under the filth

"Jiang Yan?" Upon hearing this completely unfamiliar name, He Xiu looked suspiciously at Tang Cen who was sitting by the bed and looking out the window.

No matter which party provided the information, there was no such name that clearly belonged to a woman.But He Xiu knew that since Tang Cen would propose this name, then this woman named "Jiang Yan" must have an extraordinary relationship with him, even far surpassing Lily Johnson.

It was a fine day, with warm sunlight slanting through the windows and falling at the foot of the bed.Such sunny weather is rare in Rongcheng. He Xiu thought about going out with Tang Cen a few times, but in the end he still didn't put it into practice.

Because of the constant medication, even with He Xiu's help, Tang Cen's life for the past 36 years has become fragmented.Most of the time, Tang Cen could only recall bits and pieces of things, what he just said to He Xiu in the morning, he could forget everything in the afternoon.

He Xiu listened every day while jotting down those story points, and then marked the part that Tang Cen inadvertently mentioned and forgotten.

He guessed that Jiang Yan might be the one who sent Tang Cen a message during Lu Cheng's pursuit, but for some reason, Tang Cen mentioned the existence of this person, but never revealed her identity.

There are more clues and more complex puzzles.

He Xiu took off his glasses and rubbed between his brows wearily.He persuaded Tang Cen as tactfully as possible: "I am your doctor, but now you still...reserve some things from me. I hope you can recall as much as possible, and then tell me what you think you need to tell me. come out."

Tang Cen leaned on the cushion, looking out of the window at the clear sky after the rain, but involuntarily rubbed the wrist of the other hand vigorously.

After a long while, when He Xiu was about to reach out and break away the hand that was rubbing his wrist vigorously, Tang Cen turned around and asked with a smile, "Can Dr. He accompany me to a place?"

A year has passed, and Tang Cen almost always answers He Xiu's questions, even if the protagonist in the question is Lu Sheng, whom he was least willing to recall.But this time it was different, Tang Cen offered to go out for the first time.

This news made the entire medical team in charge of him in the nursing home panic and busy, and even Tang Qian was stunned for a few seconds when he received the call from the nursing home.

Tang Qian raised his hand to signal the subordinates who were reporting work in front of him to stop first. The whole meeting room was quiet, and everyone tensed up, waiting for Tang Qian to finish the call.

"Can he go out in his current physical condition?" Tang Qian played with the signature pen, and after hearing the other party's affirmative answer, he agreed to Tang Cen's request to go out without much resistance, "Then let him go out for a walk, remember Keep up, I'll ask Dr. He about other things later."

With the approval of Tang Qian and the attending doctor, He Xiu let the bodyguard carry Tang Cen downstairs.Tang Cen's familiar black car was parked in the courtyard, and the bodyguard rushed over immediately after answering Tang Qian's call: "Master, where are you going?"

Tang Cen waved his hand at him, but said to He Xiu: "It's not far from here, Dr. He will push me there?"

He Xiu had no choice but to let the bodyguard put Tang Cen on the wheelchair, and slowly pushed him out of the back door of the nursing home.

After lying in bed for a long time, even with a regular massage by a nurse, Tang Cen's muscle tissue still inevitably began to shrink.Only with He Xiu's psychological treatment this year, Tang Cen's body can now reach the state of going out for activities.

After exiting the back door, Tang Cen raised his finger and pointed to the path on the right: "Doctor He, take this path."

He Xiu followed Tang Cen's hand to look at the direction he was pointing at, and stopped unexpectedly.He would walk around this area occasionally, and he was very clear about the destination that this trail led to, but the place Tang Cen was going to really surprised him too much.

He lowered his head, saw Tang Cen's slightly trembling eyelashes, and asked warmly, "The cemetery?"

Tang Cen nodded: "Yes."

For some reason, He Xiu read the meaning of abandonment from Tang Cen's tone, so he didn't make a sound along the way, and followed Tang Cen's guidance.And Tang Cen seems to have been here countless times, and he knows every road here very well.

In the end, He Xiu pushed Tang Cen and stopped at a remote place in the cemetery.Not surprisingly, the word "Jiang Yan" was engraved on the tombstone.

"That was my classmate in high school. I sat at the same table with her for half a year in my second year of high school." Tang Cen leaned forward and wiped the rainwater off the tombstone with his hand.Like touching his lover, he fondled the name engraved on it.

The time engraved on it shows that this girl has passed away for many years, and even the word "Jiang Yan" has left faint traces because it has been touched too many times.There is also a black and white photo of Jiang Yan on the tombstone. She is a smiling, slightly fat girl. She is not amazing, but she looks very pleasing to the eye.

Just when He Xiu was lamenting that the girl passed away in her prime, Tang Cen once again said something that shocked him: "I haven't visited her once since she left, but I just heard that she was buried here."

In 16, due to various reasons, Tang Cen never visited her once, but he knew the road leading here by heart.He Xiu couldn't guess what kind of past Tang Cen and Jiang Yan had, but it was probably different from Lu Sheng and Aisen.

"Long time no see, Jiang Yan." Sitting in a wheelchair, Tang Cen folded his hands on his knees, and solemnly said to Jiang Yan's smiling face in the photo, "I'm having a terrible life now, just like the one I had more than ten years ago." You too."

"Just like you more than ten years ago", this sentence sounds easy to understand, but after careful consideration, He Xiu heard other things contained in it.

He Xiu leaned on the tree next to Jiang Yan's tombstone, listening to Tang Cen and Jiang Yan's conversation without saying a word.If it weren't for the black and white photos of the girl and Tang Cen's obvious self-abandonment, this scene would still be considered warm.

"I broke up with Lu Sheng, the man I told you about." Tang Cen stroked the face on Jiang Yan's photo with his fingertips, and said in a rather regretful tone, "I didn't get what you wanted." , and go to the end with him."

When Tang Cen finished speaking, He Xiu just hung up the phone call from Tang Qian.

"I should go, I don't know when I can come to see you again." He looked at the empty altar, showing a embarrassed expression, "For so many years, I don't know what you like, next time I come to see you What should I bring?"

He Xiu patted Tang Cen on the shoulder: "We should go, we have to go back for an examination later." He bowed to Jiang Yan's photo again, and then pushed Tang Cen to go back.

This cemetery is built on a small hill. As the saying goes, "It's easy to go up the mountain and it's hard to go down the mountain." In addition, the gravel road is especially slippery after the rain. He Xiu was pushing a wheelchair, and when he walked to the exit of the cemetery, he was tripped by small stones to avoid visitors. one time.

Sitting in the wheelchair, Tang Cen was unprepared, and subconsciously grasped the armrest of the wheelchair when it bumped, but after only a small bump, the wheelchair landed on the ground smoothly.

He Xiu rubbed his knee that hurt from being hit by the wheelchair, and thanked the other party in a low voice: "Thank you."

The visitor just pressed the brim of his hat, nodded lightly, and walked quickly towards the mountain.

Tang Cen caught a glimpse of what he was carrying, and thought he was here to sweep the grave, and didn't pay much attention to it.

On the way back, He Xiu kept thinking about what Tang Cen and Jiang Yan said. He was so dazed that he didn't even hear Tang Cen calling him at first.

"Doctor He, Doctor He!" Sitting in a wheelchair, Tang Cen looked at the blurred shadow of the nursing home in the distance, and called He Xiu tirelessly.

Tang Cen shouted several times before He Xiu woke up like a dream: "What's wrong?"

"Does Doctor He think I can be cured?" Tang Cen said calmly, as if he was not asking about his own business.

He Xiu was taken aback, not knowing how to answer him for a moment.It seems that since Tang Cen mentioned Jiang Yan, many subtle things began to change slowly.

After walking a short distance, He Xiu said slowly, "Generally speaking, severe depression cannot be cured, but I will do my best to alleviate your condition, and the rest is up to you."

When He Xiu and Tang Cen mentioned his condition, they were always reserved and objective, but that was only in terms of the condition.

"Jiang Yan..." He Xiu hesitated for a moment, and started the conversation with a question, "We used to have a very close relationship, right?"

"Intimate...?" Tang Cen scratched the skin on his left thumb with the index finger of his right hand, "I don't know either." No. 16 years after her death came to see her.

But indeed, he was the only one who knew Jiang Yan's secret.

When he reached the fork in the road tens of meters away from the back door of the nursing home, He Xiu could already see Tang Qian standing at the door waiting.On this trip today, Tang Cen may have to recuperate for about two days before continuing the previous treatment, and he has to think about how to explain today's matter to Tang Qian.

"How...how did she die?" He Xiu didn't know whether he should ask such a question at this time, but the words had already been spoken, so he could only bite the bullet and wait for Tang Cen's answer.

"Suicide, I heard that I jumped from the top of the tallest teaching building in the university." Tang Cen's voice could not hear sadness or joy, as if he was just stating a fact, "I was in England at that time, and many things happened when she died. It’s what other people have said.”

If He Xiu hadn't watched Tang Cen's eyes turn red several times, and forcefully forced back the tears, he would probably still complain about Tang Cen's cold-heartedness now.

Although he could investigate Jiang Yan's matter by himself, no matter what, Tang Cen's thoughts were the most important.

Before handing over the wheelchair to Tang Qian, He Xiu leaned over and whispered to Tang Cen, "Maybe next time, you can tell me about Jiang Yan again."

Tang Cen lowered his head, looking at his red wrist from rubbing, his eyes suddenly became sour.He raised his head and forced back his tears: "Okay."