Don't fight with your first love

After Professor Jing Shi made such a move, Guan Nanyi naturally didn't mention the matter of leaving again, and the days continued to live with Shi Qingyu. Among other things, she was mainly afraid that Shi Qingyu would drive her and hurt her. To the waist—running away from home once, her old waist paid a heavy price.

On the weekend, Guan Nanyi found time to go back to his former house. After Shi Qingyu found out, he stood at the kitchen door and said to send her off with no expression on his face, but Guan Nanyi directly refused, "You have something wrong, I'm leaving Where are you following? It's like I'm going to steal/love you."

What responded to her was Shi Qingyu's indifferent expression.

Since the last time when Qingyu took her to drive a soul-shifting car in the garage, Guan Nanyi didn't dare to provoke Shi Qingyu for the past few days, for fear that the old woman would pull her up again to drive a yellow car in the middle of the night.

There is nothing wrong with the others, except that my throat hurts.

In order to sleep well tonight and for his own voice, Guan Nanyi stepped forward with a false smile and hugged Shi Qingyu, and said to Shi Qingyu in a sweet voice, "Then I Going out, dear Xiaoyu, I will miss you."

When Qingyu was washing the dishes, there was no response: "Okay."

But I don't know why Guan Nanyi always felt that there was a trace of joy in the other party's voice? ? ?

...well, disgusting enough.

Guan Nanyi got goosebumps all over the place when she left the gate of the house. She looked at the blue sky and white clouds and sighed again, sooner or later, if she died one day, she must be disgusted to death by herself.

After all, it's Shi Qingyu's fault, after all, he shouldn't be with his first love.

***

Guan Nanyi’s previous house was not too far from Shi Qingyu’s house, and it only took about 20 minutes to drive there. When I bought it, I wanted to be closer to Shi Qingyu’s house. I didn’t expect five or six years to pass Yes, it's fucking done.

...It's better not to make wishes blindly when you are young.

It was not yet noon when Guan Nanyi arrived, and the community was still the same, without much change. The security guards at the gate changed after wave after wave. I didn’t know her for a long time, and it took me a while to go in. Something.

Entered the unit building, took the elevator, and arrived at my own floor. The housing prices in this area have risen sharply in recent years. Many people took advantage of the good times to use the principle of leverage to change to better neighborhoods and better locations. Nan Yi fumbled for a long time in the water tank at the door of his house before he found out the key he put away back then. He didn't expect that it was still there after so long.

Just as he was about to open the door and go in, his eyes were attracted by the almost full mailbox at the door.

So many letters?Is it a love letter written by a suitor of the past few years?

...It's not impossible. You have to know that the number of people who chased her in the past was too many to count with two hands. There were entrepreneurs and wealthy second-generation people. Of course, there were quite a few people who were greedy for her. Meimei wants to take care of her.

Hey, there are so many people, why does she have to choose Shi Qingyu, who is not good?

It took her a long time to find the key to the mailbox. When she opened it, the letters inside fell all over the floor. Guan Nanyi picked them up one by one. After all, it was someone else's intention. Guan Nanyi was not without shame. She has chased after someone, she still knows what it feels like.

There were 52 letters in total, and I was going to read them again when I went home, but I accidentally saw the name of the sender. She was startled, and then went to look at the others, and they all had the same name:

It was raining.

Only then did Guan Nanyi remember, as if he had received these letters when he was in prison, but he didn't open them up to read them at that time, and he didn't take them away after he was released from prison. The people here forwarded it back.

Opening the door of her own house, no one has lived in it for four or five years. It is not as dusty as she imagined. The things are still the same, but they are not very popular. Guan Nanyi found a chair and sat on it. After reading a large stack of letters for a long time, I opened one casually.

It was written by Qingyu in the spring two years ago, and there is no other superfluous words, just a few lines back and forth, and you can read it two or three times in 2 minutes:

"It's warm and cold in spring, don't be greedy for cool clothes."

"There is a new amusement park outside the city, we can go there together."

""A Brief History of Time" can be read through. If you like it, I will send it to you next time."

"You chase the show to the end, come back and watch it together."

……

The last two lines read:

"Dream every night, the night is sultry."

"When the rain is clear"

Guan Nanyi opened another letter, written last autumn:

"Autumn flowers in Tongxiang are yellow."

"The school welcomes new students again."

"This autumn is cooler than previous years. Remember to add more clothes and sign for the clothes you send."

"Grandma has a leg problem, and my elder brother is at your side. She mentioned you and said that she would like to see you when you come back."

The last two lines are still:

"Dream every night, the night is sultry."

"When the rain is clear"

Also sent in winter:

"Going to Chengkou on a business trip, it's cooler here than in the city, and it snows at night."

"The hot pot restaurant you like has moved, and I left the address."

"Remember to sign for the clothes you send in."

……

Guan Nanyi couldn't tell what expression he had on his face, so he could only tear down the letters one by one. The Shi Qingyu in the letter was still the taciturn Shi Qingyu, who still reserved his identity as a teacher but wanted to be in every letter. At the end of the book, it reads "Dream every night, the night is sultry".If she hadn't read so many poems and books for Shi Qingyu back then, then maybe she wouldn't have understood how much affection was hidden in that sentence, thousands of words are just a few words:

I love you.

I want you.

Look at Qingyu at this time, it's okay to be really arrogant, and she is so gentle and refined in her confession, Guan Nanyi laughed out loud while holding the letter, but with a smile, she shed tears inexplicably.

When it rains, when it rains.

Many times I don't understand what kind of person you are, just like you don't understand what kind of person I am. They all say that the premise of love is to understand each other, but in the past few years, those few years, It seems that they didn't know each other.

You always thought I was bad, just like I always thought you were good, but then I realized that all your goodness comes from not loving me, and all my badness comes from loving you too inexplicably .

In those years, I finally persuaded myself to accept it, but what does the letter you sent mean?

Is it really that difficult for you at that time to admit that you love me?

Guan Nanyi didn't understand, nor did he understand.

Life always seems to be like this, and it should be like this. There are too many ignorance and too much reconciliation. She sits there and looks at the letters that Shi Qingyu wrote to her many years ago. After reading the letters, reading one and burning the other, I shouldn't have kept those letters. Looking at those letters is like seeing those years I used to be.

At least she really admitted that Shi Qingyu really did like her that year.

Guan Nanyi sat on the balcony of his home, looking up, the city has changed a lot after more than four years, the open space next to the community was finally built into a park, and the old building opposite was also demolished and converted into a park. After leaving the kindergarten, I looked up at the sky, but the white clouds remained the same.

Grandma Zhang said that life is just a fleeting moment, and it is over in the blink of an eye. "When I was in my 20s, I always thought that the days would be long, but in the end, I was old."

The corners of the old man's eyes were covered with wrinkles, and the familiar appearance in his memory began to blur.

She still can't trick herself into letting go, and she can't persuade herself to forget, starting over may be the final ending.

***

It was already dark when I got home, and Qingyu’s school was already on winter vacation, so I stayed at home all day, I wonder if I couldn’t find something to do, and I was a good wife and mother every day, it was annoying to watch.

When Guan Nanyi went back, the other party had already prepared the meal, which was delicious and delicious. Guan Nanyi changed his shoes, and casually said that the other party's cooking was getting better and better recently.

I got a little fatter.

Her tone remained the same, without any emotional changes. Shi Qingyu had been observing her since she entered the door, and finally relaxed a little when she heard this, "Just as long as you like it."

Guan Nanyi had a look of disbelief.

When eating, Shi Qingyu tried her best to find some topics to talk about. It seems that after living for a long time, her original habits are changing little by little. Shi Qingyu, who used to be taciturn, has finally learned Guan Nanyi treats her like he doesn't care when she talks to someone she likes.

It can't be blamed that Guan Nanyi doesn't have a good face to show her. It's just that the days she chats are too boring. Whether it's the latest international news or global climate change, it's all the kind that Guan Nanyi can't understand. No more, Guan Nanyi said: "If you have nothing to say, then stop talking."

She took a bite of the rice and looked unhappy: "It sounds like my ears hurt."

Shi Qingyu shut up as expected, but after 2 minutes of silence, Shi Qingyu called her again: "Guan Nanyi."

"what?"

Shi Qingyu's words were not surprising: "I love you."

Guan Nanyi was stunned: "???"

After Shi Qingyu finished speaking, she continued to bow her head to eat, and those who seemed to be unaware thought she didn't say that sentence just now.

Guan Nanyi stared at her for a long time, and finally cursed "crazy".

But it was with a smile.

The author has something to say: During the whole month you left

it started to rain

god cry for me too

I often regret why I didn't cherish you

if we meet again

i will never let you go

I'm not saying I won't let you go

separation is always the norm

i understand

just feel

trade-in

is also good

Battery, battery

i want to ask you

after being stolen

you

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