【Taizhong】Forbidden Love

"Death is chasing, eternity is waiting."

After knowing the mission, Atsushi Nakajima took the envelope and returned it, and he would hand it over to that person the next morning.

At this point, Osamu Dazai breathed a sigh of relief, as if a train passing through a rugged mountain road was about to reach its destination.He is also reaching the finish line.

The man put everything in order and turned off the lights in the house.He ran into Chuya Zhongyuan who happened to come out in the corridor. At that time, the lights in the corridor were not dim, but silver like moonlight, illuminating Zhongyuan's face brightly.

Wearing a loose coat, Omega asked that sentence very naturally:

"Go home together?"

Osamu Dazai almost forgot that Nakahara Chuya had just returned to Yokohama today, and there was a distance of several months between them, but what the other said was as if Nakahara was by his side every day these days.It was as if they had never been apart for long.Osamu Dazai would only remember when he was hugging that it had been a long time since he had hugged him and kissed him.

Osamu Dazai strode towards that person and took Nakahara's hand.

He didn't say anything.

I came back later that day, so there was no big meal. There was only Thousand Island dressing accompanied by fruit and vegetable salad. The mafia leader who always liked to be picky about eggs rarely complained too much.

After Nakahara finished washing the dishes, he found that someone who should normally be working in the study at this point was sitting on the sofa watching TV leisurely with a pillow in his arms.

"Hey, Chuya, are you coming to see?" Dazai patted the seat next to him with his hand, "The movie I just showed."

"Has the sun come out from the west? You are quite free today." Zhong Yuan did not refuse.

"Ah, why don't you take a break once in a while?"

"It's nothing, who cares about you." Nakahara Nakaya sat on the sofa, a place far away from him in Dazai's view.

The name of the movie is "Gone with the Wind" - Gone with the Wind, a very old American movie, if I remember correctly, it should have been released in 1940.The black-haired, kite-eyed man next to him couldn't put it down and couldn't get enough of it.Probably because the man liked Vivien Leigh, the actress who played the leading lady, Scarlett, and he once told him that her jewel-like gray-blue eyes were impressive and beautiful.In addition, the scenes in the old movies are actually shot very movingly, and each frame has a different texture, but what Zhong Yuan remembers is the extraordinarily exquisite hats worn by the hero and heroine, and the lush trees around the beautiful villa The picture, and the embarrassing ending.

"Chuya, how about we plant some trees around the house and fill them with trees." Dazai Osamu suddenly said.

"..."

"Well, those trees in the movie look so beautiful in summer." The two of them occupied one end of the sofa, and Osamu Dazai could only look at Nakahara's side face and said.

"That's a movie." Zhong Yuan complained, besides, whoever watches a movie pays attention to those backgrounds.

"We can plant lilac trees, magnolia trees, and camphor trees. One day they will grow up, and the green shade will cover our house. Isn't that a good feeling?"

"Ah, whatever you want, anyway, you grow it yourself." If it is whimsical, this guy should be ranked first.

"However, even if it is planted now, I don't think I will be able to see it, next summer." Osamu Dazai smiled and said nonsensical words.

Zhong Yuan didn't answer, he looked down and could see the compassionate shirt propped up by the little baby, he probably had to go to the hospital for an examination tomorrow, no accidents, the child's birthday could catch up with the end of summer every year.This child will be happier than his two fathers, and I hope he can stay away from the cold and dark places, and can see many years of midsummer's green trees and blossoms.

At this time, the words spoken by the heroine in the movie filled their ears verbatim: "^ Now I find myself living in a world that is more painful than death, a world where there is no place for me. "

Did you hear that?

A world more painful than death.

A world with no place for him.

The two ushered in the end of "Gone with the Wind" with their own concerns. In the last few minutes, Dazai looked at the screen and asked him, "Do you know why I like this movie?"

"Its English name is Gone with the Wind. When I mention it, it reminds me of Cynara's poem, which is also the source of the movie's name."

"I have been faithful to thee, Cynara! In my fashion."

"I have for got much, Cynara. Gone with the wind."

Osamu Dazai has a nice voice, and he speaks English nicely, and the two lines he read are very familiar to Nakahara.

"No matter what kind of story happened, it will eventually die with the wind."

It's like planting a tree, but it won't last forever.

"So the stories are meaningless and people don't remember them."

"But I think Scarlett will remember that she loved Ashley," Nakahara interrupted him, "after all, she loved the man she had loved throughout her youth. She met him too early."

"That's right, well, people really can't experience the emotion of love too early." Dazai said softly, "Chuya, do you think she will regret wasting love and time on a man who will never be with her body."

"I don't think it's a waste for her, but only the person involved will know about this kind of thing."

"Then if you were her, Chuya, would you regret it?"

"Huh?! What are you doing? I'm not a woman, so how could I know what she's thinking?"

Although he said so, Zhong Yuan still thought about it carefully for a while, and finally, he shook his head, "No, I never regret what I have done."

"Oh~ that's it." From Zhong Yuan's perspective, he could only see his smiling side face, a very sad side face.Osamu Dazai said, "Then I beg Chuu to remember me forever, well, no one will remember me for a long time except Chuuya."

"It's hard for me to forget a difficult and harsh boss like you." Nakahara Zhong also sneered.

He once heard a news that a doctor of cardiac surgery encountered an unexpected situation during the operation. In order to save the patient, he inserted a scalpel into the patient's heart, and the patient survived.Carrying a scalpel and continuing to live a life of lingering sickness.Perhaps Osamu Dazai also kept a pair of scissors in his heart. After a long time, the blade and the flesh grew together dripping with blood, and he would die if he pulled it out. The scissors were always in his heart, so Nakahara also Can't fall in love with anyone else.

"If I were dead, you wouldn't be able to forget me. After all, you hate me so much." He and Osamu Dazai are going to go to hell together, who is better than the other.

Osamu Dazai raised his face to the ceiling and laughed silently.He walked to the TV, unplugged it, and walked to the room.

Alone.

Central Plains thought.

You should keep everything secret, don't show any reluctance or sadness, Dazai.Otherwise, as long as I am aware of the slightest, I will never sit idly by.