under the filth

The perfume that Tang Cen gave to Eisen was placed in the most conspicuous place on the shelf by Eisen on Christmas Day, but the choker that Eisen gave was not liked by Tang Cen, and was thrown on the ground after wearing it for half a day .When Eisen cleaned up the room the next day, he put it on the bedside table. After Tang Cen woke up, he didn't even think about it, and directly stuffed it into the innermost corner of the drawer.

Eisen was sitting by the bed at that time, and he touched his nose in embarrassment after witnessing the whole process, but didn't dare to say anything.

Because of the night of messing around on Christmas Eve, Tang Cen spent the first Christmas in bed with Eisen in the end. He didn't take advantage of the sunny weather to go for a walk, and he didn't go to other places for vacation.

On the second day after Christmas, Eisen took Tang Cen on the train bound for Switzerland and headed to the hospital of the Grandi family in Zurich.

After five months, Tang Cen stood at the door of the psychiatric clinic again, and Aisen followed behind him, holding his past medical records in his hand.

Tang Cen looked at the sign hanging on the door, took a few deep breaths, and then raised his hand to knock on the door tentatively.

With two "knock knocks", the door of the consulting room was opened from the inside.

"Hi." The blond female doctor with a kind face stood at the door, greeted Tang Cen who was obviously very reserved, and then nodded slightly to Eisen.

The three of them entered the consulting room. Tang Cen sat on the chair opposite to the doctor. After Eisen handed over the medical records to the doctor, he sat down on the empty chair next to Tang Cen.

The female doctor took over the medical records and was about to look through them when she caught a glimpse of Aisen sitting next to Tang Cen. Considering what happened in the last follow-up visit, she carefully asked Tang Cen for his opinion: "Do you need him to avoid it?"

Tang Cen turned his head to look at Eisen, and found that he was also looking at him, then shook his head: "No need."

Seeing that Tang Cen didn't reject Aisen's existence, the doctor didn't ask any more questions and looked carefully at Tang Cen's medical records.

When he came last time, Tang Cen hadn't given these medical records to Eisen. The doctor could only make a diagnosis based on the information compiled by Luka and Eisen, as well as the symptoms Tang Cen showed at that time.Before coming this time, Tang Cen specially found out these medical records and handed them to Eisen. Eisen sorted out the medical records in chronological order, and without Tang Cen's knowledge, added two more sheets full of medical records to the most recent one. paper for words.

The doctor carefully browsed each of Tang Cen's medical records, and naturally saw the papers in it.Those two pages recorded Tang Cen's situation in detail during this period, including daily life, work and rest habits, and daily mood changes...

While watching, she asked about Tang Cen's recent situation based on the content recorded above.

"How's your sleep lately?"

"Have you taken sleeping pills?"

"How many at a time?"

The doctor asked a series of questions like this, and Tang Cen answered them honestly. Finally, she asked about the situation when she met Raymond: "Are you afraid when you see his family?"

Will you be afraid?

Tang Cen was startled, and subconsciously looked at Eisen.He thought he could see something from the expression on Eisen's face, but Eisen's reaction was very flat.

Eisen hadn't said a word since the follow-up consultation, but now he reached out to hold Tang Cen's hand, and patted the back of his hand comfortingly.

The feeling of being wrapped in the palm made Tang Cen's heart gradually calm down. He swallowed, trying not to sound so weird, and then replied: "Yes."

Of course he would, but he couldn't live in escape all his life, so we still met.

Eisen sat beside him with lowered eyes. He looked at Tang Cen's hand on his lap, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

With the previous experience, the doctor can probably guess Tang Cen's bottom line.She originally thought that Tang Cen would be very resistant to answering this question, but the result was beyond her expectation.Afterwards, she asked a few more sensitive questions, and Tang Cen answered them one by one, although she still looked reluctant.

"The situation has improved a bit, but in winter we still have to adjust the dosage according to the situation." The doctor typed a string of characters on the computer, recording Tang Cen's condition this time, the specific medicines and dosages he needed.

Winter is a period of high incidence of depression, and most patients will return to the clinic before winter.The doctor didn't remind them at the time. One was because Tang Cen had been ill for so many years, and the previous doctors must have reminded him. The other was that Tang Cen's condition was unstable at the time. She thought that Tang Cen would come back at least once in a few months. , Who knows that I have never been here.

While waiting for the form to be printed out, the doctor looked at Tang Cen's haggard face due to lack of sleep, and asked with a headache, "Why didn't you come earlier?"

"I'm sorry... I didn't tell him." Tang Cen apologized in a low voice. Although the female doctor in front of him had a kind face, her sharp eyes seemed to be able to penetrate his thoughts. He dared not make any excuses.

The doctor sighed and asked helplessly, "Then why don't you say it?"

Tang Cen was so questioned by the doctor that he didn't dare to answer. He didn't like the feeling of the hospital, so he endured the discomfort by himself. After all, these were within the range he could bear.

Listening to the conversation between Tang Cen and the doctor, Eisen finally couldn't help interrupting them: "No...Actually, I'm back at the company to work overtime, so I don't have time to bring him here."

Hearing Eisen's answer, the doctor's temple, which was already aching, became even more painful.It's fine if Eisen doesn't know about it, but at that time she told him to come back for a follow-up visit when time allows.Fortunately, he usually calls himself for consultation, so as to control Tang Cen's condition in time, and the current situation is not too bad.

"Let's continue to take the medicine according to this dosage, and you can't stop it every day." The doctor took a pen and wrote down a series of dates on the printed list, and then handed the printed list of drug names and dosages to Eisen.

"Come back for a follow-up visit in February. These medicines are for two months." The doctor said, and tirelessly urged, "You must remember to come in November next year."

"Well, we got it, thank you doctor." Eisen took the medicine list after answering, folded the medicine list and stuffed it into his coat pocket, and Eisen began to collect the medical records spread on the doctor's desk.

The heating was turned on in the consultation room, and the stuffy air made it hard for Tang Cen to breathe. He stood up from the chair, pulled Eisen's clothes and whispered, "I want to go out and get some air."

"You go out first, and you can go back after you get the medicine in a while." Eisen patted him on the shoulder and told him to go out and wait.

Tang Cen nodded to the doctor before pushing open the door and leaving.

The doctor saw that the way the two of them got along was completely different from the last time they came here, she thought for a moment and asked, "Now you live together and still keep cats?"

Eisen nodded, with a smile on the corner of his mouth: "Yes."

"Keeping pets is good, but in case of relapse, pay attention to the safety of pets." The doctor propped his chin, played with the signature pen with his fingers, and said briskly, "You should have experience, follow the previous treatment method Just deal with it."

"Take him for a walk in a warm place more, it will be good for his condition."

"I will." Eisen put away Tang Cen's medical records, then pushed the door straight out, and left with Tang Cen who was breathing at the door.

The doctor leaned against the door frame, looked at the backs of the two walking side by side, and couldn't help but sigh: "It would be great if the patient's family members were like you."

This time the follow-up consultation went smoothly. When the two came out of the hospital gate after taking the medicine, it was just time for lunch. When they came, the black car was still parked at the gate, ready to take them off at any time.

Eisen pulled Tang Cen towards the car, he opened the door and let Tang Cen in first: "Let's go eat first."

When both of them got into the car, the driver in front suddenly turned around. Only then did Tang Cen realize that the driver was Luka who complained to Eisen last time that he was not his exclusive driver.

Turning the key to start the engine, Luca asked while adjusting the navigation: "Old rules?"

The old god Eisen waved his hand on the ground: "You lead the way."

After deciding where to eat, Luca stepped on the accelerator, and the black car drove towards the destination.Eisen sat in the back seat and chatted with Luka without saying a word.

Luka didn't show up all morning, and Tang Cen didn't care at all, but after listening to Eisen chatting with him, he found out that he didn't come to pick them up this morning because there happened to be an operation to be done, and he was locked in the operating room all morning , and ended half an hour earlier than Tang Cen and the others.

Although Eisen brought Tang Cen to see a doctor, he failed to entertain him twice, and Luka felt a little sorry.Now that they were going to go back, Luca went downstairs to wait for them after leaving the operating room, and could have a meal together on the way to drive them to the station.

Eisen and Luka had a hot chat, Tang Cen didn't want to disturb them, he leaned against the window and stared blankly at the scenery outside.Outside the car window is the continuous snow-capped mountains, the eyes are covered with white snow, only a few dark rocks are occasionally exposed on the peaks and cliffs.

"What are you looking at?" Tang Cen was staring at the rolling snow-capped mountains outside the window, when Eisen's voice suddenly rang in his ears, the voice was deep and gentle, accompanied by warm breathing.

Tang Cen leaned against the car window and pointed at the snow-capped mountains on the glass.Eisen looked at the direction he pointed: "There is a ski resort over there, do you want to go?"

"It's too late to go home, right?" Tang Cen was a little hesitant when he heard that there was a ski resort, but he was afraid that he would be too late to go back, and he was worried that Opera Cub would stay at home all night by himself. When Mingming came out, he told Opera Cake that they would go back soon.

"After eating and playing for a while, we can catch the last bus back by leaving at 04:30." Luca, who was driving ahead, suddenly said, "I'll see you off."

Eisen raised his eyebrows and asked Tang Cen for his opinion with his eyes.

The two sang together to dispel Tang Cen's concerns, and Tang Cen didn't want to offend Eisen's friend, so he replied slowly: "Then let's go."

After lunch at noon that day, Eisen took Tang Cen to the ski resort, played at the foot of the snow mountain until sunset, and then rushed to the station in a hurry, and got on the train 10 minutes before the last bus left.When they got home, it was already 10:30 at night. Opera Chow, who had been hungry all night, squatted at the door, meowing at the two who were having a great time.

As the culprit that caused them to come back so late, Eisen felt guilty looking at the kitten that kept barking.He stretched out his hand to appease the aggrieved kitten, but before his hand touched Opera Cake, the kitten jumped up and was about to bite his hand, which made Eisen withdraw his hand quickly in fright.

Looking at Opera Chow who kept yelling at him, Eisen asserted unceremoniously: "I think it's scolding me."

Tang Cen glanced at him with a smile, nodded and agreed, "I think so too."