Psychiatric Internship Records

A night without dreams.

Qi Fen collapsed when he was woken up by the alarm clock.

The words "Saturday 6:50" on the unlock screen of the mobile phone mercilessly mocked him.

How did you fall asleep last night?

Just fall asleep!However, the alarm clock still rings on time every morning. If you can't turn it off, you can't throw it away. If you don't leave the cycle, you will never be able to sleep late!And the biological clock also made Qi Fen unable to go back to sleep after waking up.

This day is over!

He leaned against the head of the bed passively, listless, he didn't even want to go to the internship, he didn't even bother to eat breakfast, anyway, he would refresh the next day, and it was okay to skip a day.

He counted the seconds until 8 o'clock, and when he saw that the time was about the same, he called Jiang Mu and explained that he wanted to learn about hypnotism.

Jiang Mu: "Then you come to the east gate of Xiyang New City now, call me when you arrive, and I will pick you up."

Xiyang New City is a newly built apartment-style residential community in recent years. Each household is a duplex. The developer is determined to allow residents to have the experience of living in villas in high-rise buildings.I don’t know whether the living experience is the same as that of a villa, but the house price and property fee are close to that of a villa.

The duplex style has attracted many middle-class people who use the lower floor as an office to meet clients and the upper floor as a living room.The same is true of Jiang Mu's house. The study occupies almost one-half of the floor area, with dark solid wood floors, and a circle of carved bookcases around the walls. All kinds of books are neatly stacked inside.There is no desk in the room, but two single sofas and a corner table are placed in the middle to serve as a consultation room.

Qi Fen glanced around and exclaimed, "There are so many books."

Jiang Mu came in with two glasses of water, and said with a smile, "I originally wanted to separate the study room from the consultation room, but the two rooms are too small and depressing. It's better to open them up and merge them together to make the space appear larger."

A copy of "Resisting Death" with a metal bookmark was placed on the corner table. It was obvious that I was halfway through reading it. Qi Fen walked over and removed the book so that Jiang Mu could put down the water glass.

"Thank you." Jiang Mu said, "Sit down and relax."

Jiang Mu took the book from Qi Fen's hand, inserted it into the bookcase, and sat down facing Qi Fen.

"You want to learn about hypnotism? Are you having any problems?"

"Nothing." Qi Fen scratched his head, feeling a bit embarrassed, "I just want to know."

Jiang Mu: "To put it simply, hypnotism is a sleep mode induced by gentle commands or demands, coupled with the patient's high concentration of attention. In this process, the doctor allows the patient to accept positive psychological hints, replacing Some negative thoughts."

Qi Fen: "Is it just some psychological hint?"

Jiang Mu nodded: "En. It's not as mysterious as in novels or movies. Just snap your fingers and ask the other party to do whatever you want."

Qi Fen bit his lip and asked: "Then if people see or think they have experienced some false things, can they do it?"

Jiang Mu: "If it is in sleep, it can be done. In the awake state, after some specific hints, it is also possible."

"Is it possible to make a person live in a falsehood? For example, through hypnosis, what he sees and hears is different from the truth," Qi Fen asked eagerly, "but it's not a dream, I am awake."

"With the current technology, it is possible for him to see certain symbols and get a different understanding of the words. But all of them are false," Jiang Mu shook his head, "It can't be done, hypnosis can't make the other party do things that his subconscious mind doesn't agree with at all. reaction."

Isn't it hypnosis?Another clue was broken, Qi Fen sighed, feeling depressed.

"It seems that you have something on your mind." Jiang Mu said with a smile, "Why don't I give you a hypnosis, and you can experience it for yourself."

Qi Fen agreed: "Then I will trouble you."

Jiang Mu picked up the phone and played a piece of soothing music.

"Close your eyes... and meditate."

Qi Fen closed his eyes, fell into the darkness, and calmed down under the guidance of the music.

"Now let the body begin to relax..."

Qi Fen relaxed his whole body and leaned lazily on the back of the sofa.

"Use the most comfortable way, slowly and regularly, inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale...well, as you exhale, your lower belly slowly sinks, now inhale, sunken belly Gradually bulge up. Every breath makes you more relaxed..."

After a few rounds, Qi Fen concentrated all his energy in Jiang Mu's magnetic voice, his body seemed to be floating in the water following his instructions, completely letting go of his thoughts, and subconsciously adjusted according to his instructions.The undetectable drumbeat in the background music regularly guides Qi Fen into a deeper sleep.

He didn't feel that he was falling asleep, but he couldn't control his body and mind. Whether it was Jiang Mu's inducing words or the sound of music, they gradually faded away, as if the whole world was silent, all senses were useless, and he was free to play in the dark. Undulating, yet so warm and cozy that one does not want to wake up.

"jingle jingle jingle jingle jingle..."

The loud sound of the alarm clock woke Qi Fen up. He rubbed his eyes and pressed the alarm clock angrily.

A few seconds later, he sat up abruptly and looked around. He was lying on the bed in the dormitory. Under the weak sunlight in the late autumn morning, there were little dust around him.

"Saturday 6:50" was still displayed on the phone.

Hey?I remember that Jiang Mu was hypnotizing just now, am I falling asleep?Why was it reset directly?

Qi Fen would occasionally take a nap. I remember falling asleep after being caught in a cycle. At that time, he didn't jump to the next day. Could it be that the hypnosis worked and he escaped?

Is this the morning after the reset, or the morning of returning to reality?

Qi Fen found that he could not prove what kind of situation it was, and could only make a judgment the next day.

It must be the latter!He got up energetically to wash up, and greeted the new day excitedly.

The next morning, Qi Fen stared at "Saturday 6:50" on his phone again, feeling ashamed.

The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, and he was almost driven crazy.

After Ren Lichao fell into a cycle, he had a clear goal to do it, and the repetition day after day did not make him tired, and he even looked forward to trying again after resetting.

But Qi Fen has no attachments, he just struggles in the same day, experiencing the same things over and over again, restless and irritable.

He picked up the water glass that was on the side, and threw it at the wall. The water was scattered all over the place, and the tiles were broken all over the place.The violent outburst calmed him slightly.He tugged at his hair, desperate.

Calm down calm down, he kept saying to himself.

Hypnosis is still useful, at least skipped a day inexplicably.Maybe it's just that the method is wrong, maybe it will be successful if you try again, Qi Fen impatiently called Jiang Mu like a dying man grabbing a driftwood, made an appointment and rushed out of the dormitory.

"Why do you look so bad? Did something happen last night?" Jiang Mu removed "Resisting Death" on the corner table, put down the water glasses, and handed one of them to Qi Fen.

Qi Fen took the water glass and took a sip of water trembling.

He couldn't bear to bear all this by himself, and sharing it with others might reduce the pressure, so he decided to tell the whole story: "The things I said may seem fanciful to you, but they are indeed what I have been going through these days..."

After listening to Qi Fen's story, Jiang Mu was silent for a while, and asked doubtfully, "You mean you have been in circulation for several days, and this is the second time we meet, and I even hypnotized you once?"

"Yes."

"I have no impression."

"Yes. Everyone's memory will be reset, except me."

Jiang Mu said hesitantly, "According to what you said, we are all fake, only you are real."

Qi Fen nodded.

Jiang Mu said helplessly: "It's hard to accept. I don't think I'm fake...no." He denied himself, "According to the state of Ren Lichao you mentioned, the reality is still functioning normally, only you are trapped in their own world."

After thinking for a while, he continued: "So all this is your fantasy."

ah?Qi Fen was stunned, so the conclusion is that I am schizophrenic?

"If you think hypnosis is useful, I can give you hypnotherapy." Jiang Mu said, "Don't you think it's interesting? In your fantasy, a doctor will treat you and let you out of fantasy."

So is this self-medication?Qi Fen decided to give it a try, even if he failed, it wouldn't be worse.

"Then let's talk about the treatment fee first."

Qi Fen was dumbfounded, he had never considered that Jiang Mu is a doctor and there is a charge for treatment.but……

"Pfft haha." Jiang Mu laughed loudly, "I'm just kidding you, anyway, it will be refreshed tomorrow, and if I don't have any money, I'll just owe it first."

Qi Fen was listless: "Stop making fun of me."

"Seeing how nervous you are, let me help you relax." Jiang Mu took out his mobile phone to prepare for treatment. "Actually, there is nothing wrong with cycling for a year. You can read a lot of books, finish writing papers, and do a lot of things."

"No, I've been trapped for a long time, and my real body will really be considered mentally ill."

"That's right." Jiang Mu turned on the music, "Let me tell you first, I have some ideas, this time I'm just trying, let's make it plan one for now. If it doesn't work, you can come to me again, let's try plan two."

"it is good."

"Let's get started."

Plan one failed.

Waking up on the third day, Qi Fen still saw "Saturday 6:50" flashing on his phone.

I don't know whether he is used to it or still has hope, Qi Fen is not as desperate as last time this time, he directly called Jiang Mu to make an appointment.And option two, he told himself.

As always, we made an appointment to meet at the east gate of Xiyang New City, and as always, we were invited to communicate in the study.

Qi Fen walked into the study and picked up "Resisting Death" on the corner table ahead of time so that Jiang Mu could put down his water glass.

kindness? ...

"Thank you." Jiang Mu said, "Sit down and relax."

Jiang Mu took the book from Qi Fen's hand, turned around and put it in the bookcase.

Qi Fen sat down.something seems wrong...

The metal bookmark caught in the book reflected a gleam of light as it moved, Qi Fen jumped up and snatched the book back from Jiang Mu's hand.

Ignoring Jiang Mu's surprise, Qi Fen stared dumbfounded at the book with the bookmark in his hand, and slowly backed away.

Hey, hey, no way...

"what happened?"

Jiang Mu's voice suddenly sounded above his head, Qi Fen raised his head tremblingly and saw Jiang Mu who was very close, quickly stepped back a few steps away from him, and held up the book: "You didn't reset."

Jiang Mu was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly burst into a bright smile, and approached: "Where did you reveal your secrets?"

"The location of the bookmark is different." Qi Fen replied tremblingly. In order to stay away from Jiang Mu, his body kept moving backwards, and finally hit the bookcase by the wall, and there was no way to retreat.

"Oh." Jiang Mu suddenly realized, "After reading it yesterday, I forgot to put the bookmark back to its original place."

Qi Fen moved towards the door in small steps, and asked in horror: "What do you want to do? Why do you want to drag me into the loop?"

"Seeing that you are too tired from the internship, I'll let you rest for a few days." Jiang Mu spread out his hands to express his innocence: "For you, I will stop the service for the client before he reaches his goal."

Qi Fen looked at Jiang Mu who was getting closer, and put his hands on his chest: "Don't come here, stay away from me."

Jiang Mu didn't stop, took off the book Qi Fen was covering his chest, and threw it aside.

Qi Fen's body stiffened from fright, and he peeked at the door from the corner of his eyes, silently calculating the possibility of running out.

Jiang Mu looked at Qi Fen who was trembling in front of him, like a frightened hamster, and became more interested in teasing him.With a smirk, he put Qi Fen between himself and the bookcase, lowered his head and whispered in his ear: "I control the whole illusion, where do you want to retreat to?"

Qi Fen trembled all over: "...Let me out."

"Don't let it go." Jiang Mu chuckled, "I haven't played enough yet."

Qi Fen clung to the bookcase, trying to lean back, squeezing the bookcase so that it wobbled.

"Stop teasing him." A third person's voice came from the door, vaguely familiar, "He's about to be scared to death."

Qi Fen turned his head to look at the door, Fu Danyi walked in slowly, he was no longer cowardly as usual, his expression was gloomy and indifferent, as if he was a different person.

Qi Fen was extremely surprised, why is he here!

"You can see him, right?" Jiang Mu leaned close to Qi Fen's ear and asked.

Qi Fen felt the wind blowing from Jiang Mu's words, shaking even more fiercely, and nodded in a panic.

"I'm curious... why can you see him?"

Qi Fen cautiously raised his head and looked into Jiang Mu's eyes: "Why, why can't I see it?"

"Because he is Fu Danyi's dream."

What? !Qi Fen turned his head to stare at "Fu Danchuang", the corner of the other party's mouth turned up, revealing a characteristic ferocious smile.Yes, it is the man in Fu Danyi's dream!It turned out to be true, and it ran out!

Qi Fen was even more frightened, and tremblingly said: "I, I don't know either, please let me out."

Jiang Mu asked strangely: "Just want to go out? Not curious about this place?"

"Not curious, not at all." Qi Fen shook his head like a rattle, "Just let me out, I won't say a word."

The more you know, the faster you die, Qi Fen is well versed in this.

"Fu Danyi" sighed and said apologetically, "It's my fault for bringing you in."

Qi Fen looked at him puzzled.

"Don't be afraid, nothing will happen to you." Jiang Mu touched Qi Fen's head and comforted him, "When I pulled him out of the dream and took him away, you saw him, right?"

Qi Fen recalled the shadow he saw at the door that day, and nodded slowly.

"After he came out, he told me that he was discovered by you. I thought you belonged to Jiang Di, so I wanted to strike first, but later I found out that I had made a mistake."

... I'm just a passer-by, why don't you let me do my internship quietly and finish my studies smoothly!Qi Fen wants to cry but has no tears.

"He discovered it a long time ago." "Fu Danyi" pierced Jiang Mu mercilessly, "When I just pulled you into the illusion, I knew you were innocent, and it was all his bad intentions afterwards."

"Sorry." Jiang Mu said apologetic words, but his expression was not apologetic at all, "Your reaction is so funny, I can't help teasing you more."

"..."

Thinking of Jiang Mu's pretentious treatment of himself these days, like teasing a fool, Qi Fen was a little annoyed: "So...you two thought I was who, so you dragged me into this ghost place, and made me fearful for so long ?”

"Yes." Jiang Mu smiled with satisfaction, "You trust others too easily. At dinner that night, you easily gained your trust and pulled you into the illusion."

Qi Fen really wanted to slap himself twice, but at that time he thought Jiang Mu was very gentle, so stupid.

No one spoke for a while, Jiang Mu observed Qi Fen's reaction with interest.

Qi Fen broke the silence with a weak voice: "So... this is an illusion?" After knowing that his life was not in danger, he was curious after all.

"Yes, this is the illusion I created."

"Then what happened to him?" Qi Fen pointed to "Fu Danyi" and asked.

"Fu Danyi's dream has power, and he has been condensed for a long time. He can also be called a nightmare. He wants to appear in reality, so he made a deal with me. I helped him leave Fu Danyi's dream, and he needs to do it for him. I worked for five years."

"...so he's not real?"

"It's just a powerful dream."

"Then why can I see him?"

"I don't know, maybe you are very talented?" Jiang Mu teased, "Maybe you really have the talent to manipulate illusions, but it's a pity that you are a bit stupid."

"..." Qi Fen gritted his teeth and ignored his personal attacks, "What's going on with Ren Lichao?"

"His family asked me to treat him, so I gave him a chance to achieve his obsession, and he will return to normal when the obsession disappears. It was originally agreed that Ren Lichao had a successful first relationship, but you showed up. I interrupted his illusion."

"One last question," Qi Fen asked, "When will you let me out?"

Jiang Mu said maliciously, "How about you just stay here?"

"not so good!"

"Okay." Jiang Mu said disappointedly, "Then, goodbye."

The author has something to say: It is really scary to be trapped in time. If you run out, your friends are still young, and only you are getting old...

I dare not continue to imagine.