broken wings soul

The phone is coming"

"what…"

"I heard it in the hallway. The teacher and you... Mom were talking. I seem to have heard something I shouldn't have heard..."

For a moment, Harumi felt as if his heart was about to jump out.

Really know.Although he didn't know how much he knew, he knew why the police called his parents.The boy, who usually didn't change his expression no matter how much he troubled him, slightly lowered his eyes.A look of bewildered.

Want to die immediately.This bites the tongue and kills himself.

Harumi couldn't hold it anymore, tears fell down.

"...Y-I'm sorry. Don't cry, I'm sorry"

The boy hastily bent down and stretched out his hand.

Cheeks are touched.Dirty fingers wrapped in duct tape wiped Harumi's wet face.Although the movements were a bit rough, the fingers were very gentle, so gentle that it didn't match him.

"I've always been worried that something happened to you... So I didn't feel like going home, so I wandered around your house. Later, I was wondering if you had already returned home, but I saw you running out..."

Shinbu said.

The swing shook violently.

The body slowly swayed forward, and Harumi was hugged.The whole person was surrounded by long arms, and his face was buried in the boy's lower abdomen.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

It had nothing to do with him, and he had done nothing wrong, but he kept apologizing.A comforting hand stroked the back, and Harumi held the boy tightly.

Suddenly there was no need to die.

Although it is so sad and sad, somewhere in my heart is filled.

So happy.

It's just that I feel so happy to see the boy I like cherishing me so much.

Dad, don't be angry.

Although I am disappointed, don't scold me like that.

"Xianjie, if you hate me, I really can't live anymore"

Harumi squatted in the center of the room with the ceiling lamp on, and his voice was weird, as if it was coming out of his throat.

Large and beautiful living room.Framed artwork in the same tone as the furniture hangs on the walls, and a Mongolian wool rug covers the floor.And the high ceilings echoed a sound unbecoming of a well-decorated apartment.

Harumi burst into tears like a child abandoned on the road.She clutched the carpet as if she was about to shatter the long white wool, crying loudly.

"I don't know, are you tired of me? Do you think it's better to be a woman, that's why you treat me like this..."

The injured body was still hot and still aching.

Remembered the past.Although I have never forgotten it, once I face up to and accept those memories, I have to admit my love for the real department.

While liberating the suppressed heart, it also resolutely made Harumi realize himself again.

"...I like, like him, always... I, I always pretended in my heart, Xianjie... I always liked him, no, he became someone else..."

Memories from the first time we met to the present came flooding back to Harumi.For so many years, I look forward to Wednesday every week.When Shinbe quit the dojo in his first year of high school, he was more depressed than his father.He couldn't even eat, and ran out to play in the middle of the night like an escape.

When Shinbu said he wanted to live with him, he was so happy.

While being surprised, I felt as if my heart flew into the sky all at once.I was so happy that I couldn't sleep all night, rolling around in the quilt.And discord with his father was nothing more than an excuse to leave home.

"He, he is obviously mine, why...others want to snatch...? Why, Xianjie did...excessive things to me, does he...don't, hate...to please...me..."

In the end, there was no sound at all.Harumi squatted on the ground, just sobbing like a convulsion.The runny nose made a mess on his face and his hair was disheveled.

"...Anyway, calm down first."

The man sitting on the sofa persuaded with a look of impatience that he couldn't bear to listen.

To calm down, Hiyori took out wine from the wine cellar and drank it alone.

Take a sip and sigh.

"It's useless to ask me, I don't know if he hates you anymore"

At Rihezuo's house.When Harumi came, he roughly told Hiwazuo the reason why he ran out of the apartment, but he couldn't control his feelings while talking, so he fell into this state.

"What are you going to do?"

The man's reaction became cold at some point.

No wonder.Woke up in the middle of the night and ran outside, paid the taxi fare, and finally let him into the house, crying to himself about other men.Howling suddenly like this, who can be happy.

"I like men and women, but I just don't like children"

Refilling the empty glass with wine, Hiyori pushed the glass to Harumi's mouth.

"Forget it, let's have a drink first?"

Seeing Harumi honestly gurgling and drinking, Hiyori smiled.Just as he was wondering if he had gone out, the man came out with a small box after a while.

"Hearing what you said, it must be an injury, right? This is medicine, it's new, you can apply it. If the pain still doesn't go away, don't lose face and go to the hospital."

"...You prepared...very thoughtful"

Breathing calmed down.

"I'm a gentleman, so I won't hurt anyone. It can also be said that because I'm a gentleman, I'm fully prepared to prevent accidents."

Harumi drank the wine in one gulp and left the empty glass on the table.Staring at the pill box that came over.

"What's the matter? How about I paint it for you?"

"...no need. I'll do it myself"

Hearing Hiwazuo teasing him, Harumi muttered naturally.

"…thanks"

Hiwazuo's eyes widened slightly.

"You're welcome. But that 'girlfriend' of yours is really hot."

"...He's not usually like this. That guy is kind"

"Oh... yeah"

Seeing Harumi unconsciously talking about Mabe's good time, Hiyori had an expression of being bored from the bottom of his heart.Harumi looked up at the man, and his voice, which was completely smoothed out, became very cute and cute.

"I have something to trouble you"

"What is it?"

"Can I let you stay here for a while?"

Hiyori sat down firmly on the sofa and sighed exaggeratedly.

"Hey, why do you want someone who doesn't take advantage of you to live in my house?"

"I have nowhere to go. I don't want to go back...just a few days, just a few days..."

Looking at the clock on the wall of the room, it was past two o'clock.Makoto must be worried.Although I can't let go of it, I still feel very scared to be honest.

Thinking that Zhenbu might be even more angry if he sneaked out, he didn't have the courage to go back.And maybe Zhenbu really gave up on himself this time, so he didn't want to face the status quo even more.

"Then three meals a day with me..."

Hiyori Sao reluctantly spoke.

"I do not know how to cook"

Hearing the man's request as if deliberately embarrassing himself, Harumi became anxious, and hurriedly emphasized.Hiwazuo smirked.

"Go to bed with me after three meals a day. If you are willing to go to bed, I will think about it."

The receiver that nearly fell was the gray receiver of a payphone.

"Huh, really?"

The office is on the phone.Harumi, who thought to fill up his schedule first, asked about his future work arrangements with a trace of anxiety, but learned that he had received a job in a magazine.It's the front page of a fashion magazine.It seemed that a model was to be used in a report, and I was chosen.It's not for anyone this time.

"Someone said they saw you in CM and wanted to use you"

Good news, the president is very proud.It is also long-lost good news for Harumi.

Been away from home for a week.

Nearly halfway through November, autumn is getting deeper, and the streets have also changed their clothes.Harumi was on the phone at a studio somewhere in the city.The public telephone quietly stayed in the lobby on the first floor as if it had been abandoned.

Through the glass at the door, you can see the colored street tree ginkgo.

"Advertisers say that there will be a response soon after it is broadcast. They say that you have a good sense of gap. This matter is really uncertain. Sometimes you get a job just like that."

Now people will watch late-night short commercials. Although it is a question of whether anyone will watch them, it is a gratifying miscalculation.I think it is wise to take the job without picking and choosing.

"Oh, that's right, the call came just in time. A man named Mabu called just now."

Harumi was surprised to hear the familiar name suddenly.Hold the earpiece firmly to your ear.

"Hey, Xian... Zhen, Zhen is calling?"

"Are you friends? He said you live together, is that true?"

"Ah, that's right... I have some business here, so I don't live there..."

"That's it. It means that it's okay to talk to him at the time. It seems that Anbu answered the phone and asked where you work, but Anbe didn't say anything."

Unexpectedly, Shinbu would call the office.

The day after he left home, Harumi called.

Said that he would not go home for the time being, said not to worry, and said it almost as if he had confessed to work, but unlike the confession of work, he basically said it on his own and then hung up the phone directly.At that time, the time was relatively tight when I was not shooting, but in fact, the most important thing was that I didn't have the courage to accept the real part's reaction.

Originally, it was Mabu who proposed to terminate the cohabitation relationship as if he wanted to drive himself out.If you really say "you don't have to come back again", I really can't bear it.

"I'm sorry to trouble you. I already told him that I won't be going back for a while..."

"By the way, why don't you bring your mobile phone? Is it shut down due to arrears?"

"Ah? No, no..."

The phone was dropped at home.

"It's troublesome not being able to contact you, you have to make sure to call once a day. Otherwise, the good job may be lost."