Psychiatric Internship Records

The next day was Saturday, but the canteen in the hospital was still the same as usual. There was an endless stream of nurses and doctors coming to have breakfast, and it was impossible to distinguish the difference between normal days and rest days.

The mental hospital is open all year round, and the medical staff are divided into day shifts, small night shifts and large night shifts.Those who get up early in the day shift have had breakfast, and after the handover, those on the night shift can get off work to have breakfast and go home to rest.

Qi Fen is still an intern, so he doesn't participate in scheduling, he just needs to work with the teacher.Wei Kai doesn't stick to small details, and the teaching mode is free-range. If Qi Fen is willing to follow him, he will take it with him, and just let him know when something happens.

Qi Fen gnawed on the steamed stuffed bun while thinking about how to ask for leave.

A gust of wind blew, Xu Yingying rushed over with the wind, pulled Qi Fen and ran away.

"Let's go, we're going to be late." Xu Yingying shouted out of breath.

Qi Fen was holding the half-eaten bun, so he didn't know why: "Why are you late? I'm not going to the fourth ward!"

Xu Yingying just sprinted and didn't answer.

"No." Xu Yingying explained when she arrived at the inpatient building and was waiting for the elevator, "Do you remember the patient with behavioral volition disorder mentioned last time? The one who lost his soul. He woke up!"

Qi Fen was vaguely impressed, and said helplessly: "Then there is no need to be so anxious! I can go later."

"Oh, this." Xu Yingying smiled slyly, "I have long wanted to try to pull a handsome guy to run wild and experience the tail of youth, but I have never had a chance, hehe."

Qi Fen felt that he was being molested.

After the shift was over, Xu Yingying took Qifen to the door of the ward and explained briefly: "The patient Ren Lichao, 26 years old, has lost his will, and almost only has the instincts of feeding and excretion, and most of them are in a sleep state. For some reason last night, He suddenly recovered, and he recovered like a normal person. Go in and have a chat with him."

Qi Fen thanked him and walked into the ward alone.

Ren Lichao was thin and thin, and the hospital gown was obviously a lot bigger, hanging loosely on his body.He wasn't on the bed, he was walking around the room excitedly.Qi Fen immediately took a step back. Isn't this changing from weakening of will to strengthening of will?He opened the door, and was on the alert, ready to escape at any moment.

When Ren Lichao heard the footsteps, his brows filled with joy, and he asked eagerly, "Doctor, I'm fine now! When can I be discharged from the hospital? I have something urgent to do."

Qi Fen said cautiously: "Today the director will make the ward rounds. If you have any needs, you can ask them during the ward rounds. You can find them here in about an hour."

Ren Lichao nodded like a chicken chopping rice, put his hands together in front of his chest and made a prayer, and muttered to himself: "Although it took a lot of time, it can be considered a success. It can finally be practiced. There is only one chance, and it must succeed."

Qi Fen retreated quietly and decided to come back later.

"Doctor, don't go!" Ren Lichao rushed over to Qifen, "Come rehearse with me."

"Rehearsal for what?" Qi Fen asked subconsciously, wanting to whip himself after asking.It's definitely not a good thing to be curious about something.

"Confession!" Ren Lichao danced excitedly, "I've been preparing for nearly a year, and now everything is ready and I just need to act!"

Qi Fen looked at Ren Lichao's quick movements, not at all like a patient who had been lying on the bed for a few weeks, and wondered, "Aren't you tired from running around like this?"

"I'm not tired, I'm full of energy!" After saying that, Ren Lichao suddenly realized, and moved a chair from the side of the bed, "Doctor, don't stand, sit down."

Qi Fen said hesitantly: "Actually, I came here to..." He was interrupted before he could finish speaking.

"I'll tell you about me first, and then you can practice with me."

I haven't said anything yet!Qi Fen went crazy, enough was enough, the patient didn't listen to him at all.But it seems that different routes lead to the same goal, since Ren Lichao himself can't wait to speak, then let nature take its course.

"I was not normal before." Ren Lichao said embarrassedly.

Well, it is rare for patients who know that they are mentally ill.Qi Fen affirmed in his heart, took out his notebook, and started to record.

Ren Lichao: "I fell in love, no, I fell in love with a man. The first time I met Lu Hao was half a year ago. He also participated in a mountain climbing activity organized by a group of donkey friends. That day he was carrying a mountaineering bag , well-proportioned, well-proportioned figure, others are tired to rest, only he smiled and criticized our poor physique, I fell in love at first sight.

"I tried my best to approach him, but he resisted me. I thought he was straight, but from various observations, he is clearly not, at most he is bi. I love him, but I can't tell others. My parents and friends don't support me. Me, they think that homosexuality is a disease that needs to be cured. I am very aggrieved. My family has a genetic disease of the mental aspect.

"During that time, I really might have a mental disorder. I didn't eat or drink and researched how to get close to Lu Hao. It was like being obsessed. It scared my parents so much that I seemed to ask someone to treat me? I didn't care too much."

Qi Fen grasped the contradiction and asked, "You met Lu Hao half a year ago, but just now you said you were going to confess your love for a year?"

"En." Ren Lichao nodded, "I just looked at the calendar, and it's half a year in reality."

"in reality?"

"Yeah, I was stuck on September 9th."

Qi Fen was stunned, what does this mean?

Ren Lichao: "In the first few days when I was trapped, I lived in a daze, without realizing the repetition of time. After a few days, I suddenly realized that no matter how many days I passed, the calendar stopped on September 9, and I went to sleep. The next day when I woke up, it was still September 26.”

"Time stops?" Qi Fen guessed.

"No." Ren Lichao denied, "Time is moving forward, but only September 9th. After I go to bed and wake up at night, the time will reset, return to the morning of September 26th, and live this day again. Except me Everyone, including everything, will be reset, just like the game loading, the game data will be restored to the original, but only the player will have the previous memory.

"I did an experiment. According to the normal process, without my participation, my mother would break a bowl when she was making breakfast that morning, but I could take away the bowl she had on hand in advance, so that on this day, she It didn't. She would have smashed the bowl the next day without me.

"That is to say, they have a fixed line and fixed things that will happen. Even if I am affected by me one time, they will still recover the next day.

"Do you know what that means?"

Qi Fen shook his head blankly.

"This means that I can confess my love to Lu Hao, even if I fail, I can start again the next day, and keep restarting.

"After realizing this, I immediately went to Lu Hao and told him directly that I love him and want to date him. As expected, he called me crazy and kicked me out of his house. But it's okay, I can Do it all over again.

"The next day I went to see him again. This time I tactfully invited him to dinner. I found a French restaurant to book out and confessed my love to him during the dinner. Anyway, if you succeed in confessing, you will earn money. If you don't succeed, you won't waste money. Just try it. Hmm...it was better this time, he didn't directly bombard me, but tactfully asked me to think about it and not waste time on him. I was still rejected.

"Later, I tried to invite him to watch movies, exercise, play ball, and exercise, but all failed. I concluded that it might not be a matter of location. I decided to change my thinking and attack the heart first.

"Have you ever had that feeling when you meet someone and never see you again? My goal was to make him feel that way about me. So I started researching his hobbies. He likes outdoor travel, photography, cars. Although I wasn't familiar with it, but I had plenty of time to learn. I spent a while getting into his hobbies, and then went to him again.

"I only have one day at a time, so you have to catch his heart in one day, or he'll forget about it the next day.

"I still failed the previous few times. He regarded me as a friend with common interests, and politely expressed his welcome to communicate with him in the future. Slowly I figured out his train of thought, and every time I spoke, I could hit his most concerned I started to make him appreciate me within a day. But it was not enough, as long as he confessed, he still ended up being rejected, but his attitude was getting better and better, even after rejecting me, he showed a little regret .”

Ren Lichao was silent for a while, and organized his words: "It's strange, as if he refused to agree to me because of concerns. After discovering this, my confidence greatly increased, and I worked harder to approach him, trying to talk to him within a day , figure out what his concerns are.

"However, it took me more than a month, that is, more than 30 days, and I still couldn't ask, and there was no progress. I changed my mind, no longer started from him, but asked his new friends and friends to see if there was any answer. No one knows about him. Through such a long time of communication, I have learned that he has several good friends, and even got the contact information of some people. I can only keep all the troublesome resources in my mind. All electronic or paper records will be refreshed the next day.

"I went to his friends, made insinuations, and finally had a major breakthrough. When he was in junior high school, he had a very good buddy. How good was it? Lu Hao refused Ban Hua's confession at that time because he didn't want to neglect his friend. Now that his friends think about it, they feel that the relationship between the two is not normal. Later, his buddy left, and Lu Hao was very sad. I don’t know if it is because of this, he has been single until now. In more detail, his friend It is not clear.

"This clue was broken, and my confession was at an impasse, and there was no further progress. After a while, I suddenly realized that I didn't have to follow the rules. I was playing around the bush with him. I couldn't ask him normally, so I beat him up. Just pause! In fact, I can do whatever I want, including extorting a confession from him. Anyway, it will always be refreshed the next day.

"So after I made sufficient preparations, I kidnapped him."

Ren Lichao narrated complacently: "I stripped him naked, tied him up, and whipped him until he confessed everything. Do you know? He has a really good figure, muscular, with red marks drawn by the hemp rope. It was extremely sexy. At first he scolded me angrily, and then I tortured him severely, after all, this might be the only chance in this life to bully him without having to think about the consequences. In the end, he couldn't take it anymore and begged for mercy in a low voice."

Ren Lichao's mouth was dry, his eyebrows were beaming, and he still had something to say.

Can I call the police?Qi Fen thought to himself, if the patient is released, that Lu Hao will be tormented to death.

Realizing the panic in Qi Fen's eyes, Ren Lichao hurriedly explained: "Doctor, don't worry, I won't do this again. Just do it once and enjoy yourself. Actually, I feel very distressed to see him hurt."

Qi Fen reflected that when he faced a patient, no matter what happened, he shouldn't make a fuss and irritate him, so he brought the topic back on track: "Then what did you ask?"

Ren Lichao: "He met Yang Yun when he was in junior high school. The two fell in love with each other and were attracted to each other. They secretly dated each other without telling all their friends. Later, Yang Yun followed his parents to study abroad. Before leaving, he asked Lu Hao to wait for him. Since then, he disappeared and left Lu Hao Hao just waited stupidly. When Lu Hong grew up, he was too embarrassed to tell his friends that he still had illusions about his first love, so he didn’t mention it to anyone.”

Going all the way to get this little secret?Qi Fen felt like he was being tricked, and he was furious, and said angrily, "You're going to torture and extract a confession just because of this shit?"

Ren Lichao blushed shyly: "In fact, he confessed everything when he just used violence. Isn't this...he is too tempting, can't hold back."

Qi Fen looked towards the door expressionlessly, why the director hasn't come here yet, can I stop talking.

Ren Lichao continued on his own: "I went to find out where Yang Yun had gone. It took me a long time to find out his whereabouts through various channels. Guess what?"

Qi Fen answered: "Is he married?"

Ren Lichao was surprised: "How do you know?"

Qi Fen didn't bother to talk to him.

"Yeah, Yang Yun is married, and Lu Hao is still waiting for him, so touching." Ren Lichao pretended to cry, "I love him even more."

Qi Fen: "..."

Ren Lichao: "In this way, all the difficulties are solved. I just need to wake him up, tell him that his first love is no longer the same, and then comfort him when he is lost. Sooner or later, I will take him down.

“我尝试了许多方法，比如装作无意把杨云已婚的消息透露给他、特意告诉他、骂醒他、揍醒他，最终我成功了。某一天我一边安慰他，一流露出我爱His message, he let go and agreed to try dating me.

"I tried a few more times and I was sure I could get him to agree [-] percent. I fell asleep again one night and woke up back to reality."

Ren Lichao stopped, and Qi Fen asked, "You came back after you woke up?"

"Ah."

"Do you know how to get out of this cycle for a day?"

"This is probably..." Ren Lichao was stunned, narrowed his eyes strangely, and said vaguely, "...Maybe the recurring day is because of my obsession? So I confessed successfully, the task is completed, and I will come out gone."

Is your obsession to courtship in a dream?

"It's a pity I haven't had sex yet." Ren Lichao added.

"..."

"I really wanted to go to Lu Hao to confess my love, but I didn't expect to be sent to a mental hospital by my parents, and I don't know when I will be discharged from the hospital." Ren Lichao was confused, "And I spent about a year in there, It's only been here for a few weeks."

After listening to the story, Qi Fen jumped up from his chair before Ren Lichao remembered the confession practice, muttering about going to the ward round, and asked Ren Lichao to tell the director if he had anything to do, and run away.

The rest of the day was uneventful.

Wei Kai asked Qi Fen how his dinner was last night with concern.

Qi Fen: "Teacher Jiang is really kind, very gentle, and helped me solve my troubles."

Wei Kai patted Qi Fen on the shoulder, telling him not to be forced by Jiang Mu's coercion, but to tell the truth.

Qi Fen didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "I'm serious!"

Surprised, Wei Kai nodded pretending to be unfathomable, and waved his hand: "As long as you think it's good! From then on, it's your responsibility to invite him to dinner!"

Qi Fen: "..."

Before going to bed at night, Qi Fen lay on the bed, remembering that he forgot to ask for leave.

Looking at the phone, it was already 11:[-], it would not be appropriate to bother Wei Kai, Qi Fen decided to bring it up tomorrow.

A night without dreams.

The daytime shift is handed over at 7:50 am every day. In order to get more sleep, Qi Fen spends less and less time getting up after several months. It only takes 20 minutes from being woken up by the alarm clock to rushing out the door.

When he was in college, he would lie on the bed and play with his phone for a while before going out, but now he just turns off the alarm clock, throws it aside, and gets up to wash.

The canteen in the courtyard was bustling with people, Qi Fen lined up to buy a steamed stuffed bun, and sat on his usual seat, gnawing and swiping his phone.

Since the Weibo homepage was revised, there are some news that have already been seen. The real new posts are not displayed on the homepage.

A gust of wind blew, Xu Yingying rushed over with the wind, pulled Qi Fen and ran away.

"Hey, hey?" Qi Fen held the half-eaten bun, "Why are you dragging me again?"