Happy Life [Rebirth]

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My name is Gu Tingsheng. I was discharged from the Ninth Affiliated Hospital of Jincheng City when I was eight years old. You can find out that this hospital specializes in psychiatric diseases. According to my observation, all my patients are psychiatric patients. sick.So this hospital is often called a mental hospital.

The day I was discharged from the hospital was in August, and it was raining. Only the assistant next to Gu Xingsong came to pick me up. His attitude towards me was quite appropriate to be described as respectful.He was driving a car that day, it looked very high-end, I think I can call the name of the car, but now my mind is very confused, I can occasionally remember a lot of things, but more often I forget.

For example, Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu are my parents, but now I instinctively refuse to call these two people father and mother.

I have forgotten why I hated these two people so much, the only thing I remember is how I hate them.It was an almost instinctive loathing, both physical and mental, but why I loathed them, I don't remember.

And if you don't remember it, don't remember it, and I didn't get any better when I got home.Every time I want to think deeply, I swallow the pills three times a day, I want to sleep, and I want to be in a daze. Those medicines make me feel that my brain is extremely tired.

At this time, I felt that I didn't even hold any grudges against Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu.Psychotropic drugs affect my brain very much. I found that after taking it, it can make people feel no emotion at all.

Because I was very tired, tired and sleepy.There will be neither negative emotions nor happiness.So much so that for a long time, I thought that people lived like this, that they would not find any joy in living, but they would not find any boredom in living either.

just live.People live just to live, aimless and meaningless life.

I was discharged from the hospital in August, and I didn't stay at home for two more days. Gu Xingsong's assistant came to inform me to go to school again.

I haven't been to school for a whole year, and what's even more amazing is that I don't remember what life in school was like. I don't remember if I had any friends at school. I can't even remember what grade I'm in now, let alone Who is the teacher who taught me.

The assistant was also amazed by my situation. He probably thought it was a serious situation, no different from amnesia, so he invited his boss, Gu Xingsong, to deal with it.

I only found out later that Gu Xingsong was originally going to leave Jincheng to go south that day. There was a new project in the south that he had to personally supervise.

When I saw Gu Xingsong that day, I was very surprised. I even forgot that I had a pair of parents, because I really rarely saw them, so rare that I almost forgot the existence of these two people in my life.

Gu Xingsong was wearing long-sleeved trousers in summer. When he came, the air conditioner in the room was turned up two degrees from 26 degrees.At that time, I was sitting by the floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room, and outside the window was a green area covered with lawns. I vaguely felt that this should not be the case.

I remember when I looked out the window, there should be flowerbeds and tall trees, but there is only a green lawn behind the houses here.

When Gu Xingsong came over, I was staring at the green grass in a daze. I felt him coming, but I didn't want to pay attention to him. My normal state now is that I don't want to pay attention to anyone. I'm tired. They're all just in a daze.

Gu Xingsong didn't call me out, and he did something that was beyond my expectation.

He sat down across from me. This man is sickly, has delicate features, and his eyes are always a little gloomy, but he is also solemn and rigorous. Now this kind of Gu Xingsong is sitting on the floor opposite me, just like me.

I looked out the window and felt him looking at me. I don't know how long the two of us sat like this until I felt my legs go numb and changed my position. Gu Xingsong called me: "Tingsheng."

Only then did I slowly turn my head around, my eyes fixed on his face, and I didn't move away for a long time.It was very rude, I didn't mean to do it, it was just exhausting.

I often fix my eyes on one place and don't move for a long time.Because I am very tired, every time I even look away, I feel deeply tired.

Gu Xingsong smiled at me and said, "Your eyes are very similar to mine."

I watched him stay silent, and Gu Xingsong continued: "Why don't you talk to me? Are you hating Dad, but it's for your own good that you were sent to the hospital. You see, you are much quieter now. You were very quiet before. irritable."

I listen, I don't understand what Gu Xingsong means by saying these things, I really don't understand, but I saw the way Gu Xingsong looked at me, his eyes were black and pure, the way I never looked at me in the second The look that one sees in one's eyes.

There's a little bit of granny, and some lingering gloom that feels familiar to me, and then more of a mood that I can't describe.

Now that he looks at me like this, I suddenly feel that he seems a little sad.

Gu Xingsong said: "You are somewhat like me. This is not good."

I told him, "I'm so tired."

After Gu Xingsong heard this sentence, his expression was surprised and puzzled, and he asked: "But you... just sit here all the time."

"My mind is very tired." I lowered my eyelids, and slowly told the man who was my father in front of me, "I don't understand every word you said. Thinking about this kind of thing is so tiring."

I shut my mouth after I said these words, and these few words made me feel like I had said all I had to say for the day.

Gu Xingsong's expression became even more surprised. He sat there without making a sound. He looked at me for a long time, and then he said: "Let's... stop the medicine."

"People who don't think are no different from idiots." Gu Xingsong said, "You are my son, you can't become an idiot."

I didn't make a sound, what he said was really unpleasant, but I just listened to it, I was tired.So I'm neither angry nor happy.

Gu Xingsong continued: "Since you have forgotten all about it, why don't you go to the new school? Grandma has been sick for the past two days, and grandma will come to accompany you in two days."

I listened, and when I heard the words "Nurse" move in my heart, it was a kind of very light sadness welling up, with a long and silent longing.

Gu Xingsong looked at me, and he said: "You look sad, if you don't want to, you can continue to study at the original school, but you have to stay a grade... You may not be able to adapt."

I said to Gu Xingsong, "I miss her very much."

Gu Xingsong probably was surprised several times before, but this time his expression was calm, and he asked me: "Who do you miss?"

"Grandma," I yelled, and I touched my eyes, but there were no tears, but I felt like crying.I thought of an old man with silvery white hair who was never slow in doing things. I thought of the warmth in her embrace. I also thought of her as the initial warmth of my life. She was the one who raised me and accompanied me through my childhood.

"Grandma has caught a cold these two days." Gu Xingsong said, "I'm afraid of infecting you. Grandma will come here to accompany you when the cold is cured. But if you still want to go back to the original school, go back to the original school for classes."

I shook my head: "No need."

I even thought, it’s okay if I don’t go to school, I don’t have the urge to go to school at all.And at this time, I don't know why Gu Xingsong asked me to transfer schools.I found out later that this was one of the few times I met him, and he cared about me.

Gu Xingsong was worried that I would go back to my original school, because I would be ridiculed by my former classmates if I stayed in the first grade. He even considered this, so that when I remembered it later, I also doubted whether he really treated me. No emotion at all.But if there is, it may be only this.

Regarding the impression of Gu Xingsong, this conversation left the deepest impression. Later, I seemed to lose touch with him and Yuan Mengyu. The last time I talked with them was the eve of their imprisonment.But that was a long time later, so long that I was an adult and had my own business, and so long that they were no longer young, and they destroyed themselves with their own hands.

Grandma arrived at this small villa two days later. Grandma brought her aunt whom she had employed for many years, plus the nanny of the small villa. Brad Retriever.

The day I saw her, I was sitting close to her. Grandma handed the cat and dog to me and said, "Look, Tingsheng, there are kittens and puppies."

I pushed the cats and dogs away and grabbed my grandma's arm. Grandma looked at me: "Huh? Don't you like small animals?"

"I miss you so much." I blinked, and liquid fell from my eye sockets.

I suddenly remembered that she had left me for many years.

My grandma was terrified that day. She asked the nanny to call my attending physician very anxiously. It turned out that she bought kittens and puppies on the advice of the doctor. It is said that pets can treat depression, but obviously not only did I not show interest I even cried out, and my grandma was so scared that I was ill again.

But actually I just miss her.

On August 26th, I put on my schoolbag and went to the second grade of elementary school. I started school a year early, and the class was basically full of children of the same age.

The school is a public school, which should be different from the bilingual private primary school I attended before, and I don't know what is different.But on the first day of school, I could still feel the whispers of a group of children in the class. This is actually very strange. I am the same age as them, but I just feel that this is a group of children.

I thought they were childish, and felt that it was impossible for me to be friends with them, and I didn't want to bother with them.

But after class, a group of children gathered around. They were like a group of noisy sparrows. They asked everything, but I didn’t say anything. As a result, some children shouted: "Gu Tingsheng, are you dumb?"

I still didn't make a sound. This morning, the whole second grade spread the word that the transfer student in Class [-] was dumb.This rumor spread to the head teacher, and the head teacher came to me with a puzzled face. Of course she knew that I was not dumb, but she also noticed that I didn't communicate with others.

She said to me very gently: "Why don't you talk? Is it because the environment is too strange and you are afraid? If you are afraid, tell the teacher."

I looked at her without moving my eyes and said, "Do you think I'm scared?"

The class teacher gave me a hard face, she didn't say anything more but arranged a new tablemate for me.The new deskmate was a girl, very popular, she talked to me very outgoing, I just found out that she was the class monitor, she also helped me clear up the rumors, telling the students in class [-] that I am not dumb, I just don’t like to talk.

Because I don't like to talk, this group of children finally stopped talking to me.I live a two-point and one-line life at school and home every day, and I feel much better when I get home.

Grandma said that I got closer to her after I came back. I don't know how to say it, I can often sit with grandma, even if I don't say anything, I can just look at her like that for a long time.I dare not tell her, but I often dream back at midnight, I dream that she left me and never came back.

Later, the cat and the dog grew up a lot, and the dog had to be walked every day. In the first two years, my grandmother walked the dog once every morning and afternoon. The cat has a very unique personality. If you want to hug it, it depends on its mood. Pet it and hug it, and it will beat the dog when it is in a bad mood.

But dogs didn't live long.

I also remember clearly what happened that day.

I am in the fourth grade of elementary school, and the class teacher has not changed. I still go to and from school silently and have no friends. Many people in the class laugh at me to my face: "Gu Tingsheng has no friends."

Many people also said that Gu Tingsheng is really strange, he always does not speak, he is a mute who can speak but does not speak.

Because I didn't talk, no one came to talk to me later, I felt good, I don't understand what to say, I don't understand why they have so many expressions, I don't understand why they laugh and cry, and I don't understand Why are you angry?

There was a boy who was very angry that day. I didn’t know why he was angry at my anger. It seemed that he rushed over because I ignored him. We fought until the teacher came and took us to the office separately.

In the final result of that education, the head teacher said to me: "You have been isolated by the whole class, Gu Tingsheng, your personality is very problematic."

My answer was: "So I was isolated."

The class teacher's expression was very speechless: "Don't you even know that you are isolated?"

I thought about it, shook my head, the class teacher said a lot more, I have forgotten what she said, the most impressive thing for me the next day was that the dog I raised died.

When I came home from school that day, my grandma asked me why I had an injury on my face. I told her that I fell down. Grandma was sitting on the sofa with a cat in her arms. The local news was playing on TV. The dog came over with a rope and let me go. walk it.

Because grandma is old, she walks very slowly, but the dog has grown up. The nannies are worried about grandma walking it, so the task of walking the dog in the afternoon is entrusted to me.

The dog has a very lively personality, and I am the one who ignores it the least in my family, but it still paws and pulls my knee tirelessly every day, as if it wants to be hugged.

But I have no feelings for it or cats.I think it's not my fault, Gu Xingsong suggested to stop the medicine, but consulted the doctor, the doctor's suggestion is to continue to take it for a period of time, and if I feel depressed after stopping the medicine, I should continue to take it.

My mood has never been high, and the medicine has not been stopped.I have been taking medicine, I feel that those medicines are affecting my brain, and sometimes I wonder why I am like this, I don't seem to have feelings.People have no emotions, so what is the difference between them and monsters?

But I still have feelings.That moment happened very suddenly that day, and there was a reason for it when I thought about it later. The dog was too lively. Compared with me when I was ten years old, the dog was very big. It was so lively that I couldn't hold it when I was excited.

So the car drove up, the dog rushed out with its tongue out, and the dog was hit by the car and killed.It didn't die right away, so I went over and knelt on the ground and touched its head.

The dog was panting, his eyes were open as if he was looking at me, and then I saw big tears coming out of his eyes.I thought of it pulling my knee with its front paws before going out, and now it was lying on the ground, with a lot of blood dripping from its body, I bent down to hug it.

I'm sorry, why don't I usually hold it.Now that it's dead, I feel sad.

Grandma was also very silent that night, and the dog's body was taken home by the nanny and cleaned.Grandma was sitting on the sofa, she suddenly said: "Tingsheng, don't be sad, you can't bear it."

I understand what grandma said, because I am mentally ill and I can't bear such negative things.

In the middle of the night, I woke up and went downstairs from the second floor, only to see a small light on the first floor, and my grandma was sitting on the sofa with the cat in her arms.She is talking to the cat.

Grandma said: "I'm old and I can't move anymore. I originally raised you and the dog to accompany Tingsheng. Now that the dog is gone, the old cat is left with you. You must live a long, long life."

I squatted at the corner of the stairs, and I squatted there for a long time without moving until my legs became numb, then I quietly went downstairs, rubbed my eyes and asked grandma: "Grandma, why are you still awake?"

The cat meowed lazily, and grandma got up and went upstairs.

The year after the dog died, I was 11 years old, the year my grandma passed away.I was off medication for a while that year.

I always feel that I know that grandma is going to leave, so I worked very hard to laugh and be with grandma that year. I think when I look happy, grandma will be happy too.But grandma's aging is still visible to the naked eye. She is only in her 60s, but she looks very old. On the night of her death, everyone felt that although she was sad, it was natural.

But I don't think so.The effect of drug withdrawal also appeared, and I felt disgust and anger for a long time, and occasionally I was happy. When the cat came over cautiously and wanted to take the food from my hand, I would also find it very interesting to look at it. will laugh.

But more of it is boredom and sadness. There is a kind of sadness that I don't know the reason that always permeates my emotions.

Grandma's departure was a trigger. On the day she left, I stood at the door of the ward and cried uncontrollably.At that time, I said to Gu Xingsong who rushed over, "I lost her again."

I don't even know why I said such a thing, but I just know that this is not the first time.

After grandma's funeral, Gu Xingsong took me away from the small villa where I used to live. I wanted to take the cat with me, but the cat disappeared. No one knew where it went.

Sitting in the car, I thought about that night, grandma told the cat that you want to live a long life and be with Tingsheng, but both dogs and cats came to me with grandma, and they also left with grandma. by my side.

In the car at that time, Yuan Mengyu was driving and Gu Xingsong was the co-pilot. They were going to an orphanage. I heard that Gu's company was doing public welfare activities, and many executives went to adopt/adopt/children.

Yuan Mengyu said, let's adopt a younger brother for you too, okay?

I was sitting in the back, and suddenly I said, "People around me are leaving."

Yuan Mengyu was driving the car, she said, "Tingsheng, don't think so."

Gu Xingsong said: "We are still by your side."

I looked out the window, I didn't want to say anything to them, but I looked at my face reflected in the car window, and I saw the expression on my face was angry and sad.

There are so many words in my heart, I don't want to tell others, but now I can't help it suddenly, the sadness and anger are at the extreme, and what I say is: "No, I don't want to, if you always have to leave, don't in the first place Come to me."

Yuan Mengyu's voice was very surprised: "Are you not willing to adopt a child? We just want to adopt a child to be with you. After all, you also know that father and mother are very busy. We are sorry that we cannot be by your side."

Gu Xingsong said, "If Tingsheng doesn't want to, that's fine."

I did not interfere with their wish to adopt/adopt/child/children, I thought to myself that this is none of my business, you two can do whatever you like, the only feeling I have for them and my parents now is to have no feelings at all, I even faintly dislike them.

Now they misunderstood what I said, and I didn't bother to explain. I just watched the rapidly receding scenery outside the car window. The address of the orphanage was in the suburbs, where the land was cheap, and because it was far away from the urban area, it was deserted.

When we arrived at the orphanage named Happy House, I got out of the car with Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu, and someone came very attentively. Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu went to the dean's office. I was not interested in what they were talking about, so I left quietly left that office.

I came out of the office building, and as soon as I turned a corner, a figure rushed over. It was a child. I stretched out my hand to block his shoulder. I thought he was so thin, and the children in the orphanage were so pitiful.

I also saw his face, he had a pale skin and big eyes.I heard myself asking him softly, "Does it hurt?"

Later I thought, why do I ask this sentence? He didn't fall down, so why should I ask him if it hurts.But at that moment, a voice in my heart told me that he was in pain, he was really in pain.

I had a very strange emotion, I was even thinking that this is not the first time I saw him, at this time the boy also looked at me, his hands covered his face, I reached out to touch his face, he gave I felt like a beast, a young beast with dark eyes.

My hand touched his hand, and I felt the warmth of his hand, only to realize that my hand was cold at some point.

I looked at his face, looked into his eyes, my heart trembled suddenly, and I said sadly to him.

"You look...like about to cry."

Don't cry, I said in my heart, I don't know if I'm talking to him or to myself.

This very thin child who was a head shorter than me held my hand. He was about to cry, but he said to me: "Brother, why are your hands so cold?"

I heard his voice, it was a child's round voice, with a little hoarseness and choking, I suddenly wanted to hug him, but such a behavior must be very strange, so I pretended to be very calm and said to him: " Did it hurt you? Your face looks so bad. Are my hands cold? Then let go of your hands. "

But the child said, "My hands are hot, brother. I'll warm your hands before you let go."

At this moment, I suddenly wanted to cry.

But I just told him very seriously: "Relax, my brother's hands are cold, and your hands are also cold."

"I don't mind." The boy shook his head, "Brother, are you also a child of the Happy Family? What's your name? I haven't seen you before."

He asked me two questions at once. I thought about it and told him, "My name is Gu Tingsheng."

I asked him, "What about you, what's your name?"

"My name is Yang Lu." The child said to me.

After he finished speaking, I saw the tears in his eyes kept falling, I thought it was strange, why are you crying, what is there to cry, but suddenly I felt really sad, I saw him crying, I felt my heart It was like being hit hard with a heavy hammer.

The child covered his eyes with his hands, and his tears slipped from the fingers of his hands. I saw that the skin on the surface of his hands was pale and dry, and I put my hands on his hands.

I was confused and sad and said to him: "Yang Lu? Yang Lu, stop crying, your hands are cold."

I fumbled in the pocket of my coat again, and took out a pack of napkins. I took out the tissue and wiped the tears on his face. This is very strange. Where did I come from, but I like his eyes.

His eyes were dark and lonely, I thought, not the way a child should look.His eyes are still very big, the eyeballs are very dark, looking at his eyes makes me think a lot, I think... I have a younger brother.

I shook my head, what was all this, I stuffed the paper to the boy and said to him: "Your nose is running, blow your nose."

The boy looked a little embarrassed when he heard what I said, and he took the paper and blew his nose.

At this point I want to leave, because I feel sad looking at him, I often feel sad, but every time it is sad accompanied by anger, but this time the sad is so pure, just sad.

It's because of his eyes.I think it's because of the eyes, the look in his eyes makes me unbearable.

So I was about to leave, but before I left, I said, "Yang Lu, have we met before?"

The boy shook his head, I thought so, I hadn't seen him before, but he nodded again.

What a strange child, I feel a little ridiculous: "Have you seen it or haven't seen it?"

But I didn't wait for an answer, a girl who looked my age ran up, she yelled something, the girl dragged him away, and before I left, I gave him my coat.

I thought he looked so thin and in poor health, and it was windy today, so I put my coat on him.

I said to him: "Your hands are cold, it's my fault, this coat is for you to wear."

I don't think he would have cried if it hadn't been for me.

But why is he crying?

I moved my feet, I was going to leave, to leave here, to be completely separated from this strange child, but in my mind, in front of my eyes, a crying face suddenly flashed, it was a moment, I didn't even remember the face clearly I just remember that it was a crying face.

Immediately afterwards I heard myself yelling loudly, and I yelled loudly to the boy: "Xiao Lu, don't cry, don't cry!"

He's gone, he said to me.

"Tingsheng, I'm not cold anymore. I'm really not cold anymore."

"Who is that kid?" Yuan Mengyu asked me, "Have you chatted with him?"

I turned around, Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong came over at some time, Yuan Mengyu reached out to hold my hand, I dodged, Gu Xingsong asked me: "Where is your coat?"

"That kid is very thin," I said. "He doesn't look well, and the clothes are thin, so I gave him the coat."

"I rarely see you treat people like this." Gu Xingsong said.

"Do you usually do such a thing?" Gu Xingsong laughed, "Tingsheng, you usually ignore everyone. Do you like that child?"

I lowered my head, and there was a bird croaking and flying away next to my ear, and I thought of the child's eyes again, and I suddenly remembered, I think Gu Xingsong's eyes look very familiar, and so does this child, including me looking in the mirror When I look into my own eyes.

Gu Xingsong's eyes, my eyes, that child's eyes, I have always been familiar with such a pair of eyes, dark, lonely, gloomy eyes.Do I like such eyes?But why like it?

I said to Gu Xingsong: "If you want to adopt a younger brother for me, adopt that child, and I don't want the others."

But in the end, Yang Lu was not adopted. Gu Xingsong told me that he had already been adopted. To make matters worse, I started taking medicine for a period of time, and my originally sober brain became chaotic again. I also forgot what happened that day. .

The reason for taking the medicine, the doctor said, was because I was sick again.

It was two months after we stopped taking the medicine. I often dreamed that I always saw a young child sitting on the ground.

He hangs his head, I can't see his face clearly, I only see that he is very thin, behind him is the floor-to-ceiling window, he is holding a big book and reading.

I have this dream almost every few days, not always the dream of the child sitting in front of the picture window, but every dream I see this young child.

Then one day, I woke up, and there was a curled figure lying beside me. I reached out and touched his head. I opened my mouth in pain, and a line of tears fell from my eyes.

My heart began to twitch in pain, I gasped for breath, I opened my mouth to call his name but couldn't, because I couldn't remember.

At this time the young child woke up, he raised his face, I saw a pair of gloomy and lonely eyes, the boy stretched out his hand to wipe my tears, he whispered: "Brother."

I woke up completely.I was alone in the room and on the bed. I reached out to touch my side, but there was no one around. It was really just a dream, but I was already gasping for breath and crying.

I jumped off the bed and ran out of the room quickly, tears kept falling. When I went downstairs, I stepped on the empty stairs and rolled down. There was a loud sound in the empty house, and the nanny was woken up.I was on my feet when she came, and I yelled at her, "Where did you hide him?"

Three years later, I remembered my brother who, according to my parents and doctor, didn't exist at all.

This time I was not sent to a mental hospital again, and this time I was not as cranky and aggressive as I was three years ago.

I also don't remember what I looked like three years ago, the irritable me they said three years ago, I feel very strange, the doctor said that I even attacked Yuan Mengyu, I have no memory of it.

This time I got sick, they were very relieved and said that I was calm, I thought to myself why I attacked Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong, and this time I got sick very rationally.

I said, "My brother is lost, and I can't find him."

Soon I'll go on: "But I don't have a brother."

I am now in a very confused situation, I remember I have a brother, he has a pair of dark and lonely eyes, I told the doctor, look at my eyes, my brother's eyes are very similar to mine.It was full of gloom, loneliness and resentment.

The doctor said: "You are just too lonely. You look at yourself and imagine a younger brother to accompany you according to your own appearance."

"Poor boy," he said.

I was also thinking that what he said might be true, I was sick, and I imagined a younger brother out of myself.

This time, I have a good attitude, except that I always wonder if I have a younger brother, and I am a little depressed, but I don’t know how to attack others.Gu Xingsong asked me to suspend my studies for half a year. He hired someone to take me on a trip, exercise regularly, and take medicine.

When I stopped taking the drug completely, I transferred another school, this time to Jincheng No. [-] Middle School, and now my learning ability is beyond imagination.The knowledge in the books, especially the knowledge of mathematics, physics, chemistry and English, I hardly need to read the books, I can do the papers directly and get full marks.

In addition, I also found a hobby. I started to use computers. I felt a sense of familiarity for the first time. I was curious about why computers work and how these systems came about. I bought a book to learn, and the speed of getting started is amazing. I will soon be able to write a simple program by myself to run it.

With such a hobby, I feel that my life is much fulfilled, but I still have dreams, in which the young child disappears, and I always see the back of an adult.

Sometimes I watch this person walking ahead for a long time in my dream, and I feel very lonely looking at his back, and sometimes I walk behind him together in my dream.I want to be with him, to see his face, to talk to him, but I never see his face, every time I see his back.

This happens every time.Every time I see him leaving me.

On the second day after I transferred to Jincheng No. 13 Middle School, I saw a boy who should be a student in the first grade of junior high school, but he was much shorter than his peers, and his face looked very childish. He didn’t look like a [-]-year-old boy. He looked about ten years old.

It was when school was over at noon, a group of students were like bees swarming out of the nest, and I could hear their voices in my ears.

I transferred to a new class in a new school. The reaction of the students in the same class was the same as that of the primary school transfer. Just after class, many people surrounded me. I ignored them, and they gradually dispersed.Similarly, there are unfriendly eyes hiding in the crowd looking at me.

I know that normal people should make friends. It is impossible for a person to live alone. Living alone is not hard work, but a person will always be lonely, and when a person is lonely, he will feel sad.

I am also a person, I am always alone, I also feel lonely and lonely, but whenever I walk in the real world, when I see people coming and going around me, I see them laughing, crying, gathering together Together, I have a sad and angry rejection.

I always feel that I shouldn't be like this, and I always feel that I need a very close person by my side, but I know from the bottom of my heart that everyone I meet is not him or her.

Since it wasn't that person, I didn't even want to say anything.Not that person, I would not pay attention to the world.But who is that person?It must be my younger brother, the child in my fantasy, the figure from the back who is always leaving, the figure that I can never catch up with.

So when I saw that short figure in the crowd, he was wearing a baggy and ill-fitting school uniform, and the child's body was dangling in the school uniform, I took a second look at that moment.

The childish feeling it gave me instantly reminded me of the child in my dream.I was standing upstairs, he was downstairs, there were too many students going downstairs, I didn't chase him, I just subconsciously looked at him a second time and a third time.

When he came down to the corner, he raised his head, and I saw his eyes. There was a lot of noise around, and he quickly disappeared in front of my eyes.

I stood there for a long time, someone pushed me, like a student in the same class, the boy called my name, I ignored him, I quickly chased after him.

I want to see his face and ask him if we've met.

He is so much alike, he is my brother.

A voice from the bottom of my heart told me this, and I shook my head again, he can't be my brother, I don't have a brother at all.But I still tried to find a way to find this kid. I found his class and followed him for a long time. His family was not rich, and his parents set up a stall selling wontons on the pedestrian street.

I also thought, these actions I did are very strange, but I just want to get close to him, I think I met that person, I also want to be with him