Psychiatric Internship Records

Homosexuals in mental hospitals are not easy to find. After all, not everyone is willing to come out publicly, and not every family member will report all the conditions of the patient to the doctor.

When no suitable case could be found, Qi Fen followed Dr. Wei Kai to round the wards in the second ward, observed the differences in the symptoms of different diseases of patients, practiced writing cases, learned how to deal with various situations, and tried to apply the knowledge in books practical application.

Gradually, the patients in the second ward also got to know this new intern. When they met in the corridor or in the ward, Qi Fen often heard greetings from around: "Doctor/doctor." Let's check it out." Such a discordant voice.

Qi Fen has learned to ignore patients' illnesses from time to time, knowing which ones need to be dealt with in time, and which symptoms should be left alone.

Just when he thought that as long as he knew how to deal with patients, mental hospitals were not so scary, one day he finished his routine rounds, and on his way back to the office, he was walking alone in the corridor when suddenly a patient covered his mouth and grabbed his collar , dragged into the next ward.

Qi Fen was dragged dizzy, and tried to take out the tranquilizer and stab it. He touched his pocket only to remember the white coat he changed into today, and he forgot to put the equipment in his pocket.

The stupid person mentioned in some jokes is describing me!Qi Fen despised himself bitterly.

Just when he felt that his life was not long, and he didn't know whether it would be considered a work-related injury after death, and whether he could get compensation, he suddenly let go of his claws.

"sorry Sorry."

Qi Fen was thrown to the ground next to the hospital bed. The young man in his early 20s stood aside and couldn't stop apologizing.Qi Fen rubbed his buttocks and turned his head to look, and recognized him as a new patient from the past two days, and he was diagnosed with suspected schizophrenia and phobia in his impression.

"I'm really sorry," the young man rubbed his hands nervously, his face flushed, "I haven't been able to control myself recently."

"Can you control it now?" Qi Fen asked helplessly, reconsidering the possibility of escaping from here, or give up his studies altogether.He stood up and walked out, preparing to report to the young man's attending doctor. The patient was violent and suggested isolation treatment.

Before he reached the door, Qi Fen was grabbed again. He thought that the other party was ill again, so he hurriedly put on a defensive posture, but when he turned around, he saw him sitting on the ground, reaching out and grabbing the corner of Qi Fen's clothes, crying silently with tears in his eyes.

"Doctor, don't leave, I'm afraid." The young man was emotional and cried, "They don't believe me, so I just see you as kind, so please help me, you can't leave me alone!"

You see, I have a tendency to develop into a mental illness, so I think I will believe you! !

Qi Fen really wanted to kick him to death.

The young man was crying bitterly on the ground, the intensity visible to the naked eye, Qi Fen hurriedly knelt down and tried to hold him, "That...your name...?" He turned his head to look for the name tag on the bed rail of the hospital bed, "...Pay the bill? "

Still paying the bill!Whose broken characters are like ghostly drawn symbols, so I can't see clearly at all.

"Fu Danyi." The young man corrected with sobs.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Qi Fen said, "I'm not your doctor in charge, and I don't understand your problem. You'd better talk to your doctor, and I'll call him for you, okay?"

"They all think I'm sick, but I'm not sick!" Fu Danyi declared eagerly, "No, no, there is indeed something wrong with me now, and he forced it out!"

Qi Fen grasped the key point: "He? Who?"

"My dream! He...he is alive! My dream is alive!"

"Your dream?"

Hearing the dream word, Fu Danyi shook visibly, nodded, and wanted to speak, but only uttered broken syllables.

Qi Fen comforted: "Don't worry, speak slowly. I'm here, you don't have to be afraid."

Fu Danyi panted for a while, gradually calmed down, and was helped by Qi Fen to sit on the bed.

"Things happened in the first two years, but I have been different from others since I was a child. Compared with normal people, I have a very good memory. I don't memorize texts, but I can remember every dream I have." Fu Danci Clench the quilt cover tightly with your fists to reduce your inner fear. "Most people don't remember what they have done, or occasionally remember it. But I will dream every day when I close my eyes, for several hours in a row, and I can recall it when I open my eyes." Every detail."

"I started to think that everyone was like this, and I didn't care. I was very excited when I knew I was different, and wondered if this might be a kind of superpower of mine. Later, the dreams I had became more and more weird, and even started to look like It is serialized like a novel! If the dream I had on the first day is not finished, I will continue to do it the next night, like a series.”

"In the dream, I am still me, but I am not me. I observe the world in the dream from the first perspective, but I can't control my behavior. In the dream, I go back to my childhood, live every day again, from getting up in the morning to go to Wash up, then go to school to attend lectures, chat and play with classmates, go home at night to do homework, and finally fall asleep in a dream, and then wake up in reality. In fact, it is not every day, mainly because it is important or impressive to me Those times. At first, I thought it was a replay of the memory, but then I realized something was wrong."

"My school, classmates, and life are all the same as my memory, but some important choices have changed. The first thing that made me realize something was wrong was a math test. I remember that time I did a key problem wrong. I got good grades, was scolded bloody by the teacher, and never liked math again. But in my dream, I chose the right one, got excellent grades, and was praised by the teacher.”

"Later, I discovered many differences. For example, in high school, I did not give up the opportunity to perform on stage because of shyness. When I was in college, I took the initiative to find a teacher to participate in an experimental project. After work, I chose plan B instead of plan A when negotiating with the client. The client praised and signed The contract. Just something I regret so much, relived it in my dream and made the right choice."

Fu Danyi said that his mouth was dry, Qi Fen passed the water glass over, and took the opportunity to say: "These dreams are very normal. In the end, dreams are just the excitement of the cerebral cortex nerves, a spontaneous psychological activity, so It is said that you think about it every day and dream at night. You regret the wrong decisions you made at the beginning, so these memories reappear in the dream and give you the opportunity to make the right choice. You feel that you have experienced a day in the dream, In fact, it’s only 5-10 minutes, and the brain gave you a wrong time estimate.”

Fu Danyi shook his head: "After so many years of dreaming, I have a general understanding of what dreams are going on. I wouldn't take it seriously if I just kept repeating the selection process, but then I gradually realized that it wasn't me who was doing it again. choice, but that's not me at all!

"I once liked a girl, but she didn't like me, so that I was always ridiculed by my friends as a spare tire. I didn't mind what she did to me at all, as long as she was willing to talk to me. Once she After breaking up, I went to comfort her and drink with her. Later, we both drank a little too much, so we hugged each other drunkenly. I kissed her for the first time. But in the dream, I didn’t kiss her. After drinking Finally, she leaned into my arms sadly, I raised my hand and slapped her, and called her a slut, let her do it herself and don't pull me.

"I will never do such a thing! And I don't regret kissing her at the beginning!" Fu Danyi roared hysterically, "So I realized that it wasn't me, although I watched it from the first perspective and could feel it. senses such as touch or pain, but just like possession, I just possessed the person in my dream, causing me to always think it was me, but it wasn’t.”

Qi Fen was confused, and concluded: "So you think that a person who appeared in your dream looks the same as you, has your memory, but is another person, and you share a memory with him. Body?"

Fu Danyi agreed: "My dream is not a remake of an event that I regret, but an event that he regrets. In fact, after careful consideration, I can find that there are not only choices that I think are wrong, but also some that I think are very wrong. It's normal, but the things he wants to change, such as the story about me and that girl just now, or the stock market soared a while ago, some of my colleagues made 10,000+, I don't envy at all after hearing it, because I don't like this A gambling-like way to make money, but he chose to go back to those days and buy a bunch of stocks."

Qi Fen didn't think there was any problem. In popular terms, all similar contradictions can be evaded to the illusory subconscious mind: you haven't realized the real thoughts in your heart.

"Later things became more and more strange. He often muttered to himself when he looked in the mirror, and his expression was extremely ferocious. I never knew that my face could show such a sinister and strange smile, just like this..." Fu Dan The face is distorted, the lips are closed, the corners of the mouth are upturned, a smile is not a smile, looking at Qi Fen, but the pupils are not focused, as if possessed by a demon, and sneered: "'Hey - you idiot, you have completely messed up your life Ah, do you want me instead?'”

Qi Fen was startled, shivering from the soles of his feet to the top of his head, stammering, "This... this is really, a nightmare."

"This is not a nightmare!" Fu Danyi returned to his normal state and immediately retorted, "He said to the mirror, but he was actually talking to me! He knows my existence and is threatening me! He wants to replace me! I think I had a good time, but obviously he didn't think so. Reliving the memory is also his way of saying that if it was him, he could do better."

Fu Danyi hugged her head, trembling, and asked in a low voice: "Doctor, what do you think I should do?"

Qi Fen wanted to pat him on the shoulder to comfort him, but he was afraid of provoking him to go berserk, so he put down his hand as soon as he reached out, comforting him cautiously: "Isn't he only living in your dreams? It won't affect your life."

"No, doctor, you don't know." Fu Danyi shook his head violently, as if trying to get rid of unpleasant memories, "He can influence me! If he does heavy physical labor, my body will be very tired the next day. He chooses to go to bed late, and I will also go to bed very late. And recently he often does some inappropriate things in front of the mirror, I don't know if he is narcissistic or..."

Qi Fen didn't take it seriously: "It's normal. The former is that if you don't have a good rest at night, your body will feel tired, and the latter is just a... well, it's just a dream."

Fu Danyi reacted violently, dancing with hands and feet, and was about to continue explaining when the door of the ward was opened with a "bang".

Wei Kai walked in, followed by a well-mannered strange man in a suit and leather shoes. In a hospital where there are rough white coats and hospital gowns everywhere, his well-dressed clothes are very eye-catching.

"Teacher Wei." Qi Fen stood up to say hello, and looked at the man in the suit curiously.

"Xiao Qi is here too." Wei Kai nodded, pointed sideways at the man and introduced to Fu Danchen and Qi Fen, "This is a hypnotist hired by our hospital, Jiang Mu, and I invite him to help you with treatment today."

"Hypnotist?" Fu Danyi and Qi Fen were both taken aback.

Then Fu Danyi grabbed Jiang Mu's hand excitedly, and begged, "Doctor, you must help me! I haven't dared to sleep for several days."

Qi Fen stared at Jiang Mu, wondering when did the hospital hire an external hypnotist?Out of the corner of his eye, he caught sight of Wei Kai winking at him, so he followed Wei Kai out of the ward in a daze, leaving Jiang Mu to treat Fu Danyi.

It was dinner time, and the patients walked out of the ward one after another. Under the guidance of several nurses, they went to the cafeteria at the end of the corridor to eat. The corridor was full of noise and was covered by noise.

Qi Fen and Wei Kai stood in the corridor, waiting for Jiang Mu's treatment results.

"What's going on?" Qi Fen asked.

"Suggestion therapy." Wei Kai explained, "That's a friend of mine, a psychiatrist. He does know a little bit of hypnotism, but he's not a hypnotist. Let him help this time."

Qi Fen didn't know why, and looked at Wei Kai blankly.

"The patient has been hospitalized for a while, but has not improved. He has begun to distrust us doctors. If we find a third-party doctor for him now, he will believe what he says." Wei Kai took out a mint and threw it Into the mouth, to resist the craving for cigarettes, "Do you know what suggestion therapy is?"

Qi Fen replied: "Patients receive positive hints from doctors, so as to accept certain views or behaviors of doctors, and relieve their psychological burden."

Wei Kai nodded: "That's right. Fu Danyou firmly believes that the person in his dream is alive. He is afraid of being replaced by the person in his dream. The more he is afraid, the more he will dream. It is a vicious circle. It is found that he has a second personality, which means that he is more in line with sleep phobia, and the dreamer he mentioned is probably a pure fantasy."

"So, just let him know that the person in the dream is fake?" After Qi Fen finished speaking, he immediately denied himself, "No, he can't get out of his fixed thinking. The best way is to let him believe that the person in the dream has already Just disappear."

Wei Kai praised: "Smart. Jiang Mu's treatment is to make Fu Danyi believe that the person in his dream has been killed by Jiang Mu and will not appear again."

"As long as he doesn't dig into the corner, he won't dream of that dreamer again." Qi Fen continued, "Good way."

After a while, the patients who had finished their meals came out of the restaurant one after another and were led into the activity room by the nurses.Those with mild illness were allowed to go for a stroll in the small garden in the courtyard under the care of the nurses.

Jiang Mu opened the door and walked out, nodded to Wei Kai, indicating that the treatment went well.Fu Danyi stood behind him with an excited expression, and kept expressing his gratitude: "I am so grateful to the doctors, I am finally free from his existence, and I am safe."

Jiang Mu turned back and said in a cold voice, "If you have any questions, you can contact me through Dr. Wei Kai."

"Okay ok. He's dead and there's nothing wrong! I think I'll be out of the hospital right away."

Wei Kai said: "Let's go eat first, everyone else has finished eating."

Fu Danyi's face was radiant, and he rushed to the restaurant in a jolt.

Qi Fen looked at Fu Danyi's leaving figure, secretly sighed that Jiang was still old and spicy, and the healing effect was really good.

"Thank you!" Wei Kaixu put Jiang Mu's shoulders on his shoulders, "Let's go, treat you to dinner!"

"No." Jiang Mu looked at Wei Kai sarcastically, "I must be invited to the cafeteria again, the food is too bad, so I won't go."

"Hey." Wei Kai said with a guilty conscience, "You saw through. I still have a night shift at night, so I have to go to sleep quickly, so I won't entertain you. You also know the way, so I won't see you off!"

Qi Fen found that this is a good opportunity to learn, if he can communicate more with experienced therapists.He did some mental training, summoned up his courage, and interjected, "Mr. Jiang, let me treat you to dinner instead of Mr. Wei."

Wei Kai agreed: "Good idea, let him do it for me. I'll pay for it, so don't hold me back and call me stingy."

"Sorry, I have something to do tonight." Jiang Mu politely apologized to Qi Fen, "Next time, there is still a chance."

Qi Fen: "It's okay, I'll invite you next time."

Jiang Mu walked out of the ward, and the closed door at the end of the corridor was opened for him.Qi Fen followed Wei Kai back to the doctor's office to rest.

The moment he turned around, Qi Fen seemed to see Fu Danyi flashing past in front of the closed gate.

"Hey?" He stopped, isn't the restaurant at the other end of the corridor?When he was about to take a closer look, he saw a female patient screaming and throwing a pen from the activity room and ran past the gate, followed by a nurse chasing to pick up the pen.

He grabbed the nurse who had just come out of the restaurant and asked, "Is Fu Danmi in the restaurant?"

The nurse replied: "Here he is, good boy, what did you tell him? He was very excited and shouted everywhere that he was going to be discharged from the hospital."

Qi Fen scratched his head, wouldn't he also start to hallucinate?He didn't dare to think about it anymore, thanked the nurse, and followed Wei Kai straight to the office.

Is it time to see a psychiatrist and relieve stress?Qi Fen planned to find a teacher or a senior who had experienced internship for consultation.

Outside the door of the second ward, Jiang Mu paused, and looked back at the empty gate, as if he had noticed something, with a look of surprise on his face.The elevator door opened behind him with a "ding", and he no longer hesitated, walked in and left the hospital.