Psychiatric Internship Records

Since it was afternoon and Sister Wang was still at work, there were only Zhou Bin and the nanny at home, and no one came to pick up Wei Kai and Qi Fen.

Fortunately, Wei Kai has been here several times, and he is a little familiar with the neighborhood, so he managed to find Zhou Bin's house smoothly.

After ringing the bell, the nanny opened the door.

Qi Fen thought that the nanny was a muscular middle-aged woman, but he never thought that the nanny would be a capable... old man.

"Hi, let's visit Zhou Bin." Wei Kai greeted first.

The nanny had met Wei Kai several times, so she let them into the room very familiarly: "Hello, Dr. Wei, thank you for your hard work." It is difficult to guess that he has actually entered old age due to his stature.

Wei Kai couldn't wait to ask: "How is Zhou Bin?"

"It's still the same, neither getting worse nor getting better, lying on the bed in the back room, you go straight in." The nanny pointed to the bedroom, "I'll go and pour water for you."

Wei Kai said politely, "Don't be too busy."

Unlike a few months ago, Ms. Wang recently turned to Chinese medicine to treat Zhou Bin out of desperation. The whole room was filled with a strong smell of Chinese medicine soup.

The smell of medicine in the bedroom was stronger, and there was still half a bowl of unfinished traditional Chinese medicine on the bedside table, which was black and steaming.

Zhou Bin was lying flat on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling with blank eyes, his cheeks were sunken, his breathing was extremely laborious, and he made a whistling sound, and he didn't respond to anyone approaching him.

"Have you stopped the medicine?" Wei Kai asked the nanny who had just walked in with water.

The nanny put two glasses of cold white on the table, nodded, and said, "The antipsychotics have been stopped, and the antibiotics are still being taken."

Wei Kai walked into the bed, observed it, and asked disapprovingly, "Why didn't you send him to the hospital?"

"He won't go." The nanny was also a little helpless, "There will be trouble when we go out."

Wei Kai was also helpless: "But he has been lying at home, and the pneumonia can't be cured." After thinking about it, he said, "If you can take him to the hospital, you should go to the hospital."

"Well, we will discuss it with his niece later." The nanny agreed.

Zhou Bin was stunned for a while, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Looking at his weak appearance, Qi Fen felt more and more uncomfortable, and finally couldn't bear it, quietly left the bedroom and ran to the living room to relieve his emotions.

It just so happened that the nanny also came to the living room with a rag, and his men kept wiping the TV table and coffee table.

"Would you like something to eat?" He asked Qi Fen politely.

"No, no, no," Qi Fen stood by the dining table, waving his hands and refusing, "What's your name?"

"Li Hongyun."

Sounds familiar, where did you hear it?

Qi Fen couldn't remember, and watched Li Hongyun bustling about in boredom.

For a while, no one spoke, and the living room was silent. Qi Fen stayed in the same room with Li Hongyun alone, and felt that the atmosphere was a bit awkward, so he raised a random topic: "Why did you come here to be a nanny?" It's too private and impolite, I wish I could slap myself twice, and hurriedly explained, "It's nothing else, I just think that people who are as old as you usually don't choose to be a nanny, especially taking care of patients."

Li Hongyun did not answer.Just when Qi Fen was secretly worried about whether the other party was angry, he slowly said: "If you don't do something, your conscience will be disturbed."

"Uneasy conscience?" Qi Fen was surprised, and repeated subconsciously, all kinds of clues gathered in his mind, and the truth surfaced, "Could it be, you, you are Zhou Bin's boy?!"

After hearing this, Li Hongyun sighed, turned his back to Qi Fen, and silently wiped the storage shelves, layer by layer.

Qi Fen was in a ball of amazement.God, he really came back, why did he come back after so many years, what happened?So why are you back now?Both of them are so old, and Zhou Bin has already lost his mind, what is he doing when he comes back?

Looking at Li Hongyun's lonely back, he had thousands of questions he wanted to ask, but he swallowed them all when they piled up on his lips.

No matter how you ask it, it's like blaming, it can't solve anything, it can only increase the sadness.

"Will he mention me to everyone he sees?" Li Hongyun suddenly asked after a while.

"Ah? What?" It took only a few minutes, but Qi Fen's thoughts soared to the Pacific Ocean, so that he was still a little dazed when he was awakened by Li Hongyun's question, "No, it's not that he will mention you to everyone, just It's just because he only remembers you."

Li Hongyun returned to silence again, not knowing what to think.

Qi Fen carefully considered his words, and asked hesitantly, "Does Zhou Bin know that you are back?"

Li Hongyun stopped busy, shook his head, and suddenly remembered that his back was facing Qi Fen, and the other party might not be able to see this tiny movement, so he said, "I don't know."

"Then does Miss Wang know?" Qi Fen asked.

"His niece?" Li Hongyun, "You probably guessed my name when you heard it, but she didn't say it clearly, she just agreed to let me stay as a nanny."

Qi Fen also understood what Li Hongyun meant.If Sister Wang didn't know, she definitely wouldn't want a nanny as old as Li Hongyun.

"For so many years," Qi Fen gestured to the length of time, "Did something happen to you?" That's why he never came back.

"Nothing happened," Li Hongyun said in a hoarse voice, "it's just... I don't want to come back."

Qi Fen imagined that after Li Hongyun went to the mountains and went to the countryside, he was trapped in the countryside and could not communicate, or he was injured and encountered danger, but he never expected him to answer like this, and he was stunned for a moment: "What?"

Li Hongyun stopped talking again, absently picked up a rag and wiped the storage shelf repeatedly, as if it was really covered with thick dust.

Don't want to come back?What is the reason? !After waiting for a while to see that Li Hongyun did not explain, Qi Fen said, "He has been waiting for you all his life."

Li Hongshen paused, but still did not give an explanation.

Qi Fen said it again, with a slightly stronger tone than before: "He has been waiting for you all his life!"

Li Hong turned around, seemed unable to support his body, moved step by step to sit in front of the sofa, and said painfully: "Well, I know."

The skin on the face of the elderly is loose and wrinkled together, making it more mournful.

Qi Fen wanted to say a few more words, but after seeing his expression, he couldn't bear to criticize him for a while.

"I'm sorry for him." Li Hongyun confessed in a low voice, "I didn't have the courage to come back."

courage?Do you still need courage to come back?

"In our time, liking the same sex was a very serious matter." Li Hongyun held back for a long time, and finally he was able to express his inner hesitation and shame after decades, "When the friendship between me and Abin exceeded When it was within my control, I chose to escape."

Qi Fen has never experienced that era, but he can imagine how the society would criticize homosexuality back then. Even now, homosexual love will be vilified by some people, let alone decades ago.

He didn't know how to evaluate Li Hongyun's escape, so he could only ask dryly: "Then why didn't you explicitly reject him?"

"I'm afraid he will be sad." Li Hongyun replied without confidence.

"Sad? But you are missing, wouldn't he be even more sad!" Qi Fen repeated for the third time, "You made him wait for you for the rest of your life!"

"I didn't expect him to be waiting for me." Li Hongyun lowered his head, buried his face in his hands, and regretted, "I thought he had forgotten me, after all, we were so young and immature at that time. .”

"It's you who like the new and dislikes the old, not him!" Qi Fen was a little angry for no reason, "Have you ever liked him?"

Li Hongyun did not answer.

Qi Fen couldn't see his expression, and he didn't know whether it was the indifference that he never liked, or the regret that he liked but didn't have the courage to grasp it.

"Then why are you coming back now?" Qi Fen complained.Since he had already chosen to leave, why did Zhou Bin come here to atone for his sins when his life was approaching?Why did you go early!

"I just knew he was waiting for me." After Li Hongyun controlled his emotions, he put down his hands and raised his head.

"Did you know?" Qi Fen snorted, "How did you know?"

"Abin's granddaughter posted Abin's story on the Internet, and my grandson saw it. There was a photo of Abin's picture album. My grandson remembered that I had the same copy, so he came to ask me." Li Hongyun said from his pocket. He took out a picture album of the same style from his pocket, opened the first page and showed it to Qi Fen.

Because of its age, it also has yellow edges, but it is well protected and is not often touched. The picture inside is a little blurred due to moisture, but it is still clearly legible.

Zhou Bin, who was wearing an old school uniform, sat on a stone bench and smiled happily at the painter, young and full of energy.

"You two, paint each other?"

Li Hongyun carefully put the album back into his pocket: "I learned sketching, and A Bin followed me to learn."

Qi Fen took out his mobile phone, opened the Weibo that he hadn't used for a long time, entered the search bar, entered a few keywords first, but didn't get the desired results, then thought for a while, entered the word "Hongyun", and quickly searched A Weibo that has been retweeted more than [-] times.

#搜索先爷爷的竹马#, tells the story of Zhou Bin from the perspective of a granddaughter, the content is sensational, and vividly depicts decades of waiting, which arouses readers' sympathy, and points out that the only clue is the place of residence, the name of the bamboo horse is Hongyun and a book Old picture book.

I didn't expect to find it, but it was too late.

"Do you have a grandson?" Qi Fen asked him, "A grandson?"

Li Hongyun remained silent, his eyes wandering.

Qi Fen watched him remain silent, and anger burned from the bottom of his heart.

Zhou Bin sang a one-man show all his life, hoping to get his audience back, but the audience just came to listen to him sing the last note out of guilt, and they didn't really love his music.

"So what are you doing back here?!" Qi Fen couldn't help cursing, pointed at Li Hongyun, his arms were shaking angrily, "For your ridiculous conscience? If you really have a conscience, no matter whether Zhou Bin is waiting You, you will come back and see!"