met Chuya. Chuya is unique, and so are you." The man's tone changed, "Well, who knows what will happen in the future. Think so far now, don't At that time, I will grow white hair at a young age~"

"However," he laughed, "I hope you will be luckier than me."

The boy remained silent, so Dazai stood up, "Alright, let's go to sleep."

Dazai Hideki got up from the sofa after a while. He walked back to his room, and when he passed the balcony, he found that the snow outside had not stopped.The white snowflakes rushed to the earth densely and thickly, crystal clear under the street lamps.Now many shops on the side of the road have begun to be decorated, and a large exquisite Christmas tree has been placed outside the apartment, covered with lights and bells. Many children believe that at this moment Santa Claus has been wrapped in snow with reindeer and a cart of gifts. Travel at night.

He was thoughtful. In a few days, Dad should bring his sister back for Christmas. By then, the snow will have melted long ago.It would be great if... Yuko could grow up immediately, then he could take Yuko to build a snowman together.

Xiu Shu returned to the room, before closing the gauze curtain, the top of the tree was still crystal clear and white.

he thinks--

I hope that in the future, it will snow on Yuko's birthday every year.

END.