Happy Life [Rebirth]

Chen Shuang was sitting next to me, she took out a tissue from her heart and handed it to me, and whispered to me, "Don't cry."

I put down my hands, but there was not a single tear in my eyes. It has been a long time since I was reborn, no matter how sad and heartbroken I am, I have the urge to cry every time, but my eye sockets are dry and there is no tear.I don't know why, I still have the urge to cry, but there is no tear anymore.

Chen Shuang also saw that there were no tears in my eyes, and she wanted to withdraw her hand in embarrassment. I took her tissue and thanked her: "I just fascinated my eyes, thank you."

Chen Shuang just smiled. I took the napkin and wiped my eyes. Chen Lanli smiled softly at Gu Tingsheng: "I know Yang Lu is good at studying. He is a skipping student. He is so good. Wouldn't it be better if he added a reputation?" good."

"Yang Lu." Chen Langli still looked at me, "I hope you can think about it, you have to be famous as soon as possible - this sentence is not wrong, people always like to see some examples that break the rules and come out of nowhere, such as An 11-year-old boy can write a 20-word work that does not match his age at all, with calm, sharp, desperate and outrageous works. Do you know how many well-known universities are launching it every year? Self-enrollment, as long as your reputation is big enough, you can enter the top universities in China."

Chen Lanli's words are full of temptations, and she is right. For ordinary people, this is an opportunity to change from ordinary people to not so "ordinary people". Most people in this world live in a hurry. Come and go in a hurry, life is spent in an ordinary way without any splash.

If there is an opportunity to become less ordinary, most people should choose to seize it.

But I just want to spend this life in an ordinary way. I imagine an ordinary and ordinary person more than anyone else. The things I have done and experienced in my previous life are enough to stimulate people’s hearts. After so many experiences, I understand the ordinary valuable.

"Don't think about it anymore." I said to editor Chen Langli, "I just don't like to expose my personal information to the public. It's my personal problem, which makes me very, very uncomfortable."

Chen Lanli paused for a while, and then persuaded: "This, this is nothing, you can always get used to it. Yang Lu, you might as well go home and discuss it with your parents. The deadline for the audition is September [-]. If you are willing before then, You can tell me everything."

At the last farewell, Chen Lanli kept talking about publishing. Chen Shuang listened with great interest. When I said goodbye to Gu Tingsheng, she told me again: "Remember to go home and have a chat with your parents, Yang Lu. Opportunities are right in front of you, you are still young, if you don’t know how to miss one opportunity, you may have missed a lot.”

This sentence, I go in one ear and out the other, because I have two things that are most important to me.

One is that I hope that Gu Tingsheng will live a happy life.The second is that I hope that I can also get happiness.

These two things can be said to be the same thing, as long as Gu Tingsheng is happy.As long as my elder brother can live his life happily and happily, then I feel that I am also very happy.

That's why I'm paranoid. Apart from that, besides life and death, what else is a big deal? In Chen Langli's view, a chance to become famous, in my opinion, is not that I don't understand what I'm going to miss, but that this matter is important to me. It's really weightless, and I really don't want my real information to be exposed to the public.

But I didn't expect Chen Lanli's words to be heard in my left ear and heard in the right ear, but Gu Tingsheng asked me hesitantly on the way: "Xiao Lu, what that editor said makes a lot of sense."

On a midsummer day, people were sweating profusely under the sun. Gu Tingsheng and I walked along the roadside under the shade of trees. When he asked this question, I hesitated and went to see Gu Tingsheng.

On Gu Tingsheng's snow-white skin, his thick black eyes were also looking at me, his jet-black eyelashes fluttered, and those boyish pupils were actually a little cautious.

Gu Tingsheng said: "What she said is very reasonable. If you miss it, you don't know what you will miss."

"I know." I went to hold Gu Tingsheng's hand. I didn't have this habit, but whenever Gu Tingsheng went to a crowded place, he would always hold my hand.He always said, you have to hold my hand, or you will get lost.

As soon as the five fingers touched Gu Tingsheng's hand, Gu Tingsheng held it in reverse. My hand was really just a child's hand to him. He held the small hand in his big hand, and the cautiousness on his face softened. A shallow, but happy smile.

"I know that I might miss something." I told Gu Tingsheng, "But maybe I won't miss anything. "Romance Museum" is just a newly established magazine. Whether it can become bigger is still unknown. Maybe I participated in the competition, not only did I not become famous , and released her personal information in vain. Brother, you don’t have to pay attention to what editor Chen said, she said that because she wants to fight for the best interests of the magazine.”

What I said is a bit slandering Editor Chen. She said it is a win-win situation, which is actually true. I also have a little memory, and I understand that "Romance Museum" has a strong distribution ability. To be promoted by this magazine, as long as The writing is not bad, and it may not be too difficult to be famous.

"But that's not my intention." I held Gu Tingsheng's hand and told him, "Brother, I don't want to be a best-selling author or a writing idol, I just want to... live this life in peace. "

Gu Tingsheng asked me in a nasal voice: "What is safe and sound?"

I thought for a while and answered him: "Mom and Dad succeeded in starting a business, and my sister was successfully admitted to college." I couldn't help laughing: "Brother can achieve his goals, programming is getting better and better."

Gu Tingsheng nodded, indicating that he heard it. After a while, we all walked to the library gate, and I heard Gu Tingsheng ask me in a nasal voice: "What about you?"

I didn't understand the meaning of this sentence, Gu Tingsheng continued: "Auntie and uncle, Xia Wanwan, and even me, don't you have yourself in your peaceful life?"

I listened, and realized that I really missed myself, but after thinking about it, I quickly replied to Gu Tingsheng: "If you live well, I will be fine. Brother, if you are safe and sound, I am fine all my life. "

Gu Tingsheng took my hand and entered the library. The library was very quiet. After I finished speaking, I felt that what I said was old-fashioned, not like what a child said, but I really thought so.

In fact, I have no goals, no ideals, and no dreams. Apart from liking Gu Tingsheng and tossing and turning thinking that this person also likes me, I am really a person without pursuit.

"What you say doesn't always match your age." Gu Tingsheng and I walked up the stairs to the study room, and he said as he walked, "Yang Lu, I think people around you must feel that they are a failure because people of your age People and people who are not the same age as you are set off by you to be less sensible than you."

"Do you think so too?" This is the first time I heard such a statement, "Brother, you also feel that you are set off by me..."

"No, and no one cares about me." Gu Tingsheng muttered.

I paused in my heart, thinking that I had said something wrong, Gu Tingsheng's parents didn't care about him at all, and they didn't care about him at all. Of course, no one would care if he was sensible or not.

At this time we had arrived at the door of the self-study room, Gu Tingsheng let go of his hand suddenly, he touched my head, I looked up at him, wondering if this is discrimination against me for being short, Gu Tingsheng lowered his head, and I noticed his eyes Seriously, he said to me: "If you don't know what you want to do in the future, and you haven't planned how to live your life, it's okay."

I didn't understand what this meant, but I was taken aback by Gu Tingsheng's serious eyes, so I had to nod to him with a serious face.

Gu Tingsheng seemed to be encouraged, and he continued to speak in a nasal and hoarse voice.

"Xiao Lu." Gu Tingsheng called me, "I will work hard in the future, and I should be able to earn a lot of money. If you still have nothing to do when you get to college, you can follow me first, and I will take care of you."

I opened my mouth, but my mind was still confused. I still have my parents, my sister, and I don’t need you to take care of me, but I listened to these words, and I saw Gu Tingsheng looking at me, and his face suddenly became cautious again.

He was very anxious, and his tone forced a calm explanation: "I understand. Sometimes we are very confused. For example, we don't know how to live this life after we reach college or even graduate. It's shameful to ask parents for money. At that time , Xiao Lu, I am willing to take care of you... I don't mean that you will be worthless in the future, I just want to tell you that you are just a child, if you don't want to rely on your parents or sister, then rely on me, okay?"

"I'm also willing to be relied on by you." Gu Tingsheng suddenly reached out and touched my eyes, "Anyway, apart from you, I don't have anyone I like."

"You know that." Gu Tingsheng withdrew his hand, his tone was as cold as ice, "I hate contact with people, you are already a miracle."

I also touched my eyes. Although my nose was sore, my eyes were still dry and there were no tears. It turned out that when Gu Tingsheng looked at me just now, did he think I was going to cry?

I went to see Gu Tingsheng and told him first: "I understand, I understand what you mean. Brother, I am very happy to hear it."

Gu Tingsheng looked at me, the cold expression in his eyes warmed up a little, and I continued, "I'm not that sensible, brother... Thank you for treating me like a child."

But I am no longer a child. When I was young, when I was still a teenager and a child yesterday, I was also ignorant, stupid and naive.But although today reappears, life will no longer step into the second same river.

"Brother." I told Gu Tingsheng again, went to hold his hand, held his fingers, and told him, "You will have a second friend, a third friend, and I will not be your only miracle."

I also wanted to ask whether I should continue to see a psychiatrist, but Gu Tingsheng suddenly grinned, and he said to me: "The first one is a miracle, the second, third—the latter ones are not miracles."

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Went into the study room with Gu Tingsheng, everyone sleeping on the table woke up, Wanwan saw me and Gu Tingsheng coming, she frowned and asked us in a low voice: "Where did you two go? Sleep with me and leave me with you to eat ice."

I found that Xia Wanwan was really smart. If editor Chen Lanli hadn't approached me, Gu Tingsheng would have planned it this way.

Zhang Yueyang was resting his head lazily, Gu Tingsheng sat down beside him, Chen Binfan stretched his head, and continued to talk to Gu Tingsheng: "Gu Tingsheng, where did you and Yang Lu go?"

Gu Tingsheng ignored Chen Binfan, and sat there with his head down looking at the book in front of him. Zhang Yueyang yawned, and he asked Gu Tingsheng: "Yang Lu is not a kindergarten kid, and you walked over holding his hand, afraid that the little one will Is Lulu going to lose~~"

Zhang Yueyang elongated his voice, and after he finished speaking, he lowered his arms, and he grinned with joy and couldn't stop laughing.

Chen Binfen still hasn't given up talking to Gu Tingsheng: "Gu Tingsheng, why do you keep ignoring me when I talk to you?"

Zhang Yueyang immediately followed Chen Binfan's words: "Gu Tingsheng, Chen Binfan is talking to you, why are you ignoring Xiao Funfan~~"

I sat across from Gu Tingsheng, looked at Zhang Yueyang, and found that he was really boring, and he had to answer a few sentences about who he was at the table.

When Zhang Yueyang asked, it was beyond my expectation. I thought Gu Tingsheng would continue to hear it but not see it, but he opened his mouth. He stared at the book in front of him and handed Linlin the famous books, a copy of "Les Miserables" and a copy of "Red Miserables". and black".

Gu Tingsheng stared at the book, opened his mouth and said, "Who is Chen Funfan?"

I blinked, and the table was silent. A few seconds later, Zhang Yueyang covered his mouth and laughed. Gu Tingsheng raised his head. His expression was blank. I looked at the people at the table. The little girl Chen Funfan had already pursed her lips With an angry look on his lips.

Xiang Linlin, who was with me and Wanwan, and Xiang Linlin, who had been doing homework quietly all this time, also spoke at this time, and she asked without raising her head, "Gu Tingsheng, do you know who Xiang Linlin is?"

Gu Tingsheng replied: "Who is it?"

I suddenly wanted to laugh too. Gu Tingsheng looked blankly like this. It was very interesting. Zhang Yueyang approached Gu Tingsheng, and he asked Gu Tingsheng very interestingly: "Do you know who Zhang Yueyang is?"

After Zhang Yueyang asked, I thought that Gu Tingsheng was a member of the sixth class and didn't remember his name, but I saw Gu Tingsheng's gaze fell from the book to Zhang Yueyang's face. He looked at Zhang Yueyang quietly, without speaking, but his eyes were expressing Kind of like "you're bored".

Zhang Yueyang was obviously taken aback, and I realized that Gu Tingsheng also remembered the name.

"I'm so... honored!" Zhang Yueyang sighed, he smiled again, and reached out to pat Gu Tingsheng's shoulder, "You remember my name, what an honor! Dude, just because you remember my name, the future between us That's buddy!"

"I was quite angry just now." Chen Binfen also spoke out, her eyes were full of joy, "Gu Tingsheng, do you remember Zhang Yueyang's name from Class [-]? Zhang Yueyang is your true love?"

I looked at Zhang Yueyang, looked at Gu Tingsheng, and thought that Zhang Yueyang was extroverted, and he was willing to talk to Gu Tingsheng. Even if he said a lot, Gu Tingsheng only replied one sentence. Look, Gu Tingsheng actually noticed that Zhang Yueyang was by his side.

Zhang Yueyang is very good, I think, an extroverted, typical sunny boy with a bit of a naughty personality, his sunny side even reminds me of the former Gu Tingsheng.The former eldest brother has a bright smile that is not lost to him.

It's just that Gu Tingsheng is willing to pay attention to Zhang Yueyang, he ignores his classmates and other students in Class [-], and Chen Funfan talks to him intentionally or unintentionally, but he still ignores them.

After Chen Binfen finished speaking, the rest of Class Six came over. Someone took the lead and asked Zhang Yueyang: "We are going to leave. Everyone wants to sing K. Come and ask if you will come?"

Zhang Yueyang looked around, Xiang Linlin and Chen Binfen started to pack their pencil bags, the two girls said go, Zhang Yueyang asked Xia Wanwan and me: "Yang Lu, Xia Wanwan, do you want to come together?"

Chen Binfen asked Gu Tingsheng: "Gu Tingsheng, let's sing K together, you haven't participated in class activities yet."

As soon as Chen Binfen said this, several girls from Class Six gathered together and invited Gu Tingsheng to join them.

I have no interest in singing K, and I don’t know the students in Class [-]. Just when I was about to refuse, Wan Wan suddenly looked at me: "Xiao Lu, it’s still early anyway, how about we go play for a while and then go home? I know if there is any incoming call now, and I will die of heat if there is no incoming call when I go back.”

Zhang Yueyang stood up and smiled at Xia Wanwan: "Come on, I'll treat you——my cousin owns a KTV, not far from here, you don't need to spend a penny, and the package is luxurious!"

I thought, Wanwan wanted to play, so of course there was no need to stop her, but I also felt that she was still a child and a girl, so if Wanwan wanted to go, I would naturally go along.I nodded, Gu Tingsheng didn't make a sound, but our group of students left the library, Gu Tingsheng and I walked together, and the students in Class [-] could tell that Gu Tingsheng was going to KTV together.

Wanwan and Xiang Linlin walked in front, she told Xiang Linlin that this was her first time going to KTV, a few girls gathered together, and some boys were all laughing, jokingly saying that it was a place to sing.

Zhang Yueyang fell behind, in the same row as me and Gu Tingsheng, but he has an attractive physique. He fell behind, and the people in Class [-] seemed to be divided into two groups. Most of the boys surrounded him, and there was also Chen Binfen. stand beside him.

Zhang Yueyang pointed out the names of these people, but Gu Tingsheng really didn't know any of them, and several boys in Class [-] were booing, suspecting that Gu Tingsheng was face-blind.

Chen Binfen pointed out the truth: "He didn't talk to us at all. Gu Tingsheng didn't plan to talk to us. Of course he wouldn't remember our names."

"Gu Tingsheng." A boy called his name, and several boys shook their heads, "You are not bad, but don't always ignore people. The last time Li Kai asked someone to scold you, because of the look in his eyes... I guess Li Kai thought you looked down on him."

Gu Tingsheng's answer: "Who is Li Kai?"

Those boys: "..."

They were unanimously speechless, Zhang Yueyang laughed again, the corner of his mouth twitched, I saw Zhang Yueyang's expression was very disdainful, and he said in a disdainful tone: "Li Kai has dropped out of school, it's not that others look down on him, he will bully the weak and fear the hard. "

"What happened last time—" Zhang Yueyang looked at Gu Tingsheng with a smirk, and then at me, "You two have to thank me!"

I simply said to Zhang Yueyang, "Thank you."

Zhang Yueyang said "Hey", he suddenly took a look at Gu Tingsheng, and said to me, "Come on brother, listen, little Lulu."

I opened my mouth, Zhang Yueyang is indeed older than me, I have no pressure to call out brother, Gu Tingsheng took out his wallet from his pocket at this time, he took out a card and put it in front of Zhang Yueyang: "Money thanks."

The students onlookers were silent again, and Chen Binfen opened his mouth: "Black card... Gu Tingsheng, you are quite rich, look at what you usually wear..."

Chen Binfen shut his mouth and stopped talking. Zhang Yueyang didn't answer the card, so he put his arm on Gu Tingsheng's shoulder. Zhang Yueyang sighed loudly: "Oh my God! This is the first time I have been thanked with money. , Isn't this what I should do to others!"

He said this jokingly, and the students in Class [-] started chatting with each other. I heard someone calling Zhang Yueyang, Mr. Zhang, both as a joke and as a flattery.

Can't help but look at Zhang Yueyang more, suspecting that this kid's family background is quite rich, I don't know if there is Gu Tingsheng, Gu's family has a lot of assets.

Following the group of students from Class [-], they obviously knew the way. When they arrived at a KTV with good decoration and environment, the staff inside also knew Zhang Yueyang, so they directly opened a large private room and led the group of junior high school students to the private room. .

At this time, Xia Wanwan was the last one, and asked me in a low voice: "Here, can minors come to KTV?"

I was asked by Wanwan. After thinking about it, I really didn’t remember it. It was indeed the first time for Wanwan to come to KTV. I told her: "It’s nothing like a place to sing, just treat it like going to an Internet cafe."

"...Internet cafes do not allow minors to enter."

"Rules are rules." I looked at this group of junior high school students. Everyone was wearing regular clothes. Some boys were over 1.7 meters tall, and some girls even wore makeup. Junior high school students.

"But no one cares." I continued.Just like the last time I went to an Internet cafe, there was a row of elementary school students sitting there, okay?

After entering the private room, Wanwan started clinging to me, but soon she was called away by Xia Wanwan and those girls, who were chattering and choosing songs at the karaoke stand, and the boy shouted loudly: "Double Jiegun, Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, Glorious Years, Ten Years, Good Intentions Breakup, remember them all!"

The light in the box is dim, only the projector and screen in front emit light, the first song has already played, it is a Japanese song, I have heard it, it is Tamaki Koji's friend.In Gu Tingsheng’s previous high school graduation reunion, he took me with him. The whole class sang this song together. Gu Tingsheng also recited the Roman accent of this song in advance.

There was almost no prelude to this song, and soon there were voices in the box. A girl sang with a microphone, and her voice was deliberately hoarse.

Someone shouted, "Why did you order this song?"

I heard a very sad tune playing in the box, Zhang Yueyang came over and smiled and pushed Gu Tingsheng forward: "Gu Tingsheng, your voice is so hoarse now, it is very suitable."

Gu Tingsheng glanced at the projected song and lyrics, and said hoarsely, "I sang this song before."

"That's just right!" Zhang Yueyang dragged Gu Tingsheng to the front, "Wang Jingya, stop singing!

The author has something to say: Substitution Substitution!Gu Tingsheng and I will sing this song! "

Immediately there was a crackling applause below, I stood behind the coffee table, I thought, would Gu Tingsheng have sung this song so early in this life, the voices of Zhang Yueyang and Gu Tingsheng had already mixed together, and I tried my best to distinguish the song inside. Big brother's voice.

His hoarse voice slowly flowed in the box.

It makes me sad to see you, my friend.Even if you don't want to remember, when you wake up from the dream, the person in the dream still can't forget...