Shura Field [Quick Transmigration]

After checking the young man's condition with a strange expression, he gave the psychiatrist an unkind look—cursing him inwardly for what he had brought the young man into—then frowning, he dally left the ward.

The idlers have left the stage, and now it's time for the psychologist to perform.

He skillfully pulled a small stool and sat down next to the young man. Then, he cleared his throat, coughed, and said, "You should have guessed my identity, right?"

His expression was solemn and deep, but for some reason, there was a sense of humor.

The young man froze for a moment, as if he hadn't thought of his actions.He hesitated to glance at the phone in his hand, paused, and turned off the phone.

Then he nodded and said "hmm".

The psychiatrist is like a cool spy in a movie, he sighed wistfully, and said, "When did you guess that?"

Youth: "When we first met."

The psychiatrist was slightly startled: "You guessed it so quickly?"

The young man said "hmm" and said, "You have an accent."

Here is a small southern county, and basically everyone speaks softly, nonchalantly and sweetly, and only the psychiatrist has a northern accent—the kind that is occasionally leaked.

How should I put it, his Mandarin is still quite standard, but when there is time, the accent will leak out from various strange places.

That sense of disobedience is heavy...

The psychiatrist has received a merciless blow from the patient!

He was disappointed: "Is it so obvious?"

"Well, obviously."

When the two of them were talking, they were like a pair of old friends. The psychiatrist let out a long sigh, reluctantly skipped over this, and said, "Okay, then guess who hired me?"

"Just two or three people."

The young man lacked interest, he said: "But it should not be Xie Su, um... Yan Changjing hired him? Or Li Wenchao."

When he said these names, his tone didn't fluctuate, and he didn't even have any negative emotions.The psychiatrist sighed in his heart, but on the surface he raised his brows and showed a surprised expression: "Yo, you guessed it right, I am employed by Mr. Yan for a long time."

The young man let out a "huh".

There was no expression on his face, and his emotions were as stable as a deep lake. The psychiatrist paused for a few seconds and held back before he let out a sigh.

He said, "You should have guessed why I came here."

The young man said "hmm" again, looked straight into the eyes of the person opposite, and said, "Is it because of this?"

He raised his hand, the thick gauze was still wrapped around his arm, and the scar hidden under it was hideous and ugly. The psychiatrist knew the true face of the scar after seeing the scene when he changed the dressing.

The exact opposite is the eyes of youth.

His eye pupils are very black, without a trace of variegation, just pure black.

But at this moment, it was inexplicably very clear, his eyes were extremely bright, almost like two clear springs.

There was no emotion in it, just looking at it undisguisedly, which made the psychiatrist subconsciously avoid his gaze.

But soon, the doctor reacted.He sighed and said, "Oh, why did you think of committing suicide?" The young man smiled. He was really happier and healthier than ever during this time, and he said, "I think very clearly. stimulated."

"I see it too."

The psychiatrist gave a wry smile and said, "There's nothing wrong with you."

——No psychological problems, even healthier than most normal people.But if you are really healthy, how can you commit suicide?

"I've been thinking about it for days."

The young man seemed to see through his inner thoughts, and he said: "I thought about it, what was the purpose of living before I thought about it. Then I suddenly realized that I shouldn't have come here in the first place."

"If I could have discovered this earlier, I shouldn't have to suffer here anymore."

He smiled lightly.

This smile is so clear, it is as gentle as a ray of sunshine in a spring afternoon. The psychiatrist squatted beside him for a few days, but he was still amazed by the young man. Man, there will never be another one in the world. If he is gone, who else can laugh out the bright flowers of spring?

"You need treatment."

The psychiatrist said so, he said: "Transfer to my side?"

The young man looked at him in surprise and said, "Do you think... I need treatment?"

"I don't feel the need."

The psychiatrist said: "But you have to twist this idea, hey, don't you have anything else you want to do?"

The young man just shook his head and said, "I just want to leave quickly."

The atmosphere of their conversation was really relaxed and pleasant, even interesting, but the people outside the door didn't think so.

Yan Changling originally sat outside, but after the doctor entered, he stood at the door of the room and listened to their conversation.

Yan Changjing, who was with him, just paused for a moment, and didn't intend to stop him.

Yan Changling was outside eavesdropping openly and aboveboard.

At the beginning, he still had no expression.

But slowly, as he listened to the words of the doctor and the young man, he became more and more biased, and his face began to look a little ugly.

When the young man uttered the last sentence, he couldn't bear it anymore, opened the door directly, and shouted in a high voice: "What nonsense are you talking about?!"

Yan Changjing was originally sitting outside, but Yan Changling's movements were too fast, and he had no time to stop him, but in fact, he didn't intend to stop him, he just stood up, hesitating whether he should follow in.

But this kind of hesitation is only a moment, and a decision has already been made.

Yan Changling may be the way to break the situation - he is the one among the few who are most likely to be understood by the young people - or he may be the one among the few who are most hated by the young people.

Because the things he did were the least, it could even be said that, except for that night, he had almost done nothing to offend the youth.

But—the young man's life trajectory was distorted from the very beginning because of him.

There is no point in hiding now. The young man has already guessed who the employer behind the doctor is. Even if Yan Changling appeared in front of him, it is just a certain fact that will happen in advance.

"………It's you?"

The two people in the ward followed the sound, and the doctor's face changed, but the young man was only slightly taken aback, showing a slightly surprised expression.

His whole person seemed to be in the sage mode all the time, even if he had emotions, he didn't fluctuate too much.

However, Yan Changling was different.

His eyes were red, his teeth were clenched tightly, and there was an undisguised anger on his face.

He is angry.

His emotions were completely out of control, and even made his whole body tremble. His heartbeat was extremely fast, and his hearing seemed to be amplified many times. He could clearly hear the sound of the beating heart and blood flowing.

He said, "Ayu, how can you say that?!"

The young man strode forward, with such a posture, the doctor almost subconsciously felt that he would grab the young man by his collar and lift him up.

So the kind psychiatrist subconsciously stretched out his hand, trying to protect the young man, but Yan Changling didn't even look at him, and just said indifferently: "Get out."

It is hard to imagine that the two extreme emotions of a person can be blended so naturally. Yan Changling is very angry. Angry people often lose their minds, and his performance seems to be true. But at the same time, when facing things other than youth People—but he seemed extremely cold.

The doctor frowned slightly. He didn't think that Yan Changling's current state was suitable for communication, and letting the young man be alone with him would seem a little dangerous no matter how you looked at it.

He glanced at the young man subconsciously, and was about to say something to appease the emotions of the relatives of the employer opposite, but saw the young man shook his head slightly.

He obviously didn't look at him, but he seemed to know what he was going to say, he just said: "You go out first, we have some private matters to discuss."

The doctor tied a Chinese knot between his eyebrows, and he hesitated for a moment before saying, "Then I'll wait at the door."

The subconscious mind is: if you need it, you can call me.

The young man just remained silent, not knowing if he understood.

The doctor could only go out the door full of worry. As soon as he came out, he faced Yan Changjing. The indifferent employer raised his hand and motioned him to go aside. He stood by the door and listened silently. conversation.

After the doctor went out, there were only two people left in the ward looking at each other.Yan Changling didn't know what to say at this time, he moved his lips, and at this moment, he actually felt a certain kind of overwhelmed emotion.

It's like a child who knows that he has made a mistake, and when he stands in front of the sufferer, he doesn't know what to say.

But it was the young man who spoke first.

His expression was very calm, without a trace of emotion - but such an attitude made Yan Changling feel a kind of fine-grained pain as if he had been pricked by a needle.

"You are here, so everyone is here?"

His tone was also calm.

It was almost the same as when talking to a doctor, as if facing a communication partner who could only be regarded as familiar, not even a friend.

Such an attitude may be quite satisfactory when facing an acquaintance, but when facing Yan Changling, it seems...it shouldn't be like this.

Because a few months ago, when the young man faced him, he still looked at him with warmth. He trusted him wholeheartedly, and would show Yan Changling a bright smile Come.

Not as it is now, alienated and cold.

But Yan Changling didn't even have the courage to question him.

He didn't know why, but felt a strong sadness.Even if the young people hated him very much, hating him to the bone, it was better than the current indifference. Yan Changling was silent for a moment, and he seemed to understand in an instant how the exhaustion of Li Wenchao and the others came from—the source A sense of hopelessness about the powerlessness of the current situation, based on some kind of subconscious foreknowledge.

So his arrogance was like a balloon that had been punctured by a needle, and with a "pop", it was all exposed.

"...Yes, they are all there."

Yan Changling was silent for a while, and responded to the young man's question.His chest rose and fell rapidly several times before he seemed to suppress the surging emotion in his heart and said, "I know..."

There was a lot of chaos in his mind, and he paused for a while before he could barely speak in a normal order: "I know, you are very sad."

He said: "But...but your life is your own. You may feel very sad now, but after a few years, you will not be so sad."

For the first time, Yan Changling felt that his language skills were so lacking. He didn't know how to describe what he meant, and he didn't know how to let the young people know the surging, flowing, and full of worries and concerns in his heart.

He has countless things to say, but now, he seems to be suddenly unable to speak, and can only repeat monotonously: "In the future, when this period of time passes, everything will be better—we... No, me, you can get to know other people besides me and them."

He said: "Don't you want to get revenge on us too? You can keep acting, you can meet a lot of people who have always wanted to know you, you can publish what we did, you can do a lot of things."

"But if you are now... there is no way, no more chance."

He was eager and anxious, trying to persuade him, but the young man just watched calmly, as if he was watching a boring performance.

"I can do that."

"But it doesn't make sense," he said.

Yes, it doesn't make sense.

All these actions, all revenge actions themselves, are actually meaningless.

When a bad thing happens, no matter how violent the victim's revenge is, all the things that should have happened have happened, and all that should be lost have been lost. Even if the revenge is successful, these things can no longer be retrieved.

Maybe some things can be redeemed, but that's only part of it, and everything that happened to the young man himself is completely past tense.

irreparable.

irreparable.

People's revenge psychology is just to vent their emotions. When something happens, there will be an extra hurdle in their hearts.

This hurdle is big or small, and most of it will fade with the passage of time, but there are also some hurdles that exist there and cannot be melted by time.

Hence the need for revenge.

Let the other party pay the price, more or less.

In this process, the minds of the revengers are all taken up. Maybe some of them can work hard. After successful revenge and solving their psychological barriers, they gain more and lose more, but more people are In the process, he distorts himself, even at the cost of his own life.

What you are looking for is "the past".

Completely past.

Or even if you can't get through it, you have to let this hurdle, this knot in your heart, be untied.

The meaning of many people's life is the odds and ends.

They have been constantly trying to untie their past knots all their lives, and crossed the thresholds that they could not pass through. Some people felt too tired and could not see hope, so they took the most extreme path. Everything was cut off, and he himself died.

Some people have been trapped in these predicaments all their lives. There is no way to untie these knots, and there is no way to just die like this. They spend their lives in a mess and raise children who are also in a mess.

And youth is the former.

He already felt that no matter what it was, it was meaningless.

Since there is no meaning, naturally there is no need for revenge.

He just finds it boring and doesn't want to stay any longer. Yan Changling's words may be very contagious and effective to some people.

But it didn't work for him.

The once strong, ignorant, and overwhelmed feelings shattered when the young man knew the truth of everything. He looked at Yan Changling as if he was looking at a stranger.

He said, "Since my life is my own, why are you here to take care of me?"

His eyes were clear, and his tone did not fluctuate, but pure doubt.

Yan Changling felt a strong and irresistible sadness.

This kind of emotion was bred by the young man's actions, mixed with other, knife-like sharp emotions, which made him feel as if he had been slashed, and every inch of his skin was aching.

But this kind of pain seems to be some kind of illusion, just a physical hallucination caused by the breakdown of emotions.

"You shouldn't be doing this."

Yan Changling said, "Ayu, you shouldn't be like this."

He has already realized the thoughts of the youth, so he is even more at a loss. A person's thoughts can easily be dominated, shaken, and manipulated.

But sometimes, some people's thoughts seem to be honed and unchangeable, and like a heavy rock mountain, unshakable.

And the young people's thoughts now are steel that has been tempered thousands of times, and it is also a towering and heavy rock mountain.

He understood what he wanted so clearly and firmly, so all the retention and entreaties seemed ridiculous and fragile, Yan Changling trembled, he understood the exhaustion that went deep into the soul of other people, he was at a loss, So he asked: "Ayu, why... have you become like this?"

There will never be true empathy in this world.

Yan Changling is very kind to young people. A part of his life has been completely replaced by young people. When he works, he thinks about when he will return to young people. When he is with young people, he begins to focus on Enjoy that precious, rare time.

He has devoted a lot of things to the young man, and spent a lot of time, and he is not ignorant of the young man's experience——

It's just that Yan Changling always feels that those things have already passed.

He felt that youth could hate.

But you shouldn't even abandon your hatred, it's like a person who has completely fallen into a desperate situation and has no will to survive.

His soul is dead.

Because of those nightmarish pasts, because of the sinful reality that seemed indifferent and vicious from the very beginning, his biological mother abandoned him, and his foster family only used him as a tool. After he escaped temporarily, he got a love. .

It was a rose built on bad desires and bloomed because of lies. However, the other owner of the rose made a mistake and broke the flower with his own hands under the design of Yan Changjing and Li Wenchao.

Xie Su was hit hard.

But in fact, the people who were hit harder were the young people.

He was abandoned by the "master" he relied on and clinging to, just like a weak vine, without the support of towering trees, it would be difficult to survive.

He fell into the hands of Yan Changjing.

Fortunately, Yan Changjing had already planned for his situation. He brought the young man to his residence. The love of the two aunts was not a lie. They played the role of "mother" that the young man lacked to a certain extent.

As a result, the young man's emotions were temporarily suppressed, and in the next period of time, they slowly came into contact with him.

Sending him to act and cultivating his self-awareness, Yan Changling naturally played a large part in this long period of careful care.

He takes the youth to play the latest games, listen to the latest music, and occasionally sneaks him out to various interesting places to have fun, allowing him to come into contact with the brand new, beautiful, grand and romantic world in front of the youth.

Yan Changling always felt that the attitude of young people should not be like this.

He shouldn't be so decisive, because in his life, there was a period of time when he was extremely happy. Could it be that the care and joy they gave him during that time was so insignificant?

Obviously these good things are new.

A young man living in a honey jar was escorted by his parents in childhood, and protected by two older brothers who acted like nurses in his youth. Even though he was in his 20s, in the eyes of Yan Changjing and Li Wenchao, he was still just a grown man. Not a big child.

And he was indeed a child.

It is also incomprehensible that for young people, all these "good things" are piled on top of illusory and vile lies.

Are they really doing it for him?

No, just because of lust.

Wouldn't it be good for him and Xie Su to stay together without Yan Changjing's means?

Maybe there will be some problems in the middle, but these problems, like the snow in spring, will always be melted by the gradually warming sunshine and become the nectar that nourishes the land.

But Yan Changjing was not reconciled.

Li Wenchao was not reconciled either.

They did have a good intention, but this good intention can be carried out in other ways, and it doesn't have to be done by taking the boy over.

They just want him.

Maybe it's because of this overly good-looking face, or maybe it's because of the huge commercial value in him.

After the young man knew the whole truth, his thinking began to become very clear. All these experiences, in Yan Changling's view, were very sweet.

But actually, it's like a joke.

The stray cat, who is cautious and dare not trust others, suddenly felt a chill when it was roasting its fur by a stove. It raised its head, looked over, and saw the previous owner slapping the window of the room , while the current owner took a nap, and handed a roll of parchment to the black cat.

With a premonition of panting, the cat slowly opened the parchment roll, and saw comic strips painted on it that cats could understand well.

It turned out that its previous owner was not unwilling to keep it warm, so he broke the window, extinguished the stove, and wanted to force it away.

It was because someone smashed the glass windows from the outside, blocked the chimney of the stove with wet and cold snow, and was deceived by the cunning current owner that this picked up stray cat was discarded.

Looking at the truth on the parchment, the stray cat couldn't help but sneezed.

It "sneezed!", only to realize in a daze that the warm hut was gone, and so was its owner.The black cat squatted in the snow in a daze, almost buried by the snow.

It had only a little girl in front of it, lighting a match in her hand, and now the match had gone out.

Then the stray cat realized that all those things, whether it was blooming roses or a warm house, were just an illusory and hazy dream, which was not what it could get at all.

Whether it is what is given, or what it thinks it could have, is just a dream.

Meaningless.

So the black cat was stunned, stretched out the soft pad, and pressed the little girl's red and swollen toes.

Then he rubbed against him, surrounded himself in a circle, and fell asleep in the snow so peacefully.

Yan Changling's actions ended without a problem after all.

He couldn't understand the young man's thoughts, so when faced with the young man's indifference, he showed anger.

He didn't know whether it was an emotional vent or his true thoughts, he even expressed his love incoherently - at this worst time, he confessed to the youth in the worst way.

Naturally, there was no good reply.

As he spoke, the young man's mood changed extremely rarely, and it was an indescribable surprise.

It was as if he had heard something incomprehensible.

"you like me?"

He even took on some dazed emotions.

Yan Changling said, "It's not that I like...I love you very much."

He said: "You have to live, no matter what... there is a solution."

The young man showed a very strange expression.

It's like trying to laugh, but can't.

He sighed softly, and then said, "It's still the same."

Still the same.

Yin Ranyu felt a little disappointed, but also found it funny.The target of his strategy has not changed from the beginning to the end. From the beginning to the end, they have never put the idea of ​​"lover" before their own desires.

Just like Yan Changjing who once snatched the young man back from Xie Su, it seems that after finding the evidence of what the Yan family did before, he immediately handed over the document to the young Xie Su.

The reason that drives them to do this is because they want to monopolize the young people's desires, not because of some bullshit love.

Yin Ranyu never trusts human feelings. All his actions are seduced, lured and guided from beginning to end, just like a hired tour guide. As long as tourists insist on their own ideas, the tour guide cannot force them. Take tourists to visit attractions.

But when tourists see the discount tickets in the hands of the tour guide and their eyes shine, then they can't blame the tour guide for cheating.