Will you die if you don't act cute every day?

"I like you, be my girlfriend."

Yuner 2015/9/1910: 25

Let's break up, I have a boyfriend.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 21

Ok

Holding the phone, Cheng Si moved her eyes from the screen to Liu Xin who was standing in front of her with a cute smile on her face. She smiled twice, turned off the phone page, and asked, "Why do you like me?" ? Are you curious gay?"

Liu Xin's black eyes overflowed with tenderness, she tilted her head, and said softly: "I know the reason why you asked for leave yesterday, I don't pity you or sympathize with you, I'm just, very interested in you , I... really want to get closer to you."

"One step closer? That's to be friends." Cheng Si smiled good-naturedly, no matter how painful she was in her heart now, she still wouldn't take her anger out on others.

"Cheng..." Liu Xin just wanted to say something, but Cheng Si interrupted her. Her fair face became more and more transparent under the sunlight, and there were shadows cast by the branches beside her. The outline was blurred, and she smiled in a normal tone: "Does your family know? Have you thought about the future? I... don't want to play around."

Liu Xin frowned, her face became solemn, she looked at Cheng Si seriously, her Yin Hong mouth opened and closed, her voice was a little nervous, "I'm not just playing, I just want to say let's try it, if it's suitable, I will Tell her family." The more she talked, the more confident Liu Xin became. She knew that if her family found out that she was gay, they would beat her to death immediately and send her to the hospital.

Cheng Si clearly saw the hesitation in her eyes, she smiled gently, then patted Liu Xin on the shoulder and said with a smile: "Okay, stop joking, today is not April Fool's Day, by the way, our teacher's Where is the office? I'm going to make up a leave note." She didn't ask Liu Xin why she knew the reason for her leave yesterday, because it was unnecessary, and some things, if you know it, you just know it, and you won't say anything more because of it words changed.

Hearing this, Liu Xin stood there and took a deep look at her, then smiled and said, "At 8302, you know, just walk over here, the blue building."

Cheng Si gratefully said "Thank you" and then ran towards the place she pointed, "Let's go have dinner together next time~" At the end of the turn, she turned her head and yelled at Liu Xin.

Liu Xin nodded with a smile, but said nothing.

It's just a polite remark, don't take it seriously.

Cheng Si turned a corner and changed from a running posture to a slow walk in an instant. She knew that Liu Xin was pointing the wrong way, because she had investigated the school before the school started.She didn't know why Liu Xin pointed her to the wrong way, and she didn't want to know.

Cheng Si raised the phone again, slid open the lock screen, she clicked on the chat page with Yun'er, and Yun'er had a new message.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 35

good.But we're still best friends, right?

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 37

Well, of course.

She always dotes on Yun'er, even though her heart seems to be cut by countless sharp blades.

She had known for a long time that such a day would come. Before that, she had fantasized about breaking up with Yun'er countless times.She thought she wouldn't be heartbroken or sad, but the cold liquid on her cheeks... Cheng Si reached out and wiped her face, a cold smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she looked up at the sky.

The sky is vast and boundless, and there is nothing on the gray-white clouds, which is empty and terrifying.

For a moment, Cheng Si felt that she was alone, and the overwhelming loneliness rushed towards her like a tsunami, and she was swallowed up at once.The whole world was empty with only the sound of her own breathing. Fear and pain were like ants attached to the bones, biting her flesh and blood. Tears flowed more and more. She couldn't help kneeling on the lawn, shivering all over.Her heart seemed to be filled with ice water from Antarctica, she couldn't do anything but smile wryly.

Just like watching her mother die, she can only be a bystander from the beginning to the end, she... can't change anything.

Her head was pressed against the dirt, and she whimpered, and then she couldn't help crying, but her voice was suppressed for a moment.She didn't dare to cry in front of others, she was afraid of seeing others showing their hypocritical faces, obviously they didn't know anything, they couldn't understand anything, but they had to pretend to be uncomfortable to comfort her.

She just wants to be alone. In this world, she no longer has a mother, no lover anymore, she only has her father left, and her only bondage is him.

Her whole body is chilling, her stomach that has not eaten breakfast does not feel hungry at all, she is out of breath from crying, the palms of her hands are sweating coldly from her pinching, Yun'er, she really wants Yun'er to be still in her By her side, she really wanted that she and Yun'er were still in high school, and she really wanted to see her mother still smiling at her when she went back.

"Hmm..." Cheng Si raised her head, looked at the phone with red eyes, typed a few words in the chat box with trembling hands, her focused pupils seemed to be looking at her only hope.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 45

Yun'er, I can't bear you, I know that I have been doing badly all the time, but, can you give me another chance, I will treat you well!I will never be the same again.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 46

hehe?Won't it be the same as before?Cheng Si, how many times have I given you chances, but which one did you do it?It's you who wiped away my love for you again and again, you always don't cherish it like that, besides, now that I'm with him, it's impossible for me to break up with him as soon as we are together.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 47

I know, I know that I always ignore you, but I love you, can you not be with him, I will change, I will really change this time, if I do this again, can you break up with me again?

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 48

No need, you are always like this, you only know how to cherish when you lose, but I don't love you now, I don't feel anything about you at all.Don't force me anymore, okay?You know, just now he called me to tell me how happy he is, I really can't let him down.

Cheng Si held the phone with trembling hands, and covered her mouth tightly with the other hand. For the first time, she realized that she and Yun'er could never go back together, and Yun'er was no longer her own. .She pursed her lips tightly, facing the cold mobile phone screen, crying and said: "Can we really never go back? Yun'er, I love you, I know very clearly at this moment, I love you, even if You have a boyfriend, and I still love you."

She turned her head away and looked fiercely at the ground on one side. The air inhaled into her lungs could not keep up with the speed of exhaled air. She suppressed and sobbed in a low voice: "Yun'er, do you know that my mother has After passing away, I really have nothing left, I, I really want you to accompany me." She clenched her fist and slammed it hard on the ground, then re-entered in the button.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 49

Well, then we are good girlfriends, and I will be your best girlfriend.Hahaha, you and your boyfriend, how are you feeling now?

Cheng Si fell to the ground and curled up.She suppressed her voice tightly, but there were still a few sobs leaking from her fingers.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 49

I don't love him, he's just your substitute.I am so sad now, seeing him so happy, I feel very sad in my heart.

When Cheng Si saw this sentence, a glimmer of hope lit up in his eyes, but it disappeared in an instant.

She's just a girlfriend now.Reason told her that this is the best.

Yun'er was not suitable for her, and it would be good for them to break up now, Cheng Si should match her and that man, so that she would not have any extra thoughts.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 50

Be good, you can try to accept it, after all, if you are a man, it will be much more convenient for you in the future.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 50

But you know what?I can't accept him kissing me, I can't accept a man approaching me, Cheng Si, I'm ruined by you.

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 51

Take your time, you have to believe you can.You can definitely like him.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 51

Hehe, you are so strange, didn't you still want to get back together with me just now, and now you want me to accept a man?

Cheng Si 2015/9/1912: 52

I just don't want to make it difficult for you. After all, if you can be happy, it is the greatest comfort to me.

Cheng Si wiped away the tears on her face, turned over, and lay comfortably on the lawn. Her heart was still throbbing, but her brain had come to her senses.She knows what she should and should not do now.She looked at herself reflected in the dark mobile phone screen with pity, and silently said two words: devil.

Yes, she is a devil, a devil without temperature, she is a shameful person with indifference.

On the day when her mother was critically ill, what she thought about was not her mother, but what she should do now and what she should do after her mother passed away. Her brain remained sadly lucid, and she thought about everything extremely calmly.

She hated herself for being like this. She felt like a cold-blooded corpse. Under any circumstances, she was so calm and indifferent. She didn't want to be like this, but she couldn't change it.

Hey, look, the blood of the devil has awakened again,

She will not look back, whether it is a relationship or a mistake.

Yuner 2015/9/1912: 52

do you know?What I hate the most about you is that you are always so calm, so calm that I can't feel it at all, you love me.

Cheng Si's eyes darkened, and she laughed at herself, love?Probably long ago, in their quarrels again and again.In her subconscious mind, she may have always felt that Yun'er was just a burden that dragged her down.

Cheng Si can't stop, Cheng Si can only keep moving forward.Only by leaving everyone behind can she stand proudly in front of her mother again and tell her: Your daughter has not let you down, your daughter is better than everyone, so likewise, mom, you are also better than all mothers .