broken wings soul

.I haven't been this excited for a long time.That's a bit of an exaggeration... Ah, thank you for helping me buy the bento.Bought my favorite fried chicken bento? "

"Ah, yes. It's a surprise that you like something so simple."

"That's right. I tried a lot, but in the end I still think the original one is the best."

The man took the lunch bag, looked inside with confirmation and muttered.

"Not to chase?"

"…Hey?"

"It's all said and done, there is no problem for you to go back. Are you still planning to escape?"

"But, but photography..."

"Of course it's best to be back today. You won't need it starting tomorrow. The shooting is mainly for location. Besides, you still have a model job over there. If you want to help, you can't help."

"but…"

"I mean, I want you to pack up and leave."

The words were harsh, but Harumi knew that Hiyori Sato said it out of good intentions.Could it be that those words that instigate the real department are also to find out the true meaning of the real department?

"you…"

The man smiled helplessly.

"I didn't expect my character to be so good, I was frightened"

"You're a good guy, you've always been from the beginning"

Haruhi said involuntarily.

"Probably so. Although my hobby in junior high school was pulling out the valves of bicycles, but it's not broken enough to remove the seat of other people's bicycles."

Even though he didn't understand what he meant, Harumi smiled back, turned and ran for the elevator.

He ran outside from the front entrance he had passed through just now, but he couldn't see the real shadow.

On the sidewalk leading to the station, as well as on the opposite road, there was no figure of an eye-catching man.It shouldn't be long.There are not many people on the road where the office buildings are lined up, but it is really strange that the real part cannot be seen.Harumi gave up after wandering on the road for a while, and when he was about to go back to the building to make a phone call, he found the sound of an engine in the parking lot next to him.

In the parking lot, a man was straddling an idling motorcycle.Mabe held the helmet tightly to his chest, staring at the sky in a daze.

"Xianjie!"

Harumi took advantage of the situation and shouted.The man suddenly looked over from the other side of the low fence.An urge to escape suddenly surged in his body, but Harumi knew that he could no longer escape.

Go in the direction where the motorcycle is parked.

"…OK"

Not knowing what expression to put on, or how to say it, Harumi raised a hand.What are you doing? This is, the moment he raised it, Harumi wanted to question his left hand.

"I thought you were gone"

In principle, it is forbidden to ride a motorcycle to school in universities. Generally, if it is not really late, the real department will not use it.That's why I didn't expect him to come by motorcycle just now.

"Aihara...were you by my side just now?"

It was exactly the same as before, and after thinking about it for a moment, Harumi quickly walked to the man and saw that he seemed to have lost some weight.

A little haggard?

In the past, after living in school for several days and doing experiments, I was much better than now.

Shinbu didn't blame himself for running away from home, but just stared at himself quietly.

"Just, just came back just now... You came to look for me, right?"

"yes"

"...I'm sorry. Uh, I didn't expect you to look everywhere for..."

"Harumi, it's me who should apologize."

Like the eyes, the voice is also extraordinarily calm.The man put his helmet on the fuel tank and bowed his head to Harumi.It was the same as when we met for the first time when we were elementary school students, when we bowed to ourselves as a child in the courtyard.

"I'm sorry for doing too much to you. I always felt that I had to apologize to you no matter what. At that time, I was too calm. I'm really... sorry"

"Apologize…"

Is it over with an apology?Looking for myself everywhere, is it just to apologize to myself?

A bass sounded from under the motorcycle that Mabe was straddling.The engine, which was kept turning at a low speed, made a short vibration sound.The slightly trembling sound of the air seemed to be shaking Harumi's heart.

The depths of his heart were rumbling and vibrating.

"...and that's it"

"what…?"

"Why are you always so calm?"

The voice also trembled.

"Just, what you told Hiyori just now, tell me too."

Hope to hear him say, you are mine.Although it is a bit stupid, although it will make people feel embarrassed...but I really want to hear it.

The man replied suspiciously.

"But you all ran out to live in that man's house..."

"You really believe it. Who does it three times a day?"

"Harumi..."

"I won't do it. I, only do, do that kind of thing with you..."

The voice trembled and almost changed.

"It's all...a lie. It's true that Kazuhiro and Zuo did that kind of thing before, but they didn't...do it with that...I just wanted to annoy you, because...seeing that you have a good relationship with that woman"

Gradually, I didn't even know what I was talking about.There is no way to organize the language well.

"It's all a lie. I know that too... In the dojo, the one in junior high school is actually not your fault, I know..."

Like an asthma attack.Out of breath.It's just making up words, why is this happening.

It is more embarrassing than exposing a certain part of the body.It seems simple but difficult to show the inner world that no one knows its shape and no one can see like this.very uncomfortable.

The chest is gasping.It was as if caught in a breathlessness that had been forgotten for many years.

I feel uncomfortable around my cheeks.It feels lukewarm.Harumi knew he was crying.

Like when he was a child, Harumi kept crying in front of Shinbu.

It's so embarrassing.They're all adults, and they're not drunk, and they're not in the middle of the night.

The sky was still clear overhead.

"...Sensuke, I"

The sound came out.Properly.

It is no longer the sound that is squeezed out like the wind.Your lips weave words to express your heart.Harumi had something in his heart that he had to tell Shinbu.

"Sensuke... I'm sorry. I'm sorry, forgive me"

Black asphalt came into view.At some point, his gaze shifted to the ground, and Harumi lowered his head.

"I, do things carelessly, have a stupid head and a bad personality... looks, you also said that you don't value these..."

He gasped heavily several times.

"But I hope you don't...hate me"

The wind blows through the hair.The hair swayed slowly.Unknowingly, instead of the wind, a big palm gently stroked his head.

Then, the action shifts to the usual child-like rubbing.

"I don't hate you. Besides, you don't need to apologize. You were right when you were in junior high..."

Looking up, he saw a thin smile on the man's face.For Mabe, it was a very rare expression that could clearly be seen as very happy.

"Xiansuke..."

"Before... when I was a child, I always thought you were very annoying. You always hindered my practice and said such ugly things. I thought that if this guy wasn't the teacher's son, he would have been thrown far away."

Harumi wiped his tear-wet face vigorously.Otherwise, I would have to cry again just listening to the words of Zhenbu.

It turned out that Zhenbu hated himself so much.Although those were just naive teasing at the time, knowing that such a self was disgusted by Zhenbu, I was still depressed.Although it is an inevitable result, those Wednesdays are what Harumi looks forward to every time.

"To be honest, I felt very annoyed at the time. But I gradually realized that you were always flickering around me, always hiding behind trees and staring at me... You are not in good health and you are chasing me, so I thought Does this guy like me?"

"Hi, like..."

"Isn't it? I've always felt that you don't know how much you like me. Whenever you think this way, you always think about it."

What he didn't even realize was known by the real department.

My mind was in turmoil.It was boiling like a boiling pot, and Harumi's face was burning hot.

"Exiting the dojo is also true... I don't know when, it became to see you. I found that I started to feel that the practice didn't matter at all. I thought that I had fallen into this state and couldn't bother the teacher to teach me any more, so just quit"

It's totally in line with the real department's style of doing things.There is a monthly fee at the dojo.What kind of attitude and mood to study with is of course the student's own business, but Mabe cannot accept such a self.

"Harumi, when I was with you in junior high school... I did not do anything, but I was very excited afterwards. I think about it many times... So, no matter what you say, I deserve it Retribution. That time in the park was the same.”

"garden?"

"At that time... that was the time you were crying in the park. I was angry with that pervert, but at the same time I thought you were so cute. I felt so excited for no reason. It was really terrible."

Hearing Mabu's confession, Harumi was shocked.

"cute…"

"I just want to see you cry more, I think it would be great if you could keep doing this in front of me... How about it, I have to apologize, right?"

The man smiled wryly.Seeing the embarrassed expression on the corner of his big mouth, Harumi couldn't help but smile too.

"You, you are really perverted. So, you are still...comrade"

"You too"

"...big, probably"

The two laughed together.We are connected.However, Harumi felt that this alone was not enough.

"Harumi, can I go home?"

"…OK"

"I have to go to cram school. It's time to go..."

"I'm going back tonight"

Hearing Harumi's brief words, Mabe nodded in relief.He is basically a straightforward man.

Harumi panicked when he saw that Mabe was ready to put on the helmet with a satisfied look.

How can this be.How can the things that I have been struggling with for a long time just end like this.

Harumi hold