[Korean Entertainment] Rebirth I bring salt to Pooh

My name is Choi Minho, and I have wanted to be a singer since I was very young. In 06, I stood out in the street audition and successfully joined S*M Company, which was a step closer to my dream of being a singer, even though I was still a high school student who had no deep experience in the world.

There are many trainees in the company, and the pressure of competition is also very high. Many of them quit midway because they failed to persevere. Even though most of them persevere, the company thinks that they are not good enough and does not give them training at all. Opportunity to debut.

I don't want to do these two kinds of people. The thing I hate the most in my life is losing.

I have to attend classes with many people every day and learn various skills. If I do not perform well, I will be compared by others and reprimanded by the teachers.I can accept all these, and I never complain. All the hardships are just for the sake of being able to stand on the stage openly and sing my favorite songs after debut.

The first time I heard her name was at the end of 07. Litege said that the company had a new beauty from China, which attracted the whole company to watch.But I don't really care, I haven't made my debut yet, I'm so busy every day, I have to take care of dancing while I'm in high school, and I don't have time to look at Chinese beauties.I didn't even remember her name, because the sound of qian is not easy for Koreans to pronounce, and I believe most people will not remember her name.The company's top executives also knew this, probably because they saw the hope of future victory in her, and her stage name was set to Victoria.

In the first half of 08, the company decided to select five boys to debut as a team. The new group is called SHINee, and I am one of the five.But what makes me depressed is that the company only let me sing rap and chorus, and be responsible for the appearance of the group.This seems to be the realization of my singer dream, but I always feel different in my heart, and I feel a little lost.

I am a singer, but not the one who can sing well. It seems that anyone who sings on the street will be better than me.

Oh, and they picked me up from the street too.

In April, the company wanted to record the music MV of "My Sister Is So Beautiful", and the director arranged for me to take the actress running upstairs.He also specifically asked me to show enthusiasm and shyness in my eyes, showing the aura of a young boy's first love.

Isn't passion and shyness contradictory?

Although my grades in the acting class are excellent, I don't know how to act out this conflicting emotion. The director's words are too profound. He probably believes that I can grasp the feeling that can only be understood but cannot be expressed in words.

Until I actually took that actress's hand.

She is older than me, but she unexpectedly reveals a kind of pure and clean breath just like a high school student between her brows, and her rosy cheeks make her whole person charming and lovely.

Suddenly my heart was beating like a drum. I wanted to see her but I didn't dare to be too presumptuous. I took her hand and felt that my hand was like a catkin and my skin was like fat.I suddenly figured out that this song was written quite to the point, my sister is so beautiful.

The director called cut, and I hurriedly let go of her hand, as if I was holding a hot soldering iron just now, but I couldn't help staring at her.

"Ah, Minho xi's acting is amazing, this is the effect I want, it's a good thing the company is focusing on cultivating actor seedlings."

I feel ashamed of the director's words of praise, so I can only respond with a dry smile.

It turned out that she was a trainee from China, the girl with a very strange name, if I knew it, I would have gone to watch her...

During the interview, she pronounced SHINee as "sand mud" or "sieve you". I couldn't help eavesdropping, stared at the back of her head and laughed out loud, and was glanced at by Onew who didn't understand the situation.

Later, I met her several times in the company. Because she didn't speak Korean well, she was timid every time, and she was always afraid of saying something wrong.At that time, she hadn't formed a group practice with Luna and the others, and the number one person close to her in the company would be Cho Kyuhyun.Kyuhyun hyung and TVXQ's Changmin hyung have a very good relationship, and Changmin hyung and I have a good relationship, so I use this to draw my relationship with Kyuhyun hyung closer.Afterwards, I took time out to learn how to play games, and I did what I liked, and was finally accepted by Kyuhyun and joined Kyuline.Unfortunately, because of the language relationship, she still has very little communication with me.She doesn't know Korean, so I just need to learn more Chinese.

In August, we finally had a second cooperation, and we were able to shoot school uniform advertisements together.She was learning Korean with Baolulu at that time, which was a very different way of learning.Every time I voluntarily walked over and listened to her tirelessly telling the story of the penguin, I felt that I had never been so naive as to be interested in cartoons that only children love to watch.

Since I wasn't the one who sang well in the group, I decided to win with my talent and started trying to write lyrics for new songs. In 09, with "Juliette", we won several first places in the music program. What I am most proud of is that the lyrics in it are all written by me:

Secretly sing a serenade for you

sweet poisoning

i am your romeo

guard your knight

My heart was captured by her with unexplainable feelings for her.

This is exactly what I want to express.

I secretly asked her what she thought of the lyrics, and she said it was very good, worthy of 'Spark Charisma'.

For her simple boast, I laughed from ear to ear all day.

When recording "Deep Break", the prodigy said that SHINee has never been in love, not even a secret love experience.Except for me, all the members agree, I know that what they said is not true, for the sake of image building, there is no way to do it.But I want to be honest, because she once told me that she doesn't like men who lie. "I have had the experience of being secretly in love, although it was only once. It wasn't something that happened when I was a child. At that time, I just felt like it. I fell in love secretly, but after thinking about it, this is not allowed, so I slowly locked my heart."

After I finished speaking, the members all looked at me strangely. They didn't understand why I said these words suddenly, maybe they thought I was deliberately grabbing attention.Afterwards, Key told me that they were surprised that I had someone I liked, why didn't I go after him, there shouldn't be any girls who would reject someone as good as me.

I also wanted to chase her, but at that time f(x) hadn’t debuted yet, the song had already been recorded, and the only thing left was to make up, take photos and package it. How could I propose a relationship with her at such a critical period.

And I'm even more afraid that once she knows that I like her, we won't even be friends.It was not easy for me to get acquainted with her, and I didn't want to ruin this rare friendship because of impatience.

I'm afraid that if I can't become a man who can take care of her, I will drag her down instead.I was afraid that she would think that I was not serious about relationships because of my age, so I really wanted to yell: "I really don't want to just play around." But I still didn't dare.

In the final analysis, it was because of my timidity that I didn't pursue her.

In Music Bank at the end of 09, our group collaborated with f(x), dancing and singing together.Later, when I was watching the broadcast video, I realized that I had accidentally watched her many times, and I was so regretful that my stomach was green, and I was afraid that my secret crush would be guessed by others.

Like an ostrich, I pretended nothing happened, trying to cover everything naturally.But Jonghyun watched the starking we recorded together, pointed to the scene of me watching her on the computer screen, and said sharply: "When you look at her, you will unconsciously close your chin, that look, tsk tsk, seems to want to Make Victoria look melted."

I don't know what kind of metaphor he was talking about, but he kept his voice silent. Fortunately, Jonghyun didn't tell anyone about it.

At the beginning of 10, I went to Canada for filming Dreamteam, which was the first time I went abroad to shoot in my personal activities.It's a pity that I didn't succeed at the beginning. When I was performing a jumping action on the show, I unfortunately injured my head.Looking back, it was quite embarrassing, but fortunately, because I was injured, I got her greetings and greetings, which was a blessing in disguise.During the same period, I also filmed the combination program Hellobaby, and played a song for "jojo", and my self-confidence and popularity have grown a lot.I have a better understanding of the rules of survival in the circle, and I also dislike being a celebrity more and more. Being a celebrity is hard work and earns little, and there is no personal freedom, so the gain outweighs the loss.In the future, if I can quit the entertainment industry hand in hand with her and have a cute child like Hellobaby, I will definitely be the happiest person in the world.

When I held the NewGeneration Live in YOKOHAMA concert with f(x) in Yokohama in April, on a whim, I bought a Tiffany 4 silver bracelet and put it on for myself. I also bought a silver waterdrop ring of the same style. give it to her.This ring is not that expensive, and I don't think she will be particularly burdened by it, but unfortunately, I haven't been able to find a good excuse for her.

Now she can call SHINee very naturally, mixed with a wonderful coquettish tone, which is always more pleasing to the ear than others.I can also call her by her name naturally, but I never dare to let others hear it. In front of everyone, I am only willing to call her vic.

She has another name in my heart.

SHINee is a compound word that means shining, representing a person who is illuminated by light.

And she is the sunshine in my heart, making me feel as warm as spring returning to the earth.

So I secretly called her Sunshine.

Mysunshine

It's a pity that Mysunshine went to shine on others recently. She and Nichkhun appeared on a reality show together, and they filmed one day a week on average.I overheard Sulli say that she didn't sleep much the night before the trip, busy making sandwiches and peeling fruit for him. Sulli also said that the two seem to be a good match, and they will have V dad soon.My stomach chugs sadly, feeling what so-called jealousy feels like for the first time in my life.What is particularly depressing is that Nichkhun is better than me in terms of popularity, family background, and appearance. If he finds out about her and decides to pursue her, then my hope of winning is really slim.

Even though I don't even have the courage to act now...

Fans nicknamed me 'The Man Who Doesn't Know Abandonment' because I was too competitive.But they don't know my cowardly side, otherwise my nickname would be 'the man who doesn't know how to abandon but dare not make a move'... It's frustrating to think about it.

I've been thinking hard for three days. Anyway, I'm already 20 years old. It's time to be like a man, pursue the woman I like wholeheartedly, and give her the promise of happiness.

What if I can't catch up... I don't even have to be friends... As long as I think about it, my previous determination will disappear immediately.

I am immersed in the process of self-thinking, self-examination and self-refutation every day, and I am a little careless even when recording songs.The consequence of not being distracted was that when I was recording the video, my calf muscle broke, and I had to postpone the comeback of "Lucifer" in the end.After delaying the progress of the team, I blamed myself more, introspected my heart more, and started to think about the root of my mistakes, so I fell into a new thinking cycle again... People who know me suspect that it is not my legs that are injured, but my heart... …

I can only say that they are the truth...

Alas... life is like dots, eyes full of ellipsis...