Happy Life [Rebirth]

He is so wonderful, I never doubt that.

I have died twice.The first time was when I was eight years old, my parents died in a car accident, the irony is that after so many years, I thought I would always remember my parents, but now I can't even remember their faces .The only thing I remember is that time, when I was an eight-year-old child, I wanted to leave this world in pain.

At that time, my spirit and will died, and my spiritual world completely collapsed. In this world, the sun rose as usual every day, but in my world, every day was a long and endless night.

It was a long dark night with no light and no temperature. I was immersed in this world, separated by a transparent barrier, seeing the bright sunshine in the normal world, the warmth of spring and the blooming flowers in the normal world, and seeing many people passing by in front of me. walk through and leave.

I was alone and cold-eyed in my long night without light, and no one came into my world until he came.

Later when he came, there was light and warmth in the long night.

I used to think that this world is hypocritical and kind, and that everyone in this world looks at another person as stupid and indifferent. People are born as an individual, and they are destined to live their lives alone.

When I first looked at Gu Tingsheng, I thought he was hypocritical and kind. He told me to live a positive life, to be friendly to others, and to agree that the world is beautiful.He said this and did the same thing, so I thought he was living a smooth life, and that's why I felt that the world was beautiful and amiable.

I thought in my heart, if you were me, and you had a life like mine, would you still be able to say that the world is beautiful?

At first I saw him like a clown, recklessly breaking into my dark and cold life, I waited for him to leave disappointed, seeing him like the hypocritical people I met, while sighing and saying you are so pitiful, While happily expressing emotion to another person, we are really happy to live.

It is impossible for anyone to truly empathize with another person. That kind of pity makes me sick. They compare my misfortune with their own happiness. This caused me to seriously hate the world when I was eight years old. Now Looking back, I suspect that without Gu Tingsheng, I would have become an antisocial person.

But if there is no if, he appears, this is a predetermined link of fate, I met him, he also met me, he did not choose to turn a blind eye, he walked in, he walked in and I waited for him to leave, but he came again Did not leave either.

In the beginning, when he came, it was just a faint beam of light in the long night, like a crumbling flame, he would not be extinguished, and I would not blow it away, because I firmly believed that he would leave.

Later, the light became brighter and brighter, the long night turned into day, there was warmth in the cold world, he did not leave, he brought me light and heat, I was still gloomy and introverted, I still hated most people, but I I have to admit that this world is beautiful.

Because he is so beautiful.

Gu Tingsheng is so beautiful.

My spirit was redeemed, the first death turned into resurrection, but fate likes to joke, the second time my body died, and I bid farewell to that world completely.

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Director Dog didn’t reply for a short time, and Gu Tingsheng didn’t say anything. He just sat beside me in the dark and waited quietly. I didn’t dare to look at him. I lowered my eyes and stared at the computer screen. In the dialog box, there is still no waiting for the director's next reply.

I can't help complaining about the director, it's very irrational, the script sent in the past has a lot of words, the director has to read it for at least half an hour, but now I am extremely embarrassed, I don't look at Gu Tingsheng, my five senses are infinitely overwhelmed enlarge.

His slight breathing penetrated into my ears, and I smelled the smell of his body. He was close to me and never touched me, but I began to miss his soft and clean skin. Also with a dry temperature.

My mouth started to dry up, and the itchy and irritable feeling in my heart was like a flame, not yet strong enough to devour everything, but it had already made me unable to control the desire in my nature.

I really didn’t expect to encounter this kind of thing during the developmental period of boys. In my previous life, I had nocturnal emission very late, I forgot whether it was 14 or 15 years old, and there was no frequent sex/impulse/movement after nocturnal emission. Those two years passed very easily, I hardly even masturbated, and when I felt it, I just waited indifferently for the impulse to go down.

I didn’t start to have dreams about Gu Tingsheng until I was sure I liked him. Those dreams made me ashamed and happy, but at that time I was an adult and passed the age when my body was controlled by hormones. Never have I had such frequent dreams before.

This is really terrible. At the age of 13, I want to sleep/sex with 16-year-old Gu Tingsheng every day, but the combination of my age in the previous life and the present life, I am basically an adult occupying the body of a teenager. I care/want My one and only treasure.

This is the most beautiful existence to me, but ironically, it is me who is defiled/defiled him.After I realized this, the hardness between my legs softened, and I saw my hands trembling. The director sent a document in the button dialog box, and at the same time he replied: Yes, these two Someone will contact you one day, prepare to come to the crew to report.

My hands trembled and pressed on the keyboard, and my body temperature changed from hot to cold in an instant.

I go back to the director: OK.

I thought to myself, how ugly I am.I have defiled my one and only and best treasure.

But Gu Tingsheng leaned over again, his breath sprayed on the side of my cheek, my small piece of skin burned almost instantly, I jumped to hide to the other side, the movement was so big that the computer was pushed out by the palm of my hand There was a "呵——" sound on the table, and my whole body was even more unstable. I supported the table with one hand, and half of my body almost fell to the ground.

Gu Tingsheng was taken aback, his eyes quickly shifted from the computer screen to me, he moved two steps quickly on the ground with his thighs on the ground, and then stretched out his hand to grab me, I shook my head, gritted my teeth and supported me Landed on the ground and sat up at the table.

After I sat up, I realized that Gu Tingsheng's hand was still in midair. His palm was facing me, but his palm was empty. He looked a little lonely and lonely, as if he was waiting for another person, but he never came. .

At this moment, I wanted to put my hand into his palm and grab his hand, but I didn't. I chose to turn a blind eye. I moved the computer back by myself, held the mouse and clicked to receive the file.When the file was received, I opened it, and the script in the word document was marked with a lot of comments, and there were revisions in red letters. I went to read it line by line. When I read about half of it, Gu Tingsheng said to me: "I'll go to the script first. Go to bed, don't stay up too late."

I didn't make a sound, didn't respond, and when he got up and got on the bed, I rubbed my eyes with one hand.I'm sorry, but brother, let me stay away from you, let me get through this puberty quickly, how can I think about you like that?

I blame myself too much, I can't stand Gu Tingsheng being treated badly by others, but now I'm thinking about that to you as a teenager.

I think I'm tarnishing him, and I can't have such thoughts about my unique beauty.

The author has something to say: Yang Lu: I can't tarnish my brother in thought!

Gu Tingsheng: ... Please take actions to get dirty!

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In fact, looking at the episodes of Big Brother, and Yang Lu's views on Big Brother, Yang Lu likes Gu Tingsheng, but he never knew Gu Tingsheng.

Yang Lu always thought that Gu Tingsheng was warm, upright and kind, but the real Gu Tingsheng was a timid person who weighed pros and cons. He always liked Yang Lu but didn't dare to tell Yang Lu that Yang Lu lied to himself after he died, but "liked him a little bit" ", Later, I couldn't accept the fact and became depressed. After I died, I admitted that it wasn't that I liked him a little, that he loved him.

It's such a tragedy to think about it like this_(:зゝ∠)_

The weekend is off, and another chapter will be updated tomorrow, everyone mua(*╯3╰)