Happy Life [Rebirth]

On the day the military training ended, after the so-called military parade on the playground in the morning, Gu Tingsheng came to the dormitory to pack things with me.The things in the dormitory were not taken away, the quilt and mat were rolled up and piled on the bed, and other odds and ends were put in the cabinet.

Cao Feng came over to help enthusiastically, but he couldn't help with such a little thing.

Gu Tingsheng rolled up the bunk on the upper bunk, and I collected things below. Cao Feng wanted to sit on Zheng Yize's bed, but Zheng Yize refused.

Cao Feng could only lean against the railing of the bed, Kong Youzhi and Zhao Yuan both ran to the self-study room to start preparing for the CET-[-] exam, Su Fan disappeared, I vaguely felt that he seemed to be looking for Xiang Linlin.

Cao Feng was talking to Gu Tingsheng, he asked Gu Tingsheng: "Brother Yang Lu, how much do you rent a room outside?"

Gu Tingsheng rolled up the quilt, covered the mat with a mat, and said, "Twenty-seven thousand a month."

Cao Feng's voice changed immediately, and his voice was trembling: "It's so expensive, my living expenses are only fifteen thousand a month."

Gu Tingsheng didn't say a word, Cao Feng followed up and asked Gu Tingsheng and me how much the monthly living expenses were, Gu Tingsheng vaguely said the number, Cao Feng sighed again, I went out to wash my hands, Zheng Yize followed.

I turned on the faucet, and the water was gushing. Zheng Yize stood beside me and said to me, "Gu Tingsheng is really rich."

I responded, and Zheng Yize asked me in a low voice with a complicated tone: "You are rich and handsome, have you slept with him? How is the bed?"

I paused while washing my hands, turned off the faucet, and glanced at Zheng Yize, wondering why he didn't turn on any pot and lifted which pot. Also, I looked at Zheng Yize and frowned: "Why are you asking this?"

The expression on Zheng Yize's face was very subtle, he looked at me with very complicated expressions, envy, jealousy, hatred, and unwillingness, Zheng Yize said: "I can also do 1."

I went out of the water room after being silent for a while, Zheng Yize followed me, he stretched out his hand to grab my hand, I stopped and looked at him, and said to him very seriously: "I'm not 0."

What I mean by this is the superficial meaning, because I have never had the consciousness of 0 and 1, but Zheng Yize obviously misunderstood my words.

After returning to the dormitory, he looked at Gu Tingsheng with an unconcealable weirdness in his eyes.

After Gu Tingsheng and I left, we were walking on the road. Gu Tingsheng asked me, "Why does that boy in your lower bunk look at me so strangely?"

I thought that Zheng Yize must have misunderstood, so I was happy, Gu Tingsheng asked me very strangely: "Yang Xiaolu, did you do something bad?"

"Zheng Yize is gay." I told Gu Tingsheng, "He said he fell in love with me at first sight."

I said it without any burden, and I was very calm, because I would not like him, but after I finished speaking, I saw Gu Tingsheng's face darken quickly, as if the clear sky was covered with dark clouds in an instant, and his face Gloomy as if dripping water.

"Brother?" I took Gu Tingsheng's hand, squeezed his palm, and looked at him in surprise, "Are you angry?"

I wondered why he was so narrow-minded, Gu Tingsheng stopped in his tracks, and he looked back, giving me the illusion that he was going to go back and beat Zheng Yize up.

"I don't like him, why are you angry?"

I thought it was funny, I thought Gu Tingsheng was eating vinegar, but Gu Tingsheng turned his head to look at me, his face softened a little, but his eyes were gloomy and terrifying, full of heavy possessive desire.

With this possessive desire, Gu Tingsheng said to me, "How could he covet my Xiaolu."

I looked at Gu Tingsheng and was stunned. In fact, regarding the two of us, I always felt that my desire to possess was much stronger than that of Gu Tingsheng.

But at this moment, Gu Tingsheng was carrying a heavy, almost hostile paranoia, and he said to me again: "How can he covet my treasures."

It was only then that I realized that the two of us treated our feelings exactly the same. I still remember that when those girls looked at Gu Tingsheng full of admiration, I thought the same way.He is my treasure, how can you covet him.

On the way back that day, it was mid-September, and Jincheng in the north was still so hot, it seemed that summer hadn’t passed yet, but it was already autumn.

On the way, I mentioned that Su Fan seemed to like Xiang Linlin. After I finished speaking, I asked Gu Tingsheng, "Do you want to tell Zhang Yueyang?"

Gu Tingsheng had already taken out his mobile phone. I wondered what he was doing with his mobile phone. Gu Tingsheng's mobile phone was stuck to his ear. I heard him say: "Zhang Yueyang, let me tell you something. Listen carefully."

Gu Tingsheng repeated what I just said to Zhang Yueyang.I was a little surprised, I didn't expect Gu Tingsheng to be so quick, and I thought this was the friendship of boys.

After Gu Tingsheng finished his retelling, he said to Zhang Yueyang: "You have to think about what you want to do, but if you really like that person, at least you don't let go easily."

After Gu Tingsheng finished speaking, he hung up the phone, and I held his hand. The two of us left the school and walked on the road. There were still many people looking back at us on the road, but I gradually got used to it.

When Gu Tingsheng stood beside me, I occasionally felt that I had a lot of courage, even the courage to fight against the whole world.But in fact, it's just a joke, because the world won't fight against you, and the world doesn't care who you are.

I asked Gu Tingsheng: "You told Zhang Yueyang not to give up easily, doesn't that mean you can still give up?"

Gu Tingsheng said: "If the girl really doesn't like him, it's just to cause trouble for the girl if he is too obsessed. Besides, he is different from us."

"What's the difference between us?" I didn't know why I wanted to laugh when I heard Gu Tingsheng's last sentence, "Because we are both men?"

"Because we are true love." Gu Tingsheng said to me, he quickly looked around, we walked downstairs to the apartment, there was no one around, Gu Tingsheng lowered his head and kissed me on the cheek.The previous gloomy expression on his face completely disappeared this time, and a gentle smile appeared on his face.

"We are different from others." Gu Tingsheng held my hand, and the fingers became intertwined. The two of us entered the elevator. I heard him say sadly: "How many people are like us, suffering so much? Over the years, how many people have truly lost a loved one like I did?"

Gu Tingsheng said to me: "Happiness in this world is almost the same, but everyone's suffering is always different. I have suffered for many years before I found you again."

Gu Tingsheng hugged my shoulders, and he smiled wryly in a low voice: "Why did I bring this up again, it's all in the past."

I didn't speak, because Gu Tingsheng's words were heavy, and what he said was always what I thought about, and I really thought so.When I entered the apartment, I was sitting on the sofa, Gu Tingsheng went to the kitchen to boil water, the fat cat walked over on catwalks, jumped on the sofa and barked at me twice.

I carried it into my arms and touched the fat cat's back. No one gave it a name, so I kept calling it the fat cat. After holding it for a while, Gu Tingsheng came out with two mugs and pushed me one.

Gu Tingsheng sat beside me, and after a while he said to me: "Brother shouldn't say such heavy words, it makes you feel bad."

"I..." I held the cup and found that the two cups bought by Gu Tingsheng had the same pattern but different colors. I suddenly laughed, "Did you buy couple cups?"

The expression on Gu Tingsheng's face was also relaxed. He put his arms around my shoulders and kissed my ears. I drank a few sips of water and felt the warmth and softness of his lips. Gu Tingsheng buried his head on my shoulders, and the fat cat let out a cry , jumped out of my arms and ran away.

I put the cup back on the coffee table, hugged him sideways, and touched his back with my hands. I really like the temperature of his body and the feeling of touching his skin. I like everything about him, whether it is his Joy and joy, or his sorrow and anger.

I finally ran my hand over the skin on the back of his neck and told him, "I used to think that way too."

"I used to always feel that I am alive but I can't always get what I want, what I want I can never get, what I want is always pushed away by my own hands, I always feel that fate has given me My suffering is greater than my happiness..."

"But in fact, I have always been happy." I hugged Gu Tingsheng, and I told him very sincerely, "If fate really gave us too much suffering, then why are we hugging here now? each other?"

I have traveled a lot, met many people, felt sorry for myself, despaired, angry, and lost my life before I realized how ridiculous the suffering I thought was.

I hugged Gu Tingsheng, kissed his ear, and then kissed his cheek along the ear, and I told him: "I am very grateful that we are all alive, as long as we are alive, everything is more important."

Gu Tingsheng raised his head, stretched out his hand and rubbed my head, his hair was messed up by him, and he said, "Brother, you can't compare to you in terms of ideological awareness."

"They are all people who have died once." Gu Tingsheng put me in his arms, he hugged me like a child, and said to me, "But I always can't think about it, I often still think, my little Lu is so Well, it's so important to me..."

He said softly, "But why are you the one who died?"

I put my arms around his waist and wanted to say how about we get together well now, but I heard Gu Tingsheng say in a softer voice: "They should pay the price."

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