Happy Life [Rebirth]

From this day on, it will be three years since I saw Gu Tingsheng again. I am 11 years old and Gu Tingsheng is 14 years old.

In the past three years when Wanwan and I were adopted by Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei treated me and Wanwan very well, as did my biological parents. Great changes, but under the careful treatment of Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei, they gradually came out of the haze.

But my relationship with Xia Chaobei and his wife has always been in a somewhat awkward position.

It's not that Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei treated me differently, it's that I've grown up mentally and can't be a child. Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei also found it hard for them to treat me like a child.

This year, I skipped a grade to the first grade of junior high school. I wanted to skip directly to the third grade, but was stopped by the dean of Jincheng Middle School.

She thinks that I am too young to go directly to the third year of junior high school, and I will not be able to physically bear the pressure of the senior high school entrance examination unless I grow myself into a tall and strong boy.

She told me frankly at the time that even though my mental age and academic performance could keep up with junior high school students, she was very worried that my small body would faint in class due to anemia or low blood pressure.

There is a reason for what the dean said, because Jincheng No. 06 Middle School treats the third-year students extremely strictly, comparable to the college entrance examination. Resident students leave for the exercise lap at 30:[-] in the morning, and day students start morning reading at [-]:[-]. There are five classes in the morning. There are four quarters in the afternoon and two quarters of mandatory evening self-study.

I looked at my arms and legs, which were thinner than children of the same age, and I understood the dean's concerns.

Wanwan was even more depressed than I was. She learned that I jumped directly from the fifth grade to the first grade, she hooked my neck and yelled for a whole day, she said: "We are two brothers and sisters, why don't you even pass the third grade test paper? I can pass [-] in the exam, but I still haven't passed the math!"

What can I say, I really want to tell my cousin that you never passed math in your previous life, but thanks to your emotional intelligence and interpersonal skills, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei can trust you to take care of the company.

Now that I am in the first grade of junior high school, I go to the same school as Xia Wanwan. After class, I carry my schoolbag and leave immediately. The head teacher knows that I am studying by myself, and the students in the same class are all studying the textbooks for the first grade of junior high school. It is already a high school textbook.

Therefore, the head teacher and other teachers ignored me, and they didn't understand the dean's way of preventing me from skipping a grade. I didn't understand at first, so I begged Lin Shuzhen to find the dean several times.

Finally, the old lady told her thoughts, she pointed at me and said to Lin Shuzhen: "I stopped Yang Lu from skipping a grade, firstly, because he didn't look healthy enough, and secondly, I always felt that at his age, it was because of his mental health. There is a big gap between precocious and peers, and now I skip a grade, Ms. Lin, what do you think will happen?"

Lin Shuzhen is a smart person. As soon as the dean said it, she lowered her head and asked me: "Xiaolu, I have never heard you mention your classmates. Who do you usually play with?"

When Lin Shuzhen asked such a question, I could have lied and pulled out a few names at will, but I was afraid that the dean would call someone to confront me, so I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut and say nothing.

The teaching director came over and touched my head, and she said to me: "Student Yang Lu, people always need friends."

I want to say that even if I don’t need friends, I can live a good life. Besides, they are all a bunch of radish heads, which makes me, an older man who is about to be three years old, really unable to eat. Besides, I didn’t have any so-called friends in my previous life. Didn't he live well to the age of 26?

Lin Shuzhen also sighed, and she replied to the teaching director: "It's me who is too careless as a mother. Something happened at home recently, and I neglected the children."

The teaching director didn't answer Lin Shuzhen's words. She probably knew about the bankruptcy of Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei's company. She echoed a few words and said that the child still needs to communicate more. Then she said to me: "Without friends, I always feel lonely. Yes, student Yang Lu, I hope you can open your heart and try to communicate with others, it's a pity that you don't have one or two friends at this age."

That day, I just thought that the dean had a lot of shit, and she hid half of what she said. After thinking about it, I understood what she said.

Now that they are all students, the biggest bad habit among a group of carrot heads is nothing more than comparing who is richer.When we get to the society, everyone only talks about interests. At that time, when I think about it, I realize that my friends in school days are always more pure and sincere.

Then this old woman with black-rimmed glasses who always had a serious face, and another sentence, hit the point.She is worthy of being the teaching director for many years, and it can be regarded as a job that deals with people every day. She can see at a glance that my loneliness comes entirely from my own will.

Lin Shuzhen went home that day and told Xia Chaobei exactly what the dean had said. That night Wanwan was watching TV, and I was quietly closed the door by the adoptive parents to have a heart-to-heart talk.

Xia Chaobei patted my head and rubbed my face, trying to hold me in his arms, but I twisted my body and ran away.Lin Shuzhen, who was praying mantis, catching cicada and oriole behind her, wrapped her arms around me with open arms.

She still carried me to the bed very easily, and then hugged me. Xia Chaobei said to me bluntly: "Xiao Lu, you are not only smarter than your sister, but also more mature than your sister. There are some words that your mother and I have already held back." For a long time, but always worried that you are a child, so I dare not tell you rashly."

"But now that I think about it, I should see you as an equal to me."

Xia Chaobei looked at me with serious eyes and no perfunctory eyes. I was seen to see that he really respected me. The way he looked at me directly expressed that I put you and me on the same level.

"Little Lu, why did you close your heart?"

Xia Chaobei asked, with a sad tone, Lin Shuzhen rested her chin on my shoulder, and her breath carried the unique fragrance of a woman who became a mother. At this moment, I thought of my mother whom I had forgotten for many years .

I leaned in Lin Shuzhen's arms, and my adoptive mother held my hand. Her knuckles were wide, her palms were rough, and her ten fingers were covered with a thin layer of calluses, but these hands held my hands, and I felt warm.

Lin Shuzhen called me: "Xiaolu, is it me and Abei who are not qualified?"

Xia Chaobei shook his head: "Xiaozhen, I think this kid is a little white-eyed wolf. If this kid is half as cute as her sister, I will be thankful."

Xia Chaobei doesn't say such things on weekdays, I think he is trying to provoke me on purpose, but I can't figure out his intentions so I won't be angry because of these words.

Now that I am being interviewed by these two parents who are no longer newbies, I feel a lot of pressure, and my mind is spinning rapidly thinking about how to get out of it as soon as possible.

So I tore down Xia Chaobei's channel: "I skipped a grade last week, and you still laughed at Wanwan for always failing math, saying that Wanwan is half as smart as me, so you're going to burn incense and worship Buddha."

Xia Chaobei didn't expect me to remember his words so lightly, and he rolled his eyes in choking.

Lin Shuzhen saw that her Ah Bei retreated thousands of miles with just one move from me, so she followed closely behind and came to help: "Xiao Lu, there is something I think I must tell you."

I nodded, ready to see the tricks, Lin Shuzhen said: "I want to tell you - I hope you understand, no matter what happened, good or bad, even if it is bad, very bad things, such as you lost Lost money, was criticized by the teacher, failed the exam - well, I know you are different from Wanwan.

Anyway, something seems to be wrong with you, and I beg you to tell me and your uncle.Because Ah Bei and I will always stand by your side.What happened to you, I hope you understand that Abei and I want you to tell us that it is because we are worried about you, not to reprimand you for it—because parents always stand by their children unconditionally side. "

What Lin Shuzhen said was very confusing at the end, and an 11-year-old child might not be able to understand everything.

But when I think about it, the essence of what she said is probably that if something happened to me, their first reaction would not be to blame me. They wanted me to tell them because they were worried about me and because they loved me.

I don't know what to say, I'm not sociable but very human, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei are too qualified to be parents, if parents have to pass the test, then some parents are facing some test questions, for example, the child was criticized by the teacher What should they do, then they must criticize the child one-third more harshly than the teacher criticizes the child.

Another example is when a child loses his pocket money, the first reaction is to scold him for being stupid and incompetent.

And so on, the child is probably isolated by the whole class, and I have to say that it is because your own personality is too bad, and the flies do not bite seamlessly.

After coming and going, even if it is the biological parents, the children will have a rift, and they will never say anything more to their parents from then on.

Thinking about it this way, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei are simply role models of parents. When I think about it, how can I get a pair of adoptive parents who love me so much.

I also want to open my heart to adoptive parents like this, but it feels like a tall iron door has been erected in my heart after being closed for too long.The wind blows the sun and the rain blows——the door is blown mercilessly every day. After a long time, the door is rusted. It is very difficult for me to open the door. I feel that I have exhausted all my strength, but I can only push it open. Seamed a little.

I probably blushed, so I called out softly: "Mom."

Xia Chaobei was probably thinking about how to cure me. His ears were sharp, he reacted faster than Lin Shuzhen, and jumped up excitedly than Lin Shuzhen: "What did you call? Did you call mother?"

Seeing Xia Chaobei's excitement, I wondered if he would like to replace Lin Shuzhen with his own body to answer the call of mother.

Lin Shuzhen hugged me and didn't respond, but I knew she heard it. She froze for a moment and didn't speak. I yelled that my mother was already the limit. Counting Lin Shuzhen's 26th year, if I was [-] years old in my previous life Considering my age, I think my mother is a bit too young.

Then my young mother cried, Xia Chaobei hadn’t noticed his wife was crying silently, he was leaning over to face, the conversation was gone, and his face was about to seduce me: "Xiaolu, call me daddy!" , I shouted that I will give you double the pocket money tomorrow, no, twice - I will give you a hundred directly!"

What Xia Chaobei said was bold. He and Lin Shuzhen experienced the ups and downs of life a year ago as I remembered.

The two now set up a stall to sell wontons, which is still their ancestral handicraft. The company before was a small company, acting as a foreign trade agent. I didn't expect the economic crisis of the US imperialism to come. It is difficult for a large company to protect itself, and a small company is even worse. It was a wave that killed half of them.

During that time, the villa on the second floor was gone, the car was gone, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei sold everything they could sell, paid the last sum of money to the staff, and took me and Xia Wanwan to rent this old family A two-bedroom suite in the courtyard.

In fact, I really want to say that it is better to buy a house, and you have to buy a loan. The current house price in the city center is only [-] square meters, but it will be [-] square meters in ten years. If you buy a house now, the more you buy, you will just sit and make money. A huge profit.

I couldn't help but suggest once, Xia Wanwan was much more sensible at that time, knowing that the family has no money now, when I was tactful, I tried to be naive and said: "Auntie, why don't we buy a room closer to the school?" house, so that my sister and I can go to school conveniently.”

After saying this at that time, I immediately received a lesson from Xia Wanwan, a silly girl. She rarely showed her sister's book, and taught me to be sensible. Even Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei just sighed and vowed to make money for me. Have a good life with Wanwan.

I can only think silently in my heart, ten years later, the housing in the school district near Jincheng No. [-] Middle School will be sold at [-] square meters, and now the second-hand ones are only [-] yuan. Such a huge profit is in front of me, but unfortunately I can’t even say it.

How will others believe me if I say it, and how will I be treated when it becomes true ten years later? Thinking about my rebirth, my power is so insignificant. Even if I changed my fate of being adopted by the Gu family, I still regret it now.

Because I can't find Gu Tingsheng.

As early as two years ago, the Jincheng No. [-] Middle School where the former student was supposed to study, now there is no such person in Jincheng No. [-] Middle School.

I don't know what went wrong, I even ran to the two-story mansion where we grew up together, but the mansion was sold to someone else after knocking on the door.

Only then did I realize the impermanence of fate, the rebirth and the previous life will not be the same after all, and the difference between people can be so simple.

I can memorize the phone number of Gu Tingsheng in my previous life, I can memorize his ID number, I can remember his birthday, I can remember that he likes fish, beef and dislikes pork, I remember that he likes sweet and dislikes spicy food, but it’s no use remembering more.

11-year-old Yang Lu realized that it was such a simple matter that I couldn't find him after Gu Tingsheng stopped living in that small western-style building and stopped studying in Jincheng No. [-] Middle School.

I used to passively close my heart.

Now that I can't find Gu Tingsheng, it is difficult for me to open it again.

I miss Gu Tingsheng, and I also miss my failed past life.

I once thought that I should live a good life in the next life. In the previous life, I had no friends, because my elder brother was my friend in the previous life.Not only a friend, Gu Tingsheng played almost all the roles in my life, he is not only my elder brother, he also played the role of father, mother, friend, brother, and even the person I love in my life.

I think to me in my previous life, Gu Tingsheng was everything to me.

At that time, I didn't need friends, I closed my heart, because I only needed Gu Tingsheng.

Now I am carrying the me of my previous life. Even though I was treated with great care by my adoptive parents and grew up with my elder sister, I want to try to open my heart, but think about it if there is no intersection with Gu Tingsheng in this life...

Still sad.