under the filth

A Christmas gift was delivered, but Tang Cen's face was very strange, Lei Meng looked up at the kitchen, and Eisen didn't intend to come out.He hesitated for a moment, and couldn't help but ask, "Do you have any questions?"

The wicked made him do it all, and I don't know if his mother will settle the score after Tang Cen really returns home with Eisen.

Tang Cen took a deep breath, put the gift that Raymond stuffed into his hand aside, put his hands on his knees, and straightened up straight: "Yes, but it may offend you."

"You're welcome, you and Eisen are together, and we will be a family from now on." Tang Cen's words always had honorifics, and Lei Meng always felt very awkward when he heard them, "Go ahead."

Lei Meng's calmness made Tang Cen hesitate.Before actually meeting Raymond, Tang Cen thought about many possible conversations, and without exception, they were all forcing them to break up, but there were some subtle differences in their attitudes.Now that we met, I did mention what he expected, but Raymond was just assuming this possibility with him from the beginning to the end. He is not as old-fashioned and conservative as Eisen said, and he is not exclusive. So frankly accepted that his younger brother fell in love with a man.

Tang Cen turned his left wrist up, and the index finger of his right hand picked at the uneven scar on his left wrist.

"I heard from him that there are four children in the Sterling family. As the oldest one, does Mr. Raymond feel that he has been treated differently by his parents?" Tang Cen paused for a moment, then changed after two seconds of deliberation. A saying, "Or ... living with too much expectation?"

Lei Meng's eyes widened in surprise when he heard Tang Cen's question.He thought that Tang Cen would ask about his parents, but who would have thought that he would ask about himself.He thought of several possibilities in his mind, but Tang Cen's tone of voice was too gentle when he spoke, which made him suspect that he was thinking too much.

Raymond leaned back and leaned on the soft sofa, with his left arm folded across his chest and his right hand rubbing his brow.After pondering for a while, Raymond finally gave a "tsk" sound impatiently: "I don't quite understand why you have such an idea, but I can answer you."

"No." Raymond said firmly.

"My parents loved each of their children, and I have the same love that Eisen received from his father and mother, but I am much older than Eisen, and my parents have not expressed it so directly to me. As Raymond spoke, he couldn't help recalling the lively scene at home when he was young, his two younger siblings pestering him, his father who cared awkwardly for him, his loving mother, and when he became an adult, he plunged headfirst into desserts. shop's twin sister.

"My sister, Eisen's sister is also like this." Mentioning his sister, Raymond showed a slight smile on his face, "I studied and grew up with Olivia, what my father and mother taught us It's the same stuff, she's not treated differently because she's a girl, it's just that she prefers to be in her mother's sweet shop rather than run a business."

"Olivia managed her mother's dessert shop very well, and she has never given up on what her father taught her." Raymond praised his sister unabashedly, "If it were me, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to Do as well as she does."

Tang Cen knew that Aisen's family had a dessert shop, which was opened by Aisen's mother, and Aisen often went to help out when he was a child.But he didn't know what happened next.

Raymond's twin sister - Olivia Sterling, she applied the experience and methods of running a company taught by Mr. Sterling to her mother's small dessert shop, although it sounds a bit overkill , but she did a really good job.

Even if it is just a small dessert shop, run by a loving family, it can also exude the most tender love and connect everyone in the family.

Tang Cen could imagine a little bit what it would be like to raise a family like Eisen who was trampled on by others and could still give tirelessly.

It was something he could never have, a family where everyone understood each other and loved each other deeply.

Tang Cen raised his head and looked at Lei Meng, who was still babbling non-stop: "We made different choices, although on the surface it is what you see, but it doesn't mean that our parents are better. No matter who we prefer, the love they give us is the same. They also love and respect us, so that we can go forward in the pursuit of our ideals."

Indomitable.Tang Cen chewed these four words silently, then he turned his head suddenly, across the restaurant, his eyes met Eisen's worried eyes.

Tang Cen didn't know how long Aisen had been standing there, nor how much he had listened to.

Lei Meng crossed his arms and looked at the two people in front of him who were silently looking at each other with a flat expression.When he mentioned Olivia, Eisen stood at the door of the kitchen and eavesdropped on their conversation. He discovered it very early on, only Tang Cen, who had his back to the kitchen, didn't notice it.

Picking up the teapot on the table, Lei Meng added a cup of black tea for himself, and then took a sip of the steaming tea.Warm water vapor rose from the mouth of the cup, blurring Lei Meng's vision for a moment, but even so, he keenly caught the flash of water in Tang Cen's eyes.

It's sad.Lei Meng said these three words silently in his heart. He put the teacup in his hand back to its original position, leaned forward again, and held Tang Cen's hand.

"My father told us more than once that he feels that every one of his children is excellent, it's just a matter of time, and we will always find our true selves."

"It's the same for you. One day (day) you will find someone you love and are persistent." Lei Meng looked into Tang Cen's eyes and said word by word, "I say this, and I can answer your doubts." ?"

Tang Cen smiled bitterly, gently pulled Lei Meng's hand away, stood up and bowed slightly to him: "It's enough, thank you, I want to be alone for a while."

After speaking, under the watchful eyes of Lei Meng and Eisen, Tang Cen lowered his head and quickly hid in the bedroom.With the sound of closing the door with a "click", only Raymond and Eisen were left in the living room.

The two stood and sat looking at each other for a while, Lei Meng waved to Eisen who was stuck in the kitchen, who wanted to go into the bedroom to find Tang Cen but dared not: "Come here."

When my elder brother opened his mouth, Eisen could only obediently sit beside him.

Tang Cen, who hid in the bedroom, didn't know what kind of conversation was going on outside, and he didn't have the energy to lie at the door to eavesdrop on the conversation between the brothers.The second after closing the bedroom door, Tang Cen slowly squatted down, clutching his heart, kneeling on the hard floor, arching his body and panting.

Just now Raymond asked him if such an answer could answer, it was more than an answer to the doubts in his heart. Raymond's words even clearly put the gap between Sterling's family and his family in front of him one by one.

When he humbly begged his father for a compliment, Eisen's father would touch his head to encourage him; when he said "Next time" to Tang Qian and his classmates' invitations countless times, Raymond would Holding the hand of Eisen and his sister, they walked in the park together; when he was lying on the bed and screaming, Eisen's father stood behind Eisen, becoming his backing to go forward...

His embarrassment and embarrassment in front of his father had never appeared in Eisen's house.Even Raymond, who was evaluated as "exclusive" and "conservative" by Eisen, held his hand with a generous and powerful hand, exuding gentle warmth.

When Tang Cen heard about Raymond, he maliciously speculated about the relationship between Raymond and Eisen. As an elder brother, he would always be asked to take on more responsibilities and be deprived of more happiness.But none of that happened to Raymond.

He was the only one born in such a family and raised by such indifferent people.

"We are one family", Tang Cen couldn't believe what Lei Meng said himself. Is he really qualified to be a family with them?

Tang Cen hated himself for being weak. For so many years, he had never resisted thoroughly.He wants to stand under the sun and walk like a normal person, but he used to be so afraid of the sun.

Now he is afraid of the Sterling family who are like the sun, their tenderness is like the hot sun, almost burning him.

The scalding liquid overflowed from the eyes, gathered into water droplets on the long and thick eyelashes, rolled down as it trembled, and smashed small puddles on the bedroom floor.

Tang Cen bit his lower lip tightly, suppressing the sobbing and sobbing tightly in his throat.He propped himself up and lay down on the edge of the bed, groping around on the bed for a while before pulling the quilt in front of him. Only when his face was completely buried in the quilt did Tang Cen let go of his bleeding lips.

The thick cotton swallowed all the roars, and also covered the expression on Tang Cen's face.

Tang Cen was lying on the bed, his back twitching, and it took a long time before he calmed down.The tears stopped, so did the sobbing, but Tang Cen didn't get up, his cheeks rubbed against the soft fabric, and he wanted to smell the remaining Eisen's breath, but his blocked nose couldn't smell anything.

"Knock, knock—" There was a sudden knock on the door, and Tang Cen got off the quilt in a panic.Just sitting on the ground, the door was opened, and footsteps sounded from behind, getting closer, getting closer, and finally stopped behind him.

"Raymond is gone." Eisen's voice came from the top of his head. Tang Cen sat on the ground with his body arched, raised his hand and rubbed his face with his sleeve vigorously a few times, and sniffed again. A voice responded: "Hmm..."

Leaning against the edge of the bed, Tang Cen did not turn his head to look at Eisen.Although there is no mirror, this situation has happened many times. Tang Cen can imagine how ugly his face is without looking.

Tang Cen didn't turn his head, so Aisen had to squat down behind him, and pulled his sleeve slightly: "Tang Cen."

However, Tang Cen still ignored him, and turned his back to him, wondering what he was thinking, with his thin shoulders drooping slightly.

Eisen took a deep breath, leaned forward and hugged Tang Cen tightly from behind, and leaned his head on his shoulder: "I'm sorry, I was the one who was wrong last night."

A fiery object was hung on his body, and Tang Cen shuddered in shock, but he only moved for a moment before letting Eisen hold him.

Sterling's lineage really lives up to their name.

The sun will warm everything, but his sun is different from the sun that burned him in the sky. That sun can't hear any of his begging, and it will hide away in the cold winter.Eisen won't, his sun is always by his side, it will drive away the cold night for him, and it will restrain its own light in order not to burn him.

"It's okay, I was thinking too much." Tang Cen raised his hand and rubbed Aisen's head, "I just don't want you to become like me, and I don't want to repeat the same mistakes."

Eisen rubbed back and forth between his neck, like a giant golden retriever: "Are you still worried?"

Tang Cen shook his head lightly: "No, it's fine."

Eisen's family is the same as Eisen's. They respect and tolerate everything around him. It's just that he thinks too much and bears too much malice, so he speculates about others like this.After all, there are fewer and fewer such people in this world.

Christmas is coming, and the snow in Paris has finally stopped.Tang Cen looked out of the window in a daze, the eaves covered by snow were all white, Eisen looked out with his gaze.But everything is white, no matter how you look at it, you will get bored.

After watching for a short while, Tang Cen looked away, lowered his head and murmured in a low voice: "But I really... envy you..."

Tang Cen didn't finish the second half of the sentence, but Eisen already guessed what he was going to say: "They will also become your family."

"I will give you whatever you want, so can you love me a little more than now?" Eisen asked cautiously, lying on top of him.

It would have been nice if someone had told him that earlier.

Tang Cen raised his head, exhaled a foul breath, then slowly closed his eyes, and let out an inarticulate nasal sound from his nasal cavity: "En."