Psychiatric Internship Records

Sitting in front of the computer in the psychiatric office, Qi Fen feels that life is hopeless.

This is a sad reminder of the story.

To put it simply, Qi Fen lost a bet with his classmates, and the loser will be assigned to the Third Hospital of X City for graduation internship, referred to as the Third Hospital, commonly known as a mental hospital.

The mental hospital is quite interesting to outsiders. You can meet different people, get in touch with different things, have fun, and finish the work like a fight (fake!).

Even there are rumors that doctors are also prone to illness.

Before Qi Fen packed his luggage and moved to the dormitory of the Third Hospital, a group of classmates held his hand one by one, tears filled their eyes: "You must come back normally, the organization still needs you." He was so angry that he almost bent his Iphone6.

The most frightening thing is that he still has a graduation project in his hand, which means that if he can't finish it, he won't be able to graduate.

"On the pathogenic factors and prognosis analysis of mental disorders in male homosexuals"

What the hell?Qi Fen read it three times, but he didn't understand the title.

Key points: male homosexuality, patients with mental disorders.

He felt that the rotten girls in the class might be very excited to do this project.

Although he really wanted to put the question back into the mouth of the questioner, he still silently turned on the computer to search for suitable cases in order to graduate.

There was indeed a case that fit the project, and the second ward of the psychiatric department was exactly the internship ward where I was.

Qi Fen browsed the patient's electronic medical record and made a brief summary: Chen Ruibo, male, 28 years old, had a male lover, was sent to the hospital by his parents for treatment three days ago, and was diagnosed with paranoid disorder, and the type of delusion was not clear.

Qi Fen is very satisfied, especially the part where the patient can communicate normally and has no tendency to mania.

He decided to make a quick decision, and communicate with Chen Ruibo first today.

The third hospital has a total of five wards, the first four are closed, and the fifth ward is semi-closed.Chen Ruibo's symptoms were mild, and he should have been admitted to the semi-closed ward, but unfortunately there was no vacant bed in the fifth ward, so he had to be temporarily arranged in the second ward.

The gate of the ward is a cast iron gate, which is majestic and dignified. The security guards are on duty at the gate. Qi Fen is allowed to enter after showing his ID.The third hospital is a municipal tertiary hospital, which is much cleaner and tidy than other hospitals.The corridors of the wards have white bricks and yellow walls, and the warm-toned atmosphere is reassuring.

When Qi Fen first arrived, he was surprised. The single ward and the door with glass windows were different from the mental hospital he imagined.He tactfully asked his teacher Wei Kai about this question, which caused a group of doctors in the office to complain.

"It's not the gang of unreliable hospital leaders!" Dr. Li Honglei vented loudly excitedly, "The doors and windows were all made of iron, but they said they didn't bring patients a 'home away from home' feeling, so they asked them to redecorate. Our fucking hospital ! Do you want a fart to feel at home?!"

Wei Kai rolled his eyes: "When a new official takes office, he has to make some achievements to make such a broken reform."

"Won't the patient run away?" Qi Fen was curious.

"Of course." As soon as Li Honglei mentioned this, he became angry, "Just after the renovation, patients ran out every day, and some broke glass windows and kicked down doors. During that time, the security guards couldn't catch them, so they resigned in fright. many!"

Qi Fen thought of the cast iron gate in the ward: "The gate is useless?"

"Afterwards, the doctors strongly protested and changed it to a cast iron gate." Wei Kai sneered, "A group of leaders who have never done practical work and only care about their own performance."

"That's enough, that's enough!" Director Du Hua stopped them, but his tone was full of sarcasm, "Isn't all the bulletproof glass that costs 5000 yuan per square meter replaced for you! Stop complaining."

Qi Fen was surprised: "Bulletproof glass is so expensive?"

There was a sound of "hehe".

Later, Qi Fen was bored and Googled the price of bulletproof glass, which was 600 per square meter.

It is self-evident who gets the price difference.

After passing a patient who shouted "I am the Jade Emperor descending to earth" through the door of the ward, and helping the nurse rescue a patient who hung himself on the doorknob with a hospital gown, Qi Fen arrived at ward 412 smoothly. If you ignore the scratches on his arm.

Compared to the hustle and bustle outside like a battlefield, Ward 412 is as peaceful and pleasant as a paradise. Qi Fen secretly sighed that he had chosen the right patient.

Chen Ruibo is sitting on the hospital bed in a daze. He looks like he is only 22 or [-] years old. His face is round, like the fat of a baby that has not faded. wary.

Hearing footsteps, Chen Ruibo looked up at Qi Fen.

"Hello." Qi Fen took the initiative to greet.

"Hello, doctor." Chen Ruibo glanced at the white coat Qi Fen was wearing, feeling that it was different from the usual doctor, "Who are you?"

"I'm a student of the Medical University, and I'm here to do a graduation internship at the Third Hospital," Qi Fen showed him the nameplate.

Chen Ruibo: "Hello. What's the matter?"

"I want to make a project, and I need to record several cases." Qi Fen handed the printed project and design plan to Chen Ruibo, "it's about the mental disorders of homosexuality."

Chen Ruibo looked at the project handed over vigilantly, frowned and said, "Homosexuality is not mental illness."

"No, no, that's not what it means." Qi Fen hurriedly explained, "It's a subject of studying the factors that lead to the onset of mental disorders among homosexuals. It doesn't mean that homosexuality is mental illness."

Seeing that Chen Ruibo didn't understand, Qi Fen further explained: "For example, homosexuals often have to bear greater mental pressure than other people around them, and their marriage is not protected by the law, and their partners are not supported by the law when they betray. I can only bear it alone. My project is to study whether these aspects can lead to the occurrence of mental disorders and increase the incidence rate."

Qi Fen was full of nonsense.I don't know why I want to do this stupid project, okay?But the instructor forcibly appointed, if you don't do it, you can't graduate!

"Understood." Chen Ruibo was fooled into taking the bait, "But why did you seek me? Although I am gay, I am not mentally ill."

Not many mental patients thought they were ill, so Qi Fen hurriedly changed his words: "Misdiagnosis is also one of the collection goals of my project."

Chen Ruibo just took over the project design, opened it for a few glances, and scratched his head: "Your design plan is too professional, I don't understand it, what do you need to know specifically?"

Seeing the other party let go, Qi Fen asked expectantly: "Let's start with your homosexual love experience first, is that okay?"

"Where do we start?" Chen Ruibo hesitated. "Shitou and I lived next door and grew up together. We went to the same kindergarten and elementary school. At that time I was relatively short and was often bullied by my classmates. He would stand in front of me and jump on anyone who dared to fight, and gradually no one bullied me. It was a clichéd childhood, nothing special."

"Then you fell in love with rocks?" Qi Fen guided him.

Chen Ruibo hesitated to organize his words: "When you adore a peer from a young age, trust him and rely on him, friendship can easily deteriorate. When I was about 11 or 2 years old, I realized that I fell in love with rocks. At that time, I didn't think there was any What’s wrong, liking is liking, very simple.”

Qi Fen nodded from time to time to encourage Chen Ruibo to continue talking, and recorded in his notebook: I like posting stories.

Chen Ruibo gradually recalled that year: "Later, our two families went out to play together. On the Jade Emperor Peak of Mount Tai, the sun was rising, and the sky was full of morning glow. I confessed my love when I was excited. Shitou was very surprised. He said that we are the same gender and cannot fall in love. I told him that there is no need to fall in love, as long as we can be together all the time. He didn't agree or object, so he patted my head. Now that I think about it, he might not have taken it seriously.

"Later, when we entered junior high school, we were not in the same class, so we gradually lost contact." Chen Ruibo suddenly asked Qi Fen, "Have you ever liked anyone?"

Qi Fen was suddenly asked a question, and he was taken aback before answering: "No."

Chen Ruibo entered the state and tried to share his feelings with Qi Fen: "Then you may not be able to understand that feeling. That kind of liking is too simple, without any desire, pure love. You can see him every day and be with him There is an interaction, maybe just rubbing it when passing by, and you can be happy all day, as if you are the happiest child in the world. I don’t feel jealous when I see him with others, but I feel inferior, and I think it’s because of me Not being able to compare with others made him alienate me, so I studied hard and wanted to become better."

Qi Fen asked the question carefully: "Didn't you feel that you were different from others at that time? Like the same sex or something."

"I'm a slow person with indifferent gender concepts. Although Shitou thinks it's wrong, I don't think there's anything wrong with it." Chen Ruibo was a little embarrassed, "I'm also wondering now, how could I think so simple when I was a child."

"Then what happened afterwards?" How did you break the stone?

Qi Fen realized that he had strayed a little bit, he simply wanted to continue to understand Chen Ruibo's story.

Chen Ruibo shyly said: "At that time, there were no computers, and video recorders were still high-end gadgets. There were no AV, GV or any similar films, so we had to borrow little yellow books from the school gate to pass them around. One day I got a copy, Xianbao It seemed like I ran to Shitou’s house to find him and shared it with him. He sat there watching, and I boldly followed the content in the book to help him vent it.”

Qi Fen, a pure young man who has never experienced a couple relationship, just wrote down the "Little Yellow Book", and crossed it out red-faced.Really, it's too shameful!

Qi Fen was too embarrassed to ask later, but fortunately Chen Ruibo had already opened up the chatterbox and took the initiative to continue:

"Later we got together. At that time, most of my classmates didn't know anything about homosexuality, so no one suspected that we were tired of being together all day long. We didn't encounter any resistance. I went to see him every night. Self-study, go home together, stay late at his house under the pretext of studying.

"He is very gentle and considerate. I remember he used to cycle across most of the city to buy the new album of my favorite singer. The two of us went to learn swimming together. I was too short to go to the deep pool. He also stayed with me in the shallow water, but he couldn't swim. As a result, I learned that he didn't know how yet, which made him very angry.

"We spent junior high school, high school, and university together like this. The friends around us were on and off, and we were the only ones who were always together. We would quarrel occasionally, especially when the pressure was high after work, and there would be more conflicts. But we He controlled himself not to say unfeeling words, at most he ignored no one, and after a day or two of cold war, he couldn't stand it anymore and ran over to apologize to me."

Chen Ruibo stopped to take a sip of water.

Qi Fen had just recalled the story in the childhood pornographic book, and was suddenly abused by a dog. His heart was full of misery, and he asked half-deadly: "What happened next?"

"Later..." Chen Ruibo sighed.

Qi Fen's curiosity was aroused, what happened afterwards?

"Later aliens invaded the earth!!!"