【Taizhong】Forbidden Love

BGM: Memories of Love

"The stars are not wanted now; put out everyone."

Can't see anything in the dark.

Osamu Dazai lay on his side on the hospital bed, stretched out his five-fingered hand, and grabbed the cloud of air in front of him.

He was still thinking about the biting kiss that fell on his lips more than ten hours ago.Zhong Ye is definitely a dog, and even such a romantic thing as kissing can be done so rudely.You don't need to look in the mirror to know you've been bitten.

Chuya and Hirotsu should have arrived by now.Yeah, it should have been there long ago.But that nasty slug didn't even send a text message to his leader. It was Guangjin who knew about personnel and knew to report his whereabouts to the leader.What is that person doing at the moment?Let's rest, let's sleep, heartless dwarves will not suffer from insomnia.

How long has it been?Seventeen hours, 26 minutes and 39 seconds.How long will it be next, the time is measured in months; how long can I live with this body, there are only a few months left.

Will they say good-bye?Osamu Dazai thought, no.If he hadn't pushed the boat along with the flow and followed suit, Chuya would have even planned to leave with A directly.That's right, he and Zhong Ye are not the kind of people who will be emotional with each other, just thinking about it makes me feel sick, let alone actually practicing it.

Osamu Dazai had already designed his own death, not in the sleepless night he hated, but under the always clear blue sky, which was the last ray of sunshine he saw in this world.

Let Oda Zukuo live well, and he will die after completing this task.He had already made this decision four years ago, and he should be more determined now.

He closed his eyes, attached his right hand to the left chest, and grasped the skirt of the hospital gown, as if to contain the twisted, twisted, contradictory heart.

— Are you shaken?

I have not wavered.

——Is it because you hate him?

he?who?

—You know it well.

I do not know.

——Have you fallen in love with Chuya?

What are you kidding, I don't love him.

——There is no one else here, so ask yourself, are you in love?

I said, I don't love him.

--You are lying.

……

"So what if I love him, can loving him save my exhausted soul?"

Osamu Dazai felt cold.Groping in the dark, he quickly walked to the bathroom in this luxurious single ward. He didn't even turn on the light, but it didn't matter, the light had already gone out.He just turned on the faucet, and hot water flowed continuously on his hands.Ah, it's so warm, holding it is like touching Chuya's hand every time in the past.

The bandage over his right eye was removed while in a coma.It was Zhongye, it was Zhongye who picked it off for him.When he opened his eyes, there was Chuya in both eyes, but he didn't realize it at that time.Every day he slept with Zhong Ye, he never covered his eyes with a bandage.He has long been used to looking at Zhong Ye's side face with his eyes before falling asleep at night and waking up in the morning.He's used to it since he was 15.He can be defenseless, because it is too early for him to meet that person, and they know each other's complete appearance.Zhong also knows what he is willing to show others and what he doesn't want to show others.

Osamu Dazai's hands were no longer trembling, he imagined that the warm water that flowed through was the hand that was usually entangled with him.That way he won't be cold.The gunshot wound to his side when he got out of bed just now was painful, but he didn't feel any pain.This body is a living shell that holds his dead soul.

The man in front of the mirror is not afraid of pain, he gives pain and suffers pain, he coexists with pain.He was surprisingly afraid of the cold, but he had never been as afraid of the cold as he is now.But it doesn't matter, the suffering in this world will soon end, as long as you die, you will never feel cold again.

But why did he still look forward to that person coming back.

At the age of 15, 16, and 17, Osamu Dazai's suicide plan was always destroyed by Nakaya who arrived in time.

"Will you hold me in time this time?" the man said to himself in front of the mirror.

"I have deliberately concealed you, transferred you, stayed away from you, and hurt you—"

"Because I want to save others, I want to keep him alive."

"You're right. I found a good-sounding reason for myself, and I lied to myself for four years. Don't you understand, because I refuse to admit that I love you."

But so what.

"I still hate you, I hate every time you reach out to me."

"It's useless, this time, if you still want to hold me, you can only fall with me."

He turned off the tap without drying his hands.Drops of water dripped down his fingertips to the ground, and after a short moment, the temperature subsided, and the cold climbed up his skin again.He had expected that this kind of comfort was short-lived, so how could he hope for a long time.

He lay down again, knowing that it might be another sleepless night, so he quietly waited for the dawn.

When the sun rises, he will forget all the thoughts of the night again.

"You should rest for two more days."

When Osamu Dazai appeared in the office, Gin was a little surprised.A few days ago, I just received a notice that the leader was injured by a gunshot wound. She, the secretary, will be in charge of sorting out the general documents during the recuperation period. The decision will be made after the leader recovers. Unexpectedly, the person returned to work today. It doesn't look very good - but in my impression, the leader's face has always been unhealthy pale, giving him a kind of tragic beauty.

"It's okay~ Although the wound still hurts a bit, but working with a beautiful woman like Xiaoyin made me refreshed instantly~" Osamu Dazai blinked his eyes, and said in a brisk tone, "Just put the file here with me, it's hard work La."

Yin is not an ordinary woman—naturally, no one who can be a leader’s secretary is an ordinary woman—she has long been accustomed to Dazai’s kind and obedient words, and she asked calmly: "Can I make you a cup of coffee?"

"Then please trouble Xiaoyin~ I want something sweeter, I'm afraid of hardship~" He tilted his head, and his slightly coquettish expression even made people feel a little cute.

"Yes."

After the woman walked out of the office, Dazai turned his attention to the documents on the table. The backlog of debts in the hospital must be repaid.He was so busy that he took a sip of coffee to think that the self in that world was always lazy in different ways. In fact, he used to always push things to Nakaya, and let him do what he couldn't finish. .However, most of the time, he is quite conscientious as the leader.At least they won't go on strike at every turn, and sometimes even work overtime all night.Someone will scold you for being lazy, and you will still be scolded for working so hard that you forget to eat and sleep.

It is estimated that there are still 3 minutes before this cup of coffee is finished, so——

"Hi, Zhongya."

"Say something quickly, I'll hang up if it's okay."

Osamu Dazai probably knew what was going on with the other party's words, probably in a fighting state.

"Ah~ it's nothing, it's just—"

Before he could finish his sentence, the phone showed that he had hung up.

Haha... really... just hang up if you say hang up.

Dazai threw the phone aside.Well, forget it, I have already heard the voice of the little dwarf, and occasionally harassing, enough is enough, the goal has been achieved.

So when Hongye walked into the leader's office, she was surprised to find that the leader was in a good mood today.Observing words and emotions is something that Koyo Ozaki learned when she was young, especially when facing the mafia leader who is in a high position and mood is uncertain, she is particularly keen.

"The concubine's torture class is really busy these days, one after another, but fortunately, they are all soft bones, and everything is recruited without even peeling off the nails." The woman's fingertips rested on her lips, and the bright red Her nail polish matched her vermilion lips.

"Thank you Hongye sister." The leader said to the woman with a smile, "I haven't seen you for a few days, Hongye sister is even more beautiful."

"Oh, it sounds good to hear these words from the mouth of the leader, but it's a pity that I am no longer a little girl who was coaxed by others."

"That's right, Sister Hongye is much more charming than those little girls."

The woman half-covered her face and let out a chuckle, but after a moment, she suddenly changed into a serious tone.

"Mr. A insisted that he never gave anyone else the directory of mafia members' abilities."

"Oh? Really, but he must have negotiated with people from other organizations before." The leader raised his beautiful eyebrows.

"This is true. I want to cooperate with others, but I have suffered from foreign organizations, so I have to plan this matter myself."

Hongye took out a piece of letter paper folded in half, put it on the leader's desk between her slender fingers, "This is the list of people he has been in contact with recently."

"very good."

Dazai spread out the paper, quickly scanned it, and regarded it as a glance.Then he said: "All the rights and properties in A's hands have been taken back. A lot of money won in the casino is also due to the right to operate the casino in our hands. Since it is our interest , of course we will take it back."

Osamu Dazai pointed his finger at the table, "There is no need to keep him anymore. The rebellion in the west is inseparable from him, plus the charge of kidnapping the leader... As expected, a traitor should be punished as a traitor."

Finally, he confessed, "Forget it, let him die happily, anyway, he paid us a lot of payment in the past."

"Yes, I understand."

After Hongye left, Osamu Dazai was the only one left in this huge office.The summer sun is so poisonous, but it cannot pass through the thick bulletproof glass.

day to day.