Broker, take me~

The weather in California is still as sunny as in my memory, with blue sea and blue sky, and a long and straight coastline.Huang Liangyu spent a long period of time in the first half of his life in this state where prosperity and poverty coexist. Here he has seen the sensual dogs and horses at the peak of entertainment, and also seen the cruel and merciless rain of nature.And the fact that Song Xingran was by his side at this moment made him even more excited, and he wanted this person to have a good look at the place where he grew up, as if he could see his heart through this.

But when he reacted, the thick gauze on the man's face gave him another huge blow.

"I feel a different wind." At this time, Song Xingran suddenly spoke.He pulled the corner of Huang Liangyu's clothes, and raised his head slightly as if he was feeling something: "It carries the fishy and salty smell of the sea, and the wind from a vast area. The wind carries people's unscrupulous laughter and singing voices expressing everything. This must be a beautiful and free place, and the people who grow up here must have a free soul."

The smile on the corner of the man's mouth was so real, as if he wasn't bothered by his blindness at all.Huang Liangyu was also infected by that smile, and took Song Xingran's hand, leading him to take every solid step on this land.Lang Lang said, "Senior, let me tell you, the one far across the sea is the Golden Gate Bridge, and its whole body is red..."

Huang Liangyu thinks that he is not a good narrator, his language is not beautiful and detailed enough, and it is because of his undisciplined personality that he has never had a good understanding of every little anecdote in this land where he lives, so that what he said is flat and pale unattractive.But Song Xingran just listened so quietly, sighing from time to time, like a baby who has just learned the world, and believes in every word of him.As if he was holding Huang Liangyu's hand tightly, it was his only connection with this world.And this point greatly satisfies the young people's gradually expanding heart, who does not know when to become a little insatiable.

He likes this person to hold his hand, he likes this person to follow his steps, he prefers this person to walk in a familiar place with such a rhythm that always depends on him, as if he has completely integrated into his life.

Just like lovers.

Huang Liangyu was not surprised at all when this idea appeared in his mind. Perhaps his secret thoughts were sufficiently unclear and dangerous enough, but Song Xingran said "We are lovers" in that situation. The inexplicable thoughts that appeared in his mind at the time were enough to prove something.At that moment, he hoped that one day the man would be able to say this sentence to everyone based on the truth and sincerity.

However, his education and the long-standing restlessness in his heart did not allow him to deny this point: he fell in love with Song Xingran.

To this day, Huang Liangyu can no longer remember what the first girl he fell in love with was like.Love is always taboo and full of temptation for all ignorant teenagers and girls, and he is no exception.Perhaps at that time, what he was obsessed with was not the person of his first love, but only the matter of first love itself.It seems that the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden is so important because of ignorance, and once it is tasted, it will be left behind.What's more, he has already crossed that period of time, and he is desperately trying to get rid of the youthful and childish glitz and move closer to the mature world, while sticking to love often becomes the opposite vector of private will.But no one can deny that no matter what kind of road he is on in life, a sudden emotion will always push him to the starting point of babbling, facing a seemingly bright future, but actually every step is blank. The road alone carries a restless heart, anxious and excited.

Therefore, this may be the first time that he has poured out all the emotions and delusions that should not have arisen because of a person himself, and even later changed to the most romantic definition without accidents, and even because of The superposition of time ferments into a thicker and inseparable thing.After realizing this point, Huang Liangyu thought a little arrogantly, how could he be limited to such a thin comment on Song Xingran and Song Xingran to him.

But just like every love that begins with throbbing, starts from the same starting point, but the destination is always separated.Just like the countless stars in the sky, some refract the light of happiness to light up one side, while some remaining sporadic lights quickly fall with unwilling sparks before they can penetrate thousands of light years for that person to see.And Huang Liangyu always seems to forget in Song Xingran's gentle smile that this person is actually his doom. Since they met, he has been going smoothly like he has annoyed the goddess of luck, and he can't ask for anything.

When Shen Zhenhai called, Song Xingran had just lived in Huang Liangyu's previous home for three days, everything was no longer unfamiliar to the point of being at a loss but not familiar enough to make people feel at ease.Huang Liangyu didn't know why the other party contacted him directly, but he was certain that the reason why he was able to take Song Xingran away so smoothly must be the tacit consent of the man.

There are always different roles and positions between people. Maybe you are standing in this role facing the other party now, and you may become the other party's role in the next second.As for Huang Liangyu, or the company's artists including some of their managers and juniors, and even Shen Yufu's incomprehensible young master, in their eyes, Song Xingran was a leader.There are countless people relying on him, trusting him, protected by him, mediated by him, and even targeting him.But for Song Xingran himself, once he faced Shen Zhenhai, he immediately became the former.The more immature, more hesitant, needs to be tolerated and protected.

So Shen Zhenhai was not surprised that Huang Liangyu called, but he was surprised by what the other party said to him.

"I think you have understood Xiaoxing's character for so long, but he was not like this before."

He didn't eagerly ask about the situation of his adopted son from the beginning, but instead seemed to have prepared for a long time to start an inconsequential topic.Huang Liangyu's heart was suddenly strangled by these words, as if a man was about to reveal something extremely secret.He didn't interrupt, so the people over there continued talking.

"The first time I saw him was because of a car accident. The person who collided with my car was a drunk driver. Then I saw Xiaoxing when I was a child at the police station. I didn't know that the drunk driver was his biological father. He has been drinking heavily for many years. The child had scars all over his body at that time, and his eyes were full of fierceness. I learned from the police officer that the child was actually a problem child in the local area, who often fought and was a frequent visitor to the police station. At that time, I couldn’t stand the domestic violence and left, which made the violence fall on him. But I just dealt with things in a hurry and left. There are too many unfortunate people, and even the situation is a bit old-fashioned , it's not worth my trouble for a little sympathy."

"But I didn't know that soon I would meet this kid again."

It was a sunny day, the strong sunlight ruthlessly baked the earth, and the bright white light permeated every inch of space, no matter whether it was flowers, plants or pedestrians, they could not avoid such sunlight.And that child was so abruptly exposed to such an environment, bearing the pressure of heat and light without hesitation, and the shadow cast on the ground was set off by the surrounding colors to be extraordinarily dark, like a wandering child with nowhere to rely on. ghost.He was holding something tightly in his hands, and his slender and immature wrists and ankles had black and blue marks that seemed to have become signs,

Shen Zhenhai didn't know what kind of mood he followed at that time, but he was touched somehow when he saw the small back of the young man squatting among the mottled shadows of trees at the end.The still young Song Xingran held a rusted and deformed candy box, took out a piece of soft biscuit that he did not know where he got it, gently broke it and fed it to a small black puppy in front of him. cat.

Even though his eyes are fierce and he is still a problem child, his heart is extraordinarily soft.Shen Zhenhai, who saw this scene, just wanted to sigh, when he saw the young man fiercely chasing away the other wild cats that surrounded him.He seems to be the only one who is good to this cat, why is that?A man whose curiosity is aroused is always full of action, even if he rushes forward to ask, the result is that the frightened boy gives him a few slaps.

They have been in contact since then. One seems to be hitting a wall like a ghost and vows not to give up until he gets an answer. Whenever he has time, he chases and intercepts a half-grown child, and even teaches a few bullies for the old disrespect. Big kids.One couldn't avoid his behavior. From the beginning, he ran away when he met with harsh words, and slowly began to reply a few words to the man's accusations, until finally the two of them could sit together on the steps without any image. Eat pancake fruit.

And Shen Zhenhai also got the answer to that question: the mother of the little black cat used to be his domestic cat, but when his father was drunk, he kicked and beat her out, which made the pregnant female cat and her womb. The child died together, leaving only such a little one.That's why he wasn't full of love, he just protected his shortcomings, and maybe he also added some guilt.What's more, he knows very well that he can't even feed himself with his material conditions, and he is not allowed to overflow with love.

It was obviously an unrealistic answer, even an answer that would make most people feel selfish, but it made Shen Zhenhai feel extraordinarily real.Is it only through contact that you can get that tenderness?But how is there a connection?

"I didn't intend to adopt him at the beginning. After all, I am not a good son, let alone a good father. If I can't even manage my own cubs, let alone harm others. But some people may be like this, no matter what he is Identity, as long as you meet it, it is destined to occupy a particularly important position in your life."

During the days when Shen Yufu was kidnapped, Shen Zhenhai was almost like a walking dead.Everyone around him left him, and even his only son couldn't protect himself.All the beliefs that he held on to before were completely shattered by reality, and even the trust and affection that he finally made up his mind to give to that person became extremely ridiculous.But at this time, like a ghost, he somehow wandered to the alley where Song Xingran often haunts.

That young man was obviously an outsider, and he had very little contact with him, but he was willing to tolerate his embarrassing and ridiculous side.The crumpled change was exchanged for a popsicle that was split in two and stuck to the corner of the bruised mouth. The sweetness that melted on the tip of the tongue was low-quality and bland, but it really could heal anything.

The shoulders that look extraordinarily thin, just a small piece of arm against you feel extremely reliable, and the gentleness in the eyes is even more moving.Shen Zhenhai never thought that he would get spiritual protection from someone so much younger than himself.But when he wanted to thank him, the boy told him: "Even if the kindness we have received is pitiful, it is not without it. You don't have to thank anything, I just give you back your kindness. Please treat this as As it should be."

"From that moment on, I really wanted to keep this kid in my life. To maximize our bond, to give him all the kindness I could. But as young as he is, he can say In that way, it is the same as recognizing all realities. Xiaoxing has always been a realistic person. In his heart, he does not believe in unreasonable love, but only believes in equivalent replacement. So he will do everything for what I give him, assuming A future that will be abandoned, making psychological defenses because everyone no longer needs him, instead of taking these good intentions for granted. After so many years, he buried himself in the tenderness without flaws, I I even feel like I don’t know him as well as I did when I first met him.”

"I know that the uneasiness has always been in his heart because of family reasons, and I can't make up for it no matter what I do. So I can only hope that he can have a normal family by himself, a man who doesn't care whether he loves it or not. He will not leave his wife because of marriage, a child who can bring him hope forever bound by blood. A real family member he can have."

"I know you are also a good boy. As a father, I am very grateful for everything you have done to him, but also as a father, I hope that he will be good for the rest of his life and will not be caught by some people who take great risks. Feelings and relationships that seem to disintegrate at any moment torment the rest of your life. I mean, you get it?"

The love affair in youth is always drifting and fragile, and it is doomed to be hopeless and beginningless before it is resorted to.And I feel that this wonderful time may not be a small section of the transitional chapter, but the end of the chapter, which has become the last time.